What if...

What if...

by Kelly Rae

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"Katie, are you listening to me?" Chris demanded with a stomp of his feet, like a child.

"Chris, I don't believe you, I know what I saw. Don't treat me like a fool I'm... " Just then a mixed color of lights were projected onto the house and Katie turned to see a Sheriff car pulling into the driveway, headlights on with red and white lights flashing but no sound. When the Deputy got out of the car, her knees gave out and she just about hit the deck. He was here for her, she could feel it down the pit of her stomach. Chris had been right behind her and caught Katie before she fell to the ground. Katie was screaming stop, go away, and in her head but nothing was coming out of her mouth. She closed her eyes, willing the scene to be different when she opened them again. She felt like a small child hiding from the boogieman, if she couldn't see the Deputy then he couldn't see her, right? She would open her eyes to find him gone in five, four, three, two...

"Katie, are you ok?" Chris was yelling at her, for how long she couldn't be sure. She opened her eyes and there was the Deputy, almost right in front of her now. Her mouth wasn't working; her throat felt dry and closed up, swollen like a bad sore throat but with no pain. Numb.

Sometimes in life we know things. Instantly. A sound, a smell, or just a feeling in the pit of our stomachs alert us to changes in life's vibrations that we cannot understand on an intellectual level: they are intuitions. For Katie, this means she knows exactly what's happened to her father before the Deputy tells her, knows he's been in an accident, and knows it's not okay. In fact, she knows it's far from okay. After her visit to his bedside at the hospital that night, she will never see him alive again--the first man she ever loved. And after her father's funeral she is determined to never again see Chris Staller either--the first boy she ever loved.

Fast-forward ten years and Katie is now a beautiful, successful, and driven woman in her late-twenties. But her father's death and Chris' betrayal have clouded every relationship she has had since that night. From potential romantic partners to her closest friends, she has kept everyone around her from getting too close. Working through these intimacy issues while maintaining a stellar career reputation, however, has been a challenge--but challenges are Katie's lifeblood. She rises to every occasion and always comes out on top.

When Katie pays a visit to her old high school, however, she runs into Chris, now a dedicated PE teacher who pines for the one he let get away: her. An upstanding member of the community and a much better man than he was a boy, Chris is determined to win Katie back at all cost. But Katie is less than receptive to the idea, and when he lays down a challenge, she is determined to come out on top again.

Product Details

BN ID: 2940014537476
Publisher: Blossom Press
Publication date: 05/01/2012
Sold by: Barnes & Noble
Format: NOOK Book
Pages: 230
File size: 542 KB

About the Author

Kelly Rae lives with her 9-year-old son, Triton, in San Diego, CA. She spends most of her time writing and reading books. She finds inspiration in everyday life, but tries to protect the innocent and occasionally the guilty, in her writing. Chances are you can find her planning a future vacation, with Triton. He says a cruise to the Caribbean, she says maybe Greece! You just never know…

Customer Reviews

What If 4.4 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 13 reviews.
TheAutumnReview More than 1 year ago
Occasionally a book will come along that completely surprises me. I mean, obviously I had interest in reading this book, but I was surprised by how much I connected to the story. I think I read this book in one day. It was a touching story from start to finish. The story begins with Katie in high school on a night she and her boyfriend Chris are breaking up. As you see from the synopsis, her dad died that same night on his way to get her. Katie held a lot of guilt about the accident and also held Chris somewhat responsible for it. That opening, really was emotional. I can not imagine what that must be like. Chris was her first love, but Katie left and never looked back. Now years later she returns and is surprised to run into Chris. Her old emotions surface and she's forced to deal with it. What she didn't expect was to have to fight her attraction to Chris. Katie is an easy character to relate to. There were a few times she drove me nuts, but I could really understand where she was coming from. My stomach was in knots when hers was. I felt like I was walking through the story with her. I kept imagining what I would feel like in that situation and I have to say that I think I would have felt the same way. When she was finally able to look at Chris without anger and pain, I felt that she was really ready to move forward. Of course I didn't think too highly of Chris in the beginning of the book, because of his immature high school behavior. However, Chris realized the error of his ways after she left and never really got over Katie. I loved his determination to get her back and it made me fall in love with his character. He just simply wouldn't take no for an answer. They had some serious chemistry and there were some steamy moments, but Chris wouldn't move forward until he felt like she could truly forgive him. That's very honorable in my opinion. How could I not fall for this guy? This book is a great love story. It's a real story. Love is complicated at times. I also felt like it was a story about healing, forgiveness, and moving on. Go check this book out, it's beautifully done.
Madame_Lilypad More than 1 year ago
As a man who typically does not read "these" kinds of books, i was skeptical about the meaning and relevance of this story to me. But, on a recommendation from a friend, I took a leap of faith and read it on a cross-country flight. I have to concede that I was more than pleasantly surprised; the book's real, unvarnished tone conveys a primal honesty about the confusing, inconvenient and conflicting emotions we all deal with as we navigate the imperfect but necessary relationships which shape our humanity. I confess that in a previousl life, i would have rolled my eyes and scoffed at even giving this genre a chance, let alone sample a book by a new author. I am glad I did. Instead of being barraged by romantic cliches and overwrought set pieces aimed at shocking or being different, the story is small-scale, accessible and authentic. Perhaps that is the best compliment I can pay the book and its author: the story is self-contained, internally-consistent and knows its identity. There are no space operas, no overarching villains or exploding helicopters; just real people here on display, dealing with real life. In many ways this book reminds me of a heartfelt conversation close friends might have and that intimacy is its greatest asset. In an era of assembly-line commercial novels with exaggerated character cut-outs, or hyper-graphic, quasi-pornographic drivel desperately attempting to replicate The Story of O, "What if...." is a strong first effort from a new author with a big future.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Fictional_Candy More than 1 year ago
The prologue to this book is vivid and heartbreaking. It was perfect in its simplicity, and right away I felt connected to the main character, Katie. A loser of a boyfriend and a wonderful father who didn’t make it. This really set the stage for how Katie thinks, you can easily tell this was the major event in her life that shaped her. Chapter one brings us to ten years later. Katie has moved back to her hometown to be Assistant District Attorney – her dream job. She realizes she will run into some people she knows, she did grow up there afterall. But there is definitely one person she doesn’t want to see – the jerk of an ex-boyfriend, Chris Staller. “Why is it that in one moment years can disappear, and any sense of who you are slips away when you recognize a face or the sound of a voice? Even a song played on the radio can transport you back in time.” Katie reunites with Sarah, her friend from highschool. Initially I don’t like Sarah. She seemed secretive and a bit manipulative. But I really must say that as the story went on, and I got to know Sarah a little bit more, she really grew on me. My opinion of her changes greatly, and by the end I think she is a wonderful best friend. “You are a damn fool, Katie Wright, if you don’t chase that man down and make whatever it is better.” Don’t we all need to hear the blunt truth sometimes? The man? Chris Staller, of course. Suddenly he’s popping up everywhere; the grocery store, a dinner at her bosses, at her best friend’s house. Chris doesn’t know why Katie is so hard on him. And frankly, I was totally on Katie’s side. I didn’t like Chris, I didn’t want him in her life and I didn’t want him disrupting her life again. But then something changed. Chris grew on me. Before I knew it I was rooting for him. Katie’s stubbornness to even talk to him was making me mad. Couldn’t she see the man he turned into? Her attitude was a shared heartache with Chris and I. This was definitely a terrific story. You really get to see Katie grow. Being around Sarah and her family really made her think… to be around people who have that wonderful, obnoxious, frustrating, perfect family chaos… well, it can get inside a person. It makes them realize what they’ve been missing is exactly what they want. What they need. There is also a pleasant, albeit short, surprise of a person named Amanda. That is one classy lady, one we could all hope to know – or be. I am secretly hoping that Kelly Rae will write a sequel and feature Amanda, because there is definitely someone there worth exploring a bit more. My final thoughts on this book … I really enjoyed it, and I had a hard time putting it down. There were a few times that were a little drawn out when one person or another was trying to relay a history, but it wasn’t overdone. Chris definitely stole the spotlight and I fell in love with his character. Sometimes its nice when a good guy is just a good guy. Katie is intelligent and strong, and sometimes its more of a disadvantage than not, but I love a woman in charge who is not always perfect. She makes mistakes, she flies off the handle, but she is good people through and through. If you like romance that is a little hard to get, and you wonder if the pair will get their happily ever after, you will definitely enjoy this read!
SmittenWithReading More than 1 year ago
My Review: From the moment I read the final line in the prologue and started crying, I knew that I was going to love this book! Her senior year in high school, Katie's father died in a car accident on his way to rescue her after she caught her boyfriend Chris in a compromising position. The heartache of their loss was too much for both Katie and her mother so they left town. In the ten years since, Katie has not been able to forgive herself or her boyfriend, whom she never saw again, for his death. The fact was he wouldn't have been on the road that night if Chris hadn't broken her heart...and her father wouldn't have died. It's ten years later and now Katie is a successful lawyer and has moved back to that small town to be the Asst. DA. She's moved past those awful events and put Chris firmly in her past, even though she does think about him occasionally. What she doesn't expect is for him to still be living in this small town. He too has come back and is now the high school basketball coach. They both thought they'd moved past their feelings, but they were both wrong. Chris immediately knows that she's the one that got away and he wants her back. Over the years, he's forgotten what caused the issues that night to begin with. But for Katie, her feelings for Chris are so much more complex. She sees him and she's immediately overcome with grief, anger, and deep gut-wrenching longing. She never dealt with what happened that night...between them or what happened to her dad because of it. It makes for an incredible, emotional read, although I will admit that I hit a point where I simply wanted her to get past it, but that's because I was falling in love with Chris' character too. The book is written almost entirely from Katie's POV, but the few glimpses you get inside Chris' head are so sweet and honest. He's a guy and he's human. He screws up especially when it comes to women, but his feelings for Katie are so true. You can't help but fall in love with him. On the other hand there's Katie. She trusted him with her whole heart once, but he abused that love. Yes, he was a teenager, but there are definite signs that he could be guilty of the same thing again. You can't blame her for being leery even when her heart is bursting out of her chest in love with him. Like I said, this was just a great read. There was enough angst to really appeal to my reading loves. I will definitely be watching for more from Kelly Rae.
MarissaA More than 1 year ago
From the prologue, I was intrigued, and immediately, I was interested to see what happened to Katie, and her then boyfriend Chris. The Prologue basically gives us the incident on how and why Katie broke off things with Chris. Then the first chapter goes to about ten years later, and Katie, now in her late twenties, moves back to her hometown, the town she left ten years prior, but this is a career move. Who does she end up seeing though, her ex, Chris, who is a P.E. teacher/Coach at their old high school. Seeing each other brings memories, for Katie they are bittersweet, as for ten years she had avoided seeing Chris again. There was definitely conflict between Chris and Katie, as they have a lot of unresolved issues to work through, but Katie just seems not to be able forgive Chris. This story really gives a look on forgiveness, and if we could forgive those that have done wrong to us. It could be so hard, but what does it take to finally to forgive? This was a very good story all in all, really; there were raw scenes here, raw emotions that felt relatable, and I liked reading that, what can be relatable to the reader. The characters were really well developed. There was a lot of background information, especially focusing on Katie and Chris. They were each other's first love in high school. He was actually pretty shy, but then comes confident and smart Katie and she brought him out of his shell, and encouraged him to be a better person, to excel in school and sports, and he did that with Katie by his side. I really liked knowing how they were in high school, and how Katie was having doubts on their relationship even before the incident that broke them up. Having this written in third person was very good; I liked reading what both were sorta thinking, especially Chris, as I well did not really like him in the beginning, but as the story goes on, we see what his thoughts are, and ok I had a more understanding side for him, and was then rooting for them to get together, but do they? Hmm well you're just going to have to read and find out. This was a well written story, and I can't wait to read more from Kelly Rae. I Recommend this Novel! :)
dreamer2229 More than 1 year ago
So have you ever wondered “what if…?” Like what if you had the courage to tell that boy you liked that you liked him, or what if you hadn’t broken up with that great girl? Songs are written about this, pithy sayings also, “you never forget your first love…” ect. Well in “What if” the leading man and leading lady find out what happens when they meet again years in the future. Yes, it’s a ‘typical’ romance, with a twist. In this instance Katie’s dad died the night she saw Chris, her high school love, kissing another girl because of a dare. This and her father’s death remain locked together in her mind and never get dealt with, so of course you know they have to meet again later. Chris has gotten hotter and Katie more beautiful, and more distant. Can the hunky Chris melt her icy heart? You’ll have to read the book to find out. I give this book 3.5 clouds out of 5 and a chili pepper rating of 6, not for children but not too graphic… like I said romance novel. This product or book may have been distributed for review; this in no way affects my opinions or reviews.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
I loved it! It was an easy read that I couldnt put down. I can't wait to read more books by Kelly!!!!!
JanetBr More than 1 year ago
I really enjoyed this book! It captured me from the very start. Kelly keeps a strong story line throughout the book. I loved that we got to know Katie from her personal struggles to her career. I found myself reaching for this book every time I had a couple of free minutes. It was a great way to relax and take a break from real life. I look forward to Kelly's next book coming out in December!
SoccerMomSS More than 1 year ago
Kelly Rae's first romance book was wonderful. One I picked it up, I couldn't put it down. Looking forward to more books by Kelly Rae!!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Such an easy read, fell right into the story and loved the characters. Katie was very relateable & Chris gave me a little hope....gonna work on finding one of him for myself!
JoBell More than 1 year ago
A fun, funny, and poignant journey from first love through finding life’s path, Kelly Rae’s debut is a sweet love story that serves as a reminder to the healing power of forgiveness. Learning to follow the heart is a lesson everyone must learn, and her unadorned prose underscores the emotional terrain of that passage with powerful simplicity. Full of extraordinary grace and warmth, What If…will fill your life with hope and an inner knowing of life’s positive force.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Love this writer, looking forward to reading more of this authors work. I loved this story, it pulled me right in and I didn't want it to end.