Whether we like it or not, control is an illusion. God and the universe laugh when we make plans. We can try hard to materialize something--a new job, the perfect body, trust, our dream partner, inner peace--without success. And sometimes life deals unexpected blows: illness, divorce, death. Turning Dead Ends Into Doorways: How to Grow Through Whatever Life Throws Your Way introduces eight teachers to help us navigate the unknown in daily life--fear, awareness, choice, body, intuition, energy, intention and surrender.
With compassionate honesty and a practical sense of humor, healing practitioner Staci Boden shows her readers how to navigate change without clinging to false notions that if they just do this or think that they can dertermine what happens next. How to let go of false expectations and still make excellent choices. How to grow and heal no matter what life throws their way.
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About the Author
Staci Boden is a San Francisco-based writer, healing practitioner, and energy worker. Through her company, Dancing-Tree Consulting, Staci works with individuals and groups to help transform decisions, projects, and relationships. She sees private clients as well as leads personal and spiritual development workshops in energy work, sacred dance, breathwork, and guided visualization to help people learn how to navigate life. Visit her at dancing-tree.com, via twitter at @staciboden, via LinkedIn at linkedin.com/in/staciboden and via facebook at facebook.com/StaciBodenDancingTreeConsulting. Photo credit: Kira Boden-Gologorsky.
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TURNING DEAD ENDS INTO DOORWAYS
How to Grow Through Whatever Life Throws Your Way
By STACI BODEN
Red Wheel/Weiser, LLCCopyright © 2012 Staci Boden
All rights reserved.
Entering the Unknown, One Step at a Time
In reaching for this book, some part of you may already be recognizing a need to do something different in your life. Perhaps you've experienced violation in the past and continue to feel surrounded by damaging relationships. You're bored at a job and don't know how to find inspiration. You're aching to feel a baby's chubby thighs grip your hip but haven't conceived, or even met a partner. You're experiencing stomach pain and suspect that you need more than a diagnosis. You're considering divorce. You're committed to growing awareness, but you find New Age spirituality disappointing. You've lost a sense of who you are beyond being a mother. After years of great psychotherapy, you feel stuck and talking is no longer enough.
In all of the above, there's usually a sense that something is off and there's got to be another way. A transition moment regarding relationships, work, finances, parenting, or health is on the horizon. The energy of your own potential is inviting you into the unknown.
If you are someone who gets to pause before making a choice to transform your life, count your blessings. There are many people who don't have such a luxury, who are thrust into the unknown by life's circumstances.
If you are struggling with something like cancer, chronic illness, years of infertility, the sudden loss of a beloved, or financial collapse, you are already immersed in the unknown.
Essentially, you're balancing on the razor's edge between survival and extreme jeopardy in an immediately physical, emotional, or perhaps spiritual way. It's true your reality doesn't offer you the same kind of choice as the person who gets to take a big in-breath before deciding to awaken. You know that God laughs when you make plans, you recognize that control is an illusion, and you've been stripped bare. This can feel like a violation, and perhaps you're feeling raw inside this naked truth all the time.
For all those facing challenges from health to money to inexplicable loss, my heart is with you. The truth is, the unknown is waking you up by pulling you into the mystery through what's happening in your daily life. I recognize that hot aching fear might be burning a hole in your stomach. I'm so sorry for your pain, and my words mean nothing. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make your life easier, but I can't. I respect that you might need to get really furious. Shout. Cry. Grieve. I realize this may take awhile.
I don't know why life has dealt you these cards, and I'm not going to try to find answers from the past to make sense of it. Does naming your challenge "karma" really help when you get your fifth migraine in two weeks and your four-year-old wants you to get out of bed and play? If it does, I support you. But if it just makes you feel more helpless and hopeless, then I suggest letting go of the need to know why you arrived at this place. Instead, I invite you to learn how to connect with and navigate through the unknown that surrounds you.
From False Positivity to a Healing Journey
In my experience, Western culture connects happiness with successful achievement. In adulthood, we begin to understand that success isn't always possible. Life is filled with ups and downs, unpredictable and sometimes glorious triumphs, and soul-shattering experiences of pain and loss—all reflecting an undeniable element of unknown mystery.
Many of us turn to spirituality for help in riding the highs and lows of existence. Some people find meaning through attending church, temple, or mosque while others don't feel so safe inside organized religion. I'm someone who—despite an affinity for my Jewish culture—isn't at home in a temple but feels deeply connected to spirituality. For me, the definition of spiritual does not necessitate a belief in God but does include a hunger for meaning: an urge to connect with something bigger than ourselves, which can happen through art, work, dance, prayer, cooking, conversation, meditation, parenting, hugging trees, or practicing gratitude. While traveling with my father as a teenager, I had a spiritual awakening that initiated over fifteen years of training and practice with individuals, groups, and small businesses. But just after discovering spirituality, I bumped into some beliefs that didn't jibe with my life experience, a feeling that has only been confirmed over the years.
For a long time, I've noticed how some spiritual beliefs equate achieving a certain positive outcome with healing. The idea that individuals can learn a particular lesson and free themselves from tangible illnesses. The notion that inner work plus positive thought is the road to manifesting exact dreams. The view that reality is a reflection of thought and so bad things can be avoided by changing thought. I've observed that in our humanness, we're trying to make some deals with the unknown mystery of life who some call God: I'll be spiritual and get to be in control. I'll be spiritual and get what I want from life. I'll be spiritual and safe from pain and hardship.
I'm not saying these beliefs are wrong or bad, just that I consistently encounter people for whom these beliefs aren't working. People still lose jobs. Cancer appears out of nowhere. Chronic illness doesn't end. Meeting a great partner isn't happening. Women have miscarriages or can't conceive babies. People are engaging in many different wellness modalities—physical, emotional, spiritual—but they aren't receiving the healing they want. And often, because people can't control the outcomes of these situations, they end up feeling like they've done something wrong. Some of these beliefs perpetuate this idea so that people feel victimized by the very sources claiming to help them.
Yet, what's the alternative? Wanting to achieve happiness by fulfilling dreams is a normal human endeavor. I don't want to give that up. Do you? At the same time, trying to manipulate reality with control can create challenges. Because when reality doesn't look the way we want, in our humanness we may just bury our head in the sand. Today people are questioning the price we've paid—literally—for losing sight of reality in the search for happiness. Moving through the world in denial hasn't really helped most people. Climate change, shrinking environmental resources, and failing economies reveal ongoing global unrest. Especially now, when reality around us is uncertain, we need everyone here with eyes wide open, strong and ready to face current challenges. We need to grow another level of self-reliance so we can sustain ourselves no matter what.
Beyond Control to a Meaningful Unknown
In my healing practice, I offer a different kind of spirituality. A spirituality that moves underneath positive or negative circumstances to help individuals develop internal resources they can access any time. A spirituality that applauds fiery questioning. A spirituality that cultivates personal truth to grow authenticity. A spirituality that accepts pain alongside joy as an equally important—though not equally comfortable—way of finding balance. A spirituality that forgives mistakes in order to learn. A spirituality that shows people how to trust and have faith even when what they think, believe, or sometimes experience makes no sense. Ultimately, facilitating exploration becomes a doorway for people to awaken consciousness and discover their own spiritual connection.
Developing an authentic spiritual connection begins with letting go of using spirituality to feel safe by maintaining control. This doesn't mean giving up traditions that are meaningful to you. Rather, I'm inviting you to loosen your attachment to practicing spirituality as a way to achieve a certain outcome. The key word here is loosen. Letting go does not have to mean giving up choice or relinquishing goals. But holding on to a desired outcome with a death grip leaves little room to connect with the unknown mystery of life.
Our desire for control rests on a human need to feel secure and to affirm life. The reality is that control is an illusion. Despite iPhones and Google Calendars, there's no way to truly predict what's around the next corner. We may or may not know small things, like what's happening tonight, or big things, like if we will meet a soul mate, survive cancer, or get pregnant. Nobody knows the exact minute of death. Even if the road taken is familiar, something unexpected can always happen. The unknown is a tangible force that permeates daily life.
Not knowing can feel uncomfortable and can lead to many machinations to avoid facing the truth of what it means to really not know. Instead of relying on control and denial to resist feeling vulnerable (and scared) in facing the unknown, you're invited to develop a conscious relationship with the unknown through daily life. From there, letting go becomes a practice of navigating life in partnership with the unknown to generate meaning.
Spirituality as a Way of Life
Drawing from life experience, spiritual teachers, earth-based training, women's spirituality, and fifteen years as an energy practitioner, I connect the practical with the spiritual to help people find a point of balance between reality and the unknown mystery. Practical Spirituality holds that healing is a journey as much as a destination. If you can let go of control—which is really an illusion, after all—and engage in a conscious relationship with the unknown in daily life, along the way you'll cultivate healing no matter what reality appears on the doorstep.
Furthermore, when you take a leap of faith, the unknown does not leave you stranded and alone but instead responds in the context of daily life with synchronistic events that expand learning. On this journey of meaning, daily life becomes the training ground to transform. Sometimes loss and disappointment happens; sometimes dreams materialize. In the process, you grow your own healing gifts—authenticity, inner authority, trust, faith, peace, gratitude—that have the power to sustain you anywhere because they aren't based on achievement; they're rooted inside.
Instead of perceiving the unknown reality as a big hairy monster in the closet inspiring fear, denial, and blame, you can reframe not knowing into something powerful and also beautiful. You can approach the unknown carefully, even strategically, with respect while embracing its vast and infinite potential. You can learn how to not only trust the unknown but also have fun while growing a relationship there. Along the way to making friends with the unknown, you can take a developmental leap that redefines healing from a positive result to a source of balance practiced in the context of daily life. By entering into a relationship, you give up control but learn how to navigate the unknown.
Your journey begins with choosing one area of life to focus on throughout this book. As you move through each chapter with this focus in mind, eight teachers—fear, awareness, choice, body, intuition, energy, intention, and surrender—facilitate your relationship with the unknown. Each chapter also contains questions, practices, and stories to further your learning and help you indentify your unique healing gifts. To illustrate how synchronicity— meaningful events—informs a relationship with the unknown, I invite each teacher to guide and inform me through daily life happenings. I chronicle my experience throughout the book. In this way, I am with you in navigating the unknown.
Choosing Your Inner Theme or Daily Life Focus
In order to avoid becoming lost in the unknown, you'll focus on one area as you move through the eight chapter teachers. Usually, there's at least one part of life that seems especially challenging. It can look like something negative or positive.
To identify a focus, contemplate unresolved issues in your life. You're looking for what feels most challenging because either you're not getting what you want or you may be about to get it all. You might also consider what you're really attached to. Ask yourself: What would I most like to control? Finally, fears around a life issue can be a helpful indicator of unfinished business.
Some daily life areas include:
Body: health, body image, sexuality, fertility, pregnancy and childbirth
Relationships: life partnership or marriage, friendship, parenting, siblings
Career: vision, work-life balance, productivity, commitment
Finances: self-sustainability, prosperity
Creativity: inspiration, flow, experience, expression (art, dance, voice, writing, music, crafts)
If emphasizing one area of life doesn't resonate, you can focus on a life theme. Usually, this is an overarching pattern that expresses itself throughout your life. For example, I spoke with a woman today who is considering focusing on fertility, not the physical, getting-pregnant fertility but how to awaken potential. If you're experiencing a transitional moment, a life theme may be regarding a particular aspect of development. A sixty-one-year-old woman will focus on herself as an emerging sage to help her embody her next stage of life. Other options could include letting go of a dream or shifting fear to discover your life's purpose.
Whether you focus on a specific outer issue in daily life or an underlying inner theme is your decision. As you grow a conscious relationship, the unknown will eventually inform all areas of your life. My teacher Jyoti has always said, "Inside, outside, same side."
Throughout the book, I'll include exercises to help guide your thought process as you acclimate to working with these new teachers. You may want to take notes about these exercises in a journal or computer document so you can look back later and see your growth.
Once you've identified a daily life issue, pattern, or developmental focus to help guide you through the unknown, the next step is to turn it into an intention. Because intention is a central teacher in this book, we'll study it in depth later. For now, we can start with a few basics. I see an intention as something—usually a word or sentence—that helps you locate where you are in relation to where you'd like to be.
How is an intention different than an affirmation? The language can look similar but the main difference lies in how one holds an intention. I see affirmations as more outcome based ("I am abundant," "My migraines are healed," "I am powerful."). An intention helps you hold the present moment, the unknown, and a possible future.
As I write this, a dear friend of mine is waiting for pathology results after removing a cancerous tumor. Shira Shaiman is the mother of two young boys, a three-year-old and a ten-week-old. In the twenty years I've known her, she's been vigilant about physical, emotional, and spiritual self-care, exemplifying conscious living. She even cowrote a book on nutrition. If Shira can get cancer, anyone can. We're all holding an intention that her pathology results will come back clear. When we spoke recently, Shira named cancer as a journey through the unknown. She considers cancer to be an opportunity to embody her fullest self. So while Shira's holding an intention to be cancer-free, she's deeply awake in the present moment and the reality of the unknown.
Though Shira is an inspiration, there's nothing noble about how she's holding cancer. She told me, "I feel like I'm walking on a tight-rope. I need to be smart here." Damn right. It does Shira no good to hang on to a cancer-free ending for dear life, even though it would be understandable. The high stakes require skillful navigation through the unknown. Now more than ever, Shira needs strong inner authority to guide her through this experience. She also needs help.
By maintaining a vise-grip on what a happy reality looks like, we create a narrow margin for response. When the pieces fall into place, hallelujah, life is beautiful. But what happens if reality doesn't match our picture? Myopic vision can take out our eyes—crush us with despair or blind us with denial—and create victimhood in the process. As a practical woman, I'd rather widen my scope of perception to respond to reality with eyes open. As a mystical woman, I've learned that widening my scope involves loosening and letting go of a specific hold on reality. When I do, the unknown often opens a door of possibility in the context of daily life.
Working with an intention is similar to approaching guided visualization. In guided visualization, you enter an inner world that can come alive to begin a conversation of meaning inside yourself. An intention can take on a life of its own too, except the conversation isn't happening just inside. An intention is a conversation between you on the inside and daily life on the outside. Imagine yourself holding an intention (I'm growing strong). That's your half of the conversation. Now see that intention going out into your daily life. What happens in your daily life is the other half of the conversation. Got it?
Excerpted from TURNING DEAD ENDS INTO DOORWAYS by STACI BODEN. Copyright © 2012 Staci Boden. Excerpted by permission of Red Wheel/Weiser, LLC.
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Table of Contents
Introduction: How Practical Spirituality Found Me ix
Daily life is our spiritual training ground.
1 Entering the Unknown, One Step at a Time 1
Healing is a journey as much as a destination.
2 Signs and Guideposts: Mapping the Unknown through Practical Spirituality 13
We can embody peace while negotiating traffic.
3 Fear: Demons, Lizards, and Little Girls on the Threshold of Change 37
Doubt often screams when you're on the edge of discovery.
4 Awareness: A Light Switch for Developing Consciousness 57
A realization can bring you to your feet (or knock you on your ass)!
5 Choice: Moving from Victimhood to Empowerment 73
Sometimes miracles happen as a shift from inside.
6 Body: The Ultimate Doorway for Awakening Consciousness 101
Designate your body as sacred space.
7 Intuition: Your Inner Compass and Fear Filter 127
Accessing intuition means learning how to trust.
8 Energy: The Heart of Navigating the Unknown 149
When you let go and follow energy, magic enters your life.
9 Intention: The Root and Tip of Embodying Consciousness 173
Begin a conversation with your soul.
10 Surrender: Accepting Death to Cultivate Life 197
Inside the grief of letting go lives freedom.
Now you can grow the capacity to sustain yourself anywhere.