The Reappearing Act: Coming Out as Gay on a College Basketball Team Led by Born-Again Christians

The Reappearing Act: Coming Out as Gay on a College Basketball Team Led by Born-Again Christians

by Kate Fagan

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Overview

It’s hard enough coming out, but playing basketball for a nationally ranked school and trying to figure out your sexual identity in the closeted and paranoid world of big-time college sports—that’s a challenge.

Kate Fagan’s love for basketball and for her religious teammates at the University of Colorado was tested by the gut-wrenching realization that she could no longer ignore the feelings of otherness inside her. In trying to blend in, Kate had created a hilariously incongruous world for herself in Boulder. Her best friends were part of Colorado’s Fellowship of Christian Athletes, where they ran weekly Bible studies and attended an Evangelical Free Church. For nearly a year, Kate joined them and learned all she could about Christianity—even holding their hands as they prayed for others “living a sinful lifestyle.” Each time the issue of homosexuality arose, she felt as if a neon sign appeared over her head, with a giant arrow pointed downward. During these prayer sessions, she would often keep her eyes open, looking around the circle at the closed eyelids of her friends, listening to the earnestness of their words.

Kate didn’t have a vocabulary for discussing who she really was and what she felt when she was younger; all she knew was that she had a secret. In The Reappearing Act, she brings the reader along for the ride as she slowly accepts her new reality and takes the first steps toward embracing her true self.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781629142050
Publisher: Skyhorse
Publication date: 05/06/2014
Pages: 200
Product dimensions: 6.10(w) x 9.10(h) x 0.80(d)

About the Author


Kate Fagan: Kate Fagan is a columnist and feature writer for espnW, ESPN.com and ESPN The Magazine. She is also an in-studio contributor for The Word, a digital video segment that examines hot topics in sports. Previously, Fagan spent three seasons covering the 76ers for the Philadelphia Inquirer. Her work has earned her multiple awards, and she has been featured on Longreads, a site that curates the best in long-form journalism and fiction. She lives in Brooklyn, New York.

Table of Contents

Chapter 1 March Madness 1

Chapter 2 The Hot Cuts Experiment 4

Chapter 3 I Quit 10

Chapter 4 Come to Jesus 20

Chapter 5 Pray for Coach 26

Chapter 6 Eating Pizza and Converting Souls 38

Chapter 7 Who Here Struggles with Homosexuality? 46

Chapter 8 Is This Heaven? No, It's Iowa 56

Chapter 9 Nothing Worth Having Comes Easily 64

Chapter 10 "God Isn't Okay with You Being Gay" 79

Chapter 11 Sleeping in the Locker Room 83

Chapter 12 Lincoln, Nebraska 93

Chapter 13 The Grassy Knoll 99

Chapter 14 (Don't) Stay the Night 109

Chapter 15 Holy Shit … I'm Definitely Gay 115

Chapter 16 "To the Mets!" 120

Chapter 17 Graduation Day 131

Chapter 18 Ground Zero 144

Chapter 19 Love the Sinner, Hate the Sin 154

Chapter 20 The Tattered Cover 160

Chapter 21 Inside the (Broom) Closet 170

Chapter 22 Brooklyn Bridge 174

Acknowledgments 186

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