What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

What If the Hardest Things You've Lived Through Are the Keys to Who You're Meant to Become?

In this raw, courageous, and deeply personal hybrid of memoir and self-help, Ashish Saini takes readers on an unforgettable journey through disability, difference, identity, and dignity-from hospital beds to heartbreak, from rejection to resilience.

Born with a rare facial deformity and later coming to terms with his sexuality in a deeply conservative culture, Ashish spent years confronting shame, social stigma, and self-doubt. What began as a fight to be "normal" transformed into a lifelong path toward self-acceptance and authentic living.

Through honest storytelling and hard-earned wisdom, What If explores questions we all carry:

  • What if I'm not enough?
  • What if no one ever accepts me as I am?
  • What if I stopped chasing perfection and started choosing peace?

Each chapter invites you into a moment of reckoning-and shows how even the darkest experiences can become the most powerful teachers.

Whether you're navigating trauma, identity, loss, or simply trying to find your voice in a noisy world, this book will meet you where you are-and help you ask better questions about where you're going.

Inside, you'll discover:

  • How to evolve from innocent hope to mature hope
  • A moving coming out story grounded in strategy and self-respect
  • Powerful reflections on belonging, emotional strength, and inner clarity
  • A roadmap for finding wholeness in a world that demands conformity

If you loved books like Untamed, Man's Search for Meaning, or The Body Keeps the Score-but crave a narrative grounded in both personal pain and practical power-this is your next read.

You don't need to have lived the same story to feel seen by it.

For readers of:

Self-help memoirs, emotional resilience, LGBTQ nonfiction, personal transformation, authenticity, disability and identity stories, overcoming shame, self-acceptance

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What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

What If the Hardest Things You've Lived Through Are the Keys to Who You're Meant to Become?

In this raw, courageous, and deeply personal hybrid of memoir and self-help, Ashish Saini takes readers on an unforgettable journey through disability, difference, identity, and dignity-from hospital beds to heartbreak, from rejection to resilience.

Born with a rare facial deformity and later coming to terms with his sexuality in a deeply conservative culture, Ashish spent years confronting shame, social stigma, and self-doubt. What began as a fight to be "normal" transformed into a lifelong path toward self-acceptance and authentic living.

Through honest storytelling and hard-earned wisdom, What If explores questions we all carry:

  • What if I'm not enough?
  • What if no one ever accepts me as I am?
  • What if I stopped chasing perfection and started choosing peace?

Each chapter invites you into a moment of reckoning-and shows how even the darkest experiences can become the most powerful teachers.

Whether you're navigating trauma, identity, loss, or simply trying to find your voice in a noisy world, this book will meet you where you are-and help you ask better questions about where you're going.

Inside, you'll discover:

  • How to evolve from innocent hope to mature hope
  • A moving coming out story grounded in strategy and self-respect
  • Powerful reflections on belonging, emotional strength, and inner clarity
  • A roadmap for finding wholeness in a world that demands conformity

If you loved books like Untamed, Man's Search for Meaning, or The Body Keeps the Score-but crave a narrative grounded in both personal pain and practical power-this is your next read.

You don't need to have lived the same story to feel seen by it.

For readers of:

Self-help memoirs, emotional resilience, LGBTQ nonfiction, personal transformation, authenticity, disability and identity stories, overcoming shame, self-acceptance

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What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

by Ashish Saini
What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility and Becoming

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What If the Hardest Things You've Lived Through Are the Keys to Who You're Meant to Become?

In this raw, courageous, and deeply personal hybrid of memoir and self-help, Ashish Saini takes readers on an unforgettable journey through disability, difference, identity, and dignity-from hospital beds to heartbreak, from rejection to resilience.

Born with a rare facial deformity and later coming to terms with his sexuality in a deeply conservative culture, Ashish spent years confronting shame, social stigma, and self-doubt. What began as a fight to be "normal" transformed into a lifelong path toward self-acceptance and authentic living.

Through honest storytelling and hard-earned wisdom, What If explores questions we all carry:

  • What if I'm not enough?
  • What if no one ever accepts me as I am?
  • What if I stopped chasing perfection and started choosing peace?

Each chapter invites you into a moment of reckoning-and shows how even the darkest experiences can become the most powerful teachers.

Whether you're navigating trauma, identity, loss, or simply trying to find your voice in a noisy world, this book will meet you where you are-and help you ask better questions about where you're going.

Inside, you'll discover:

  • How to evolve from innocent hope to mature hope
  • A moving coming out story grounded in strategy and self-respect
  • Powerful reflections on belonging, emotional strength, and inner clarity
  • A roadmap for finding wholeness in a world that demands conformity

If you loved books like Untamed, Man's Search for Meaning, or The Body Keeps the Score-but crave a narrative grounded in both personal pain and practical power-this is your next read.

You don't need to have lived the same story to feel seen by it.

For readers of:

Self-help memoirs, emotional resilience, LGBTQ nonfiction, personal transformation, authenticity, disability and identity stories, overcoming shame, self-acceptance


Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781069666635
Publisher: Ashish Saini
Publication date: 08/18/2025
Pages: 208
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.44(d)

About the Author

Ashish Saini is a Toronto-based project manager, certified in PMP and FRM (Level 1), with over a decade of experience driving regulatory and strategic change across global financial institutions. Beyond his corporate career, he is the author of What If: The Journey Through Pain, Possibility, and Becoming, a deeply personal memoir exploring resilience, identity, and the pursuit of self-acceptance. Passionate about emotional authenticity, LGBTQ+ advocacy, and transformational storytelling, Ashish writes to inspire those navigating life's difficult questions with courage and dignity. More information available on my website https: //ashishsaini.com
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