To Kill For
Ex-boxer, ex-paratrooper, Joe once had meaning in his life. People who cared for him, people who needed him. Then he lost everything, and now he is a hitman for London's most vicious criminals.

Brenda was the only woman who ever loved him. The only woman who believed he could escape the underworld. She died protecting others: now Joe wants revenge on her killers. With nothing left to lose, Joe prepares for the fight of his life...

This is a poignant thriller about love, revenge and redemption from a superb new voice in British crime.
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To Kill For
Ex-boxer, ex-paratrooper, Joe once had meaning in his life. People who cared for him, people who needed him. Then he lost everything, and now he is a hitman for London's most vicious criminals.

Brenda was the only woman who ever loved him. The only woman who believed he could escape the underworld. She died protecting others: now Joe wants revenge on her killers. With nothing left to lose, Joe prepares for the fight of his life...

This is a poignant thriller about love, revenge and redemption from a superb new voice in British crime.
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by Phillip Hunter
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Overview

Ex-boxer, ex-paratrooper, Joe once had meaning in his life. People who cared for him, people who needed him. Then he lost everything, and now he is a hitman for London's most vicious criminals.

Brenda was the only woman who ever loved him. The only woman who believed he could escape the underworld. She died protecting others: now Joe wants revenge on her killers. With nothing left to lose, Joe prepares for the fight of his life...

This is a poignant thriller about love, revenge and redemption from a superb new voice in British crime.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781781853405
Publisher: Bloomsbury Publishing
Publication date: 09/11/2014
Series: The Killing Machine , #2
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: eBook
Pages: 304
File size: 2 MB

About the Author

Phillip Hunter has a degree in English Literature from Middlesex University and an MA in Screenwriting form the London Institute. He was part of the team that sequenced the human genome.

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To Kill For


By Phillip Hunter

Head of Zeus Ltd

Copyright © 2014 Phillip Hunter
All rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-78185-340-5


CHAPTER 1

We burned her on the Thursday. It was one of those dull March days. There was no sky, just wall to wall grey, no colour anywhere, no sun, no wind. It wasn't warm. It wasn't cold. It wasn't anything. It couldn't even be bothered to rain.

It didn't matter.

We crawled along the Eastern Avenue and Blake Hall Road and past the Flats, and I watched people trudge by with their heads down and their hands in their pockets, pushing their children and pulling their shopping and dragging their lives about. The whole world was in mourning. I saw an old Sikh bloke by the side of the road. He watched us go by and bowed his head.

I could have carried the coffin in one arm, it was so small. Instead, four of us walked with it; me and Browne and Eddie and some bloke the funeral house laid on. Browne couldn't walk straight.

The service was a rushed job and I had the feeling the vicar, or whatever he was, wanted to get to a wedding or christening or something, anything that was far away from a lump like me and an old drunk Scot and a black gangster and a small dead girl in a small brown coffin who'd never had a fucking chance. He gave us the usual such-a-tragedy spiel and mumbled a prayer or two. When he told us that she was safe now and in God's arms I wanted to grab him by his clean white collar and drag him down to where she'd held her dead, blood-soaked sister and to where she'd been used as bait for a robber who'd liked kids, and I wanted to ask him where his fucking god was then. Eddie put a hand on my arm. He said, 'Take it easy, Joe.'

Maybe he was thinking the same thing I was. Probably not.

Browne wept through the whole thing. I couldn't blame him for being drunk. He'd liked the girl. He'd thought he could help her. He'd thought he could help me. He couldn't even help himself.

Cole came to the funeral. Some of his men were around, out of the way. They were tooled up and edgy, but Cole seemed okay. He and Eddie nodded to each other. Browne avoided him.

We went to a pub afterwards, me and Browne and Eddie. A couple of East European women came in. They told us they'd worked for Marriot and they were glad he was dead and they were sorry about the girl, even though they'd never known her name. Eddie bought them a drink and they cried a bit. While we were there, other people in the pub quieted their talking and avoided eye contact and dribbled out. A thug, an old drunk Scot, a black criminal and two prostitutes sitting in a bar. It sounded like the start of a joke.

Browne was still pissed but downed a few glasses of Scotch and managed to get pissed all over again and bawled some more, which left Eddie as the one to do the talking, even though he'd hardly known her either. He tried, though, and said things like 'She had you two at least' and 'He paid for it, Joe. Marriot. And Beckett too,' and stuff like that and all the time I sat there knowing I might've been the one who'd fired the round that killed her. It had been a blazing fight and my head wasn't right and I'd let loose my old Makarov semi-auto and shot the place to shit. So, yes, I could have been the one.

Then Eddie bought another round and raised his glass and said, 'Here's to Kid.'

And we all raised our glasses to a tiny dead African girl who was so thin I was scared of crushing her to death when I held her, and who looked at me wide-eyed and open-mouthed, like she was looking at something frightening, and who was named Kindness and who we called Kid.

CHAPTER 2

I was staying at Browne's. I was still weak and I'd fucked up my arm again when I'd charged into Marriot's club and flattened the place and ripped through his men and killed the cunt as he'd tried to crawl away from me, blood trailing from his gut. So I needed to mend it, my arm.

Browne fussed over me like an old woman. In his eyes, I'd tried to save Kid. I can't say if that's true. Maybe it was more like she'd saved me. I don't know. I didn't tell him that I might've been the one who'd killed her.

I remembered that night in fragments, as if my memory had fallen to the ground and smashed, and when I looked down at it I saw only broken reflections of myself.

It was getting harder to remember things clearly, to put them in some kind of order. Events, people, time kept getting mixed up in my head so that the past and present were jumbled together. Brenda, Kid, that Argentinean conscript on the foggy mount; all these things would come to me still, and I'd be back there, with them.

What I remembered was that Marriot and Paget had used a thief called Beckett to rip off Cole. They were taking Cole's turf away from him bit by bit. I was the mug they chose to pin it on. And then Marriot had double-crossed Beckett and kept all the money for himself. That's where Kid came in. Beckett liked children, and Marriot had used Kid to get inside his place and let in the killers.

And then I went in looking for Beckett and she was there, curled up in a cupboard, nothing more than a bundle of bones and loose clothes and a .32 pointing at me.

But, of course, it went back further than that, way back into my own past, back to Brenda, and the past became the present.

So, Browne fussed over me and, in between being unconscious, kept checking my shoulder and my arm.

'This time let the bloody thing heal,' he'd say.

Cole sent some doctor round to help fix me up. The doctor was a specialist at something or other. Cole was trying to pay me back for fixing Marriot and getting his money back; money that I'd helped steal in the first place. Anyway, Browne didn't like it, this doctor turning up. Maybe Browne thought I was his patient, or maybe his ego was hurt. He cheered up when I told the other doctor to fuck off. I didn't want a gaggle of them round me all the time.

The law had to be bought off, or shut up anyhow. Nobody wanted them involved, least of all me. I'd murdered Marriot, after all. If you can call it murder, which I didn't. Anyway, Cole and Dunham had clout and they fixed the law. There was an understanding between the two of them. They were friends now, like Stalin and Hitler. They fixed it so that the blame went onto the Albanians who, like Eddie had said, were getting too big for their Albanian boots. There was a lot of stuff on the news about clampdowns on foreign gangs and the Albanians got mentioned. It suited Cole and Dunham that everyone thought they were to blame. The Albanians had brought Kid into the country in the first place, and they'd worked with Marriot, and if Cole and Dunham managed to wipe them out of existence, I, for one, wouldn't mind. So it was all neat and tidy and everybody was happy because the Albanians had been officially declared the bad guys and one thing people like is to know who the bad guys are.

Paget was still out there, of course. He was another matter. I had to get him, for my reputation if nothing else. He'd been Marriot's enforcer, his killer, his pit bull. Six years ago, Brenda had grassed Marriot to the law. He'd found out and Paget had sliced her up. I learned all that too late. Six years too late. I'd buried her death in a frozen part, hoping I'd never have to see it again. Instead, it was before me, thawing, festering in the heat of recent events.

So, I knew now what had happened, and I knew that others knew. If I let it go, I'd lose face. I tried to tell myself that destroying Paget was just business, but I don't think I believed that.

With Marriot and the others it had been different. I'd killed them because I'd had to. Marriot wanted revenge on me for what Brenda had done to him, and I'd had to hit him before he hit me. Then, too, there was the money. He'd used me to get Cole's robbery takings and I'd had to get it back because I'd been on the job and I had my reputation to keep clean. Yes, had to keep that reputation clean. It was all I had.

With Paget, it was something else. Paget was on the run and Cole was after him. I'd got Cole's money back, but Paget still had a million quid's worth of Cole's heroin. I didn't need to go looking for him; I could let Cole do that. But I wanted him, and I knew when I had him I'd tear him slowly apart. I'd murder him by inches, and murder it would be. I couldn't lie to myself about that.

CHAPTER 3

Brenda.

It started with her. It would end with her, one way or the other.

Brenda.

I tried to remember her sometimes, tried to recall the best things about her. Mostly, I failed.

But there were other times when I tried not to think of her at all, other things I tried not to remember. Then, she came to me. In the darkness, she came. In the moments of madness, when my head hurt and my eyes stopped seeing what was real, she'd come and her face would be full of blood.

And yet, for a while it had seemed so ordinary between us. It had seemed just like I see it on TV, or in pubs on a Saturday night, two people, their eyes locked on each other, smiling, laughing, talking quietly as if there was nobody else in the whole world.

Well, maybe it had never been like that, but it had been almost like that. Sometimes. And those were the times I tried to remember. But, somehow, the sweetness always soured.

One time, we went to the market. I forget which one, probably Petticoat Lane or Brick Lane or one of those poncy ones with expensive gear for tourists. Maybe it was Portobello Market. They'd changed a lot since I was a kid, these markets. Back then you bought cheap boots for a tenner. Now you bought cheap rip-offs for a hundred quid.

So, we went, me and Brenda. It was a Monday and we both had the day off. This was only a couple of weeks or so after we'd started going out. I'd picked her up at her flat. She'd invited me in and made me a cup of tea. She'd made an effort, make-up and perfume and all.

She brought the tea in and handed it to me and I told her she looked nice. She smiled, that broad open smile, her eyes sparkling for a moment. She looked young when she did that.

But, then, the smile would fade and a sadness would creep into her eyes. I would think that it was me who'd caused that. I'd think that I wasn't what she was looking for. I wasn't the romantic type. I didn't know what to say, how to act. So, I'd always be expecting her to tell me it was over.

But just when I'd think that, she'd smile at me and take my arm and push herself close to me and I'd start to think that maybe I had a chance after all.

The market was busy. It was summer and hot and there were tourists and locals squeezed along the road, between stalls that sold cloth and handbags and leather jackets that smelled warm in the warm air. Brenda tottered along on her high heels, picking things up and showing them to me and saying stuff like, 'What do you think, Joe? Does it make me look sexy?'

I could never tell if she was making fun of me. I didn't much care if she was. She had that spark in her eyes. She was enjoying herself. That was all I cared about.

At one stall she tried on a pair of shoes and asked how much they were. The bloke said he'd let her have them for fifty. She put them back.

'I'll think about it,' she said.

Finally she bought some make-up stuff, beauty cream, that kind of thing.

But then something happened to her. She froze, and I looked at her and saw that her gaze was on something in the distance. I looked, but could only see a crowd of people.

I asked her what was wrong, but she only said it was too busy for her. She didn't like so many people, she said.

She dumped the creams in the plastic bag the woman had given her. Then she took my arm and said she was hungry. I was hungry too. I'd been hungry for a couple of hours.

She dragged me to a greasy spoon, well away from the market. We had burgers and chips. She ate in silence and that spark was gone from her eyes. I wondered about that.

When we were having coffee, she opened the bag of stuff she'd bought and fished through it all and then put the bag down on the floor.

'Shit,' she muttered.

I asked her what was wrong.

'Oh, it's nothing.'

'What?'

She sighed.

'I'm annoyed with myself. With this lot, this junk.'

'Why'd you buy it?'

'I dunno. Retail therapy, I suppose. Only I can't afford to really treat myself. So, I buy this crap, when what I really want is something really nice.'

She looked at me, waiting, so it seemed. Then she went back to drinking her coffee and I went back to drinking mine, thinking there was something she was waiting for me to say, not knowing what it was. I felt a fool around her, sometimes. I felt old and ugly and stupid. Usually, I didn't care about all that. But with her ...

'You haven't been out with many women, have you?' she said.

The coffee cup had been halfway to her mouth. Now she'd put it down.

I thought about what she'd asked me. I'd been with women, of course. But 'out' with them?

'No,' I said. 'Not really.'

'You see,' she said, quietly, 'you're supposed to buy something for me.'

And then I went cold, and a kind of fear hit me in the guts. I call it fear, but I'm not sure that's right. I don't know that I have the words for it.

I'd known fear lots of times. You couldn't live like I had and not know it. But it was always a kind of good fear. It was something you could get hold of and fight and use. It pushed you on. It fed you.

Often, it was a fear of dying. In those times, if you tell yourself you probably will die, the fear has no way to get to you. You say, yes, I'll die, so what.

But this time, in the cafe the fear was different. It was a sick kind of fear, a terror, in a way. Mostly, though, I think it was more like sadness.

Or despair.

So, there it was. I'd wondered all along why she'd want to be with me.

I took my wallet out and started to pull some notes from it. Then she put her hand on mine, and I looked at her, not knowing what the fuck I was supposed to do. And I saw on her face I'd made a mistake. There was an odd look to her. It was almost panic.

'Christ,' she said. 'No. No.'

That first night she'd talked to me and asked me if I wanted to get a cup of tea, I'd asked her how much it would cost me. I wasn't used to any other kinds of women. And she was a pro, after all. So I just assumed I was a john to her.

But I'd hurt her that time.

And now I'd hurt her again.

'Shit,' she said. 'I didn't mean that. Oh, Christ.'

She wiped a tear away from the corner of her eye.

'Sorry,' I said, putting the money away.

I felt relief, though. I felt that.

'Is that all you think of me?' she said. 'After the time we've been together, and you just think of me as a whore?'

'No.'

I thought I'd blown it. I thought she'd get up and walk out. Instead, she was quiet for a long time, her gaze on the table top. I didn't say anything. I didn't move. I don't think I breathed, not even wanting to disturb the air in case she remembered I was there. I wanted her to forget I was there. I was offensive to her, I thought. I was a stupid lump, I thought.

But just when it seemed she was getting up the courage to leave, she looked at me and smiled a bit and said, 'I'm sorry, Joe. I'm being unfair. It's just ... well, it's that men often buy something for the girl they're with, especially when they've only just started going out. And ... and I thought, maybe you don't really like me.'

'I'm here,' I said.

'Yes,' she said, sliding her hand over the table. 'You are here.'

It was odd, I thought, that she was so afraid I wasn't interested in her, that I didn't want to be with her. I was no catch, I knew that, but it seemed important to her that I like her, wanted to be with her. I didn't understand it. Not then. Later, of course, I did.

After a while I told her I had to go out, make a phone call. I ordered her another coffee and told her to wait there. I went to find the geezer who'd had the shoes. He was closing up his stall, as most others were.

'Gone, mate. Sold.'

'Haven't you got another pair?'

'They're originals.'

'Huh?'

'They're from the seventies. Retro. They don't make 'em no more. I can't just go out and buy a few pairs. I can only sell what I get, see.'

'Right.'

I felt a fool, standing there. I didn't know what the fuck I was doing, running around after a pair of shoes for some bird who'd probably ditch me in a week anyway.

Still, I stayed, looking around the stall for something to buy. The bloke carried on packing his stuff away, glancing at me now and then. Finally, he stopped, looked at me and said, 'You were here with that black bird. Tall thin girl.'

'Yeah.'

'You know, I've got a dress, cotton, would fit her to a T. It's similar to them shoes too.'

So, I bought the cotton dress. It cost me sixty quid. The bloke said that was a bargain.

I gave it to her when I got back. She went all misty eyed and smiled and unwrapped it and held it up and said, 'Oh, Joe. It's beautiful.'

I thought she was trying a bit hard.

'The shoes had gone,' I said.

'This is much better. I've got a secret place where I can put it.'

I must've looked at her a bit odd because she burst out laughing, and whacked me on the arm.

'Not there, fool,' she said.


(Continues...)

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