Table of Contents
Prologue: Searching for Emerich 1
Introduction: "Vast quantities of this simple, everyday material" 21
The Diarists (in alphabetical order) 33
Part I Occupation, May 1940-May 1941
1 "Paratroopers came down everywhere," 1940 39
2 "One should make the best of it" 55
3 "Anger blazed in young hearts," February 1941-March 1941 63
4 "No graves, no gravestones" 81
5 "Now the games can begin" 97
Part II Persecution and Deportation, April 1942-February 1944
6 "It's so hard to know what to do," April 1942-December 1942 109
7 "Like a good gardener" 121
8 "Was this forced labor or slaughter?" 133
9 "A kind of gathering place" 147
10 "Until at last the truck was full," July 1942-December 1942 157
11 "If only there were more places for these poor people" 179
12 "The time had come to go into hiding" 189
13 "The worst year for all Jewry," January 1943-June 1943 199
14 "The man who goes about with his notebook" 209
15 "Like Job on the dungheap," May 1943-August 1943 223
16 "She just had a very large heart" 251
17 "The tension is sometimes too much to bear," September 1943-December 1943 267
18 "The diary becomes a world" 293
19 "The last of the Mohicans," January 1944-August 1944 313
20 "A journalist in heart and soul" 325
Part III Toward Liberation, May 1944-May 1945
21 "I really shouldn't miss the view," May 1944-July 1944 337
22 "All the trivial things" 347
23 "The silence is almost murderous," September 1944-December 1944 365
24 "What do you have to know to know?" 381
25 "The Empire of the Krauts is over," November 1944-May 1945 397
Part IV The War In Memory, May 1945-May 2022
26 "An archaeology of silence" 421
27 "Suffering and struggle, loyalty and betrayal, humanity and barbarism, good and evil" 435
28 "A gradual lifting of the collective repression" 449
Conclusion: "There were more" 459
A Note on Translations 475
Acknowledgments 479
Notes 483
Photo Credits 503
Index 507