The Coordinates of Loss

The Coordinates of Loss

by Amanda Prowse

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From bestselling author Amanda Prowse comes a tale of a blissful life, a happy marriage, a beloved son…and a tragedy that destroys it all.

When Rachel Croft wakes up on her family’s boat in Bermuda, it’s to sunshine and yet another perfect day…until she goes to wake her seven-year-old son, Oscar. Because the worst thing imaginable has happened. He isn’t there.

In the dark and desperate days that follow, Rachel struggles to navigate her grief. And while her husband, James, wants them to face the tragedy together, Rachel feels that the life they once shared is over. Convinced that their happy marriage is now a sham, and unable to remain in the place where she lost her son, she goes home to Bristol alone.

Only when she starts receiving letters from Cee-Cee, her housekeeper in Bermuda, does light begin to return to Rachel’s soul. She and James both want to learn to live again—but is it too late for them to find a way through together?

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781978637580
Publisher: Brilliance Audio
Publication date: 09/25/2018
Edition description: Unabridged
Product dimensions: 6.50(w) x 5.50(h) x 1.12(d)

About the Author

Amanda Prowse likens her own life story to those she writes about in her books. After self-publishing her debut novel, Poppy Day, in 2011, she has gone on to author nineteen novels and six novellas. Her books have been translated into a dozen languages and she regularly tops bestseller charts all over the world. Remaining true to her ethos, Amanda writes stories of ordinary women and their families who find their strength, courage and love tested in ways they never imagined. The most prolific female contemporary fiction writer in the UK, with a legion of loyal readers, she goes from strength to strength. Being crowned ‘queen of domestic drama’ by the Daily Mail was one of her finest moments. Amanda is a regular contributor on TV and radio, but her first love is, and will always be, writing.

You can find her online at, on Twitter @MrsAmandaProwse and on Facebook at

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The Coordinates of Loss 4.2 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 14 reviews.
Meemo_B More than 1 year ago
I've become a big fan of Amanda Prowse's books over the past couple of years, so was very happy to receive an ARC of The Coordinates of Loss. The common theme I've found in the books I've read by Prowse is ordinary people who are confronted by life's disappointments and heartbreaks, and how they struggle to overcome those events. This one did not disappoint. Perhaps the biggest fear parents face is that something will happen to their child, and probably nothing is more horrifying than the disappearance of a child, left torn between desolation and desperate hope. When Rachel and James wake on their boat and are faced with the disappearance of their beloved son from that boat overnight, they find themselves grieving in very different ways. It's heartwrenching, and at times frustrating, to watch them try to deal with their loss, together yet separately, to lose each other and struggle to rebuild their lives. A big part of their healing process becomes their housekeeper CeCe, both from her taking care of James, and her letters to Rachel in which she discusses her own life losses. On a side note: When I saw that the audio version was read by the author, I decided to try a bit of it that way and ended up listening to the rest of the book. Amanda Prowse did a lovely job on the narration, and I wouldn't hesitate to listen to her narrate more of her own books. Thanks to Netgalley and Lake Union Publishing for providing a copy for an unbiased review.
JHSEsq More than 1 year ago
Amanda Prowse gives readers no time to settle into The Coordinates of Loss. Rather, the story opens with Rachel Croft waking up on her family’s boat in Bermuda to what she believes will be another sunny, perfect day with her husband, James, and seven-year-old son, Oscar. Rachel and James lounge in bed a bit, confident that all is well. But when they finally rise and Rachel goes to awaken Oscar, she cannot find him. He has simply vanished during the night. And Prowse plunges readers, along with Rachel, into shock and disbelief. They summon help and a search commences but it is clear from the outset, because of the natural conditions, that Oscar will not be found alive. Surrounded by search and rescue personnel, struggling to answer their questions, and process what has happened, Rachel heard "her husband screaming...His lack of control and fear only fueled her own. It was in that moment of realization that Rachel Croft looked toward the horizon, weakened, weary and with the certain knowledge that her life had changed.." Rachel's descent into mourning and depression is swift. Rachel is unable to navigate her grief. James wants them to lean on each other, draw strength from their love for each other and Oscar, remember, and recover together. But Rachel, knowing that the idyllic and privileged life they shared in Bermuda, turns inward and pushes James away. She blames herself and James because had they arisen earlier on that morning, Oscar might never have vanished. Completely unable to continue living, Rachel leaves James and Bermuda behind. She returns home to Bristol by her self, takes a job, rents a modest apartment, and tries to continue living without her beloved son and husband. In their beautiful Bermuda home, their housekeeper, Cee-Cee, remains, caring for James and the property. An native of Bermuda, Cee-Cee knows all too well about loss. She adored Oscar and feels his loss almost as palpably as Rachel and James. Her heart aches for James, left alone to manage his own grief and find a way forward without his wife at his side. Cee-Cee begins writing letters to Rachel, relating her own history and the ways in which she copes with the losses she endured. Little by little, letter by letter, Rachel begins to understand that loss can be survived, even though loved ones are never forgotten. She comes to appreciate that Oscar will be with her forever and forgive herself for her shortcomings as a wife and mother. Will Cee-Cee's willingness to share her own experiences and wise counsel help Rachel & James find their way back to each other? Will either or both of them find a way to reconcile the past, find peace, & feel happiness again? Amanda Prowse confronts those questions in a straight-forward, unflinching manner that propels the story forward & compels readers to keep reading in order to find the answers. The characters of Rachel, James, & Cee-Cee are utterly endearing. relatable, & empathetic because they are well-intentioned, but flawed human beings thrust into circumstances that could befall anyone. The death of a child is the single most devastating event any person can face & Prowse believably & fully depicts & explores the diametrically opposed ways in which Rachel & James react to the loss. There is no villain in this story. There is only a deeply emotional, fully engaging, & richly moving tale of the very different ways that two loving parents spouses learn to continue living. Thanks to NetGalley for an ARC of the book.
SL22268 More than 1 year ago
Good but sad book Thank you to Amazon Publishing UK and NetGalley for an e-ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review. Rachel, James, and their son Oscar go out on their boat in Bermuda. When Rachel and James wake up one morning, Oscar is gone, and their family falls apart. Rachel travels back to her home in Bristol because her marriage is in disrepair and she is lost. She starts receiving letters from their housekeeper, CeeCee, who has had a loss of her own. It is through these letters that Rachel begins to heal and can see the light at the end of the tunnel. This was a good book - sad - but has a happy ending.
GratefulGrandma More than 1 year ago
When your husband dies, you become a widow. What do you become when you lose a child? Are you still a mom? Heartbreaking questions asked by a woman who has lost her son, in a terrible way. When Oscar disappears off a boat, Rachel and James don't know what happened to him. Their guilt is immense and that only causes their grief to be worse and never to loosen. When this book opens with the scream of "Oscar, Oscar" you know something terrible has happened. Rachel does not know what happened to her son, but she knows that her life has changed. When Oscar's body is not recovered, Rachel refuses to have a funeral or memorial service, thus never giving anyone closure. When your grief is so overwhelming, it is almost impossible to realize that others are also dealing with the loss of this little boy. I felt for these parents, I ached to give them comfort. I wanted to reach into the book and give them a hug or something to help them deal with this loss, even knowing that I had no idea what they were going through. This is the beautiful craftsmanship of Amanda Prowse. When she puts pen to paper you just know that you must read this book. She makes the characters real to the reader and that is a great talent. If you have lost a child, this story might hit a raw spot, so you may want to forgo this one. Once again, I was emotionally spent when I finished this book. I know that Amanda Prowse's books are not going to end happily ever after, but they make you think and she brings attention to issues that are real and could touch the lives of anyone. The publisher, Lake Union Publishing, generously provided me with a copy of this book to read. The rating, ideas and opinions shared are my own.
4MartyAnne More than 1 year ago
Some stories make you ache deeply inside with loss, and this is one of them. A story with timeless themes, written with an deft hand for emotion and sense of place, this story will stay with you long after it is over. Rachel Croft and husband James awake one morning on their boat to discover their son is simply vanished from his onboard bed while at sea. The reality of what has happened takes little time for the authorities to pronounce, but the acceptance of it is another thing entirely. Rachel cannot accept, cannot move on, cannot cope. James picks up the pieces to continue working, as financially it is imperative. Rachel seethes. How can he? . Can Rachel and James save their marriage? Only their housekeeper Cee-Cee can speak to Rachel's state of mind, as she too once lost a son. Can Cee-Cee help Rachel heal? Can a mother ever move beyond such a loss? Does time truly heal a broken heart? #TheCoordinatesOfLoss
Nanna51 More than 1 year ago
This book’s title gives you a not so subtle hint about what the novel is about. James and Rachel Croft are living the dream life that most will never expect to have, with a big house, a servant and a yacht on the island of Bermuda. Both of them adore their precocious son Oscar, so both are devasted when Oscar disappears from the yacht during what was supposed to be an ideal getaway. Rachel, to me, handles her grief histrionically and will not be comforted. James seems stoic, continuing to go to work and to try to reason with Rachel that Oscar is indeed gone from their lives even though there is no body and no funeral. The housekeeper and nanny Cee-Cee was not only my favorite character, but she was also the one who offered the most practical advise to Rachel, having been through the loss of a child herself. This is not a book to read if you yourself are in the throes of despair caused by a recent loss. However, it does deal with grief in a manner which will make you think and consider the blessings you have in your life and how things can change quickly. I recommend this book to any reader who enjoys fiction that seems heartbreakingly realistic, although the circumstances of the family was a quite a bit above average for the regular person. Disclaimer Disclosure of Material Connection: I received a complimentary copy of this book from the publisher via Netgalley. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255 “Guides Concerning the Use of Testimonials and Endorsements in Advertising.”
Krista Podstawa More than 1 year ago
Amanda Prowse paints a heartbreaking picture that makes the reader feel – really feel, what it must have been like for all of the characters at one point in their life. This book hurts to read, but the story is beautifully told. Grief is necessary to heal, but it can be destructive. The Coordinates of Loss tells the story of Rachel and her ideal life, which changes dramatically very early on. The story is also told from CeCe’s perspective. The reader gets a hard look at how individuals cope in their own way. It can certainly take a village to help someone navigate what they’re feeling, but in the end, it’s not family that helps Rachel through this process, but CeCe. A must read for anyone that loves heartbreaking stories with a small light at the end of the tunnel.
IrishEyes430 More than 1 year ago
My first reaction to the book is wow! Rachel and James, along with their son Oscar seem to be living a perfect life. They have a large home in Bermuda, they are wealthy and very happy. They have a dedicated housekeeper name CeeCee who loves and takes care of their son as if he was her own. As they often do, they take off on their yacht for several relaxing days on the ocean. Then the unthinkable happens. When Rachel goes to wake her son up for the day, he is not in his cabin nor anywhere else on the yacht. These characters are deeply developed and relatable. How they all react to this situation is completely different, as most people would be in this situation. I found this book fascinating and couldn’t put it down.
LettyB More than 1 year ago
(4.5) This is a story about the worst thing imaginable: losing a child. Amanda Prowse has written such a heartfelt and emotional book about dealing with that tragedy. I was so immersed in this book that I could feel the anguish and grief that Rachel and James were feeling after the loss of their seven-year-old son, Oscar. A grief that they could not share together and would have them drift apart, each to deal with it separately. Would they be able to come together again and move forward without their beloved Oscar? I was really hoping that they would. I loved the characters, especially Rachel and James' housekeeper, Cee-Cee, whose wise words and storytelling in her letters to Rachel helped her with the darkness that had enveloped her. This book was so moving and beautifully written. It really tugged at my heartstrings. I highly recommend it, and tissues are required. I received a review copy of this book from the publisher via NetGalley. All opinions are my own.
LlamaJen More than 1 year ago
This book was incredibly sad. It's beautifully written, but so heartbreaking. This book deals with losing a child and trying to piece your life back together and finding a way to live with the grief. While living in Bermuda, Rachel and James discover their seven year old son, Oscar, is missing from their boat. From that moment on their life is forever changed. They have no idea what exactly happened, except that he is gone. Rachel and James grieve differently. Rachel has a hard time coping with Oscar's death and believes he may be alive somewhere. Perhaps with the help of kelpies, mermaids or giant sea turtles. Rachel blames James and decides to go home to England to work through her grief. With the help of their housekeeper, Cee-Cee, James and Rachel start to heal. Cee-Cee understands the pain they are going through since she experienced something similar in her younger years. I enjoyed the story, writing style and most of the characters. I loved Cee-Cee and reading about her younger years. I wouldn't have minded reading more about her. Rachel was a different story. The book pretty much focused on her and how she dealt with Oscars death. I understand you never know how you will react in such a horrible situation, but I just didn't care for Rachel. She pretty much abandons her husband to grieve by herself for her son, not their son. Rachel's brother and sister-in-law were awful and I would hate to imagine people would act that way to someone who recently lost a child. I had a feeling what would happen in the end, I even guessed how they would honor Cee-Cee. I did enjoy the book and recommend it. I can't wait to read more books by the author. Thanks to NetGalley, Amazon Publishing UK and the author, Amanda Prowse, for a free electronic ARC of this novel
Caroldaz More than 1 year ago
Stunning and gut-wrenching. A story of grief but ultimately of forgivemess and love.
jdowell More than 1 year ago
This book will tear out your heart and leave you with sadness and grief that are overwhelming. With beautiful strokes Amanda Prowse takes you into the beautiful, happy family of Rachel and James and their 7-year-old son Oscar. They have a wonderful life on the island of Bermuda. Then they take the boat out for a three day trip. Having a great times on their first night out Rachel and James put Oscar to bed, have a few drinks and upon awakening find that Oscar is gone. The grief that encompasses the couple is devastating and the entire book is the loss of their son and learning to live with the loss. Their housekeeper, Cee-Cee, who has lost a son of her own is a source of strength for them. Though difficult to read this is a beautifully written, insightful, and very likely a true rendering of the all-encompassing grief a couple might feel upon the loss of a child. I admire the way Amanda Prowse was able to describe the process. Thanks to Amanda Prowse and Amazon Publishing UK through Netgalley for an advance copy.
PegGlover More than 1 year ago
The Coordinates of Loss is a profoundly moving book that takes place on two fronts, England and Bermuda. Rachel was ecstatic to be taking up residence in Bermuda with her husband, James, and their son. The couple would have several years of happiness there, and develop, a deep friendship, with their housekeeper, Cee Cee, before a disastrous tragedy would rip their family apart. Be prepared to suffer from an emotional overload. Each page is dripping with raw emotion. The grief Rachel and James suffer is palpable. Cee Cee becomes much more than just a housekeeper to them. She unselfishly gives of herself and plays a part in their healing. Rachel feels Cee Cee’s comfort the most, as she reveals to Rachel, her own soul-tearing loss, which occurred years prior. The author does an incredible job tapping into the mind and hearts of her characters, especially Cee Cee and Rachel’s. The writing in this book is outstanding. I’ll warn you though; the sadness is heartwrenching and overwhelming at times. Keep tissues handy. Thank you, Lake Union Publishing and NetGalley, for my advanced review copy!
lauriesophee More than 1 year ago
"If I could have a wish, it would be to see your face every single day of my life over that breakfast table or it would be to turn the clock back to when you were small." Rachel is devastated and unable to breathe as the emotions of that tragic day continue to consume her every thought. Her husband James is trying to provide support to Rachel while also sinking into his own despair. The person who provides love and hope is their elderly housekeeper and friend Cee-Cee. She understands the pain that is in their hearts. She understands only too well. A beautifully written book that had me laughing, crying and praying for these characters to find peace. I loved the journey of Cee-Cee as her life is also intricately woven into the plot and told here.