Will I Ever Be Free of You?: How to Navigate a High-Conflict Divorce from a Narcissist and Heal Your Family

Will I Ever Be Free of You?: How to Navigate a High-Conflict Divorce from a Narcissist and Heal Your Family

by Karyl McBride Ph.D.


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ISBN-13: 9781476755694
Publisher: Atria Books
Publication date: 02/10/2015
Pages: 256
Product dimensions: 6.10(w) x 9.10(h) x 2.90(d)

About the Author

Karyl McBride, Ph.D., is a licensed marriage and family therapist with more than thirty years of experience in public and private practice, specializing in treatment of trauma. She is a leading authority on narcissism and author of Will I Ever Be Good Enough? Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers. She is a contributing blogger for Psychology Today, Huffington Post, and her recent book was featured in the New York Times book club. Dr. McBride can also be found online at WillIEverBeGoodEnough.com, KarylMcBridePhD.com, and Facebook.com/DrKarylMcBride.

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Will I Ever Be Free of You?

  • For the past twelve years a yellow sticky note has somehow clung to my refrigerator. It says, “Go After Your Purpose and God Will Give You Your Dream.” I stuck that quote on the fridge when I was writing my first book, Will I Ever Be Good Enough? Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers. It’s dog-eared and faded, but it still greets me as I begin each day.

    The purpose that has driven me throughout my career is the hope that I can help people make sense of the many complications in their lives created by dysfunctional families and guide them in healing from the legacy of distorted love that results. In my thirty-plus years as a therapist, I have seen that narcissism, a personality disorder that goes beyond mere selfishness and vanity, is a prevalent cause of family problems. Narcissists are grandiose in their need for praise and attention. While they often overestimate their own abilities, they diminish the people around them, particularly the ones they claim to love. Being in an intimate relationship with a narcissist can be exhilarating and all-consuming, but often, in the end, the narcissist consumes you, your hopes and dreams, your peace of mind, and your money.

    From the clinician’s chair, I have heard the pain and seen the tears of narcissists’ victims, including adult children, young children, partners and spouses, abused children, and victims of crime. This work has also led me to specialty areas, such as forensic interviewing and expert-witness testimony, and much interaction with the court system, attorneys, judges, law enforcement, and social services, on which I draw to help you in this book.

    Many people wrote to me after my first book, Will I Ever Be Good Enough?, was published to share their personal stories of life with a narcissistic mother. I was honored to receive so much correspondence from around the world and touched that readers reached out to me. In addition to their relationships with their mothers, however, my readers also wanted to talk about their romantic relationships. In reading the first book, they had learned that their mothers’ narcissism had distorted their expectations of love so much that their relationships were now with other narcissists. Their letters described them as trapped in conflicts with narcissistic partners, enduring unending arguments and manipulations, saddled with enormous legal bills and never coming to a resolution. Almost every letter held a tone of despair. Why did they keep falling into partnerships with narcissists? Their questions led me to conduct more research and clinical work, and to write this second book.

    As you read on, please know in my heart I wish I were sitting with you on this journey to understanding your life. It is difficult to find yourself in such turmoil and pain, and difficult to comprehend how a relationship that probably started with such a powerful attraction could devolve so completely. Love is the greatest gift we give to each other, but narcissists do not have the capacity to love. They’re charmers, especially in the beginning of a relationship, but their limited ability to empathize or sympathize with other people’s feelings causes confusion and pain to their partners. It is also devastating to the children they bring into the world.

    If you are a child of a narcissistic parent or have fallen into the deep pit of a relationship with a narcissist, then you have probably been prevented from developing a whole and healthy life. I believe that you can free yourself from the pain that narcissists have caused you, learn more about yourself, and heal yourself and help your children heal, too. I hope this book brings you important information that will make a difference for you and your loved ones.

    Will I Ever Be Free of You? is divided into three parts: “Recognizing the Problem,” “Breaking Free,” and “Healing from the Debilitating Impact of Narcissistic Relationships.” First the book shows you how to recognize the problems that a narcissistic partner causes you and your children. Then it helps you to understand the confusing dynamics of being involved with a narcissist, to weigh and balance whether you should stay in the relationship or leave, and when to make the right life choices for yourself and your children. And finally it provides you with a road map for recovery. As a divorce will likely involve the judicial system, the book also addresses issues you’ll come up against and how to deal with them in the current system. I also present my ideas about needed court reforms.

    In this practical guide you will learn how to weigh what is best for you and your children as you deal with a narcissistic partner. Don’t try to navigate a divorce on your own. Educate and prepare yourself to understand how narcissists react to disagreement, separation, divorce, and child custody. While I will tell you about some of the bad things that have happened to other people who have been through narcissistic relationships, I’ll also tell you the positive side of getting free and about the healthy, healing experiences you can then have. If you recognize yourself or your partner or spouse in these stories you read, I hope you will have the courage to continue and begin your recovery.

    Ultimately, the message of this book is one of hope. If you have ever looked at your partner and thought in despair, Will I ever be free of you?, the answer is yes, you can be free. This book offers tools to protect and nurture you and your children. Once you understand what turned your life upside down and inside out, you can break free and rediscover your authentic self. You can free yourself and your children from the legacy of distorted love. Let’s get started.

  • Table of Contents

    Introduction xi

    Part 1 Recognizing the Problem

    Chapter 1 Am I in a Relationship with a Narcissist? How Do I Know? 3

    Chapter 2 This Is Not the Person I Married: The Dynamics of the Relationship 17

    Part 2 Breaking Free

    Chapter 3 I'm Married to a Narcissist: Stay or Leave? 33

    Chapter 4 What Is Best for My Children: Help with Divorce Decisions 49

    Chapter 5 The Divorce Process: Court Warfare 63

    Chapter 6 Getting Help: Troops to Defend You 85

    Part 3 Healing From the Debilitating Impact of Narcissistic Relationships

    Chapter 7 Post-Divorce Combat: Raising Your Internal Defenses 107

    Chapter 8 Moving On: The Armor of Healing 127

    Chapter 9 Empathetic Parenting: Your Wounded Child 149

    Chapter 10 The Pilot Project: AIMS 175

    Job Descriptions for the Therapeutic Team 195

    Intake Forms for the AIMS Pilot Project 201

    Acknowledgments 207

    Notes 211

    Bibliography 215

    Empathy Resources 247

    Resources for Children 219

    "Reel" Therapy 223

    Index 225

    About the Author 237

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