The Fragile World

The Fragile World

by Paula Treick DeBoard

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Overview

From the author of stunning debut The Mourning Hours comes a powerful new novel that explores every parent's worst nightmare…

The Kaufmans have always considered themselves a normal, happy family. Curtis is a physics teacher at a local high school. His wife, Kathleen, restores furniture for upscale boutiques. Daniel is away at college on a prestigious music scholarship, and twelve-year-old Olivia is a happy-go-lucky kid whose biggest concern is passing her next math test.

And then comes the middle-of-the-night phone call that changes everything. Daniel has been killed in what the police are calling a "freak" road accident, and the remaining Kaufmans are left to flounder in their grief.

The anguish of Daniel's death is isolating, and it's not long before this once-perfect family finds itself falling apart. As time passes and the wound refuses to heal, Curtis becomes obsessed with the idea of revenge, a growing mania that leads him to pack up his life and his anxious teenage daughter and set out on a collision course to right a wrong.

An emotionally charged novel, The Fragile World is a journey through America's heartland and a family's brightest and darkest moments, exploring the devastating pain of losing a child and the beauty of finding the way back to hope.

"Heart-stopping. A gripping read that delivers a beautiful reminder of the resilience of love." —Karen Brown, author of The Longings of Wayward Girls

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780778316763
Publisher: MIRA Books
Publication date: 10/28/2014
Edition description: Original
Pages: 432
Sales rank: 1,225,022
Product dimensions: 8.20(w) x 5.30(h) x 1.20(d)

About the Author

Paula Treick DeBoard is the author of The Mourning Hours, The Fragile World and The Drowning Girls. She divides her time between reading, writing, teaching composition at the University of California, Merced, and enjoying the antics of her husband Will and their four-legged brood. She is a resident of northern California.

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Olivia
October 29, 2008

When the phone rings after midnight, it's never good news. The sound was startling, echoing off our wood floors and banging around in the hallway, but in the strange way that sounds penetrate sleep, it seemed as if the ringing came from deep underwater. Or maybe I was the one underwater, swimming to the top of my dream, and suddenly bursting through. I jerked upward, head foggy, propping myself up on my elbows.

Dad had picked up the phone, and from down the hall I could hear him repeating, "What? What…? What?" as if he were talking to a foreign telemarketer, someone trying to sell an upgraded something or other—except he wasn't cursing and hanging up, which was Dad's standard fare for unsolicited phone calls.

Then I heard Mom's voice demanding, "Who is it, Curtis? Who is it?" Her voice, although sleep-tinged, was panicky.

Dad was still on the line, now whispering, "I don't understand… ." and I figured we could safely rule out both telemarketers and drunken prank calls from Dad's physics students. My room was just across the hall, and by this time I was fully awake, struggling out of a tangle of sheets and comforter. This was made more difficult by the presence of Heidi, our ancient basset hound, who was upside down next to me, her legs splayed open, her mammoth chest rising and falling with sleep. Heidi had never been the most diligent watchdog, it was true—the mailman held no interest for her, although she could hear a crumb drop in the kitchen from anywhere in the house—but she had recently passed into the stage of life where even an earsplitting telephone ring and raised voices were not cause for concern. "Move, Heidi," I ordered, nudging against the resisting bulk of her body.

A small amount of time had passed—ten seconds? Fifteen? Thirty? But between the first ring of the phone and the time I stood in the doorway of my parents' bedroom, I had the sense that my life had already changed.

One minute I had been in dreamland, my only worry the prealgebra test I had the next day in fifth period with Mr. Heinman, who was notorious for asking questions that had nothing to do with our notes or assignments. In the back of my mind, I was also thinking about the Halloween dance on Friday—the first dance of my seventh-grade year. Simple stuff. The kind of thing you have the luxury to think about when the rest of life is going well, when your life isn't hinging on a middle-of-the-night phone call.

Mom had switched her bedside light on, and both of my parents were sitting up, looking rumpled and older than they did during the daytime. Dad's hair was sticking up in strange tufts, and his glasses, which always rested on his nightstand within arm's reach, had been perched lopsidedly on his face. "But how?" he was saying now. "I don't understand how. I mean, how?"

Mom was holding a throw pillow and was either kneading or throttling it in her hands. "It's not, it's not, it's not," she kept saying. When I was younger, I used to thank God for the food I was about to eat and say Now I lay me down to sleep at night, but this might have been the closest thing to a prayer I'd ever heard from my mom. She just wasn't the sort of person who prayed, at least not on a regular or official basis. I figured she didn't want to bother God with it unless the situation was really hopeless.

"Curtis," Mom pleaded, and he swallowed hard, trying to say something. But he didn't seem to be able to get the words out, so instead he nodded. Just once.

Mom moaned. I slipped onto the bed next to her and buried my face in her hair. She smelled of wood shavings and varnish, a smell that was as reassuring to me as the smell of flour and sugar probably was to other kids.

Then Dad asked, his voice thin and drifting, like a helium balloon that had slipped away, "What do we do now? I mean, what do people do?" He was speaking just as much to the person on the other end of the receiver as to us, or, it seemed, to the universe as a whole.

Mom was squeezing me as though she was holding on to me for dear life. Mine or hers, I couldn't have said.

Then Dad said, "Okay, I will," and hung up the phone.

The three of us sat very still for a long moment. Whatever was said next, I knew, would change everything. It was the last semi-normal moment of my life, and then we would all live miserably ever after.

Mom asked, "What happened to Daniel?" Her eyes gleamed wetly in the glow of Dad's bedside lamp.

I wished she hadn't asked that, because once my brother's name was out there, it was no longer possible that it could be someone else. If she had mentioned another name, I was sure, then maybe this late-night call could be about some other person, someone else's brother.

But of all the people in the world—billions of them, more people than any one single person could ever meet even if that was a person's life goal; of all the people in big cities and small towns, in countries where it was too hot or too cold year-round; of all the men, women and children, even those who were so old that the Guinness Book of World Records had them on some kind of short-list, and even the tiniest of infants in neonatal units, hooked up to tubes and complicated computer systems—out of all these people, it was my brother, Daniel, who was dead. curtis After the phone call, Kathleen stayed in bed with Olivia. I could hear them there, crying, comforting each other. I should have been there with them—I know that now, I knew that then. But I couldn't. I needed, in the fiercest way, to be alone. Not just in our house, but in the world. I needed the whole world to just stop—moving, thinking, talking.

I paced between the living room and the kitchen, picking things up and putting them down, staring at them stupidly as though they were foreign objects, things that didn't belong in my home. A picture of our family—from a time that already seemed distant, back when there had been four of us, all alive and healthy—in a silver frame that said Family Forever in a fancy script. A booklet of fabric swatches from one of Kathleen's projects. The swatches were in shades of blue, and each was labeled with a different name: Ocean, Marina, Infinity, Reflection, Tidal Pool. I thumbed through them, thinking how pointless and trivial it was that someone had given names to these different shades of blue, that something so irrelevant could possibly matter in a world where my son was dead. Everything was pointless, I thought. Everything was nonsensical and ludicrous.

Suddenly my legs felt insubstantial, not quite up to the task of supporting my body. I reached for the door frame for balance, nearly tripping over Heidi, our two-ton basset. She looked up at me, confused, expectant.

"Not yet," I told her. "It's not time." The sky beyond our front porch light was a deep, middle-of-the-night black.

She thumped her thick tail and cocked her head, as if she were trying to understand.

"Go back to sleep," I ordered, nudging her with my shoe.

When she didn't budge, I snapped, "Fine, then," and opened the front door, ushering Heidi into the night. She stepped onto the porch and turned, watching me. "This is what you wanted," I told her, and closed the door too hard.

Kathleen came in a moment later, red-eyed, hair sleep-tousled. Her face was shiny from tears and snot that had been wiped haphazardly from her nose. "Was that the door? Did you go outside?"

I didn't answer.

She stepped past me and opened the door. Heidi was waiting on the porch, her jowls hanging. Kathleen turned to me, her face crumpled with grief and something else—doubt. In me.

"What's going on, Curtis? Do you want her to wander off or something?"

"I wasn't thinking," I said—a lie. I was thinking that Daniel was dead, and nothing in the world mattered. Let the dog go. Forget the color swatches. Get rid of the smiling family portrait that sat on the edge of a painted side table, mocking me. And the piano. Jesus, the piano. It had taken a Herculean effort to get the piano up our porch steps, only to learn that our front doorway wasn't wide enough to accommodate it. It had gone back down the steps, around the side of the house, up another set of stairs and through the French doors. So much careful effort. Now I thought: Burn it. Get it out of my sight.

Safely inside now, Heidi butted her head against Kathleen's legs affectionately. Kathleen reached out a hand to me and said, "We have to keep our heads, Curtis. We have to be strong."

I stared at her, feeling dizzy and unbalanced. It was puzzling that she was here, like seeing a familiar face in the middle of a nightmare. It wouldn't have been hard to take her hand, to fall into her embrace, to wrap my arms around her waist while she wrapped hers around my neck. But I couldn't do it. I couldn't move forward, couldn't take the one step and then another that it would require of me.

Behind us I heard sniffling and turned around. Olivia stood in the doorway to the living room, impossibly tiny, hugging a blanket around her body.

"I'm supposed to call him back," I said. "The sergeant. After I talked to you, he said I should…." And I stepped past them, leaving them there in the living room like two lost little planets, out of orbit, out of sync.

My fingers, thick and unfamiliar, fumbled with the phone. In those awful moments while I waited for the call to be answered, the dial tone buzzing in my ears, I allowed myself to hope that maybe, somehow, it was all a mistake.

But the voice on the other end was the same I'd heard not fifteen minutes earlier. "Sergeant Springer," he said.

I cleared my throat. "Curtis Kaufman."

He laid bare the facts, based on an investigation that was several hours old at this point—hours during which I'd watched David Letterman with Kathleen, and then we'd made love with the particular quiet that comes from having a twelve-year-old asleep down the hall. Impossible. Meanwhile Daniel had been motionless on the pavement. Someone from the pizza parlor had come outside, hearing the crash, and glimpsed the truck as it drove away. It hadn't been hard to identify—a commercial truck, a small town. The suspect had been asleep already by the time he was apprehended.

"Asleep?" I demanded. "Was he drunk?"

He'd passed a breathalyzer; a blood draw had been taken later at the station. There were no other details at this time, Sergeant Springer said, but he would be in touch. He gave me his direct line, his personal assurance that—

"Wait." I couldn't let him hang up. I reached for a yellow legal pad, turned to a fresh page. There was something I needed to know. "Tell me his name. I want to know his name."

The sergeant hesitated. "At this stage in the investigation…"

"His name," I repeated. The voice that came out of me was surprisingly low, almost a growl. It didn't sound anything like me. I was the soft-spoken voice in the back of the room at faculty meetings; I wasn't a teacher who yelled or threatened. I was the calmer parent on the rare occasions when Daniel or Olivia needed discipline. But this new voice had authority; it was intimidating. It reminded me, in an alarming way, of my father.

The sergeant gave a small sigh, a gesture of hopelessness or maybe regret. "Robert Saenz. That's his name."

"Spell that for me," I ordered. In the middle of a clean page I wrote ROBERT SAENZ, and then I drew a box around it, digging the pen deeper and deeper, a trench of dark lines and grooves, until the ink bled through the page. olivia Iwanted to know everything. Dad had spent most of the night in his office making phone calls. When he finally joined Mom and me in the living room, he was carrying a yellow legal pad full of notes that he refused to show me. Dad had a scientific mind-set, and I wondered if he had been trying to add things up, to find the flaw in the logic, so that somehow Daniel wouldn't be dead.

"I'm practically a teenager," I told him from the window where I had been looking out at our street. The neighbors were still sleeping; none of them knew yet. It was almost morning by then, although not according to my standards. Our cuckoo clock had clucked four-thirty, and the sky outside was beginning a slow shift from black to purple. I'd been twelve for less than a month, but that was too old to be shooed away from adult conversations. "Dad," I said, so sharply that he looked directly at me, then down again at his legal pad. "I'm not a child."

He slumped onto the couch like a deadweight, hair still flattened on one side from his pillow. Mom, perched on a chair across from him, was out of tears for the moment. She asked, "What did you find out?"

Dad looked at me for a long beat, and I stared him down.

"All right," he said softly. While he talked, he kept his gaze on the carpet, as if it were suddenly the most interesting carpet he'd ever seen. And even though I'd wanted to hear it all, I found that the only way I could handle the details was to leave the window and sit on Mom's lap with her arms wrapped around my waist—exactly like a child.

As Dad spoke, I re-created the scene in my own mind. I was good at that—visualizing scenarios. Daniel had met friends for pizza after a late-night practice session. It was after one when he left the restaurant, with snow starting to fall. He would have been bundled up in the coat Mom bought him online after a fruitless search of California stores for appropriate Ohio winter wear. He would have been wearing a knitted hat, pulled low over his ears. Maybe with his ears covered and his head down, he didn't hear the truck behind him, barreling down a side street and swerving, taking the corner too fast. Maybe he was replaying music in his head—an aria, a sonata. The truck hit a metal speed limit sign, uprooting it from its concrete base and sending it through the air, as unexpected and deadly as a meteor dropping from the sky. The sign came crashing down on an oblivious Daniel, and just like that, my brother had died. Dad enunciated carefully: a blunt force injury to the head.

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JBernardo More than 1 year ago
She completely blew me away!  I too unfortunately got that call of things no parent wants to hear.  I am drawn to her books due to the subject matter, how people move on after tragedies.  How it changes everything for the rest of their lives.  It paralleled my own life.  I open her stories and cannot put them down.  She speaks my inner thoughts, my heart, my emotions so much that I have passages underlined.  How does she perceive this when 3 psychiatrists I saw didn't quite get it?  I love everything she writes and this was no disappointment.  I find her totally amazing!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
you won't be wasting your money. Enjoyed it very much
JBronder More than 1 year ago
The Kaufman’s are a typical family. Curtis is a high school teacher, Kathleen restores furniture, Olivia is the preteen daughter, and Daniel is the son that is away to college. But things shatter when they receive a phone call in the middle of the night. They are told that Daniel was killed by a hit and run driver. Everyone breaks apart to grieve in their own way. Kathleen tries to keep everyone together when Curtis pulls away into himself and Olivia starts a fear journal. But when Kathleen tries to get them to move, Curtis and Olivia don’t go with her. Instead, after tragic events, Curtis becomes obsessed with revenge on the hit and run driver. Curtis goes on the hunt for Robert and takes Olivia and her fear journal along for the ride. This story is heartbreaking. I would never want to receive a call about something happening to one of my children. The beginning of this story is full of emotions as the family tries to move on with their lives. I liked how each person was dealing with the loss of Daniel, it was really well written. My only complaint was the ending, which I won’t go into. But I have to say that to me it didn’t mesh well with the rest of the story. This is a really great, emotional story to read. Although it can be painful it is also a wonderful story of a family coming back together after the loss of their son. I received this book for free from MIRA in exchange for an honest review.
quaintinns More than 1 year ago
A special thank you to Harlequin MIRA and NetGalley for an ARC in exchange for an honest review. The Fragile World by Paula Treick DeBoard, a powerful and emotionally charged account of a family experiencing utter despair, faced with choices, and wracked by grief, fear, and guilt; and a poignant journey to love, healing, forgiveness, and acceptance. The Kaufman’s, a normal family in Sacramento, CA when looking in, from the outside, before the tragedy. Curtis, the father a physics teacher at the local high school. Kathleen, mother, a strong female, and highly creative, restores furniture and a buyer for antiques dealer. Daniel, a child musical prodigy, is attending college out of town on a music scholarship. Their entire world has revolved around Daniel and his music. Olivia, at age twelve feels a little left out, as sometimes she feels as though she is a disappointment, compared to her older brother. However, she worships her brother and dreads when he moves away for school. Their safe world is forever changed when a tragedy occurs, as Daniel is killed in a tragic accident. How will they cope? Will their lives be driven by revenge or fear? As the years go by, this family falls apart, piece by piece, each one of them reacts differently in order to protect the other, going to extremes, with a lack of communication. Can they find their way back to normal, or could it be they never were normal, and will need to start a new? The choices they make will forever change the course of their lives. A journey of, “moving on” in the midst of a complicated situation. The Fragile World is an intense and suspenseful, yet intriguing page-turner which keeps you hooked, dying to learn the fate of each character. The book centers around the word, “world”. The road trip takes them away from the world they knew into a new world. Olivia lives in a world of fear and isolation after the tragedy; and later breaks out of her comfort zone into a different world she never thought possible. Kathleen moves to a new city and begins her new world with possibilities and wants desperately for her family to share with her. Talented secondary, character Luke is also living is a small town, with limited resources, yet he finds a way to utilize his creativity by designing snow globes which tell a story of different worlds and life experiences met with tragedy. Highly Recommend!
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