Second Chance Pass (Virgin River Series #5)

Second Chance Pass (Virgin River Series #5)

by Robyn Carr

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In the space of a few months Vanessa buried her husband, Matt, and gave birth to their son—breaking her heart while filling it with a whole new kind of love. But the one man she longs to share this love with now acts as if she doesn't exist.

Paul Haggerty lives by the marine motto: Semper Fi. Ever faithful to his best friend, he's done right by Matt's widow as best he can…considering he's been secretly in love with her for years. Now, just as he's about to make his move, another woman has staked her claim on him—a claim that will be tough to escape.

With courage, humility and not a little meddling from the good folks of Virgin River, Vanni and Paul might just get a second chance to have the love they both desire and deserve.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780778329176
Publisher: MIRA Books
Publication date: 03/30/2010
Series: Virgin River Series , #5
Edition description: Original
Pages: 409
Product dimensions: 4.22(w) x 6.61(h) x 1.07(d)

About the Author

Robyn Carr is a RITA® Award-winning, #1 New York Times bestselling author of more than forty novels, including the critically acclaimed Virgin River series. Robyn and her husband live in Las Vegas, Nevada. You can visit Robyn Carr’s website at

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Vanessa Rutledge stood in front of her husband's grave, her coat pulled tightly around her against the crisp March breeze, red hair billowing in the wind. "I know this is going to seem like a strange request—but I just don't know who else to ask. Matt, you know I love you, that I'll always love you, that I see you in your son's eyes every day. But, darling, I'm going to love again, and I need your blessing. If I have that, I'd like you to give the man who is to be my future a little nudge. Let him know it's all right. Please? Let him know he's so much more than—"


Her father was standing out on the deck behind the house holding the baby away from himself, like he'd just pooped on his mess dress. It was past time to leave. Little Matt had been born six weeks ago and this morning they were both seeing Mel Sheridan for their first checkups since his birth. Her father, retired general Walt Booth, was acting as chauffeur so that he could watch the baby while Vanessa had her exam.

"Coming, Dad!" she called. She looked back at the grave. "We'll have a real conversation about this later," she told the headstone. She blew a long kiss in that direction and hurried down the little hill, past the stable and up to the house.

The last place Vanessa ever expected to find herself was in a tiny mountain town of six hundred. When her father chose this property a couple of years before his retirement from the Army, she and Matt had taken a look at it. Matt fell in love with it at once. "When I go," he had said, "plant me on that little hill, under that tree."

"Stop it!" she had laughed, slapping his arm, neither of them realizing how prophetic his words would be.

There was a time, years before she met Matt, that Vanni had envisioned herself as a high-powered news anchor; using her degree in communications. She decided to take a year before pursuing an eighty-hour-a-week career path and, on a whim, went to work as a flight attendant. One year turned into five because she loved the job, the travel, the people. She'd still been working for the airline when Matt left for Iraq. It was her loneliness and advancing pregnancy that had sent her packing to Virgin River. She had thought it would be temporary—she'd have the baby, wait for her husband's return from war and move on to his next assignment with him. Instead Matt was brought here, to that little hill with the tree on it.

She didn't cry as much anymore, though she missed him; missed the laughter, the long, late-night talks. Missed having someone hold her, whisper to her.

Walt had the diaper bag slung over his shoulder and was headed for the car. "Vanessa, you spend too much time talking to that grave. We should've put him somewhere else. Out of sight."

"Oh, dear," she said, lifting a curious eyebrow, the corner of her mouth twitching. "Matt hasn't been complaining that I'm bothering him, has he?"

"Not funny," he said.

"You worry too much," she told her dad, taking the baby from him to put him in the car seat. "I'm not brooding. There are some things no one but Matt should hear. And gee, he's so handy..."

"Vanessa! For God's sake!" He took a breath. "You need girlfriends."

She laughed at him. "I have plenty of girlfriends." She had lots of girlfriends from flying days and, even though they didn't live nearby, they were great about visiting and staying in touch, giving her every opportunity to talk about Matt, about grief, then about the baby and recovery. "You'll be happy to know Nikki's coming up for the weekend," she said. "A girlfriend."

Walt hefted himself into the driver's seat. "We've been seeing a lot of Nikki lately. Either she can't stay away from the new baby or things aren't going so well with her and that... that..." Walt couldn't seem to finish.

"She can't stay away from the baby and no, things aren't going well with Craig. I smell a split coming," Vanessa said.

"I never liked him," Walt said with a grunt.

"No one likes him. He's an ass," Vanni said. Her best friend, too sweet for her own good, wanted a husband and children, but instead was stuck with a live-in arrangement that had gone flat years ago, leaving her almost as alone as Vanni.

Vanni had other friends besides fellow flight attendants. She'd begun to grow close to some of the women in town—her midwife, Mel Sheridan; Paige, who worked alongside her husband in the only bar and grill in town; Brie, Mel's sister-in-law. Still, there were some things only Matt would understand.

When you live in a place like Virgin River where the doctor's office only makes appointments on Wednesdays, it's a pretty good bet there won't be any waiting around. Sure enough, Mel was standing in the reception area right inside the door waiting for them to arrive. Her face lit up in delight as they walked in and she immediately reached for the baby. "Ooooh, come heeeere," she sang. "Let me look at you!" She lifted him as if weighing him. Then she cuddled him close. "He's looking good, Vanni. Getting nice and fat on the breast." She looked at Walt. "How's Grandpa doing?"

"Grandpa could use more sleep," Walt grumbled.

Vanessa made a face. "There's no reason in the world he has to get up. He certainly can't help me nurse the baby."

"I wake up, that's all. And if I'm up and Vanni's up, I might as well see if she needs anything."

Mel smiled at him. "That's a good grandpa," she said. "He'll be sleeping through the night before you know it."

"When did David sleep through the night?" Vanni asked of Mel's one-year-old.

"The first time or the last time?" Mel asked. "You might not want to ask that—we have sleeping issues at our house. And now Jack lets him in the bed with us. Take my advice, don't start that!"

Vanessa peered at Mel's growing tummy. David had just turned a year and their second baby was due in May. "I hope you have a really big bed," she said.

"There will be plenty of room when I kick Jack out of it. Come on—let's look at Mattie first and take care of his shots." Mel carried the baby back to the exam room with Vanessa following behind.

Mel had delivered little Matt right in Vanessa's bedroom and their bond had grown deep and strong. It didn't take long to determine the baby was at a good weight and in excellent health. "I'll take him out to Walt while you get into a gown, how's that?"

"Thanks," Vanni said.

A few minutes later Mel was back. "Your dad took the baby over to Jack's for a cup of coffee. And some male bonding, I suppose."

Vanni had taken her place on the exam table, and Mel checked her heart, blood pressure, and got her in position for a pelvic. "Everything looks great. You had a wonderful delivery, Vanni—you're in excellent shape. And boy, did you lose weight quickly. Isn't breast-feeding a miracle?"

"I'm not back in my old jeans yet."

"I bet you're close. Go ahead, sit up," Mel said, offering a hand. "Anything we should talk about?"

"Lots of things. Can I ask you something personal?"

"You can always ask," Mel said while writing in the chart.

"I know that before you married Jack, you were widowed..."

Mel stopped writing. She closed the chart and looked at Vanni with a sympathetic smile. "I've been expecting this conversation," she said.

"How long was it?" Vanni asked, and Mel knew exactly what she was referring to.

"I met Jack nine months after my husband's death. I married him six months later. And if you confer with the town historian and gossips, you'll learn that I was at least three months pregnant at the time. Closer to four."

"We have a town historian?"

"About six hundred of them," Mel said with a laugh. "If you have anything you'd like to keep secret, you should consider moving to another town."

"Matt's only been dead a few months, but he's been gone almost a year... Mel, he wasn't on a business trip. He was in combat, out of touch. I talked to him a total of three times, saw his face once on live video cam. The letters were short and sparse. It's been a really long time since—"

Mel touched Vanni's knee. "There's no rule of thumb on this, Vanessa. Everything I've read, and I've read a lot about widowhood, says that when people enter new relationships relatively soon after losing a spouse, it indicates they had happiness in their marriage. Being married was a good experience for them." She smiled.

"I didn't even know for sure I was pregnant when Matt left for Iraq last May. I'm not thinking about another marriage, of course," Vanni said. "But I am thinking about— Well, what I'm thinking is that I don't want to be alone forever."

"Of course you shouldn't be alone forever. You have a lot of life to live."

Vanni smiled. "Should I be thinking about birth control?"

"We can talk about that. You wouldn't want to be as unprepared as your midwife. Especially with having a baby to take care of. Believe me." She took a breath and ran a hand over her big belly. "I wouldn't let myself think ahead! I remember when my sister said, 'I know widows who have remarried, and are happy.' I almost took her head off. I was appalled. I wasn't at all hopeful life could go on."

"It sure went on for you," Vanni said.

"Boy howdy. I came here absolutely determined to live out my days lonely and miserable, but that damn Jack— he ambushed me. I think I fell in love with him the minute I met him, but I fought it. As though I might somehow be unfaithful to my husband's memory by moving on, which was absurd. I had the kind of husband who would have wanted me to have love in my life, and I bet you did, too."

"You don't send a man off to war without talking a few things through—my parents taught me that. One of the first ways Tom and I figured out the general was headed for a possible deployment was when the paperwork came out. Wills, trusts, etcetera. Not just in case something happened to him, but what if he was away in some jungle or desert war zone and something happened to Mom?" She smiled a bit wistfully. "Matt didn't dwell on the worst-case scenario, but he was quick and to the point. He said I wasn't the type to wallow and he'd be disappointed in me if I did. He had a few requests—where he wanted to be buried, what to do with his favorite personal items, to make sure his parents got regular visits especially if we had children. And—if a good man showed his face, I was not to hesitate." She took a breath. "My requests of him were almost identical." She straightened. "If I'm lucky enough to run into another man half as wonderful as Matt, I should be ready."

"Absolutely. It's not at all impossible, even in little old Virgin River. Let's get you something reliable while you're considering all this. You want a pill you can take while breast-feeding? Can I hook you up with a diaphragm or IUD? Have you given the options any thought?"

Vanni smiled gratefully. Of course she'd thought about it. "Yes. IUD please."

"Let's go over the models," Mel said. Then she smiled. "By the way, you're all cleared for intercourse. Should you find..."

Vanni laughed. "Thanks," she said.

"You have good judgment. Make sure there's a condom involved. We don't want the transmission of any—"

"I have good judgment," Vanni repeated. "And extremely good taste."

There was a man on Vanessa's mind, he was the reason she'd found herself imploring Matt for help and blessings. Matt's best friend; her best friend. Paul.

He spent months in Virgin River, supporting and comforting her, spending Christmas away from his parents, brothers and their families. They spent a lot of time talking about Matt; crying about Matt, lost in hours of sentimental remembering. Without Paul's strength, she'd never have gotten through the worst of it. He was her rock.

Her relationship with Paul went back much further, of course. It wasn't as though they became friends because of Matt's death. In fact, that night long ago when she met Matt, it had been Paul across the room who'd first caught her eye. He was so tall, his legs so long and hands so big, it was hard for him not to stand out in a crowd. There was that willful, sandy hair that had to be kept short because it would defy any kind of styling. Not that Paul was the kind of man to fuss with his hair—it was obvious even from a distance that he stuck to basics. It was his masculinity she noticed; he looked like a lumberjack who'd cleaned up to go into town. He had an engaging smile; one tooth in front was just a little crooked and he had a dimple on the left cheek. Heavy brown brows, deep chocolate eyes—details she discovered a bit later, of course. She hadn't even noticed Matt...

But it was Matt who put the rush on her, swept her off her feet, made her laugh, made her blush. While Paul hung back, shy and silent, Matt charmed her to her very bones. And shortly after the charm, he made her desire him madly, love him deeply. He was hardly a consolation prize—he was one of the best men in the world. And a devoted husband, so in love with her.

She loved Paul before Matt's death, grew to love him more deeply afterward. When little Mattie was born, she said to Paul, "I will never love anyone but Matt." But as the weeks passed she realized that she didn't have to stop loving Matt any more than Paul should. Matt would be with them both forever. And it was like the natural order of things that Paul should step in now. But there was no indication from him that he felt anything more than a special friendship. She had no doubt that Paul loved her, loved little Matt, but it didn't appear to be the kind of love that could warm her on cold nights.

She'd called him several times since he'd returned to Grants Pass; polite and entertaining conversations about the baby, the town and his friends here, about her dad and brother, even sometimes about Matt.

"The baby's gained a pound and a half already," she told him. "He's already changed so much."

"Who does he look like?" Paul asked. "Is his hair still dark or does he have a patch of fire on his head, like his mom?"

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Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I stumble upon Virgin River Series just before heading into major surgery--THANK YOU ROBYN CARR- just what the doctor ordered-for making my recovery time fly by with this series. Second Chance Pass just continues the great story of Virgin River and the people that live in this small town. Best to start with book 1 and read in order to keep the story line flowing. Can not put any of these books down once I start, read Second Chance Pass in one afternoon! Looking forward to the rest of the series! I'm in book heaven!!!!!
KrissyTales More than 1 year ago
It just brings love, honor, hope for all those out there who want something so badly they can almost feel it and now might possibly get a chance at happiness and so much more. I LOVE the whole Virgin River Series. I have read them all. You can read them alone or start from the beginning. You can gain since of purpose and feel for the characters. The areas in which this written sounds so perfect. It's nice to find a story / book in which there are people with character, responsibility, nobility, work ethic, love, caring, and so much more. Thank You Robyn Carr for writing these. I have thoroughly enjoyed myself.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This is a reprint. It came out about 3 years ago. It is not a new book to series.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This story about Vanessa, Paul and was wonderful and so well written. I laughed , I cried and enjoyed it so much . You felt you knew them and were totally rooting for them to finally get out how they felt about each other to be together . It was also fun reading about some of the previous members of the town and some new additions to the story as well. Great book !
Lo36 More than 1 year ago
I enjoy the depth of her characters and that you see her characters in more than one of her books. It's like meeting old friends and catching up with their families and lives
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I'm very disappointed that the description said welcome back to the series.  Not realizing I purchased the same book over 3 years ago as book #5.  Dont be fooled.  This is not a new boom to the series.
mom2lnb on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
There is a lot happening in Second Chance Pass, both good and bad, for the residents of Virgin River, both old and new. The population of this little town is beginning to grow not only because more people are finding this little slice of paradise, but also because more babies are either on the way or being born. I'm constantly astounded by how real Virgin River and its residents seem to me. Every time I read one of these book, I wish that it were indeed a real place, so that I could go and visit. It is such a warm and wonderful town that is like a modern frontier community where everyone pitches in to help everyone else when there is a need, and they all come together to celebrate weddings, graduations, births and other joyous occasions. In this installment, the ¿main¿ hero and heroine are Paul and Vanni whose relationship was introduced in Whispering Rock. As this story opens, Paul is still pretty messed up over the death of Matt, Vanni's husband and his best friend. He is obviously still madly in love with Vanni, but feeling guilty about being attracted to his best friend's wife. In the midst of his grief and turmoil and in a moment of weakness and vulnerability, he succumbs to a one-night stand with Terri, a woman he had previously dated a couple of times. Next thing he knows, Terri is claiming to be pregnant by him which only makes his desire to make a move on Vanni all the more complicated and seemingly impossible. Paul was an incredibly sweet guy who was shy and lacking confidence with women which is why his best friend ended up with Vanni in the first place even though Paul had seen her first and instantly fell in love with her. Early on in the story, I had to agree with Jack that if Paul was ever going to get the woman he loved, he was going to have to show more assertiveness. Luckily, Paul did finally tap his inner alpha to lay claim to Vanni. Once he had her in his arms, I thought it was quite sweet that he wasn't very experienced and somewhat uncertain of his sexual prowess, but he poured everything he had into making love to Vanni and ended up being an amazing lover. Paul was also wonderful to Terri even when he found out the truth about her situation and even felt sorry for her. He was just an all-around nice guy.I was very impressed to find out that Vanni was already thinking of Paul in a romantic way when the story began. It seems that since her husband was away at war for nearly a year before he was killed that she didn't need as much time to grieve as some widows might, because it already felt like he'd been gone a long time. She had also been attracted to Paul from the moment she first saw him, but had been swept off her feet by Matt. After Matt's death, Paul had been such a source of strength and support for her that she couldn't help falling in love with him and was just waiting for him to make a move and show that he thought of her as a woman and not just his best friend's wife. Because Paul holds back for a long time, Vanni begins to get discouraged. In a moment of vulnerability, she accepts a couple of dates with another man, but luckily, nothing beyond a chaste kiss happened between them. Vanni has a bit of a temper and at first, I was worried that she was going to be one of those hotheaded heroines who doesn't listen. She seemed to keep jumping to conclusions and not letting Paul explain himself, but when Paul got his alpha on, she finally sat up and took notice. After that, she simmered down, and although she still had a pretty feisty personality, I was convinced that she wasn't going to run roughshod over Paul all the time. She was also a really good woman to stand by Paul though all of his complications and issues, willing to accept him and love him no matter what.I have to admit that throughout the first quarter or so of the book, I was feeling rather jealous for both Paul and Vanni. Paul had the baby issue with Terri and her hanging on him, hoping he would change his mind about marry
mrs.wood on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
I think liked this one the least so far of the series. I loved Paul. I felt so bad for him trying to do the right thing and helping Terri but wanting Vanni. Didn't like Terri when she was introduced and really disliked her after you find that she is lying and Paul offers to help her anyway.
sammy444 on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
I really did not care for this book. While, I loved the series this book was a lost for me. The author focuses too much on other people than Vanni and Paul. Vanni was very unlikeable to me. I wanted to shut her up so she could hear the problems and issues that Paul was having. Then the baby issue was overwhelming and a little bit disconcerning for me. I do loved that they all were building little families in the communities but hearing about them non stop was overboard.
ZosiaCanberra on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Reads like a long high school health class ¿ be warnedNow, there is a tiny bit of good here ¿ a lot of things I had problems with in the past books are improved upon, but at the same time some of the problems are worse.First of all, about two-thirds of the way through there¿s a scene involving Jack and Mel that is without a doubt the most disturbing thing I have ever read. My God¿I almost stopped reading when I got there, but I had to continue to try and rid myself of the horror.The tone of this book is set at the beginning, and it¿s not good. Yet again I felt myself despairing at author Robyn Carr¿s wasted talent ¿ because she could be one magnificent writer if she let go of some of her prejudices.By the end of chapter one there have been three discussions about safe sex, two pelvic exams, and plenty of unsubtle hints that only women who breastfeed are worthy. Add to that yet more of Ms Carr¿s constant implications that any unmarried, childless woman over twenty-five has something to be ashamed of, and you can see why I was worried about what was to come.Mel is back and as self-righteous as ever (though, considering her profession, I don¿t see how she can be that way after getting pregnant by accident twice in the space of a couple of years).The whole thing left me wondering what happened to the plot. Was there going to be one? Or was Robyn Carr¿s fascination with women¿s health yet again going to hijack what otherwise could have been a good novel? Ms Carr has real talent, and yet she lets all of her personal prejudices ruin her books.It¿s a pity.After that, the talk about breastfeeding was never-ending. There really was nothing in the way of plot, but Vanessa managed to `nurse¿ half a dozen times every chapter. And then when Paul ¿ after going on and on about how much he loves pregnant women ¿ announced to Jack that he¿d love to be present when Jack¿s wife gave birth, and THEN the whole town packed up and went have a party and be present for the birth¿ God, the obsession with babies slipped right into creepy.Ms Carr tends to be very repetitious in her writing. This is a series, and it makes sense to give some of the same information from one book to the next. But this author repeats information in the same book! We are reminded of events that happened in the same book, and sometimes a character (such as Nikki here) will get a paragraph-long description of their appearance more than once, as if we can¿t remember. Where was the editor?The main couple in this book ¿ Paul and Vanessa ¿ were introduced in book three, and their story seemed like it was going to be fascinating and full of emotion. Vanessa was married to Matt, and Paul was Matt¿s best friend. Matt was killed in Iraq before he got to meet his son. Now Paul and Vanessa have to sort out their feelings for each other.The romance is more prominent in much of this book than it has been in others. The other characters do pop up, do take part in the story, but they do not dominate the book. In the past the leading characters have been swamped by all the others, whereas here the heart of the book is more defined.Well, for the first two thirds. After that, Paul and Vanessa completely disappear from the story. There is nothing about them in the last few chapters. I couldn¿t believe it. Robyn Carr often goes off on tangents towards the end of her books, but in the past she¿s always returned to the main couple at the end. Here, she didn¿t. It was beyond bizarre. You read a blurb telling you the story¿s about a particular couple, and then they just disappear from the book?!Somehow the story got bogged down in talking about wanting babies, designing extensions¿all the mundane things we read books to get away from.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I came upon the series and realized I had already read them. I had liked them so much that I couldn't wait to read them again. They are that good. If you have already read them go back and read them again. You'll be glad you did.
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Pure_Jonel More than 1 year ago
I love the natural way all aspects of family and marriage come to life in Virgin River. Carr brings the beauty of birth to life just as vividly as she does the sting of betrayal and the beauty of the area. Carr has created quite the cast of characters for this novel. The conniving, backstabbing nature of some is tempered by the utter loyalty in others. At the same time, everyone seemed so real. Carr never goes off the deep end with extreme characters, they’re all so real. The entire community comes to life as Carr delves into the lives of so many individuals. I thoroughly enjoy how the main characters stand out, yet how everyone’s story is told. The intertwining storylines made the tale even more intriguing for me. This is one of those rare novels that will stand the test of time. Carr brings life and love to the forefront in such a manner that you cannot ignore it, but one that’s also completely natural.
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Excellent read
Laurie_Ryan More than 1 year ago
I get down home feel good fuzzies, no matter which book in the series I pick up. If I had to pick a favorite, it would be Preacher's story, but honestly, this town, and the folks who live in it and find love in it, have wrapped themselves around my heart. When I need a pick-me-up, I grab one of these stories because I know I'll get lost in it and have a heart full of happy when I'm done reading. :)
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Another great book in the Virgin River series
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I love the series, however, where is Book #8?
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
book #5 of Virgin River series, heart warming. I have read all the Virgin River series!
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Random facts 'bout me. :D
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
If you like Robyn Carr, you will like this one as well.
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