The Quiet You Carry

The Quiet You Carry

by Nikki Barthelmess


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ISBN-13: 9781635830286
Publisher: North Star Editions
Publication date: 03/05/2019
Pages: 352
Sales rank: 129,383
Product dimensions: 5.20(w) x 7.90(h) x 0.80(d)
Age Range: 14 - 18 Years

About the Author

Nikki Barthelmess is a journalist published everywhere from lifestyle blogs to survivalist magazines. She entered foster care in Nevada at twelve, and spent the next six years living in six different towns. During this time, Nikki found solace in books, her journal, and the teachers who encouraged her as a writer. She graduated with a degree in journalism from the University of Nevada, Reno. Nikki lives in Los Angeles with her husband and her pride-and-joy Corgi pup. The Quiet You Carry is her debut novel.

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The Quiet You Carry 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 11 reviews.
LibrarianSGP 3 months ago
Since her mother’s death four years before, Victoria Parker has been trying to fulfill her final wish that she take care of her father who isn’t strong enough to deal with losing her. Although he has always had a quick temper, Victoria’s memories of her childhood with him are mostly happy ones. However, his depression, drinking and remarriage to mean stepmom Tiffany have brought strange and uncomfortable changes to their relationship. The breaking point comes one night when Victoria finds herself locked out of her home at 3:00 a.m. She tries to convince herself and the social worker that it's just a misunderstanding, but her father’s lies land her in a crowded and uncomfortable foster home. Victoria has to follow the strict rules of the house imposed by the tyrannical Connie, finish her senior year at a new school while scrambling to find a way to afford the college her father will no longer pay for, and avoid forming new friendships that could expose all of her secrets. Unfortunately, a lie about attending a school dance leads to a night in juvie after Connie reports her as a runaway. Now she has to contend with being ostracized at school, fighting her growing feelings for Kale, dealing with nightmares that disrupt her sleep, and addressing the escalating worry she has for her stepsister Sarah who has been left behind with her father. Will she find the strength and support she needs to stop protecting her dad, expose his lies, and end the nightmare? Barthelmess has drawn on her experience as a foster kid to write a YA novel that exposes the flaws in the foster care system and the damage parents can do to their children with their actions. The friendship Victoria has with Christina and her budding romance with Kale provide some much-needed lightness. The title is explained when Victoria recognizes that many people have secrets, even Kale. “No one can really see the quiet you carry, unless you let them.” This isn’t an easy story to read, but it’s one that needs to be told and discussed with teens. A worthy addition to any library serving teens, but beware that there are potential triggers for sexual abuse and suicide. Highly recommended. I received a complimentary ARC of this book from Flux through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review. Opinions expressed are completely my own.
Kimberly_Gabriel 3 months ago
The Quiet You Carry is a beautiful heart wrenching book. It's a tear-jerker and one you will connect with on deep emotional levels as you simultaneously cheer for and ache for Victoria on her challenging journey to prevail and overcome. This book covers a grim topic unapologetically with an underlying message of hope and strength in a powerful and unforgettable way.
Anonymous 3 months ago
I read this lovely, moving, important novel through tears. I don’t think I’ve ever seen the experience of living in foster care represented so carefully and faithfully, and I sincerely hope this book will reach not only kids who are living in foster care, but all kids, so that we can deepen and broaden our understanding of the challenges these children face. Barthelmess lived the experience of the foster care system, and her incredible empathy brims from the pages of her novel: the feelings of uncertainty and isolation, the difficulty in trusting yourself and others; the inevitable painful losses as foster brothers and sisters move on to different foster or adoption homes, or in worse cases, to juvenile detention or inpatient mental health facilities. While the above sounds dark, and it is, The Quiet You Carry is leavened by a joyful new romance and a budding friendship, and by the brave action the main character Victoria takes to help her family. Nearly everyone in Victoria's life believes she can thrive, until she finally begins to believe it herself. The result is a poignant story of resilience and hope that will stay with you long after you read the last page. Note: I read an advance readers copy provided by the publisher.
Cherylahb 4 months ago
What a beautiful, haunting story! I loved everything about this book. The premise was frighteningly plausible and handed so well. Every character was multidimensional and fit well in the story. I cried, I laughed, I cheered. No one will regret reading this book, and will find that the story stays with you long after the final page is read.
Tande 4 months ago
That was a really powerful story. Some parts definitely made me cry, but I also loved seeing Victoria grow and learn to stand up for herself and to let people in. The premise was frighteningly plausible and handed so well. Every character was multidimensional and fit well in the story. It's not often you see foster kids portrayed in YA literature, and especially not in such a true to real life way. I really liked this book, even though parts of it were upsetting because you know there are kids who go through that, and worse, every day.
Anonymous 4 months ago
4 stars This book man. This book was heart wrenching in all the right ways and provided an interesting and informative look at a topic that is not often discussed in YA literature, foster care. In this book we follow Victoria, who is taken out of her home and put into foster care. She now has to start over in a new town while navigating living with 2 other foster sisters, an overly domineering foster mother, and a the secret of why she was placed in foster care in the first place. I thought the plot was well paced and I loved all the intense topics that were explored throughout the novel. There was a lot that was unpacked in such a short book, and as a reader, I really appreciated how well everything was handled. For example, Victoria is dealing with a lot in this book, to say the least. Although the reader has a strong idea of what happened to Victoria right from the get go, it was really powerful to see her grappling with and coming to terms with what happened to her. The way she navigated through her trauma and how she dealt with the guilt was extremely realistic and hard to read through at times. I also found the exploration of foster care and foster homes very interesting. I am the first to acknowledge that I don't really know how it works, and I definitely felt like I learned a lot from reading this book. My only criticism of the the plot is, because the book is so short, I would have liked to have seen more, especially at the end. This book is also full of strong, supportive, dynamic, and realistic characters. Victoria, of course, goes through some major changes throughout the book and I never once really questioned her motives. She does make some dumb decisions, but I always understood why she was making those choices. Her friend group was also so great. Kale and Christina are the kind of friends who Victoria needed and their relationship blossomed in such an organic and supportive way throughout the book. One of the most interesting characters to me was Connie. I enjoyed getting to see little snippets into her past and understanding exactly what was going through her mind. I would have loved to have liked to have seen more of Jaime, but again it was a short book. This book is extremely powerful and deals with some pretty intense topics, but I thought it was more than worth the read. I would highly recommend this book.
marongm8 4 months ago
This book was brilliantly written and fantastically put together but such a sad topic to write about. It is really disappointing how most children these days tend to fend for themselves for survival just because their parents do not care about them and like Victoria's father accuses her of a crime that she most certainly did not commit just to get her off his hands. Victoria is a perfect heroine for young girls to relate to and she is such a trooper for surviving for herself and fighting the battles that it takes for success. An inspiring novel that was brilliantly constructed. That is why we give this book 5 stars.
Anonymous 4 months ago
Victoria lands in foster care after her father kicks her out in the middle of the night, throwing her plans to attend college next year into turmoil. Now she’s stuck with Connie, the foster mother from hell, in a new school hours away from her home, forbidden to check in on her stepsister. Despite her best intentions, Victoria’s hope to avoid attention disappear when she starts making friends. Sometimes people surprise you, if you let them. This is a good book. Despite how much Victoria pushes people away, you can't help but to root for her. There are a lot of heavy topics covered in this book, so reader beware (sexual assault, incest, eating disorders, etc).
MeganLeprich 4 months ago
Thank you so much to Flux North Star Edition and NetGalley for providing me with a copy of this book in exchange for my honest review. These kinds of books always make me want to scream and not necessarily at the author but at the characters in the book. This book shed so much light about how screwed up parents can be and how ridiculous and under budget our foster care systems are. This book is about Victoria who has been noticing her dad staring at her more, touching her inappropriately which she chalks up to depression over her mother dying. After a night where he takes it too far Victoria finds herself locked out of her house in the cold with cop cars everywhere. She is taken to juvie and is then placed in foster care because her dad and stepmother don't want her in their house anymore. Victoria knows that everything her dad is saying is a lie but no one will believe her. When she starts to become scared for her stepsister still at home Victoria and her new friends try and get her out of the home and Victoria feels she can finally come clean about what really happened that night. I loved all of the characters (except for the dad obviously) especially Victoria and Kale. Victoria made me sad at first because she was so withdrawn and holding everything in and not letting anyone help her. I can understand also why she didn't tell anyone what really happened because she thought no one would listen to her or believe her which is basically what ended up happening. The foster care system is so backed up and underpaid and unfortunately a lot of kids don't get the help they need and don't see their case workers as much as they should. Luckily she found two great friends at her new school that helped her open up and come to terms with what happened. I love that the author herself spent time in foster care and could really write passionately about the foster care system as she went through it herself. I do feel this book should have came with some trigger warnings but I love how much it touched on sexual abuse and molestation within families. I feel like a lot of girls that have gone or are going through this could benefit greatly from reading this book.
lee2staes 4 months ago
This was a tough one for me to get through. It’s a very emotional read, and it pulls at your heartstrings as it tackles the very difficult topic of parental sexual abuse. The author also brought to light the challenges of foster care, the burnout of social workers and the struggles of children in the foster care system. Some parts of this book had me near tears. I liked this book, even though parts of it were upsetting. Well done. My thanks to Netgalley for the advanced copy in exchange for an honest review.
SchizanthusNerd 4 months ago
Content warnings include foster care, grief, sexual assault, family violence, physical and mental illness, eating disorders, self harm and a suicide attempt (the method used is included). “none of us can understand what’s going on in another person’s life from the outside looking in. No one can really see the quiet you carry, unless you let them.” Victoria lives with her father, stepmother and stepsister. Well, she did until the night her father locked her out of the house. Suddenly this shy, studious 17 year old finds herself stuck attending a new school in a new town and living with a foster mother who appears to hate her. Everything she thought she knew about her life has crumbled around her in a confusing mess. Foster care isn’t one size fits all in how kids wind up in care in the first place or their experiences once there. There are so many negative stereotypes about foster kids so I was delighted to discover that Victoria wasn’t a stereotype. It never occurs to her to quit school and give up on her dreams because of circumstances outside of her control. There’s no smooth sailing here but she’s determined to move on from this experience and not allow it to define her. Victoria’s foster care experience, while it sounds horrendous, is fairly average. Some foster kids fortunately land in families that provide the love, protection and encouragement they so desperately need and at the other end of the spectrum there are those who wind up in abusive situations that mimic those they were removed from. The portrayal of overworked caseworkers is sadly realistic and the shame of being a foster kid is all too real. Nikki Barthelmess notes that while this book is fiction, she spent a number of years in foster care herself. I think it’s a testament to Nikki’s resilience that she has managed to articulate so well the way foster care feels. While there are some minor details in the way things unfold in the story that I could perhaps question I have nothing but praise for the authenticity of Victoria’s feelings from beginning to end. I loved that Victoria has Christina and a boy named after a vegetable supporting her the entire time, before they know her story and, even more importantly, after. She also has supportive teaching staff, who truly can make a world of difference in a foster kid’s life. I only hope that foster kids who read this book have someone in their corner as well because foster care can be such a lonely and terrifying experience. There needs to be more YA and kid’s books about the foster care system. This book will hopefully be an eye opener for people who don’t know the foster care system from the inside and provide much needed empathy and validation to those who find themselves fostered, for whatever reason. Thank you so much to NetGalley and Flux, an imprint of North Star Editions, for the opportunity to read this book.