A marriage guidebook for the not-so-perfect marriage—filled with extremely candid, practical, and biblically based principles—proven to make any relationship successful.
Darryl and Tracy Strawberry admit they have “made every possible mistake you can make in marriage.” Together, this devoted couple has suffered through—and survived—adultery, addiction, financial destruction, and many other all-too-familiar struggles.
A no-holds-barred account of their personal journey, The Imperfect Marriage provides a step-by-step program that will help you and your partner understand the key issues that could be causing damage in your relationship and recognize turning points on the journey toward marriage restoration. Darryl and Tracy Strawberry know firsthand what it takes to make it through the battle and how to come out victorious. Beginning with putting God at the center, their words will inspire you to transform your marriage into an enduring and vital relationship.
The Strawberrys keep it real and preach it real. They deal with real people, real problems, and offer solutions for the present. Through candid anecdotes, a great deal of self-awareness, and a true sense of honesty, Darryl and Tracy offer the vision, encouragement, and practical advice that every healthy marriage needs in order to thrive.
Whether you and your partner are looking to heal a broken relationship, or avoid the mistakes that doomed a past one, The Imperfect Marriage offers the guidance and wisdom you need to make your marriage a success.
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About the Author
Darryl Strawberry has dazzled many with his baseball career. He has earned the legendary nickname as one of the most feared homerun hitters in baseball. Today, Darryl’s purpose and passion is serving the Lord by speaking a message of hope and helping others transform their lives through the power of the gospel.
Tracy Strawberry has a true passion to equip individuals to live out a life of freedom and purpose in Christ. Tracy is an ordained minister and her powerful but practical systematic teachings outline the steps of how a person can achieve change and live a victorious life through the power of God and actively engaging in the process of change.
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The Imperfect Marriage
I (Tracy) remember the first time I laid eyes on Darryl Strawberry.
When we met, we were deeply wounded souls leading destructive lives. Our first introduction was at a Narcotics Anonymous (NA) convention in 2003. NA is a program and support group for people who want to break free from the lifestyle of drug addiction and alcoholism. The problem was that we had not broken free. We were still fighting the demons of addiction and the accompanying consequences.
I wasn’t (and still am not) a sports fan. I didn’t know much about Darryl’s baseball career. Frankly, I didn’t care. What I saw was a gentle, broken man desperately searching for a spark of hope to keep on living. I recognized that look because I had lived in that place of pain and desperation.
At the time, I had been clean and sober for a year but still had a lot of healing to do. I was determined to get well, but struggled to define what that meant and how to get there.
Darryl was sitting in a high-backed chair in a corner, desperately trying to blend into the crowd. His thin, frail frame sank into that chair as if he were part of the upholstery. People swarmed all over him, captivated by his celebrity status, yet unable to see his hurting soul. I was struck by how graciously he greeted everyone and signed autographs with what little energy he had.
My heart was torn. I didn’t know Darryl Strawberry, the celebrity athlete. I knew what I saw, a man with a tormented soul who had lost his identity. Oblivious to his hurt and need for space, the crowd just kept pulling and demanding more from him. It was a difficult scene to watch.
It wasn’t long before our eyes met. A mutual friend introduced us. Our first conversation ran deep. Darryl and I were brutally honest with each other from the start. We were addicts who had blazed a trail of destruction through our lives.
Our dialogue flowed naturally and passionately. I could feel the chemistry. Darryl was easy to like and talk to. I felt comfortable sharing with him and wanted to know him better. But I wasn’t interested in Darryl Strawberry, the ballplayer. Darryl Strawberry, the man, caught my heart.
By the time I (Darryl) met Tracy, I had partied hard for years, using cocaine, women, and alcohol to mask or numb my pain. In the process, I had destroyed almost everything in my path. My second marriage had just ended. My baseball career was over. I was drowning in legal problems. My money was almost gone. I was a train wreck. It seemed I had lived up to my father’s words: “You’re no good. You’ll never amount to nothin’.”
Life had left me bitter. Angry. Trying to find relief wherever I could. I’ve experienced the highs of championship victories and the lows of addiction. I had the power to get what I wanted, whenever I wanted. Women, drugs, you name it. But intertwined in the glamor of stardom was heartache. Emptiness. Pain. No amount of sex, money, or clothes; no number of houses, cars, or cocaine lines could ease it. So I fell. Hard.
My drinking and cocaine addictions led me to failed relationships, arrests, lawsuits, infidelities, league suspensions, and money problems. By the time I ended up at the NA convention, I had lost it all.
When I met Tracy, she stood out. It wasn’t just because she was attractive. I had been surrounded by beautiful women for most of my life. They were a dime a dozen. Tracy was different. Kind. Compassionate. She paid no mind to Darryl the great baseball player. It almost seemed as though she didn’t know who I was.
We talked for a while, sharing our stories, and listening intently. We poured our hearts out to each other. There were no secrets. Nothing to hide. Unlike me, Tracy was actually recovering. She was focused on staying clean and made that clear up front. I told her the truth—I was trying, but I was a long way from arriving. I even said, “Girl, you have no idea what you’re getting yourself into.”
We kindled a friendship that night and eventually started dating. I admired Tracy. She was a single working mom of three kids. The most beautiful part about her was that she was pursuing Jesus. She had just turned her life over to Christ. Even though she was battling with God and struggling to believe, she had a genuine commitment to growing spiritually. She was angry with God and had a difficult time believing that He could heal her heart and deliver her from deep-rooted addiction. Yet she chose to press through those feelings and embrace her faith. Tracy made the commitment to find out about Jesus for herself. She chose to follow Him and believe that He would reveal Himself to her along the way. She studied the Bible to get her own answers. She pursued Him with passion. I liked that. And, deep down inside, I wanted that.
Though I loved and looked up to Tracy, I didn’t make life easy for her. I wanted to break free from the lifestyle of addiction. I wanted to get clean and be well. Sadly, the desire wasn’t strong enough to make me do the work of change. I was still hanging out with the wrong people in the wrong places. I didn’t know how to change, even though I knew that I needed to. Most of our dating consisted of her looking for and pulling me out of crack houses. We were supposedly in love, but incapable of truly loving one another.
Many people have their stories of love at first sight. For us, it was lost at first sight. By the time we met, we had lost relationships, our children, our marriages, our money, our will to live, and our connection with God. We were spiritually, physically, emotionally, and financially bankrupt.
Our hearts were all we had to offer each other, which would have been fine except that those hearts were a mess. They needed a lot of healing. An unhealed heart is a dangerous thing. It houses hurts, unforgiveness, bitterness, pain, and every other thing that strips its ability to function properly.
An unhealed heart cannot produce the proper character required to love someone the way that God intended. As much as we tried to love each other, we couldn’t. Our addictions and the accumulation of unhealed wounds overrode our greatest intentions and efforts. We desperately needed a do-over before we even said “I do.”
Think about the first time you met your spouse.
Where were you? What did you say? Were you nervous? Excited? Hopeful? Was it a chance meeting? A blind date? What drew you to your husband or wife? Indescribable chemistry? Physical attraction? What made you want to see him or her again? His eyes? Her smile? His muscles? Her outfit?
Think about your dating relationship. Was it fun and natural? Drama filled? Loving and engaging? Maybe you and your spouse were two stable and emotionally whole people pursuing a healthy and growing relationship.
Perhaps your courtship was far from that.
We had a relationship that was far from healthy. Our life together was combustive from the words “hello” to the words “I do,” which would lead into words like “I don’t” and “I’m done.”
How does an “I do” turn into an “I’m done”? And how do you turn “I’m done” into a reformed “I do”?
Many times the “I dos” need a do-over. Not with another person, but with your current spouse.
One of the most amazing things about God is that He gives us a do-over the very minute we ask for one. Whatever the state of your marriage, you can begin again.
When I (Tracy) met Darryl, I was searching for more. I was drowning in the aftermath of addiction to drugs and alcohol. The most heartbreaking consequence of my lifestyle had led to my ultimate nightmare: surrendering custody of my three beautiful children.
I had cleaned up my act on the outside but was empty inside. I couldn’t find what I was looking for in meetings, programs, or the NA convention. I was strong. I was determined. I was focused. Sobriety alone wasn’t the answer I sought. Something was still missing.
Have you ever been there? Wanting so much more but unsure of what exactly that is? Wanting to get to a better place but not knowing how to get there? You follow what seems to be the perfect GPS, the desires of your heart, only to find yourself right back where you started. The same old routine. The same old results.
Darryl and I desperately desired more. We wanted a new routine, a new way of living, a new outcome. We especially wanted a do-over in life and in relationships.
We fell in love. Fast and hard. Oh, that emotional GPS. When the alarms of physical attraction go off, it’s easy to lose your breath and your footing. Desire bypasses reason, logic, or calculated intention. It’s what many call love at first sight.
You are bewitched by beauty, captivated by strength. You are so enamored of a person that you can’t see straight. You can barely eat. Your mind is consumed by thoughts of him or her. The butterflies in your stomach distract you from everyday life. Maybe that’s how you felt when you met your spouse.
The kind of love that sees only what it wants to see is blind, a mere shadow of love that is fully informed.
Blind love falls in love with the potential of a person, not the nitty-gritty truth of who they really are.
Blind love tolerates deceptions that can very easily become your adopted truth, leading you right back into another unhealthy relationship.
Blind love tells you, “It will be different this time.”
That’s what I (Tracy) thought. I kept the blinders on and allowed myself to be drawn into another toxic relationship.
God wired us to love and be loved. No one can escape the need for it. Love is as essential to living as oxygen.
The problem is that love the way God created it to be has been distorted by sin. Most times this four-letter word is defined by human desire instead of God’s design. We chase after it according to the world’s standards—love is connected to feeling good, looking good, getting something out of it, and other superficial ideals.
True love finds its purpose and fulfills itself within relationships that operate according to God’s ways, and His ways only. First John 4:8 tells us, “But anyone who does not love does not know God, for God is love” (NLT). We can’t love apart from God because God is love. He is the missing link in broken lives and broken marriages.
No one can claim to love God without knowing and loving Jesus. And to love Jesus is to obey Him. He said it Himself, “Those who accept my commandments and obey them are the ones who love me. And because they love me, my Father will love them. And I will love them and reveal myself to each of them” (John 14:21 NLT).
Love is grounded in God and evidenced through following Jesus. It requires a commitment to following God’s ways. When we started dating, we didn’t know what all that meant. We didn’t approach life with anyone in mind but ourselves.
I (Darryl) was saved, but I wasn’t living out godly principles. I had fallen away from God. Sure, I knew about Him. I had even given my life to Him at one point and went to church and read my Bible. But I was caught up in my old ways of thinking, being, and acting. I was spiritually and emotionally stumbling in the dark. Losing everything made me feel ashamed. Lost. Hopeless. And guilty.
By the time I (Tracy) hit rock bottom, I didn’t want to hear about God, let alone walk in His ways. I had lived so carelessly, made so many mistakes, and hurt so many people that I couldn’t even face God.
How do you repair, restore, and live right after so many years of destructive living? How could Darryl and I ever have a successful life full of promise, peace, and purpose?
These questions haunted me and kept me away from God for a long time. I didn’t feel worthy of His time or His love. I didn’t think God would even want to hear from a woman like me. I didn’t believe God wanted to love, forgive, heal, and transform me. I didn’t even believe He could.
Maybe you feel the same way. Do you question God’s love, power, and grace because you messed up?
Maybe you cheated on your spouse.
Maybe you are holding on to past failures.
Maybe you’ve been married multiple times and your current marriage is on the verge of ending.
Let’s get one thing straight—there is nothing, and we mean nothing, that can separate you from the love of God. Not your past. Not your failures. Not your hang-ups. Not your slipups.
Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:38–39 (NIV)
God loves you. And He is not only capable of redeeming and restoring you and your marriage, He longs to! He wants you to experience His love, true love, in your heart and with your spouse.
Love in today’s world needs to be redefined. The desire to love and be loved hasn’t changed, but the way people do it must be transformed.
Restoration within a marriage is a process. It takes time. It takes more than just inspiration, it requires direction and application. You may wonder: What does a successful marriage look like? How is it accomplished? How can I achieve restoration? What do healing and growth look and feel like?
We can assure you it takes more than just a few prayers and shouts of praise. You have to go through to get to. Invest your time in self-evaluation and reflection through the eyes of Christ, filtered through His grace. This will require revisiting your past, contemplating your actions, and challenging your perspectives.
It’s important to note that the purpose of reflecting on your history is not to make you feel bad. You don’t do this to wallow in your pain or embrace your shame. We urge you to look back so you can shed light on the dark parts, uncover truths, and use that knowledge to build your future.
Look back to move forward!
Make no mistake. The journey of restoration is hard. It hurts, and it takes work. You’ll need to put in the effort, take purposeful action, and have patience. But trust us on this one: The journey is well worth it.
We started in a place of brokenness, but through the grace and guidance of God have made our way out. You can too.
Put on the proper mind-set and suit up for battle. Not with your spouse, but with the enemy who stands in your way. You and your spouse are going to win this fight. God is able. He will enable you. God is all powerful. He will give you the power you need for restoration.
We’ve heard it said that people will change when the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of change (making different choices). Within the process of change there is hope. You can rest assured that every difficult step of change produces a positive result that will lead you and your spouse into freedom.
It is not God’s desire for you to live within a broken marriage. It is His deepest desire to heal you, teach you, change you, and transform your marriage. He can and will empower you and your spouse to turn things around, but only if you let Him and only if you do your part.
God is a gentleman. He will not barge into your life or work against your free will. He is a loving God who desires us to come to Him willingly. Think about that. Isn’t that the way you want your spouse to come to you? Willingly?
Will you give your heavenly Father permission to guide your journey? Will you allow the Holy Spirit to invade every area of your life? Your marriage will not be restored in your own strength, will, or power. The power must come from God through the Holy Spirit in you.
What is your spiritual condition right now? Have you turned your life over to God? Are you right with Him? Does the Holy Spirit live in you? Maybe you have fallen away or have taken your eyes off God because of the weight and pressure of your struggling marriage.
We want to encourage you to take your burden, your sin, and your shame to Jesus and allow Him to bury it, forgive it, and cleanse every part of you from the inside out. Let God raise you up through the power of His resurrection. The very same power that raised Christ from the dead will become alive in you. It will revive, strengthen, and empower you.
You can die to your old self, your old life, and all that is hindering God’s best in your life and the life and love of your marriage. Forgiveness, cleansing, healing, and newness of life begin at the foot of the cross.
God has already established the greatness of your life and your marriage, and He will bring it about. Sure, you will have to do the work, but the work is not yours to accomplish. You will do it only through the power of the Holy Spirit and your faith in Jesus Christ.
If you feel God speaking to your heart right now, spend a few minutes in prayer. Get your heart right with Him. Ask Him to forgive you. Ask Him to help you. Ask the Holy Spirit to enter your heart and open your spiritual eyes. Ask God to prepare you for this amazing journey, which you have already started. Ask Him to speak to you as you read this book and work through our questions.
Commit this process of restoration to your heavenly Father. And thank Him in advance for changing your heart and bringing your marriage to the place of greatness to which He has called you.
God’s greatest desire is to restore us and our marriages back to Him. However, the journey begins with us as individuals. Before He can transform your relationship with your husband or wife, you have to allow Him to deal with you on the inside.
It’s time to change your mind-set. It’s time to define marriage through God’s eyes. It’s time to get rid of unrealistic expectations and set your eyes and hearts on what God says. Only when you change the way you think about marriage will your marriage begin to change.
At the beginning of this chapter, you took some time to reflect on first meeting your spouse. Now, we want you to focus on the state of your heart at that time.
What was your spiritual life like?
Where were you emotionally?
What defined you?
How did you define love?
Table of Contents
A Note from Darryl Tracy xv
part 1 Me
1 Lost at First Sight 3
2 God's Vision of Love 16
3 The Heart of the Matter 34
4 Free to Forgive 59
5 The Spouse-in-Waiting 81
part 2 We
6 The Truth about Trust 113
7 Mindfulness: Living an Unselfish Marriage 138
8 The Divine Blueprint 166
9 Temptation: The Fall of All 186
10 A New Beginning 215
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
My emotionally ill wife deserted me three months ago, after threatening to do so for a year. I have read a number of books on marriage, and I think maybe this is the best of all. Too often, marriage books are written by clergy who have perfect marriages and only see troubled marriages from the outside. While those books can be helpful, it is somewhat like a football referee penning a book about winning football strategy. What real people need are stories from non-clergy who have overcome hellish marriages by the grace of God. Fortunately, with the recent release of this book and Vicki Rose's Every Reason to Leave, there are now three excellent books by Christians who had marriages that should have been over but are now thriving because they turned to God (sorry to you non-believers, but if you don't turn to God to help your troubled marriage, you have no hope). The third book, I Do Again, by the Scruggs, has been out for a few years. As is the case with Vicki Rose and the Scruggs, Darryl and Tracy Strawberry are to be commended for laying out all their faults so that readers can know just how far they had fallen and how much work God needed to do. They both had two failed marriages, and had lost all custody of their kids. They met at rehab. Also, they faced terrible financial problems. Through the Grace of God, however, their marriage has survived and is now thriving to the point that they are ministering to other troubled couples. The book not only tells of their road back from despair, but is filled with Bible-based advice on restoring troubled marriages. I would say that this is probably an especially good book for those men who (unlike me) don't want to work on their marriage because they think that to do so is women's work. Darryl is a man's man, and a huge baseball star, but he nevertheless says this near the start of the book: "I like to say that I became a real man the moment I humbled myself, picked up my cross, and started following Jesus. ... Through my transformation, God poured His love into me. ... He showed me how to love my wife. ... God cannot fix your marriage until you let Him fix you." Wow. My hope is that every man who reads this book would think like that and work as hard as he can to restore his marriage.
Darryl and Tracy Strawberry in their new book, "The Imperfect Marriage” published by Howard Books gives us Help for Those Who Think It’s Over. From the back cover: A marriage guidebook for the not-so-perfect marriage—filled with extremely candid, practical, and biblically based principles—proven to make any relationship successful. Darryl and Tracy Strawberry admit they have “made every possible mistake you can make in marriage.” Together, this devoted couple has suffered through—and survived—adultery, addiction, financial destruction, and many other all-too-familiar struggles. A no-holds-barred account of their personal journey, The Imperfect Marriage provides a step-by-step program that will help you and your partner understand the key issues that could be causing damage in your relationship and recognize turning points on the journey toward marriage restoration. Darryl and Tracy Strawberry know firsthand what it takes to make it through the battle and how to come out victorious. Beginning with putting God at the center, their words will inspire you to transform your marriage into an enduring and vital relationship. The Strawberrys keep it real and preach it real. They deal with real people, real problems, and offer solutions for the present. Through candid anecdotes, a great deal of self-awareness, and a true sense of honesty, Darryl and Tracy offer the vision, encouragement, and practical advice that every healthy marriage needs in order to thrive. Whether you and your partner are looking to heal a broken relationship, or avoid the mistakes that doomed a past one, The Imperfect Marriage offers the guidance and wisdom you need to make your marriage a success. Who would have thought that someone who was famous and rich could have had so many problems? I don’t really follow Baseball but I knew who Darryl Strawberry was. Beats me why but I thought that he would have a great marriage. Obviously I was wrong. Darryl and Tracy had their share of problems and really had to work at it in terms of forgiveness, understanding, surrender and self to let God in and heal their marriage. Not easy, but they did it. The nice thing is if they could do it so could you or anyone else who is having marriage issues. If we let Him God can heal anything and anyone. Great words that is not so easy when we are emotionally wounded. The Strawberrys take us on their journey and leave nothing out. We can identify with them as they lay out their problems and we can see some of our own problems. At the end of each chapter is a small segment called, “Something To Think About” that will give you food for thought and reflect on that chapter. Don’t give up. Your marriage can be restored and made whole. This book can be some of the help you need. Disclosure of Material Connection: I received this book free from Howard Books for this review. I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255: “Guides Concerning the Use of Endorsements and Testimonials in Advertising.”