Without Love: A Neanderthal's Journey

Without Love: A Neanderthal's Journey

by LDouble JC


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This book is a collaboration between a self-described modern-day Neanderthal man and a woman who just happens to be in a relationship with her own Neanderthal. The authors were interested to look at the concept of love from a more traditional perspective that doesn't seem to be as popular these days and to combine their very different life and love experiences into something tangible.

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ISBN-13: 9781524606473
Publisher: AuthorHouse
Publication date: 05/19/2016
Pages: 164
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.35(d)

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Without Love

A Neanderthal's Journey

By LDouble JC


Copyright © 2016 LDouble JC
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ISBN: 978-1-5246-0647-3


Symbol Enchantment

.... pieces for the Neanderthal

"Uug moo ba cha, snu eeerrr click qliuk nnnn mmmmurrrgg thump oooo pth pth uug moo ba;" says the Neanderthal to the female at the first sunset that they share before he thumps her on the head and drags her back to the cave or rock to make her his own. Maybe in these weird grunts is a word that has some of the same meanings or emotions that we or homo-sapiens have had our whole lives and never really knew where it came from or how it came to be.

The world as we know it began (you the reader can decide how; i.e. The Big Bang Theory, God's creation, a magical appearance, or whatever your imagination can come up with) and every living being let it be animal, human, microbial, or spirit holds the instincts of not becoming extinct. The grunts and the moans are what we believe to be part of some type of language over 250,000 years ago to our image of what the first Neanderthal born sounded like. The male, in our minds, would have been strong browed, almost beastly, with a hairy posterior and yielded a club or stick of sorts; possibly poking at a new member of the clan, or outsider, which may be a potential mate. A protector and huntsman type, but extremely wild is what we have come to understand since they had small brains. Though the female may have been an enraged, but submissive being, they too were very animalistic; and it was the instincts of survival to attach themselves to the strongest, or most dominant male figure, to extend life and to go without being hungry or lonely.

We would like to assume they want to feel a bond stronger than a club to the head in hopes of family and survival. These two beings eventually figure out the awkwardness of themselves, choose to mate, and possibly have what we know today as emotions, or at least some feelings upon each other. After the mating ritual, the female starts to change as she holds a bundle within her belly that soon will be the male's new path of teaching or even the new blood line; depending on whether she carries a boy or girl to term, and they are able to grow up. One might be the male's pride, then successor; the other may become his new bride when upon the right age, keeping the clan growing until another male is born. The new being of the two mates cries, spits, shits, and maybe even makes grunts to which the new elements together try to figure out how to survive, all while growing as a family. The male learns how to protect more than himself and the clan; and the female learns to protect her bundle of joy, snarling at anyone who comes near to harm this first identity of family, including the brutality of her mate. This is just a representation to where this one ideal in our world could have come from. Maybe these formed clans were the first representation of humanoids to experience feelings of endearments.

The original Neanderthal may have paved the way to what happens to us the very moment we are born. Even though our modern day medicine and science exists, it is still difficult to figure out the long chain of neurons and wirings still not completely known to man, our brains. As time has changed, our brains have developed to be more complex from that of our original Neanderthal ancestors. Our brains develop and we are pre-destined or are created with some form of pre-notion that allows us to have feelings, emotions, and understandings of life, and our surroundings. We learn how to act, react, or even comprehend and there are many things we encompass; but there is just one intrinsic word that gets implemented or engrained into our everyday lives. It has more meaning and purpose than any other word or feeling, whether shown or stated. It is a four letter word or in our language, but it may have been a mumble, a grunt, or maybe just a certain touch to the original Neanderthals. This is a word that holds a lot of underlying meanings and represents a gamut of emotions, as well as feelings, all the way through our lives; from conception, to our mother having carried us to term, then being raised to adulthood and finally in death as our eulogies are given. Even those whom are abandoned know the word meaning (or lack thereof), but they may not know it fully until they have experienced this word in one of its varying degrees. Just think about how you feel when you do or do not experience the emotional ties that happen with the representations of amore. This book is not about to overuse that very word, in fact, just the opposite. It is a chance to explore its many connotations and feelings through different eyes; maybe the eyes of a Neanderthal and perhaps experience other words to use as an equal or which have the same relevance.

If you're still reading then I welcome you the reader, as the modern day homo sapiens to The Modern Day Neanderthal. You, I, and the rest of the human race are all a bit crazy when it comes to matters of the heart. We tend to throw this word around with heavy difficulty but at the same time with the slightest of ease. Until we let go and explore the possibilities that this one word may mean more than just something to say to others. At the erectus level, you can be judgmental about the Neanderthal because you already know how to start expressing yourself and have the insights and education to what is and is not important when learning the matters of the heart. Though as a homo sapien, would you be able to teach a modern day Neanderthal what this word is without overusing it or abusing what it should represent? The Neanderthal, though, struggles to understand this one crazy, mind altering, passionate word. It has so many passages through life from the past to the present, and is expressed every single day by millions. It makes us wonder if our Neanderthal ancestors actually got to experience these emotions and feelings that go along with the word, or did it just evolve into what it is today? Was it even a word that had meaning, or just something over used and underappreciated, as it seems today? This one word can change the mood of a person instantaneously, but could also be as thrown away as the garbage we create by the pound daily; just leaving all emotions and feelings out the window.

Upon the experiences of the word through many facets of life, it becomes clear that there is no deeper subject, and nothing more impressive than what our life and society has in this one word. It holds four letters and encompasses its own mystique to which it is more like a phenomenon that everyone and no-one can explain. It is a word that has roots in Old English, Latin, Ancient Greek and Roman eras; as well as holds around 281 references in the Bible, if this Neanderthal could read the Koran, there is no doubt that it may be found there too. From the day we become a fertilized egg, this word is an embodiment of intrinsic meaning set as the strongest bond between a mother and her child; a feeling that embraces the very essence of the heart and soul. This one word that has been implemented and given so much power unto objects, people, and everyday life, portrays the best and worst emotions and feelings upon ourselves of which we have minimal to no control over. Yet there is no other word to take its place or use as an equal to leave such an impact upon the world. There are many differences in the way it is used. The word has been around for a very long time, maybe before Neanderthals; maybe as a grunt that transcended into what we know of it now. In fact, I believe that now in today's society the word has actually lost what it must have meant when it was first set and defined; but can this word really be defined to one way? I would say no; and we will explore this throughout.

The word we are embarking upon is not just a four letter word. It is embodied in the mind, spirit, feelings, emotion, bonds, ties and symbolically through our everyday lives. Whether good or bad, has held many symbols over the years and throughout the decades. Do yourself a favor as the reader -- if you know the word this Neanderthal is talking about, write down or draw two of your favorite symbols that represent this word in the margins. Why did you pick these symbols? Probably, between your life experiences and specific brain wiring, it is these types of symbols that have the most meaning to you in your life; for your version of what passion is. What is the correct symbol? The answer is whatever we allow the symbol to be; we chose items to represent what we believe to be the all empowering symbols of our embodiment of this word; no matter our religion or background, we all have that symbol that means so much to us. To some, the symbol chosen might be nothing more than a pile of sticks and mud. This pile may have been just the beginnings of a structure for a dwelling to keep the clan safe from harm; or a first feeling of embracing that instinct to protect the ones we care about. There are many symbols that we as a society use for this empowering word, but this Neanderthal is only going to touch on a few of them.

The world has so many symbols for this word that a Modern Day Neanderthal has many to choose from. These symbols range from roses, knots, triangles, hearts, apples, four leaf clovers -- if you're Irish, arrows, the wings of a dove, cupids, hummingbirds and so many more. So what would a real Neanderthal of today think about all the different objects that represent this one impressive word that is only four letters? Would they be able to decipher the meaning of these specific symbols providing they already had some knowledge and understanding of the way each symbol is used? So how does one pick a symbol and know it is the right symbol for the correct meaning and situation? Would a Neanderthal be able to express the emotions depicted by way of an object, like we do for Hallmark holidays? Can the Neanderthal find someone that understands that same representation of the symbol chosen in the same way? Which one symbol do we find the best for our Modern Day Neanderthal?

For those of you homo-erectus who understand symbols, let's think about the fruit symbols, or at least the most commonly represented and known -- the apple. The apple was first talked about and has been described in the Bible, when Eve took it from the Forbidden Tree. Whether good or evil, it was a representation of the trust two people have in sharing and being as one as their journey began. As time, life and science move forward we learn from the myths and stories that our ancient ancestors left behind. From wall depictions to the interpreted language of time we have learned that many cultures sacrificed plentiful fruits such as grapes and apples to those Gods and Goddesses who were adorned to keep the piece or provide strength or belief among the people. The apple gets commonly used to describe or represent many sexual connotations as well as a brand that we know today. From the electronics to the clothing brand like Apple Bottom Jeans it is a statement and a symbol in our everyday society.

Mind Shaper: "I own a pair of those jeans!"

Neanderthal: "does it come with boots of the fur?"

Also, the apple is used to represent one person's endearment by stating that their partner is, "the apple of their eye." As an edible object, let's hope our Neanderthal is not hungry and misinterprets any butt or eyeball for an apple; because though eyeballs are full of nutrients for birds when we turn into carcasses, they are not quite the same as a Washington or Granny Smith. If the Neanderthal should choose to start biting said asses and eyeballs, we may have an epidemic of zombies running around. As another saying goes, an apple a day keeps the doctor away. So let's make sure to take care of ourselves first. Nurture yourself, respecting what's within before expressing emotions through symbols upon others. While our Modern Day Neanderthal tries to start hunting for his mate with fruit traps and not eating all the bait, there is only hope that he realizes that this is not the sole way to capture another's pulsing chest.

Mind Shaper: "What does that have to do with mere attraction towards others?"

Neanderthal: "Simple, it's just ONE of the many symbols. I mean, we can explore different symbols!"

Speaking of beating organs, the heart is the instrument of life much like the organ in a church on a Sunday sermon. The organ represents an endearing sound in churches and some baseball games, most of the time. Though the harp tends to be a much more romantically played instrument and could cause a mate to pay amorous attention to the Neanderthal, just like muses of the 1570s. The harp is a symbol that has been considered an instrument to help with lyrics and poetics in the making of beautiful sounds that enchants the feelings of a wanted heart. In Norway, the harp has been considered a ladder to higher emotions of passion or a way to get to paradise. So a beautiful instrument for strumming could be used to tame the beast within, and would aid the Neanderthal in creating those sensual sounds of attracting a mate with more than snarls and grunts. But he needs to now learn how to play so it is not a sour note in creating such a passionate connection. The harp is sometimes also associated with Cupid (or the one who stabs us with that emotional feeling around that evil, Hallmark holiday, Valentine's Day), yet another confusing symbol for our Neanderthal. When he carries his arrows shooting those with the best intentions, it is in hopes of two people falling madly for each other. Or is this our own belief of Cupid trying to play practical jokes and actually causing us to fall, creating more emotional chaos?

Many humans, and in some instances, animals in the world, have used some natural earthly items that are considered to represent this word as a symbol in some form or another. Penguins show it by getting a pebble to their one life partner, yet we humans do the same with stones and a band around the one we believe is the truest.

Neanderthal: "Sometimes, the 'truest' can be found two or three times!"

Mind Shaper: "But sometimes you find THE one, and that's all you need!"

A couple of these other symbolic examples are the maple leaf or the beauty of the jasmine flower, if our Modern Day Neanderthal happened to have Hindu influences or ancestry among Asian, Chinese or European decent. The jasmine flower, a Hindu symbol that is represented throughout the Asian and Chinese cultures, holds a bit of modesty and certain attachment feelings towards dear ones. This is much like when we use our olfactory senses and we know when we have arrived at grandma's house, or the smells of our favorite desserts. All of these experiences are representations of what this word means to us. While on the topic of nature, the maple leaf is another depiction in which we use as an object of adornment. The maple leaf was used by early American settlers and was carved into the foot of the bed to repent demons, encourage sexual pleasure and supposedly help with a peaceful night's sleep. The leaf is also a symbol depicted in photos of storks carrying babies, maybe to ward off demons?

Neanderthal: "It makes you wonder about the Canadian flag -- could you replace the symbol with the word and have it mean the same?"

Mind Shaper: "Only a Neanderthal would try to change Canada's flag, the symbol of their country!"

Without picking nature or some random object, each person actually has a symbol and carries it with them at all times. In our modern everyday life we say "I heart you" with our hands in the shape of a heart out in front of us as if we took that shape right from our own chest. The shape of the human heart is more like the shape of our fist or even a weirdly shaped potato, but with the superior vena cava and aorta sticking out of it. The shape itself that we perceive and draw has stories and different meanings but has taken way as we know it over the years. The Silphium, an extinct plant, had seeds in the heart shape that we know and was the main ingredient in birth control of its time. Historians believe this is one way that we have learned and adapted to the heart shape. As one of a few or many theories which try to explain the shape of the heart, the plant seems to be the most talked about, yet it cannot be proven that this is actually where the shape came from.

Another theory on where this symbolic shape came from is related to Aphrodite by way of the wings of a dove, well at least the back side of the dove. Good luck catching one to check the theory but holding one with wings together does make sense for the shape. Our Modern Day Neanderthal might be able to trap a dove and hand it to a perceivable mate. One more realistic theory is that the heart shape is modeled more closely to a cattle heart because it was more readily available to see than a human heart in past centuries. In medieval times, some artist depictions were botched or accidently misunderstood when given a description of what a heart was to look like. So the cattle heart became a catalyst for representation. These are the offered theories for where the representation of the heart started. Others have even tried to pin the shape based on parts of the female body; of the breast, the buttocks and even the vulva; as the female pelvis also closely resembles a heart and it is where life is birthed and first perceived after conception. Many believe that this last theory of the womans body is the reason for the shape and that its meaning is one of adornment. If our Neanderthal now takes these different theories he will begin to understand how to use and treasure the symbols around. Whatever symbol he chooses to use will hopefully be used for an enduring courtship and not scare away any possibilities. This shape, the heart, has been perceived as the most acknowledged symbol over time; whether it be ancient, historical, modern or expressive the Modern Day Neanderthal now has this at his disposal.


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Table of Contents


Preface--To The Reader, ix,
Symbol Enchantment Pieces For The Neanderthal, 1,
NeanderSong, 17,
Neanderloss A Short Story, 34,
Brainderthal? Or is it Really Neanderheart?, 51,
Neandergirl A Compassionate Soul, 69,
Neanderlating Connecting With Others, 75,
Neanderboned The Other Connection, 89,
Neandertime Short Time Long Time, 103,
Neanderyou Well Who Else, 119,
Neanderletter A Chance of Hope, 129,
Neanderfin, 136,

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