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A portrait of the strains of a military marriage and meditation on what it means to be left behind—a brave account of the challenges facing the wife of a Naval fighter pilot.
When she fell in love with her brother’s best friend, Rachel Starnes had no idea she was about to repeat a painful family pattern—marrying a man who leaves regularly and for long stretches to work a dangerous job far from home. Through constant relocations, separations, and the crippling doubts of early parenthood, Starnes effortlessly weaves together strands from her past with the relentless pace of Navy life in a time of war. Searingly honest and emotionally unflinching—and at times laugh out loud funny—Starnes eloquently evokes the challenges she faces in trying to find and claim a sense of home while struggling to chart a new path and avoid passing on the same legacy to her two young sons.
At once a portrait of the devastating strains that military life puts on families and a meditation on what it means to be left behind, The War at Home is a brave portrait of a modern military family and the realities of separation, endurance, and love that overcomes.
“Rachel Starnes’s The War at Home navigates the joys, fears, compromises, and casualties that create the terrain of marriage. And if you are a military spouse, her memoir will reveal thoughts you never even knew you had. This is a wise and fearless book.”
—Siobhan Fallon, author of You Know When the Men Are Gone
“One of the most honest and genuine memoirs I’ve ever read, as well as one of the most finely written. There’s not a false note in these pages. Rachel Starnes’s story is at once both singular and emblematic. . . . The War at Home is that rare thing: a book about the here and now that promises to last well beyond next month or next year.”
—Steve Yarbrough, award-winning author of The Realm of Last Chances and Safe from the Neighbors
|Publisher:||Penguin Publishing Group|
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About the Author
Rachel Starnes received her MFA in Creative Nonfiction from California State University, Fresno. Her essays have appeared in The Colorado Review and Front Porch Journal. She has lived in Scotland, Texas, Saudi Arabia, Florida, California, and Nevada, and is currently on the move again with her husband, two sons, a cat, and a puppy.
Reading Group Guide
An Introduction to The War at Home, by Rachel Starnes
The public image of Navy fighter pilots is built on danger, courage, and Top Gun bravado; they are known as elite airmen who perform risky high-altitude acrobatics and put their lives on the line for their country. But behind these heroics, there is another, quieter battle being faced at home—one in which children go months or even years without seeing their fathers, and wives worry with every deployment that their husbands might not come home alive. Rachel Starnes knows this first-hand, and in her memoir, The War at Home, she sheds light on the unsung sacrifices military families must make, and on the toll that those sacrifices can take.
When Starnes’s husband Ross decides to become a Navy pilot, she’s surprised, skeptical, and reluctantly supportive. Starnes is an aspiring writer whose unconventional attitude doesn’t mesh with the cliquish, conservative world of the Navy wives clubs, and she struggles to maintain her own identity as she follows her husband across the country. The constant upheaval of moving from one base to another—losing friendships, leaving jobs, starting over—and the lengthy time spent apart from her husband begin to dredge up painful issues from Starnes’s childhood. Her father, an oil rig worker, was away for large portions of her youth and at one point uprooted her family from Texas to Saudi Arabia, only to send Starnes off to boarding school. As a child, she watched her mother suffer through years of anger and loneliness; as a teenager, she expressed her own unhappiness through drug use and self-harm. Now faced again with a life of painful uncertainty, Starnes realizes that she and Ross could be repeating the pattern of absence and resentment that nearly destroyed her own family.
The War at Home is bluntly honest and tender, marked by heartache as well as sharp wit. Starnes avoids laying blame or delving into self-pity, even in the face of enormous challenges; her experience with a crippling episode of postpartum depression is harrowing and deftly wrought. With vivid language, she observes the details of life on a military base, and is able to capture the beauty of a late-night swim in the desert and the horror of a fiery jet crash with equal skill. But she also gives voice to Ross’s dedication to the Navy and the passion that inspired his career, as well as the enormous joy that she finds with him and their sons. Over the course of The War at Home, Starnes works to build a life for their family on a shifting foundation of love, sacrifice, worry, and commitment, eventually understanding that this is a battle that begins anew each day.
1. What drew you to The War at Home? What was the most surprising moment in the book? The most challenging? The most touching?
2. If you have been a member of a military family, does Starnes’s depiction of life on a Navy base match your own experience? If you haven’t, is there anything in your own life that could help you relate to the experience of being a military spouse?
3. What appeals to Ross about joining the Navy? How does he describe the experience of flying a jet? Are there any ways in which Ross adjusts his own expectations or ambitions to accommodate Starnes’s?
4. The military is rigidly hierarchical, and the Navy wives clubs follow a similar structure. Why? How does Starnes respond to this?
5. Both Starnes and her mother sacrifice a great deal for their husbands’ careers. Is it fair for one spouse to dictate the family’s life and priorities?
6. Do Starnes and her husband have unrealistic expectations about their post-deployment reunions? Why?
7. Why is Starnes reluctant to move onto the base?
8. After the arrival of her first son, Starnes offers a searing description of the self-loathing that depression can bring (p. 168). Have you, or has someone you loved, struggled with depression or related psychological challenges?
9. What roles do women play in The War at Home?
10. “Either way,” Starnes writes, “the delicate balance of power within our marriage is bound to keep shifting back and forth in the years ahead” (p. 241). What does Starnes mean by that?
11. If you were to write a memoir, would you be comfortable sharing so many of your intimate moments? Why would someone choose to publish these things? What do others gain from the author’s honesty?
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Unfortunately, I have to agree with the other one star reviews as the overall tone of this book is annoyingly whiny. Moreover, as a wife of a career fighter pilot, the "war at home" that Rachel describes is nothing extraordinary. I would guess that nearly 90% of all the wives of fighter pilots have faced the challenges that Rachel reports throughout her book. I am also bemused that she reports being so poor (as an officer's wife) that they lived across the street from a meth house! The flight mishap aka crash is the closest that she comes to describing any type of war. Losing any military member during peace time or war is always hard, but there is an indescribable element of fear sitting at home wondering if your spouse will return from combat aviation mission. Overall, I was disappointed because she used her husband's career to lure me into buying and then reading the entire book.
The War at Home is an unique look at a wife’s perspective on military life and the challenges it will bring to your life. Most military books I have read focus on the one who is serving in the military and the challenges that they face, in this book it is told from the person left home. I am not a military wife and have no experience with being in the military other than a few good friends who are part of military families. This book is a great eye opener to what a family goes through with the decision to be made, the separations, the stresses, and just the way of life when the military is involved. The story is not fast moving. There are details that would have got lost if the book had moved too fast. I appreciated that Rachel took the time to share the details and the feelings of her life. The history of Rachel is also important even though it was pre-marriage and pre-military. I enjoyed the stories of her childhood, especially the teenage years. That history gave a perspective into why she had some of the reactions she had. This is a great look at the other side of life in a military life. The life of a mother and wife are often overlooked. This is a great memoir and I recommend picking up your own copy.