The Sometimes Daughter: A Novel

The Sometimes Daughter: A Novel

by Sherri Wood Emmons

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ISBN-13: 9780758278104
Publisher: Kensington
Publication date: 01/31/2012
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: NOOK Book
Pages: 385
Sales rank: 226,667
File size: 1 MB

About the Author

Sherri Wood Emmons is a freelance writer and editor. Prayers and Lies is her first work of fiction. She is a graduate of Earlham College and the University of Denver Publishing Institute. A mother of three, she lives in Indiana with her husband, two fat beagles, and four spoiled cats.

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I was born at Woodstock.

At two minutes past three on the morning of Monday, August 18, 1969, I made my squalling appearance in a tent pitched on a muddy field at Max Yasgur's farm in rural Bethel, New York.

My mother, blissfully stoned, put me to her breast and nursed me while Crosby, Stills, and Nash opened their now-famous set with "Suite: Judy Blue Eyes."

And so she named me Sweet Judy Blue Eyes, even though my father told her my dark blue eyes would probably turn to brown, like his. Most babies are born with blue eyes, he said, but usually they turn brown after a few days. She would not be swayed. Sweet Judy Blue Eyes Webster is the name on my birth certificate. Mother: Cassie Skylark Webster. She changed her name from Cassandra Elaine when she married my dad. Father: Kirk Alan Webster. He did not change his name, despite my mother's pleading.

I have a grainy Polaroid photo to record the event of my birth. My mother's blond hair hangs limp around her pale face; her green eyes are heavy-lidded and tired. She looks terrible. I guess that's what three days with no baths and then birthing a baby will do to a woman. My father, wearing a ridiculous dashiki and sporting a scraggly beard, sits beside her on the ground, his arms wrapped around her tiny figure. I am wrapped in a Vietcong flag. My fleetingly blue eyes stare suspiciously at the camera.

A few hours later, Mama took me to the pond to baptize me. My father trailed behind her, fairly certain that dunking a newborn in a cow pond was not a good idea but unable to stop the force of nature that was his wife.

Hundreds of people cheered as my parents waded into the muddy water, then submerged me briefly in the shocking cold. Their yells drowned out my screams. My mother cried, then passed out.

My earliest memories of Mama are in our little apartment on Whittier Place in Indianapolis. Daddy worked at a guitar shop and took college classes at night, so mostly it was just Mama and me.

Our attic apartment was sparsely furnished with threadbare furniture — a faded blue futon, ratty wicker love seat, Formica table, and three red-vinyl chairs. The only new item was a stereo, which constantly blared the music Mama loved — the Beatles, Bob Dylan, Arlo Guthrie, Janis Joplin, and of course, Crosby, Stills, and Nash. She twirled me around the living room, dipping and spinning till she fell to the couch, dizzy and laughing. The music of Woodstock filled my days and my nights; the sweet smell of pot was the incense of my nursery.

Mama had lots of friends, who variously lived with us for periods of time. I never wanted for a lap to sit in or a willing playmate. Sometimes we took our games outside, confusing the neighbors with our elaborate entertainments. Mama always made the rules, and she changed them at a whim. Sometimes we played at charades, other times we simply ran for the joy of running, whooping and leaping down the quiet side street, some adult or another stopping to swoop me up as I toddled along behind.

In the summers, Mama set up an inflatable pool in the front yard and let me splash about naked ... until one of the neighbors said she'd call the police if Mama didn't put some clothes on me.

That night, Mama and her friend Derrick made spaghetti for dinner, sitting me in the bathtub naked to eat mine, so she could wash me afterward. I was three years old.

Lifting me from the tub, Mama swayed slightly, her bloodshot eyes sparkling bright.

"Come on then, my Sweet Judy Blue Eyes," she whispered as she wrapped me in a towel. "Let's go have a moonlight swim."

Running naked from the house to the wading pool, carrying me on his shoulders, Derrick laughed as he dropped me into the pool, then plopped down beside me, his black skin shining in the moonlight. Mama, equally naked, joined us, carrying two cans of beer. Derrick lay back and rested his head on the edge of the little pool, Mama lay with her head on his chest, and I rested my head on her stomach. We lay in silence, watching the stars blink in the dark sky.

"Always remember, my sweet baby girl, rules were made to be broken."

Ten minutes later, the police arrived.

I screamed as they hustled us back into the house, screamed as the officers watched Mama and Derrick get dressed, screamed as they handcuffed my mother and pushed her head down as they shoved her into the police car. I screamed as our neighbor from downstairs held me on the porch while we watched the police car pull away, Mama's wide eyes staring at me from the back window. I screamed until Daddy came home from his class and retrieved me from the neighbor's apartment, returning me to our own home, still strewn with the dirty dishes from supper.

Daddy drove me to his parents' house, where I spent the night crying, despite my grandmother's hugs and shushing.

The next morning, Mama arrived, laughing and unrepentant, to collect me. Grandma glared at her as she scooped me into her arms and danced me around the room. My world was safe again. Mama was home.

That night, no music wafted into my room from Mama's stereo. Instead, I lay awake listening to the unfamiliar sounds of my parents' angry voices.

"For God's sake, Cassie!" My father's voice shook. "What were you thinking?"

"I was thinking it would be nice to let our Sweet Judy Blue Eyes play in the water and look at the stars."

Mama's voice was lower, but it had the tinny, sharp tone it sometimes took when she'd had a bad trip ... or a run-in with our next-door neighbor.

"You can't just traipse around naked in public," Daddy yelled.

"Why not? Why the hell can't I traipse naked in public? That's the way God made me! Being naked is the natural way to be."

"Maybe in Borneo, Cassie, but not in Indianapolis! Not with a baby ... and not with another man!"

"God ... poor Derrick." Mama sighed. "I can't believe you couldn't bail him out. He's probably still sitting in that cell."

"Look, it was all I could do to get the money for you. I couldn't very well ask my parents to bail out your lover, too!"

"Not my lover, my friend. Derrick is my friend."

"Yeah, right," Daddy huffed. "The friend you're screwing!" "Look, Kirk, I'm your wife. That doesn't mean you own me. When we got married, we both agreed ..."

"We agreed when we were eighteen years old, Cassie. We were kids. We didn't have a baby. When are you going to grow up?"


Mama's voice grew louder.

"Not if it means worrying about what the old bag next door thinks. I am never going to grow up, if that's what you mean."

"Cassie!" Daddy was shouting now. "You have to grow up sometime. You can't just keep smoking pot and drinking every day, and sleeping with whoever you want. You're a mother now."

"Hush," Mama hissed. "You're going to wake Sweet Judy."

"Judy?" Daddy laughed. "That child sleeps through the damned music you blare every damned night! She'd sleep through a hurricane."

But Daddy was wrong. I wasn't sleeping.

"Look, I'm sorry you had to come bail me out. I'm sorry you had to borrow money from your parents. I'm sorry you don't like the way I take care of the baby." Mama's voice sounded tired.

"But mostly I'm sorry for you," she said. "What's happened to you, Kirk? You used to be so much fun. Now you're just ... God ... you're getting to be just like your father!"

With that, the angry voices stopped, the front door slammed, and the music began. Soon, I drifted off to the strains of Paul McCartney singing about a blackbird learning to fly.


Just before I turned four, Daddy graduated from college. The picture Grandpa took that day shows Daddy in a black robe, smiling broadly. His hair is cut short and the scraggly beard is gone.

Mama stands beside him, holding me. She is wearing a skimpy top and a brightly patterned skirt she'd made for the occasion. I'm wearing a dress made from the same fabric. I am smiling at the camera, too. Mama is looking off toward something else.

"You need to put Judy in preschool," Grandma said as we sat in her backyard eating grilled hamburgers after the ceremony. "She's almost four. She needs to be around children her own age."

Mama just laughed, waving a fly away from my sandwich.

"My Sweet Judy is just fine," she pronounced airily. "She's better off at home, with me."

"I don't know, Cassie," Daddy said. "Maybe she should be in preschool."

"I am not turning my daughter over to the thought police. She's too young."

Mama squirted ketchup onto my burger and smiled down at me.

"In fact," she continued, "I might just keep my Sweet Judy Blue Eyes at home ... maybe I'll homeschool her, you know?"

Daddy laughed, but Grandma did not look pleased.

"Cassandra," she began.

"My name is Cassie, Anne." Mama frowned at her mother-in-law.

"Whatever." Grandma sighed. "You can't keep the child at home forever. She needs to go to school."

"Why?" Mama demanded, raising a can of Budweiser to her lips. She drank deeply, then wiped the back of her hand across her mouth. "So they can turn her out at eighteen thinking like a damned robot?"

"Come on, Cassie," Daddy began.

"No, Kirk. I'm serious. They take in these innocent children and beat all the creativity and free will out of them, so they can mold them into sheep ... sheep who won't question authority, sheep who will follow their generals into war. That is not going to happen to Sweet Judy."

"You have to send the child to school," Grandma said firmly. "The state says so. Besides" — she smiled at Daddy — "the school system didn't do so badly by Kirk."

"Oh, Kirk." Mama spat. "There's my prime example! Look at how ... conventional he's gotten!"

Daddy laughed, but his eyes looked sad and tired.

"Come on, honey," he said. "A college degree doesn't make me conventional. It makes me educated. And with a law degree I can do a lot more to help people than I could without one."

"You've sold out." Mama rose, lifting me from the picnic bench. "You've sold out to the man."

With that devastating pronouncement, she carried me the four blocks to our little apartment, where she turned on the stereo and lit a joint.

I didn't know who the man was, although Mama spoke about him often. The man held people down. The man squashed people's rights. The man sent people to war. I imagined the man must be like an overseer. Mama had told me all about slavery — how men with dark skin like Derrick had been slaves. And not just grown-up men; women and children, too, had worked for the man. And if they tried to run away, the overseer hunted them down and beat them.

Mama told me all about it one evening, after we'd had a bad experience at the park. Mama had been pushing my stroller and Derrick was singing a Bob Marley song, and then someone threw a beer bottle from a passing car. The bottle crashed on the sidewalk at Mama's feet, and a man yelled from the car, "Nigger lover!"

So that's why Mama told me about slavery and racism.

Now, I couldn't imagine why Daddy would sell anything to the man.

"Don't you worry, sweetie," Mama said, plopping down onto the floor beside me. "I'll always be here. I won't ever sell out."

Later, when Daddy came home, Mama kissed him on the mouth, her arms draped around his neck.

"I'm sorry, baby," she said, smiling up into his brown eyes. "Your mom just sets me off, you know?"

"She means well."

"I know." Mama sighed. "But she worries at me all the time about Sweet Judy. I shouldn't take her to demonstrations. I shouldn't let her stay up so late. I shouldn't tell her about the war and racism. No"— she waved her hands in the air —"according to Anne, I should treat Judy like a china doll and protect her from everything that's going on in the world."

Daddy smiled and sat down on the couch to remove his shoes. I crawled into his lap and he hugged me tight.

"But you know, Cassie, I think Mom's right about preschool. I think Judy would like being with other kids."

"Why?" Mama demanded. "So she can learn to be a good little girl? Learn how not to run or laugh too loud or ask questions?"

"No," Daddy said. "So she can make some friends."

"She has friends," Mama said, sitting beside him on the couch. "She has Amy and Rhonda and Derrick."

"Honey," Daddy said, shaking his head. "I mean friends her own age, not grownups who act like children."

"Well, she has me," Mama said firmly.

"And she'll always have you, Cassie. But don't you think she might want to play with other children?"

Mama sat quietly for a minute, then smiled at Daddy and said, "Well then, let's ask her."

She leaned down to look straight into my face.

"Do you want to go to preschool, Sweet Judy Blue Eyes?" She watched me carefully.

I sank deeper into Daddy's lap.

All afternoon I'd been thinking about it. I loved playing with Mama and her friends. I loved the charades and the races and the elaborate cardboard playhouses they made.

But sometimes when I watched the other kids heading off for school in the morning, I wondered what it would be like to go with them, to have someone small like me to play with.

I looked up into Mama's beautiful, hopeful face.

"No, Mama," I said firmly. "I want to stay here with you."

And so I did not begin preschool that fall. Instead, I watched from our attic window as the other neighborhood kids left for school with their backpacks, laughing and shoving at each other.

Some kids wore the same clothes every day, the boys in dark blue pants and white shirts, the girls in blue checked jumpers with white blouses. Those children went to Catholic school.

"That's even worse than public school," Mama explained, when I asked her why they were all dressed alike. "They are going to have their poor spirits squashed."

But when they came home from school, laughing and running down the street, they didn't look squashed to me. They looked happy.

Mama loved to bake. She made bread and chocolate chip cookies and soft, chewy brownies. Often when Daddy came home from work, she had a plate of home-baked goodies waiting. He would eat dinner with us, then drive back downtown to his night classes at law school

One afternoon, just as Mama took a pan of brownies from the oven, the front door swung open and Rhonda arrived, carrying a huge bouquet of daisies.

"Aren't they gorgeous?" She grinned.

I liked Rhonda. She was small and thin and freckled, and she read stories in the nicest voice.

She joined Mama in the kitchen while I watched cartoons on the television. Shortly after that, Derrick arrived.

"Hey." He grinned at me. "Who brought my favorite girls those daisies?"

He joined the women in the kitchen, and soon after, the smell of pot filled the apartment.

When Derrick and Mama headed into the bedroom for a nap, Rhonda joined me on the floor in front of the small television. She sat a plate of brownies on the floor.

"Can I have one?"

I loved Mama's brownies.

"Sure, sweetie," she said, not looking at me. She seemed transfixed by the television.

The warm chocolate was wonderful, slightly gooey in the center and crisped at the edges. I chewed each bite slowly, savoring the dark fudge taste.

"Rhonda?" My voice sounded like it was coming from very far away.


"I don't feel good."

Rhonda tore her gaze from the television to look at me.

"What's wrong, baby?" I saw her mouth form the words, but my ears were filled with a high-pitched buzzing. At the edges of my vision, a dark circle was closing in.

"Cassie!" Rhonda's voice pierced the buzzing in my head. "Something's wrong with Sweet Judy!"

The last thing I saw before the dark circle covered my eyes completely was my mother's pale face staring down at me, her green eyes wide. Above her stood Derrick, his dark skin glistening with sweat.

I awoke to the drip of Mama's tears on my face. I lay with my head in her lap. Her hands stroked my damp hair.

"Oh, baby, oh, my Sweet Judy Blue Eyes ... are you okay?"

I turned my head and threw up in her lap.

Derrick laughed then. "She's all right," he said. "Let her get it out of her system."

Mama carried me into the bathroom and put me in the tub. Then she undressed and got into the bath with me.

"I'm so sorry, my Sweet Judy," she crooned, splashing warm water over my body. "I'm so sorry, sweet baby."

After the bath, she put me to bed. My ears still rang with a soft buzzing and the afternoon sun came through the window too brightly. As I drifted off to sleep, I heard Mama yelling at Rhonda.

"What were you thinking, giving her those brownies? I told you I had a second batch in the oven for her. Jesus fucking Christ, Rhonda, you gave my baby pot brownies!"

I awoke shortly before Daddy got home. Mama was sitting on my bed, watching me.

"Hi, sweetie." She smiled. "Do you feel better now?"

I nodded. "Yes, Mama."

"That's good, honey. That's so good. Why don't you get up, and we'll set the table for dinner. And, Judy ... baby? Let's not tell Daddy that you got sick today, okay? Daddy gets so sad when you're sick."

I nodded again. Daddy had not seemed particularly sad when I had the flu two months before. But maybe I hadn't noticed it.

After dinner, Mama brought out a plate of brownies.

"Sweet Judy Blue Eyes." She smiled at me. "Do you want a brownie? I baked this batch just for you."

"No, Mama."

"What? Is Judy turning down a brownie?" Daddy laughed. "Well, I guess we'd better keep an eye out for flying pigs tonight."


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jbarr5 More than 1 year ago
The Sometimes Daughter by Sherri Wood Emmons Story is about a little girl, born at Woodstock and her parents raised her close by her fathers parents. There were main events that took place that even I recall that occurred and the mother, Cassie was involved in directly. Cassie has done a lot of drugs and has lived in communes and the girl lives mostly with her father when the mother returns. The girl has had a hard life making friends and they also make fun of her mother as she does as well. As time goes on she and her dad travel to CA to visit with Cassie and her new husband and baby. Love the sightseeing parts as my family was going to plan a trip to that area for Disneyland and know we know what to expect. Book follows her through her first dating years. Things move fast from then on: wedding, pregnancies, abortion, travel drugs, etc all come to the forefront. Surprised at the ending but well thought out for that period in time.
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jewelknits More than 1 year ago
This was a quick, sometimes enjoyable read. The title more aptly could have read "The Sometimes Mother", as the main character is fortunate enough to have a wonderfully present father. Sweet Judy Blue Eyes is born in a tent at Woodstock to unconventional (read "hippie") parents Cassie and Kirk. As familial responsibilities begin to hit, Kirk becomes a good, responsible father, while Cassie remains volatile, possibly unfaithful, and flighty, disappearing and re-appearing throughout the novel. Emmons does a good job of portraying the link between a mother's behavior and her daughter's mistakes, as Judy tries her best to fit in with the girls at her school and to live a normal life. I felt that the story was rather erratic, and moved too quickly in certain parts. It seemed to lack the sort of depth I'd associate with the weighty subject matter, and I had to check to see whether or not it was supposed to be YA rather than adult (in the former case, I'd give the lack of depth a pass, but it is labeled adult fiction. If you're looking for a rather effortless read, this one would be a good pick. QUOTES I nodded mutely. I had seen Barbie dolls on the television, although I'd never actually held one. Mama said they were fascist and paternalistic, designed to turn women into objects. But I thought it better not to mention what Mama thought of Barvie just then. For the first time in my life, I told a lie. "Sure," I said. "I like Barbies." And that was how I got my first friends. I wanted a real mother who stayed and who wasn't crazy and who took care of me, instead of me taking care of her. I didn't tell the truth, which was that my mother had been crazy and kidnapped me and taken me to a commune and almost died of a drug overdose and then joined a cult. Writing: 3 out of 5 stars Plot: 4 out of 5 stars Characters: 2.5 out of 5 stars Reading Immersion: 3 out 5 stars BOOK RATING: 3 out of 5 stars
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image22 More than 1 year ago
The Sometimes Daughter was an easy read and quite respectable for Sherri Wood Emmons' second novel. It in no way measured up to promises and lies which I found richer in characters and story.
sunshineJB More than 1 year ago
The setting of this book starts out in 1969 at Woodstock . This story is about a relationship between a mother and daughter. The main character was named Sweet Judy Blue Eyes by her mama. Cassie, Judy’s mother, is quite flighty and doesn’t have a problem with starting new relationships before old ones are finished. Kirk, Judy’s father, is the only stable person in Judy’s life. Cassie flits in and out of Judy’s life throughout this book. Judy aches to have a relationship with Cassie but Cassie can’t or won’t stay in one place for any given time. Cassie is a horrible mother in my opinion. Because of Cassie's relationship with her own parents, Judy missed out on knowing her maternal grandpa and grandma. It was refreshing to know that Judy did have a good relationship with her other grandparents. Judy could always depend on them to care for her and to keep her safe. I didn’t care for the ending of this story because I feel it ended too abruptly. There wasn’t any closure on some of the things that happened in Judy’s and Cassie’s life. A lot of issues were just left up in the air.
ReadersFavorite More than 1 year ago
Reviewed by Dr. Karen Hutchins Pirnot for Readers Favorite "The Sometimes Daughter" by Sherri Wood Emmons is a masterpiece study in human dynamics. It is set in the 1960's and a child has just been born at Woodstock. The story is told from the perspective of the child Sweet Judy and is truly insightful. Judy's mother is an ungrounded woman who marries a conventional and stable man. While the mother attempts to raise her "flower child" with haphazard and unconventional decisions, Judy's father and his parents attempt to bring some structure and knowability to the child's young years. Eventually, it proves too much for Judy's mother and she leaves the family and joins a commune. The mother continues in her errant pathway, being attracted to a Persian man and having his child, and then, gravitating toward the Jim Jones cult movement and later, to India where she studies with a guru. During this time, Sweet Judy grows to adolescence and she begins to truly explore the off and on dynamics of her relationship with her mother. Judy does some explorations of her own that force her to see certain aspects of her personality that, left unchecked, could culminate into a life similar to that of her mother. The character development in this book is marvelous. Readers can identify fully with any number of characters including Judy's father, his fiance, his parents or Judy's friends. The reader will ponder Judy's observations and dilemmas as she grows towards a more mature emotional repertoire which will allow her to accept her mother as she is. I was captivated by the circumstances of a child who fought to make herself both human and humane.
52chickadees More than 1 year ago
I was hooked by the first sentence—“I was born at Woodstock”. And indeed, the beautiful baby girl was, as she arrived to the beat of “Crosby, Stills and Nash” on stage performing their tune; “Suite: Judy Blue Eyes”. As a matter of fact, the young lady was named “Sweet Judy Blue Eyes” by her hippie parents; Cassie Skylark and Kirk Webster. From the very start, Judy’s young life was filled with a “revolving door of personalities”, confusion, doubts, guilt and upset as well as being assured that she was indeed loved. This only intensified as she grew older and realized she was not like other children in her class and felt somewhat like an outcast with girls her own age until she met her best friend for life, Lee Ann Dawson. She could pour her heart and soul out to Lee Ann and eventually Lee Ann’s Mother; Mrs. Dawson; ( the “Mama” she wished she had,) in ways she couldn’t with her own Parents or Grandparents. Her Father is a workaholic, studying law and trying to give Judy some sort of normalcy in her life, while, in stark contrast, her fly-by-night Mother; Cassie, acts immature and selfish as a Wife and Mother and creates hurt and heartache for her growing Daughter and anyone who find themselves in a situation with her. Ms. Emmons handles such topics as the Jonestown Tragedy, abortion, unwed motherhood, the Baha’i Faith, love found and lost and the effects divorce has on the family unit quite handily. She has also written this novel in first person (which I thoroughly enjoyed) and it made the story that much more intense. Your stomach will churn with Judy’s. You’ll hold your breath in anticipation of the worst, gasp at revelations, and will be ready to shake some sense into not only Cassie, but a fast-maturing Judy as well. This is a very emotionally-charged volume. It takes a really good story to bring me to tears and this novel did just that—not once, but twice! Please make sure you add this to your “To-Be-Read” list. You will not be disappointed. I certainly wasn’t, and I look forward to reading the Author’s first book, “Prayers and Lies” as well as any future works. Thank-you Ms. Emmons…Excellent story, well told!! Nancy Narma