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| ISBN-13: | 9781910411537 |
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| Publisher: | Little Island Books |
| Publication date: | 10/26/2017 |
| Pages: | 192 |
| Product dimensions: | 4.90(w) x 7.30(h) x 0.60(d) |
| Age Range: | 12 - 14 Years |
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CHAPTER 1
The carriage was nearly empty. By the time the train was shuddering along the coast towards Cuanbeg, rain lashing the windows, there was only me and the girl in the navy coat left. She looked like a girl in a school story, with her neat brown plait. I'd grown out of school stories but I couldn't help wishing I had one now, instead of only a Belfast Telegraph someone had left behind. The print was so tiny that my eyes and brain hurt. I laid it down with an exaggerated sigh, and, as I'd hoped, she looked up from her own paper.
'War and flu,' I said. 'As usual. Though they say the war's going to end soon.'
She gave a tight smile and half-turned to look out the window, even though there was nothing to see but streaming rain and a moody pewter sea.
I tried again. 'And a man's died aged 108. If I lived to that age, I'd die in ... um – 2011. Doesn't that sound crazy?'
'Yes.' But she didn't say it in an inviting way and picked up her own paper again. The Irish Citizen.
I gave a squeak of recognition. 'We have that!' I said. 'At least – we used to.' Mam's friend Rose sometimes had it sent over from Belfast. But after their big fight she'd disappeared, and I hadn't seen it since. Now it looked like an old friend.
'Are you a suffragist, then?'
'Of course!' I pulled back my woollen scarf and showed her the little green, purple and white WSPU badge on the lapel of my coat. The girl gave a smile that brightened her face. She turned up her coat collar. She had exactly the same badge! Only hers was pinned back-to-front so it couldn't be seen.
'I came straight from school,' she said. 'I've got into trouble so often that I have to wear it in secret.' She unpinned and refastened it to the front of her collar.
'I'd hate that,' I said. 'I never hide my beliefs.' Then, in case she'd think I was criticising, I added: 'Of course I've left school, which makes it easier.' I tossed my bobbed hair and hoped she would think how grown-up I looked.
'Mama hates it too.' She sighed. 'Doesn't yours?'
'Some of my earliest memories are of Mam taking me to suffragette rallies. When other girls were embroidering samplers, I was stitching VOTES FOR WOMEN onto banners.' My voice caught and I looked down at my lap.
'Lucky you! I wish my mother was like that.'
I swallowed hard. If she asked any more I would have to say Mam was dead. And then I might cry, and I never cried. Not even this morning, sitting on my suitcase on the quayside, still queasy from the rough crossing from Liverpool, getting colder and colder and crosser and crosser, and maybe a tiny bit scared at being all on my own in this strange country. The crowds had thinned, and people were staring and in the end I had stood up, tilted my chin so nobody could feel sorry for me, and strolled off in the direction of the train station as if this had been my intention all along and I'd merely been sitting on my suitcase for half an hour to admire the beauty of the Belfast Quay on a damp October morning.
Surely Nancy would be at Cuanbeg station! I had sent a wire: You didn't meet boat so taking train. Arrives 1.05 p.m. Stella Graham. I had added Graham despite its costing extra, even though she would know perfectly well who I was, because I didn't want to be too friendly to someone who'd left her own niece sitting for hours on the quayside in the rain. It wasn't very aunt-like behaviour and she should know I wasn't impressed. Not that I thought of her as Aunt Nancy: I'd never met her, and I wasn't used to family. Except Mam.
I longed to keep talking to the girl but I couldn't trust myself to speak, so I pretended to read the Belfast Telegraph again, and she took the hint and went back to the Irish Citizen. She must have thought me peculiar, but at least I hadn't blubbed.
The train listed round a corner and juddered to a stop with a screech of brakes. Cuanbeg! The girl leapt to the door as if she couldn't wait to get off. 'Bye!' she said, and was swallowed by the smoke and steam. Probably she was being whisked away by loving parents, perhaps even in a motorcar, and was on her way to toasted teacakes by the fireside. (It was more like lunchtime, but travelling all night had made me lose all sense of time.) She wasn't going to an unknown cruel aunt who only wanted her to skivvy in her rotten seaside boarding house. Probably I wouldn't meet her again, even in a small town. If her mam didn't like suffragists, she wouldn't approve of me.
My suitcase seemed to have got heavier on the journey, and I had to buckle the strap tighter round it because it had been threatening to burst all the way from Manchester. I didn't trust it not to let me down at this final stage. By the time I'd dragged it from the luggage rack and off the train the steam and smoke had cleared and the platform was empty of aunts or any other human life. The wind whipped up my coat and I jammed my woollen beret down firmer. Even though there was nobody in sight I tried to look as if I wasn't worried, but inside fear bubbled. What if Aunt Nancy never turns up? And I'm stranded in this place for ever, all alone? What can have happened to prevent her meeting me?
The most likely explanation was –
The bubble of fear swelled into a balloon. No! Not again. And yet, why not? It was happening all over the country – schools closed, unburied bodies piled high, people dropping dead in the streets ...
I decided the balloonish feeling was hunger. Things wouldn't be solved by a bun and a cup of tea but they would be improved. The station buffet was tiny, and I had to ask three times before the woman understood my accent, but there was a tiny fire, and soon I was sitting at a scuffed wooden table with my suitcase at my feet and a thick white china mug warming my hands.
If Aunt Nancy had died, it would be terrible. And extremely inconvenient when she was my only living relative. But I'd never met her, so it couldn't be a personal sorrow. And perhaps she would have left me something in her will, and I could use it to make my way in life. I wasn't sure what my way in life would be, but it had to be better than slaving away in a seaside boarding house. Cliffside House was probably just a draughtier version of 17 Eupatoria Street, where Mam and I had lived in Manchester.
I felt forsaken, but noble and determined, a cross between Anne of Green Gables and Joan of Arc.
I didn't rush my bun. I still hoped that at any minute the door might fly open and a kind, smiling aunt rush in, full of apologies and welcome, and I wouldn't have to make my way all alone just yet. But the door stayed shut, and the waitress wiped the counter and sniffed, and my tea was finished and I hadn't enough money for another.
So there was nothing to do but lift up my suitcase and my chin and ask the waitress, 'Do you know Cliffside House?'
'Aye,' she said, wiping and sniffing.
Hope flickered. She didn't say, Are you here for the funeral? Wasn't it a tragedy? Then again, Aunt Nancy might have died that very morning.
'Could you tell me how to get there?'
She frowned at my suitcase. 'It's a fair way.'
'I've come all the way from Manchester on my own.' I couldn't keep the pride out of my voice, but she didn't look as impressed as she should have done, though she looked at me carefully as if trying to place me.
'Follow the coast to the end of the harbour, and then take Cliff Road – on your right. Keep going uphill. You'll see a ruined cottage at a crossroads. Take the wee loaning on the left. That'll take you straight to the house.'
I'd no idea what a wee loaning was, but if I got that far I could always ask somebody else.
'Thanks.'
And armed with my suitcase, a salty-sharp sea breeze pulling at my beret, I set off.
CHAPTER 2Cuanbeg was just a sweep round the bay, with a stone harbour at one end, and a few streets of terraced houses leading off. The cliffs glowered over the town like huge grey mills. The shops and cafés on the front mostly had their shutters down – for lunch, or half-day closing, or because it was winter, I didn't know.
The water slapped against the sea wall, scraps of weed floating in its scum like bits of leek in soup. Mam must have walked along this coast road when she was my age, and looked across the water, fantasising about escape. 'Me and Rose,' she'd say. 'Two wild dreamers!' Used to terraced streets safely walled in by mills and factories and shops, I felt exposed and small.
At first the cliff road rose gently, with big pastel-coloured villas whose green lawns swept down to the sea. One, painted pink like an iced birthday cake, had a long veranda, with wheelchairs lined up, and in every wheelchair was a young man with a blanket over his lap and, as far as I could see – though I tried not to stare – not much evidence of anything under the blanket. The house was called 'Sunny View', but the view wasn't sunny today. The blast coming off the sea made my ears scream even with my hat pulled down. Poor wounded soldiers: maimed in a hideous war and then parked in front of a sullen grey sea. I hawked my suitcase more determinedly; I bet there wasn't one man on that veranda who wouldn't have switched places with me.
The houses ended, and the road got rougher underfoot, and so steep I kept having to stop, set my case down and rub my aching shoulder. Every time I picked up my case again the handle creaked. Up here the wind wasn't so fierce, and tangled, straggling hedges blocked out the sea. I'd imagined somewhere more like Blackpool. I'm trying to make a go of Cliffside as a boarding house, Nancy had written, as it's far too big for me on my own and I don't want to sell it. It's a little way out of town so it attracts people wanting a quieter stay. A little way!
Just when I thought my lungs would burst and my arms drop off, I saw, peeping from behind an overgrown fuchsia, a tumbled pile of grey stone, still recognisable as a cottage. Jags of broken glass clung to rotten window-frames, and blackened rags of thatch fringed the rafters. This was where I had to look out for a wee loaning. I was starting to feel that the whole world was playing a joke on me, and that I was being magicked into some weird Irish fairyland, but sure enough, past the crossroads a few steps on from the cottage, was a definite path. And attached to a gnarled tree was a painted wooden sign: Cliffside House. Whatever awaited me there, at least my journey was nearly over.
But not quite. Turning into the lane, I saw the house ahead. I had barely time to notice that it was grey and square, before I heard a terrible sobbing. Then, hurtling towards me, plait bouncing round her shoulders, face mottled with tears, came the girl from the train.
CHAPTER 3The path was so narrow she'd crash into me. I leapt into the bushes, and my suitcase handle gave up the ghost. It snapped, and the case bashed to the ground, spilling clothes over the stony lane, and stopping the girl in her tracks. I dropped to my knees and started gathering everything up, and she caught her breath with a gulp and knelt down to help.
'Are you all right?' I asked as she handed me my good grey frock and my favourite old red jumper.
She blinked the tears away. 'Fine.'
The balloon of fear started swelling again, because whatever was making her cry was obviously something to do with Cliffside House. She took a long, ragged breath that reminded me of Mam struggling to breathe that last day. No, no, push that away.
'I'm sorry,' she said. 'I shouldn't get so upset. I don't normally.'
'Has someone died?'
'No,' she said. She pulled back her cuff to check her wristwatch. 'I should go. If I miss the three o'clock there isn't another train until six.'
'You don't live in Cuanbeg?' I tried to keep the disappointment from my voice.
She shook her head. 'My cousin does.' She jerked her head back towards Cliffside House.
For a moment I thought she meant Aunt Nancy, and that might mean we were somehow related. Hope sparked. But then she said, 'He won't even see me.' Fresh tears welled in her eyes, making them huge and dark in her pale face. She glanced at her watch again and said, 'Look, I must go. Sorry again.'
'Are you coming back some time?' I asked. 'I'm going to live here. At Cliffside House, I mean.'
'Aren't you a bit young to be living in rooms? Or are you going to work here?'
I tilted my chin. Had she noticed how shabby my coat was? 'Actually, no to both,' I said. 'I've travelled on my own from Manchester. I'm all alone in the world.' I hoped this sounded romantic. 'Miss Graham's my aunt. I'm Stella Graham.'
'I see.' She bit her lip. 'No, I don't think I'll come back. Maybe it's time to give up.'
'Never give up until you're dead,' I said. That's what Mam always told me.
She smiled, a wintry smile. 'I don't usually.'
'Me neither.' This time we both smiled, and I wished she wasn't rushing off. I missed talking to people my own age. I hadn't even been able to say goodbye to Sadie and Lil, my friends at the commercial college. 'Look – before you go,' I said. 'Is Nancy – Miss Graham – all right? She didn't meet me.'
'Oh, she's out. Friday's her day helping at Sunny View. That's where she first met my cousin,' she explained.
'Ah.' Out doing Good Works! All very well, but it would have been a better work to have gone to Belfast to meet her poor orphaned niece. Still, at least she wasn't dead.
'I must go,' the girl said. 'And – no' – she squared her shoulders as if making a decision – 'I won't come back. Unless he asks me to. There's not giving up and then – well, there's making an idiot out of yourself. Flogging a dead horse.'
Even though I had just met her, I felt a wrench.
'What's your name?' I asked.
'Helen Reid,' she said. 'My cousin's Sandy Reid.' She scrabbled in her pocket and took out a packet of cigarettes. 'Could you give him these? I didn't get a chance.'
I took the cigarettes. I didn't like the sound of Sandy, but I liked having a task for Helen. Then she really did dash off to get her train and I clutched my battle-scarred suitcase for the last lap of my journey to the square grey house that didn't, the nearer I got, look any more welcoming.
CHAPTER 4Where the path met Cliffside House's gate, I could see the sea again, and feel its salty bite on my cheeks. Beyond a small lawn, the land sloped sharply downhill. I looked up at the house. Grey and solid, it wasn't smart like Sunny View, but neither was it sooty and flaking like the thin terraced houses of Eupatoria Street. Two bay windows on the ground floor, three plain ones on the floor above, and two little attic ones stared hard at the sea. I thought I saw someone standing at one of the attic windows, but it might have been a shadow.
I set my case down on the doorstep, and leaned forward to press the doorbell on the white-painted front door. It rang through the rooms, then died into silence. Nobody came. Great. So there wasn't even a maid. Not that I was used to maids. But in a house this size! No wonder Aunt Nancy had been longing to meet me. Longing to make use of me, more likely. I wanted to stamp my foot and swear and catch the next train out of this windy grey place and back to my old life.
So why didn't I? I wasn't a child. I was fifteen. I'd left school and had been learning shorthand and typing so I could get a job in an office instead of having to go into a factory. So why had I crossed the sea and spent hours in a draughty train and trudged up a steep blooming loaning to this gloomy house and an aunt I'd never met and who couldn't want me as much as she'd claimed? Why not stay in Manchester?
It was a deathbed promise. Much less romantic than it sounds. Mam didn't drop dead in the street like some people with this terrible flu. She was ill for a couple of days, sweating and coughing and screaming with pain. The night before she died, fingers plucking the counterpane, a purple shadow spreading from her lips across her cheeks, I think she knew. She said, struggling between coughs for every word: 'Don't stay here alone, Stella, love. Go home to Ireland. To your aunt.'
Ireland wasn't home; it was only the place that had spat my mother out when she was a terrified girl in trouble. And Aunt Nancy was no more than a name on a birthday card and the occasional letter. The only Irish person I really knew was Rose Sullivan, but we hadn't heard from Rose since they'd had their big fight back in 1914. I thought she'd gone back to Belfast.
But even I wasn't going to argue in the circumstances, so I'd said, 'You're going to get better.'
Mam shook her head. 'Promise,' she whispered. And then she had been racked by the worst coughing yet, until her body arched like a vomiting cat's, and blood spurted from her mouth and nose all over the rose-patterned counterpane. And that was the last time she spoke.
(Continues…)
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