Across a continent still reeling from World War I, a “ravishingly beautiful” (Paula McClain) story about a love affair between two Americans and the lie that changes everything.
France, 1921—Tom, a young American orphaned in World War I, is working at an ossuary in Verdun, helping priests comfort families seeking answers about their loved ones. But nothing in his past—not his rough-and-tumble Chicago childhood nor his experiences driving ambulances across French battlefields—can prepare Tom for the arrival of Sarah Hagen. From the moment he sees her, a young woman in a blue dress desperate for news of her missing husband, he knows he will help her in any way he can.
As their affair takes them across a fractured Europe, Tom and Sarah reckon with the ways extraordinary circumstances impact the lives of ordinary people. They eventually part but when news of an amnesiac soldier in Naples reaches Tom in Paris, he sets off, only to find Sarah there, hopeful as ever, along with an Austrian journalist named Paul who has his own agenda. Years later, a chance encounter with Paul forces Tom, now a screenwriter in Hollywood, to confront his past—and the woman he’s never been able to forget.
A page-turning, vividly imagined, and deeply romantic novel about love and identity, truth and consequences, The Verdun Affair is a “literary romance...[that] unravels a love triangle and its players’ secrets” (Los Angeles Times). It will transport you to another place and time while asking the question: Who are you in a world you no longer recognize?
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About the Author
Nick Dybek is a recipient of a Granta New Voices selection, a Michener-Copernicus Society of America Award, and a Maytag Fellowship. He received a BA from the University of Michigan and an MFA from The Iowa Writers’ Workshop. He teaches at Oregon State University. He is the author of When Captain Flint Was Still a Good Man and The Verdun Affair.
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The Verdun Affair
On the morning Sarah Hagen was to arrive, I awoke with the feeling of something crawling over me in the dark. A scrape of scale, a scratch of claw. I found Father Perrin in the courtyard, looking as though he hadn’t slept either. He waited for me to wash and finish my bread and coffee, smoking cigarettes as if they offended him. He started the car, and we left for the hills north of the city.
It had taken years, but you could almost call Verdun a city again. In late 1919 the famous candied almond factory reopened, and people began to creep back into the streets. A café opened, then a bakery, then a school. Well, that’s French life for you, Father Perrin said.
By 1921 the roads were clear, the bridges over the river rebuilt, the cathedral stitched with scaffolding. In the evenings the sun reflected red in the new windows. In the hours just after dawn there was a chalky light, as if all the old cordite still hung in the air.
I’d been the aide de l’évêque de Verdun for two years by then. My title sounded sophisticated, but my duties weren’t especially; I helped the priests of the diocese with whatever they needed, and was offered board and a small salary in exchange. Nonetheless, given Verdun’s particular circumstances, it was an important job for which I was hardly qualified. Eventually, I learned to write better in French than I did in English. I often thought in French. I likely would have dreamt in French, but in my dreams no one ever spoke.
On that day we were headed to the Thiaumont Ridge, to the village of Fleury. But there was no Fleury anymore, just as there was no Ornes or Douaumont or Vaux or Cumières—all villages leveled during the battle. The government had declared them officially destroyed. Though it seems that destruction is usually a matter of admission rather than fact, it probably was too dangerous to rebuild. Between February and December of 1916, a thousand explosive shells had fallen on every square meter of ground—ground that had been farmland and forest, then battlefield, then something new, known only as zone rouge.
We crossed the snaking Meuse on a new bridge, the water below sleepy and dark—a few ripples, a few branches nodding just under the surface. The road wove up through the hills. The mud remained in some places, but grass had returned in others, a bright, almost hallucinatory green. The earth has never seen anything like this, Father Perrin had said. We’ve confused it.
I couldn’t disagree. Much would be said about the battle’s brutality, its exhausting length and strategic peculiarity. But at the time it was waged, it often wasn’t referred to as a battle at all. Will the Verdun affair ever end? the newspapers asked, using the preferred euphemism for catastrophe and scandal. Will the French ever recover from the Verdun affair, even if they do save the city? Five years later this still seemed an open question.
As he drove, Father Perrin smoked and smoothed the mustache signed on his lip. He looked like a matinee idol with a bad diet. When he blushed his skin went yellow instead of pink. I’d taught him to play hearts from an American deck that had washed up in the Episcopal palace, the way many strange things wash up at the end of a war. He’d taught me about music. We had no phonograph, but we did have a telephone with a good connection to Paris. Often, Father Perrin would call the last remaining chamber music service and put the receiver on a stack of books as a tin-flecked Saint-Saëns drifted out, costing somebody a fortune.
Other nights, we’d stay up late talking in Father Gaillard’s old office or, if the weather was clear, seated on the lip of the koi pond in the courtyard. Just after the armistice a Christian church in Japan had given the Episcopal palace the pond of smooth smoke-blue rocks and five bulge-eyed goldfish. Father Perrin held a special affection for those fish; he told me it amused him to imagine what they thought, drifting in the shallow water. So this is life. So this is life.
“Was that you, pacing around in the middle of the night?” he asked now. “How do you feel? Perhaps I should cancel my trip to Bras?”
“I’m perfectly fine,” I said. “Unless you’re looking for an excuse.”
“I am, actually,” he said. “It’s such an unpleasant story I’d have thought I’d told you already.”
We laughed. I was still laughing as he said, “When I was chaplain at the base hospital in Rouen, there was an officer there who’d lost his entire face. Nose, lips, all of it. Can you imagine?”
He was trying to shock me—that was his way—but as Father Perrin well knew, I didn’t need to imagine it. I’d seen many such faces when I worked for the American Field Service during the war.
“How much did he realize?”
“Too much. He was still lucid through most of it. He could cough out a few words when he had to. And he lingered. His parents even managed to arrive from Paris before he died.”
“That’s a mercy.”
“Perhaps. It’s this boy’s father I’m going to see today. He wrote last week, saying that his work would be taking him to Bras and he’d offer a generous donation for the ossuary if I’d be so kind as to meet him there. So, you see, I must go.”
“It’s so important you go in person?”
“To him, yes. The truly unpleasant part is that when he and his wife arrived at the hospital, they called for me almost immediately. We were standing right beside the boy’s bed. His father shook my hand, and said—and I still recall the words exactly—‘Father Perrin, I understand what you are doing, and I appreciate it. I’m not like most people. I didn’t need to see this boy to feel deeply for him and all the other boys like him. Still, I’m glad I did. I’m not angry at anyone. But please, I think we deserve to see our son now.’ ”
I looked out the window. The car was cresting the hill. I knew Father Perrin would smirk at words of sympathy or—god forbid—understanding. And the horror of the story was only too evident. As was often the case with the stories Father Perrin told, there was simply nothing to say.
I’d opened the car door and was facing the moonscape of old battlefield when he stopped me with a hand on my shoulder.
“In all of this cheerfulness I almost forgot to tell you there’s an American woman coming this afternoon. I suppose you’ll have to talk to her.”
“What should I say?”
He put both hands on the steering wheel and stared out over the destroyed ridge, which always looked to me like a dead crocodile.
“Try to answer her questions. If that fails, perhaps you should say American things. Her letters have been coy about what she wants, why she’s coming. To be honest, I’m not sure she’s completely sincere. Perhaps you’ll know.”
His right eye fluttered. I waited for him to say something more, then I got out of the car.
“And will you join me later when I dial Paris?” he called. “Tonight the music will be wonderful. Piano works by Ravel. Perhaps the most beautiful music ever written. I really believe that.” I caught a glimpse of the sad, ironic smile he seldom showed anyone but me. “Do you realize,” he asked, “how lucky we are to live in such a time?”
* * *
The first widow came to Verdun before Father Perrin arrived, before the war was even over. I noticed her mouth right away—I’d forgotten teeth could be so white. It was late summer, and she stood in the palace courtyard wearing an orange dress with white flowers in the pattern, a white hat with an orange flower in the brim. The smile wavered, but she whipped it back, as if it might help to look happy.
“I’m looking for Daniel,” she said. “Do you know Daniel Jerot? No, I mean, do you know of him? Nobody seems to.”
I was afraid to say anything, afraid even to call for Father Gaillard—the bishop of Verdun, the man who had taken me in when my father died—because I could guess how words, dismissals, promises, had already harmed her. But when I did call, he came at once, black cassock swishing, round glasses smudged. The three of us went into his office, where dim window light fought the dust. I poured her a glass of water.
She told us that she’d met Daniel in a café just off Place Stanislas in Nancy, where they both worked. She explained that after Daniel enlisted in 1914, she’d watched from behind the bar as the mayor walked the square in a white suit yellowing at the collar and sleeves. By custom it fell to the mayor to deliver the news of the missing and dead. She described the tremor in her throat as she watched him pass, the many ways she’d burned her distracted hands.
She described the sunny day in April of 1916 when, instead of turning up Rue Gambetta as usual, the mayor crossed the square, and stood in the door of the café, and took off his hat. The band inside was yellow with sweat too.
She’d imagined she might actually feel some relief at the news—she was ashamed to admit it, but she wanted His Grace to understand everything—but no, all she felt was anger. The little man with the solemn tone and uneven mustache knew just enough to destroy her life and nothing more.
What happened? He didn’t know.
Who saw him last? He didn’t know.
Would they search for him? He didn’t know.
When would there be news?
Other than a curt letter of condolence from Daniel’s lieutenant there was no more news. Not for the rest of that year, not in the following year, despite letters to the lieutenant pleading for more information. And all that time she continued to work at the café, continued to watch the man in the white suit with the yellowing hatband ferry the dead across the square.
Had we ever seen Place Stanislas? she asked.
Father Gaillard removed his glasses and rubbed his thumb over the lens. He was a large, even imposing, man, well over six feet tall. But it was his soft face and softer voice that drew everyone to him. He wore, as always, the typical bishop’s costume—the cassock, the biretta, the heavy pectoral cross—but he was one of the few people I’ve ever known who could not be accused of playing a part.
“Yes,” he said, “the finest square in France.”
“That’s true, it is,” she said quietly.
They nodded together. She seemed to unclench. Father Gaillard polished his glasses, sweep after sweep with the end of his scarf, as he often did when he was upset, his way of preparing his thoughts.
“Is it the café with the green awning?” he asked eventually. “A zinc bar? Is it just off Rue Girardet?”
Her hair bounced on her shoulders as she leaned forward, alive in a way she wasn’t. “You know it?”
“What did Daniel look like?” Father Gaillard asked.
“He looks like everyone else. If you put him in a blue uniform you wouldn’t be able to tell him from ten thousand others.”
“Like a clown.”
“I mean it. Very pale skin, very red lips. English-looking.”
“I thought so,” Father Gaillard said. He made a final pass with the scarf and replaced the glasses on his nose. “He served me once. It must have been before the war.”
She laughed. A sob can’t express bitterness half as well. “All this time later? You couldn’t possibly remember.”
“Perhaps not,” he said, “but I do think so.”
She opened her purse and rummaged, likely her own way of buying time. I knew a little of how she felt. After all, I had sat in that very chair in the days after my father died, wondering if I could trust the man across from me. Though it was not my place to speak, I wanted to tell her that she should trust him, as I had. But I also felt a sad sympathy for Father Gaillard, knowing the hours of prayer and contemplation this lie would cost him—and it was a lie, wasn’t it?
Eventually she looked up with shiny eyes, and said, “Perhaps he put a cigarette on the saucer when he served it? It would have been one of his own. He often did that if someone from the church came. He was shy, he wouldn’t have said anything to you.”
There was not a trace of falseness in Father Gaillard’s smile, but then, there never was. “He did, indeed,” he said. “I don’t normally permit myself. Perhaps that’s why I remember.”
After she left, he opened the windows to let out the dust.
“Did you really meet her husband,” I asked, “in that café?”
He didn’t answer. He was the sort of man who loved reading aloud to children. I used to watch him in the dim rooms of the citadel, his copy of Grimms’ Fairy Tales held up to the lamp, his voice rising an octave for a princess, scraping low for a dragon.
Father Perrin arrived six months later. The design for the ossuary—the memorial where the thousands of bones left on the battlefields would be interred—had come back from the committee by then. The French government had agreed to pay a portion of the cost, the diocese of Verdun another portion, but much of the money would need to be raised privately, and Father Gaillard announced he’d have to travel to do it, far from Verdun. Someone else would have to face the next Miriam Jerot, and the next. He never admitted it, but he must have realized he was too tender for the job.
* * *
Miriam Jerot was the first of many. Almost a million men had died or disappeared on the hills and fields northeast of Verdun, and their parents, siblings, and wives came in a steady line that might have stretched across the entire front. Ladies chauffeured by car from Paris, and illiterate shepherds from Languedoc, and marsh people from Finistère who hardly spoke French at all.
The Father Perrin that appeared in the foyer of the Episcopal palace to greet them was quite different from the man I knew, his expression a mixture of pity and nothing, a void into which they could pour everything they had to say.
And though he said very little, though he let them make introductions and describe their journey, there was something in his manner—in the thin face that looked suddenly honest, the thin smile that looked suddenly kind—that suggested he was glad they had come. And that mere fact—that mere illusion, if that’s what it was—meant the world to the families standing before him, many of whom had traveled for days in cramped train cars or fuming motorcars or sometimes in carts drawn by horses or sometimes even by foot. Many of them had spent what little money they had to get here. For many of them this was only one notch—perhaps the final notch—in an absurdly long and lonely journey. They had already written letters—to the lost man’s lieutenant, to generals, to politicians, to Foch, Poincaré, and Clemenceau. They had waited for replies—from their priest, their magistrate, their mayor—all the while knowing that a letter about their son or husband was just one of tens, hundreds, thousands awaiting its recipient, a letter to be responded to mechanically and in due time.
Father Perrin would usher them through the sliding double doors into the office; he would offer to hang their coats on the square rack with its rectangular mirror. And he would offer them water from a glass pitcher I kept refilled, which rested on a wooden tray, which rested on a Second Empire side table.
Yes, the dust still lingered, no matter how many times I swept out the room or beat the rugs. But if you could ignore it you might not blame a father from Bayeux or a wife from Cassis for feeling that they had been transported back into a time when the death of one man made some impression. That, as they took their seats in the red cushioned chairs with their sloped and polished armrests, as they began to tell Father Perrin their story, they were no longer in a world of empty church towers, the bells melted for ammunition.
When they looked upon Father Perrin and heard him say, “I’m glad you’ve come. I’ll do anything I can to help you,” they believed him. For some of these grieving families Father Perrin had to say little else. For some the sight of the churned earth, the rusted wire, the crumbling forts and twisted bunkers was enough. For some the question that had coiled around them for months or years—how could it have happened to my son, my husband, my brother?—began to make horrific sense.
But many others didn’t want to understand. They wanted to be understood, and they would lean across the Second Empire desk and clutch Father Perrin’s hands. They would weep and talk—for hours sometimes—about the man they’d lost. As if all that talk might help us identify him, as if it might bring him back to life. Bring back to life the man from Poitou who’d walked to Paris as a boy to apprentice as a cabinetmaker, who’d smuggled a young girl in a cabinet he carted back to his village. That young girl, now a woman, came to us in the spring of 1920 to describe every rut in the long road, every bump, the look in his eye when the door finally swung open.
They wanted to bring back to life the boy from Anjou who killed a wolf with a bow and arrow and dragged him home across miles of fields. The boy’s mother described his expression as he struggled to maintain the stoicism of his older brothers. She described her delight at seeing pride for the first time on her youngest son’s face, even though she could also see it wasn’t a wolf he’d shot but a sheepdog.
They wanted to bring back the boy from Lourdes who copied passages of Montaigne out by hand in his letters to his father, to prove that he wasn’t forgetting. The boy from Arles who’d lost his right eye when he was eleven—who’d saved money for a glass one to fool the draft board in 1915.
They wanted to bring back the boy who picked apples in Normandy. His father brought a bottle of the family Calvados and insisted that Father Perrin and I drink until we could hardly stand. “He made this,” the father kept saying, “he made this.”
It was my job to take down these descriptions, to write to the Red Cross and the Ministry of War to ensure that nothing had been overlooked, that no further information was forthcoming. And it was my job to record the family names in a separate set of files to ensure their inclusion on the ossuary’s wall of memorial: Abel, Albert, Allard, Barre, Baudin, Belmont, Caron, Chastain, Comtois, even Combs, my own last name. It was my father’s family name, bestowed upon me by my mother at birth, though neither she nor I had claim to it, as they never married. Certainly, the fact was not lost on me that, had I died in the war, there would have been no one to come looking.
In some ways, though, the families of the dead were lucky. For so many others, the official telegram printed on light blue paper said missing, believed dead. Was it possible, their sad and ashamed eyes asked. Was it possible that in the midst of all they had heard, in the face of all the numbers and statistics, all the warnings from the officers and the mayor and their priest, that their son or her husband had been one of the ones to survive? Weren’t there reports that the Germans had run secret prison camps where the living were kept in order to terrorize the Entente? Weren’t there rumors that some soldiers had crossed into Switzerland during the mutinies of 1917, that they waited there now for news of amnesty?
How could Father Perrin, how could anyone, tell these grieving faces that a direct hit from a shell could atomize a man? That the shelling was so incessant during the battle that a man’s remains might be buried and unburied and blown a mile into the distance and buried again? That we found hundreds of bones every single day, scattered across the front, mangled and unmatched? How could Father Perrin tell anyone that the fact that such pervasive destruction might lead to hope was the cruelest of ironies?
He could only explain that there were no special lists, no secret camps, no utopian bands of fugitives. He could only say that if a séance or medium helped them feel better, then they should accept that help, but they should believe more in the charlatans who might use their grief against them than in ghosts. He could only say that they had done everything they possibly could already, that they should never for a moment feel they had failed.
But he didn’t tell them to abandon hope, and most of them did not. Once a mother from Bordeaux said, “You know, gentlemen, to be honest, I really expected much worse. This couldn’t possibly have killed Jean. If you met him, you’d know that.”
Once a widow from Lyon told us that she understood our point of view, but that the best medium in France had been searching for her husband in séances for two years without success, that experts in the living world were much more often wrong than those in the spirit world.
Once the wife of a shepherd from Landes handed us a pair of stilts, saying, “If you see him, give him these, please. He’ll get home faster.”
* * *
I left the car on the paved road outside Fleury, carrying the canvas shoulder bag I would fill with bones, and a second, smaller bag stuffed with my canteen, some black bread and cheese, and a half-bottle of Alsatian wine. The door slammed, and the car pulled away, leaving only my shadow in the sun. It was early morning, already hot.
From the new road it was a half-hour climb up the ridge onto the Douaumont Plateau. The ground still looked like a filthy sea. I thought of Chicago, of Oak Street Beach along Lake Michigan, where I had gone with my mother. The lifeguard chairs, the names etched into the wood, the whitewash fading and peeling.
I wondered who this American woman was, what beaches she remembered, what streets. Father Perrin had told me almost nothing about her. A widow, a mother, a sister? A writer looking for a story? A lunatic looking for attention?
I seldom spoke directly to those who came in mourning, but there were others whose welcome fell to me: artists competing for commissions on memorials, metallurgists pondering shrapnel, ornithologists tracking starlings over treeless acres, and, once, a British diabolist wearing an amulet of interlaced snakes.
No matter how rational or irrational their reason, the look these visitors offered me when I introduced myself in careful, but accented, French was usually the same. The mouth tight, the eyes blinking, Why you? Not an unreasonable question. Certainly I was the least likely of many people—the parish priests, the sacristans, the other orphans. Of course, I wanted to believe that Father Gaillard had sensed some fundamental intelligence or decency in me when he’d suggested to Father Perrin that I stay on as his first assistant. More likely, though, he realized that his project was expensive, and that Americans had the stable currency. It was a neat trick, I’m sure, to mention casually to a New York heiress or a Pennsylvania industrialist that, in fact, his assistant was American. Weren’t we all prey to this horror at Verdun? Weren’t we all responsible for its rectification? Look at the young man from Chicago, I could imagine him saying, collecting the bones of the French dead in the fields each day. Will you really not pick up a pen, will you really not sign a check?
* * *
After another half-mile I arrived in Fleury. Many of Fleury’s orphans had become my friends in the citadel, and I had listened to their stories until they became my own. Fleury had been a village of nearly five hundred people, mostly farmers. There was a church with a gold vestment that supposedly dated back to the time of Saint Denis. A little school taught by a man who’d come from somewhere in the Alps, whose accent was never fully understood, whose advice was never fully trusted. Two old sheepdogs wobbled through the streets, sleeping by what fires they chose. Livestock snorted into the single-room houses, which were connected to the barns by Dutch doors so that the smell of the animals—the warmth of their bodies and breath—became a part of each home.
In February of 1916 the German attack began in a snowstorm. Just past dawn, the shells blasted open the frozen ground, caving in the roofs of the baker and butcher. My friends described the sparks in the snow. The broken patterns of booms, the shock waves splitting trees and lighting fires, before the next shell struck, extinguishing the fires with a shower of smothering dirt. The school, burned black, scalded with earth. And the tiny Saint Étienne’s bell clanging somewhere underneath the explosions. The mayor ran through the streets with snow in his beard and mud covering one side of his face.
They fled with the fires stoked, bread and jam on the tables. They raced into the cold and pulled their livestock from the barns, trying to calm the animals in low voices. Pulling their carts from behind homes. Filing down the ridge west toward Bras-sur-Meuse, toward the range limit of the artillery.
Behind, they left the plows bought once in a lifetime. They left chests containing their most valued possessions, a book no one could read, an embroidered blouse too precious to see the light of day. They left the dinner tables owned for generations, shallow bowls cut into the wood to hold soup.
As they raced away they tried to keep a rough count of who had trudged out through the exploding snow. The schoolteacher was nowhere to be seen. The mayor had disappeared as well. Two men ran back, stupidly shouting, as if the explosions were not warning enough. A shell whistled down and one of the men vanished, leaving neither the mist nor the odor of blood.
Five years later the old tables with the shallow bowls were ash. And over the years I found only a few things that might have been familiar to the mayor or the schoolteacher. A tooth of a plow. Half a spoon. Once I found a green-gold button with a glint of mother-of-pearl. I left it on a burned stump in case anyone ever came back to look.
* * *
I returned to the Episcopal palace in the late afternoon to find a woman in a bright blue dress. She was young. Her hair was black, or almost black. As I stood in the archway, she trailed one finger through the koi pond. I could feel the dirt beneath my nails, the sour layer on my neck. I knew, without having to look, that there was a line of sweat across my shirt like a marshal’s sash.
“Hello,” I said in English.
“My French is fine,” she said, looking up, frowning. “You’re Mr. Combs?”
“I am. And you must be Mrs. . . .” I knew the name. Hagen. All day I’d imagined asking this woman to sit in the haze of the old office, to lay bare the uncomfortable facts of her life, but I couldn’t seem to get the name out of my mouth. Perhaps my tongue already understood something the rest of me had yet to realize.
She scraped a heel, drawing a slash in the gravel—something playfully boyish in the gesture. But her face was too tense to read. “I’m almost sure I’ve mentioned my name in my letters. Five at least.”
She smiled, not especially genuinely, and her eyes went somewhere beyond me, as if she’d passed a test and now Father Perrin would arrive.
“How far have you come?” I asked. “Far?”
“It feels like I did. Up from Udine—I live there, which I’ve also mentioned in several letters—through Metz. That’s France now, apparently. The railway signs are still in German, but they have a Marshal Foch Boulevard. You’re American,” she said. “You sound like it, but you don’t seem like it. Americans are generally punctual.”
I didn’t wear a watch, and had no idea what time she had expected me. She was right, such questions were seldom asked in Verdun. Father Perrin used to say that our sense of time had been warped by proximity to the afterlife.
“Have I kept you waiting?”
“Long enough, yes.”
“Long enough for what?”
“Let me show you,” she said. “You’ll have to sit beside me, though.”
I took a seat at the edge of the pond, the blue-gray flagstone pleasantly warm, as she undid the gold clasp on her purse. Inside, in an inch or two of water, was one of the goldfish.
“I didn’t imagine I’d be able to catch one, but it was easy.” She laughed, as if she’d truly surprised herself. “How long do you think he’ll survive?”
The fish flicked his tail, bulging eyes blank, mouth working on the rim of the water.
“I’d rather not know.”
I took the purse from her lap and dipped it into the pond, releasing the fish. I knew how she must be feeling, the long journey on the train. The confusion of the station, the arrival in such a place. And, after all, it was just a fish. All the same, I felt something close to anger. At her disrespect, and at myself for finding her disrespect even a little charming.
“Please don’t do that again, all right?”
“I’m not sure I could do it again. That’s why I needed to show someone.” She caught my eyes, then dropped hers, but her look was more of triumph than disappointment. As if whatever she wanted had already been denied her, just as she had expected.
“I won’t tell Father Perrin,” I said. “He’d be upset. He’s been trying to catch one of those fish for a year now.”
She didn’t smile. We remained side by side on the lip of the pond, the sun softening as afternoon began to wane.
“You’re supposed to ask me questions, aren’t you?” she said. “My name is Mrs. Lee Hagen. My husband went missing in the spring of 1918.”
* * *
In Father Gaillard’s office, she kept glancing at the inside of her wrist, as if there were a watch to check.
“You’ve tried all the other channels already?” It was a question Father Perrin always asked.
She took a breath to prepare. “I’ve written the Ministry of War, the Red Cross, News of the Soldier, Search for the Missing, and many others. Last month there was a woman from an organization called Help for Families who said she had lists no one else had. Where did she find these lists? How could they know more than the army or the Red Cross? I didn’t ask until it was too late. Are you satisfied?”
“It wasn’t a test.”
“Perhaps everything just feels like a test.”
“Those swindlers are the worst on earth.”
“We can agree on that,” she said. Then she was silent. Usually there was too much to say. Each word we exchanged, though perfectly correct, felt more false than the one before. It was her voice: tired, disinterested, almost bored.
“Do you mind if I ask why you didn’t say any of that in your letters to Father Perrin?”
“I suppose I didn’t want to have to tell the same story again, over again, over again. It’s unavoidable, obviously. I suppose I’m tired of feeling vetted.”
“That you deserve help, you mean?”
“That I’ve suffered enough to deserve it.”
More silence, sun on the back of my neck. I rose to open one of the windows. The latch was stuck, and I had to give up.
“Have you been to France before?” I asked.
She looked up from her wrist and smiled weakly. “It’s different than I pictured it.”
“It’s not all like this,” I said.
“I should hope not.”
“Actually,” I said, “other than Paris, I haven’t seen much beyond Lorraine. Maybe it is all like this. I don’t know.”
“Did you see much of the war?”
“Not much, no. I worked in the citadel during the battle. After that I drove an ambulance for a year or so.”
Her eyes darted up, and for a moment I saw something in them other than disappointment.
“With who? The American Field Service?”
“For a year, yes.”
“Lee was with the AFS.”
“Not in the French Army?”
“No, he was attached to the 22nd Division, then he joined with the Americans when they took over the service. His name was Lee Hagen,” she said. “He was attached with other Princeton men. Did you—?” She paused. She didn’t want to appear foolish, to appear not to understand that most things in the world had absolutely nothing to do with her. All the same, she had to ask. “By any chance, did you know him?”
“Lee Hagen,” I said. The name with its hard Germanic syllables felt strange in my mouth. She smiled at the sound of it, and, though she sat only a few feet from me, she looked like something shimmering in the heat at the end of a road. She was a beautiful woman, but to say that I was conscious of attraction or desire would be misleading. It’s better to say that I was simply very aware of her. Aware of the slashes of her gaze, the impatience of her posture. Aware most of all of her anger, which I assumed—as one often wrongly does—was directed toward me. Was it that simple? That I did not want her to be angry with me?
“Lee Hagen,” I said. “Yes. Yes. I did know him. I think I did.”
“Well,” she said softly.
“Did you know him well?”
“No,” I said. “Not well.”
* * *
There were ripples of light on the desk, beams in the dust. Evening, the sun setting over the rubble along the river. She didn’t speak.
“We met,” I said, “in Aix-les-Bains. On permission.” The words were already out of my mouth before I realized what a good lie it was. For a year nearly every permission had been mandated for Aix-les-Bains, near the Swiss border. It was a fifty-fifty chance that Lee Hagen had gone, and if he hadn’t the whole business would have been over. But as I spoke it appeared someone had stolen the bones from her face.
Hardly anyone wrote to their wives about Aix-les-Bains because there were nice American girls there, girls who worked for the YMCA or the Red Cross, who had steamed across the Atlantic, often with their mothers beside them, to do their bit. To share news from home, to dance at the American bar, to smell of familiar soap and speak of familiar things.
It wasn’t as if most men reported home about French prostitutes either, but they were easy to write out of the story. While days walking the lake or nights dancing with the American girls at Aix-les-Bains became the story for many. Better to say nothing to the wife still loved but unimaginably far away.
I got off easier than most, since I had no one to tell, no one from whom to keep a secret. Still, I thought of her afterward from time to time—the girl, not older than seventeen, who’d approached me in the casino. When I arrived at the hotel I had to cut the mud off my feet with a knife. I’d been exhausted beyond words, drinking whiskey-sodas and playing cards. We talked for hours by the lake. She was from Ohio and came over on a ship called the Esmeralda. I felt soft from the whiskey. I leaned against her on a stone bench in the dark.
“You look much too young for this,” she said.
I tried to kiss her, and felt her lips smile against my lips.
The particular lie came to mind, I think, because Mrs. Hagen reminded me of her. They looked nothing alike. It was a demeanor, a delicacy that seemed to suggest life was not such hard work.
“Yes,” Sarah said. “He was in Aix-les-Bains in early 1917, I think.”
“He seemed happy there,” I said.
“You could tell that?”
“I thought I could.”
“He was already losing his mind then,” she said.
Reading Group Guide
This reading group guide for The Verdun Affair includes an introduction, discussion questions, and ideas for enhancing your book club. The suggested questions are intended to help your reading group find new and interesting angles and topics for your discussion. We hope that these ideas will enrich your conversation and increase your enjoyment of the book.
In this heartbreaking exploration of love, secrecy, and the lingering effects of war, a romance between two young Americans in Europe in 1921 has unexpected and devastating consequences. Tom and Sarah meet in Verdun, France, where he works in an ossuary and she searches for news of her husband, gone missing during the war. Her search takes them from Verdun to Bologna, Italy, where they encounter Paul, an Austrian journalist, in an Italian hospital—all three drawn there by a shell-shocked patient with no memory of who he is, who they call Douglas Fairbanks. Decades later, Tom and Paul meet again in Los Angeles, where Tom is working as a screenwriter. As they turn over their shared history, the two men struggle once more with the mystery at the heart of their experiences with World War I, with Sarah, and most of all with Douglas Fairbanks. A gorgeous, devastating narrative of desire and loss, The Verdun Affair is a deeply moving meditation on what matters most in a world gone mad.
Topics & Questions for Discussion
1. At the beginning of the novel, Tom is working in an ossuary in Verdun, sorting bones. How does this impact his understanding of the war? How does it affect his feelings toward the women he meets, searching for their husbands and sons?
2. When Tom first meets Sarah, she’s just caught a koi fish from the church’s pond in her purse. How does this set the tone for their relationship?
3. Why do you think Tom tells Sarah that he met Lee Hagen?
4. One day, collecting bones, Tom imagines the war experience of a man named Martin, whose mother once came to the ossuary to ask Father Perrin if her son, then dead, had ever received her letter. Tom imagines Martin’s childhood, swimming in the village lake; his adulthood as a stone mason; and then his time as a soldier, finally deciding that it “couldn’t be” (p. 36) that this man he imagined had died—that he must have been taken prisoner instead. What might be the purpose of Tom’s thought experiment?
5. Tom, reflecting on his experiences in World War I, quotes a famous line from Hemingway’s A Farewell to Arms: “Abstract words such as glory, honor, courage, or hallow were obscene beside the concrete names of villages, the numbers of roads, the names of rivers. Finally, only the names of places had dignity.” Why would these words (p. 41) resonate with Tom?
6. When Tom and Sarah visit a medium together, the woman conjures up a spirit—but not the one that they’re looking for. How do the themes of miraculous connection and false hope play out further in the narrative?
7. Before Tom, Sarah, and Paul meet Douglas Fairbanks, Tom hears of another famous soldier-turned-amnesiac, a man called Anthelme Mangin. The publisher of the newspaper where Tom works writes that this man rejects his identity because “in the age of industrial war, an identity can be stolen on the whims of strangers and at a moment’s notice” (p. 120). Do you agree or disagree, and why?
8. Why do so many mothers wait to see Douglas Fairbanks, knowing that he is almost certainly not their son?
9. Sarah believes men prefer a frightened woman. Paul believes men prefer a happy woman. Dr. Bianchi believes that women don’t have the freedom to express illness. How have women’s roles shifted since the 1921 portrayed in The Verdun Affair, and how have they stayed the same?
10. When Tom and Sarah travel together, they call themselves Mr. and Mrs. Tom Morrow. Do you see irony in this choice, or is it an expression of optimism?
11. In Los Angeles in the 1950s, why doesn’t Tom want “his” song to be written into a movie?
12. In a world where everyone is grieving, why do Paul and Sarah hold on to the specific hope of finding a single man—respectively, the man that wronged Paul and the man that Sarah married? What’s the relationship between forgiveness and vengeance in this novel?
13. After the riot in Bologna, Tom and Sarah find a group of boys whipping a cadaver with their belts (p. 257). What symbolic value does this action have?
14. The song Tom hears a soldier sing in Aix-les-Bains—the song he tells Sarah that Lee Hagen sang—ends with, “the perfect end to a perfect year.” How do the lyrics reflect the situation in Europe in 1921, as well as the three main characters’ experiences?
15. What do you make of Dr. Bianchi’s final treatment with Douglas Fairbanks? Why are Paul, Sarah, and Tom willing to see Douglas Fairbanks suffer?
16. At the very end of The Verdun Affair, with the glimmer of a new life before him, Tom remembers what it was like to drive an ambulance in combat during World War I (p. 291). Can you imagine why that image might come to him at that time?
Enhance Your Book Club
1. Further research World War I by reading one of the books the author mentions inhis acknowledgments, such as A World Undone by G. J. Meyer or The Price of Glory by Alistair Horne.
2. Check out Nick Dybek’s first novel, When Captain Flint Was Still a Good Man.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Set in Europe after WWII, The Verdun Affair is an epic story about love and war and identity that will capture your heart and your imagination. It follows the lives of three people, thrown together in the aftermath of the war and again, nearly 30 years later in California. Impeccably researched, Dybek's tale is sometimes stark and ugly as it takes you into the trenches and killing fields of France, a mental asylum in Italy and the Italian streets during black shirt's uprising in Italy and yet, through all the ugliness, Tom, the hero manages to retain a goodness and sense of hope that will warm your heart. The Verdun Affair is not light reading, but it's great read that will keep you wondering until the very last page.