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If you scrolled through the Instagram feed of 19-year-old Maddy Holleran, you would see a perfect life: a freshman at an Ivy League school, recruited for the track team, who was also beautiful, popular, and fiercely intelligent. This was a girl who succeeded at everything she tried, and who was only getting started.
But when Maddy began her long-awaited college career, her parents noticed something changed. Previously indefatigable Maddy became withdrawn, and her thoughts centered on how she could change her life. In spite of thousands of hours of practice and study, she contemplated transferring from the school that had once been her dream. When Maddy's dad, Jim, dropped her off for the first day of spring semester, she held him a second longer than usual. That would be the last time Jim would see his daughter.
WHAT MADE MADDY RUN began as a piece that Kate Fagan, a columnist for espnW, wrote about Maddy's life. What started as a profile of a successful young athlete whose life ended in suicide became so much larger when Fagan started to hear from other college athletes also struggling with mental illness. This is the story of Maddy Holleran's life, and her struggle with depression, which also reveals the mounting pressures young people, and college athletes in particular, face to be perfect, especially in an age of relentless connectivity and social media saturation.
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About the Author
Kate Fagan is a columnist and feature writer for espnW, ESPN.com and ESPN The Magazine. She is also a regular panelist on ESPN's Around the Horn and can also be seen on Outside the Lines, First Take and His & Hers. Previously, Fagan spent three seasons covering the 76ers for the Philadelphia Inquirer. She is the author of a memoir, The Reappearing Act, and co-host of the espnW podcast, Free Cookies. Kate lives in Brooklyn, New York with her girlfriend Kathryn Budig, and their two dogs.
Table of Contents
Foreword Alison Overholt ix
Author's Note 3
Chapter 1 Shattered 5
In Real Life 22
Chapter 2 August 23, 2013 39
Chapter 3 The Collapse 63
Mind, Body, Spirit 78
Chapter 4 Vacuum 92
Active Minds 108
Chapter 5 Just Sleep 123
All Alone 137
Chapter 6 Size Nothing 151
Chapter 7 Snow Falling 168
The Quitting Game 189
Chapter 8 The Meeting 204
Chapter 9 The Picture 235
Chapter 10 Spruce and 15th 257
The Rules of Suicide 279
Chapter 11 Shattered II 290
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
A necessary read for anyone who can either relate to suicidal thoughts or may need some perspective. Also, if you have a teenage child this might remind you to be more aware of your kids mental health.
Perfect balance of the general issues concerning the growing mental health issues in society, the author's experience in similarity to the story she was telling, and the actual story of Maddy. This book explains perfectly that there is no answer. There is no singular cause, there is no singular cure, and there certainly is no singular story that will encompass what people all over the world suffer through every day who are afflicted with depression and anxiety. While I was able to connect personally to this story because of the factor of collegiate athletics, it pushes the boundaries further to include all victims of the disease and those who are trying to support their afflicted friends and family. The conversation about mental health and the damaging effects that certain aspects of our rapidly modernizing society is unfortunately not had enough. Ms. Fagan does an amazing job of starting the conversation again with her telling of Madison Holleran's story.
Absolutely one of the greatest books I have every read. Maddy is brought to life and insight into mental illness is translated throughout the writing in such an elegant way. A must read.
Well wrote. Hard to put down.