Angel and Apostle

Angel and Apostle

by Deborah Noyes

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ISBN-13: 9781932961294
Publisher: Unbridled Books
Publication date: 10/05/2007
Edition description: First Trade Paper Edition
Pages: 304
Product dimensions: 6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x (d)
Age Range: 13 - 17 Years

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Chapter One Simon

When I tell you that I honor my father, you will think me false.

"The lies of an infant witch-" Simon once teased, "none but the prince of Hell has time for."

Believe what I say, I shouted in jest, seething with disappointment. Whatever I say, or see me curdle your butter. It's all sport to me.

Simon only laughed, as well he might. If it were true that I knew dark arts, I would have saved him while I could. I would have restored his sight and turned time back at the cellar door. Instead, at the inquest, I became invisible. When Nehemiah's eyes looked for me there on the public floor, they found only my grief, puddled like his brother's blood-a deeper color than ever Mother wore embroidered at her breast.

But before death there was a garden. There were children taunting, for I served as well as any Quaker the amusement of Boston's godly youth.

It was the Lord's Day, and we were idle-I with the sting of stones at my back, they shrieking like brats possessed. Because I knew that no pack of holy pygmies would brave the wood without master or mother, I ran and ran, willing myself be an otter and the shade be water. How cool it was and dark, my wilderness. How sweetly it repelled them. With their brat-threats dying in my ears I crashed through a thicket and found in a clearing, as stark as any miracle, a gabled house with a skinny lad in its kitchen plot.

How do I fashion him in your thoughts?

Let us say this boy was still, as still as marble, and riveting for it. What's more, he was as stately in his solitude as the townsfolk I daily spied on (blasphemers and nose-pickers all) were shrunken in theirs. I would come again and find him on a little three-legged stool, milking his cow with deft hands, and again, when he would be whittling by the wall in the sun. But on this day he was sitting, just sitting on a house chair in the green-specked mud of the garden, with his strange, pale eves shifting in their sockets. His hands were beautiful birds chained to his lap.

He must have heard me, but I stood and caught my breath, watching him. When it came my voice was still ragged from the chase. "Why have they planted you there in the shade like a mushroom?"

He looked not before him but straight up, as if my words came from beyond.

"Here," I called. "Past the fence. By the beech tree."

"I won't find you there."

"Why not?"

The boy I would come to know as Simon turned to my voice that Sabbath day, and I considered how much deeper his was than I might have imagined, a man's voice, though he looked to be no more than a scrawny boy. Were I old enough to know better, I would have blushed. Instead I crept closer and scooped a handful of dry leaves from the ground. Leaning over the fence, I showered his boots with them. He did not look down.

"Have you no sight?"

"Who is it wants to know?" he demanded. "A girl pursued hither like a sow?"

"I do." I caught my breath again. "Pearl."

"And who is your father?"

"I have a mother." I murmured her name, courting the barely perceptible nod, the gossip's grin. It didn't come. Then he was deaf, I mused, as well as dark. "And you," I pronounced, arms crossed, "are a stranger here."

"I'm new to this plot but not these shores. We come south from Cape Ann. My father's at sea. My brother will be here yet."

"And your mother?"

He tilted his head. The palms of his hands kneaded his knees. His every movement was slow and measured, nimble as a fox crossing a streambed. "Your voice travels," he said. "First here." One hand made a sweeping arc. "Now over there. Are you moving?"

"I am not."

"Are you a pixie?"

I draped my arms over the fence rail, eyes narrow as a cat's. "I am too old for games."

"Are you a pity?"


He sniffed the air. "Come here, then. Let me smell you."

I snorted, but this was grievously immodest, so I clapped a hand over my mouth. His answering smile was a miracle, and I giggled to hold it fast, though the giggling smacked of greed. Why he didn't make haste to dismiss me then (we're some of us overwilling and run our best chance ragged, trample it underfoot), I'll never know.

He said: "A pretty pity too, I wager. With a pretty laugh."

The hand at my mouth was raw with cold and streaked with blood from my stumbling flight through the woods. I licked a knuckle clean and pulled my cloak tight, backing away from the fence. Moving a few steps through crackling twigs (how thunderous the world became, listening with Simon), I hugged the smooth beech for balance and peered at him from behind it. The moment seemed suspended, and when his empty gaze did not release me I gave what payment I could: "You wondered how I smell?"

Well, then, mused the upraised chin. Tell.

"Mother says like rain."

Still on his chair, the blind boy with the maws voice nodded gravely, sweetly, and my legs felt free again.

My earliest memory is of Mother's strong hands holding me under water. It's no proper memory, I know, but my young life's unrest contained, at last, by her confession.

Embattled, my mother came like a sleepwalker (she revealed on a night when I was bedeviled by dreams-a night years after the fact and one year or so before this story begins) to the water's edge with the same infinite pragmatism that once prompted her mother's kitchen servant to drown kittens or wring the necks of hens. Killing her bastard would mean sure and swift punishment. A noose round the neck, God willing.

"Didn't you love me even a little?" I asked, shocked but not shocked enough, apparently, to leave it be though I was in my seventh or eighth year at the time (I don't know my count exactly) and content, as children are, with the here and now. Mother nestled closer under the bedcovers. She stroked my sweaty hair, kissed my brow, and wished all watery nightmares gone. What she did not do was answer my question.

In the coming days her silence lingered, and my dread grew. Did not every mother love her babe? Though my own failed to reply, she filled my hands and hours with dainty shells, with stones made smooth by the sea, with salty crab claws and the strange, spiny remains of fish. She held my fingers as the waves sighed their ceaseless sigh at our feet, beckoning, and in time as we gazed forth together without fear into the emptiness, I felt safe again.

This earliest of memories, then, is a figment. But in this memory (let us call it that) my mother's hands, like her face with its startled look, are prison-bleached and jaundiced. She cannot hold them steady. Kneeling, she lays the infant me on wet sand, her body quaking uncontrollably with the urgings of the waves and the vast glare of life outside prison walls. She believes (Heaven and Hell were snuffed like candles in that dank jail) that peace will come with a shroud.

Froth tickles, folds soaking over me, and though the cold shock of the surf little resembles the womb, its mild rocking does. So my infant brain has scant cause for alarm until I feel the crush of her cheek against my chest. Rigid with despair, Mother is counting my heartbeats, one two three four five six ... and then she is a fog moving away with hopes the tide will have me. When the tide won't or won't hurry she reaches out, and in her thoughts, her mother's onetime kitchen maid is singing.

It is only when I cease to hear my mother's mad humming, when my ears and lungs fill with airless, fractured light, that I make out another voice. This voice is muffled and aggrieved, reproachful but tender (as Mother's shaking-strong hands had been, holding me under). And I am plucked like a coin from beneath the tongue of the sea.

It was days before Mother finally answered my question: "Did I love you then? I loved no one, Pearl. No soul on earth." Though she said no more, her dark eves spoke for her. Had she courage, I understood, she would have walked into the water with me that day-long before our Puritan minister wandered into that remote bay from some faery realm, striding to my rescue and into his life's mission to right the wrong of my existence.

My father (though I knew him not then) has in his notebooks over the years made fanciful much of Mother's courage, though he never named her in those pages as he did me. Had she the courage he claims for her, both Mother and l would have perished in the surf. Instead we retreated to our little cottage by the bay near Boston, there to endure a thousand petty persecutions, outlast our wary love, and bide our time until he could return to claim what was and wasn't his. Even now, as a woman grown and with the mystery of my father solved, I cannot unpuzzle my mother. But in those days it was my heart and history that consumed me.

"What was it like up there?" I would demand, brushing Mother's dark hair, which with its wave and furtive gloss seemed to me a living thing. "On the scaffold?"

If she considered her answer, her face concealed it. "I felt as a friend to the breeze."

Even I, at best indifferent to society's rules, being fatherless and scorned by all but her, could not forgive this woman-who wore by law the letter "A" on her dresses for my sake, she was not above reminding me-her upright carriage, her terrible calm. It was an affront. "This fine noon," I countered, letting my voice grow mighty like the minister's, "I was nearly stoned to death by cretins." Words hot and relentless as the noon sun must have been that June day years before, scorching her prison-pale cheeks. I thrilled always (and this shamed as punishment never could) to imagine it: Mother exposed on the weathered platform of the pillory while the governor in finery, flanked by sergeants and ministers, scolded from the meeting-house gallery. Was it weeks or months afterward that she thrust me on the sea? Days?

I'd attended my share of public stripings and shamings-idle bond servants, Antinomians, vagrant Indians turned lewd by the white man's spirits-and could well picture the greedy masses milling at her feet, snickering over apples and gnawed cheese rinds. What I couldn't see was my own small self wailing in her arms with no history, no memory. Her shoulders had cried out from holding me that long three hours, she had confessed once in a rare show of self-pity. "My arms quaked like rushes in the breeze."

This night she waited till I'd had my fill of brushing and then stood, shaking her mane and padding barefoot in her nightdress to her stool at the spinning wheel. The heavy thump and whir began, a savage rhythm I despised. Mother's hands were never at home at the wheel as they were with needle and silk threads. In the light of the fire she looked at peace, but what mother would see her child stoned? The world would have me sewn up in my burial cloth, Mother oft accused, before I learned to master my tongue.

An owl called from the meadow west of our cottage, and I felt my blood tug toward the flames. I went and sat at her feet by the hearth, contrite, and rested my cheek against the warmth of her leg. I thought of tiny mice scattering for their nests as white wings beat the grass to a froth. And then my mind fixed on the boy Simon, imagining him at his table in useless candlelight or, like me, propped beside the popping flames, content to stare at nothing.

I roamed west to spy on my quarry the very next day, and the next, and another. On the third day, the house servant-a red-faced woman Simon called Liza-was balanced high on the roof cleaning the chimney. Her stout frame struggled with a rope that held fast what sounded to be a goose. As she lowered the great bird, she called out to Simon on his chair in the yard to aid her. He didn't mind her overmuch as a rule, I soon noticed, though there was nothing imperious in his bearing until she started to scold. Now, as before, he kept his hands imprisoned on his lap, as if they might fly away. Once he even sat on them, but he seemed to know it was no proper posture and set the hands free in his lap again.

The March day was grayer than those previous, and more raw. Liza struggled, and the goose echoed in the chimney, honking and flapping inside the brick well. Liza both cooed to it and cursed it (though once I saw her look up and round with stealthy eye). Enjoying the sun on his face, Simon seemed not to know he was being watched.

Liza let go the dancing rope, and as she wiped her hands on her apron, there was a muffled thud and a great squawking from inside. "There, old girl, keep your head about you. Simon, run, open the door and let this infernal mother loose-"

Simon stood and walked with a hand brushing the wood and casements at the rear of the house. He was bony but sure, and I knew he would run and leap in the meadows if only his eves would let him. I wished he might be my companion. I wished for him.

"Simon! I hear the just arse in there flapping soot all over!"

An instant later, he pulled open the door and out waddled the disoriented animal, black and indignant, trailing a soiled rope from its ankle. I could see the bird had once been white. Up on the roof, Liza clucked and brushed her hands together. She looked as if she might leap in one stout, easy motion through the air, but instead she disappeared from my sight huffing and sweating to where a ladder must have been propped on the other side of the house.

I'd had little sign of the man of the house, nor anyone but Liza pegging her old gray shift to the line or stooped over a kettle in the backyard brewing soap and Simon whistling among the hens, whittling (how I feared for him, but his hands knew the knife, it seemed, as they knew the worn knees of his breeches or the downy stubble on his chin) and trying, when his hands were empty, to tame them. Often he cocked his head to the side, as if listening to music only he could hear. I well understood this posture, this stillness. There was endless conversation in the spring air, but for Simon, I realized, sound must by all rights be like streaks of paint on his world's canvas. Where was his mother? Where was the brother he had spoken of? He seemed so alone, yet content to be.

I couldn't resist. I took an acorn husk and flung it. It landed at Simon's feet and he started. With my hiss, a vague smile spread across his face. "It's you," he said.

"That was a goodly dance you did with that goose, Master Simon."

"Now you have my given name. What's yours, pixie? I won't give you the advantage."

"I told you, I'm Pearl."

"I shan't forget again."

"You best not do."

"And how, long have you been hidden, Mistress Pearl?"

"I've been here three days or so. How long have you been without sight?"

"I've lost count-seven or eight year, I guess." He toyed with a weed he'd plucked by his chair. "I still see shadows. Sometimes. Come, stand closer. Clear the fence."

"No, I won't. Your mother's servant will skin me."

"She's harmless enough. Unless you're a goose."

We both laughed, and I moved out from behind the beech tree to the edge of the fence. I hung on it and studied him. "Why did a shadow pass your face just now when I spoke your mother's name?"

"You didn't speak it." He was silent a moment before revealing, with weary candor, "She is Mistress Weary of this World."

I said no more but tugged at the brush by the fence, weaving leaves into a length of vine I'd pried from the bramble. I fit them into a crown, my fingers moving fast, knowing the work well. But I felt Simon's empty gaze and the shadow of the house like a specter in the corner of my eye.

"I'm weaving you a crown. Your dwelling is very fine. Is your father a great man?"

He considered a moment. "Maybe," he said at length in a level, nearly cheerful voice. "He's of the middling sort, a merchant. But his travels serve him well. And where is your father?"

Had he seen me, Simon would have kept mum, but he couldn't know. He couldn't see. "Mother says I have only a heavenly father," I relented in a voice neither kind nor cheerful.

"My mistress will be gone before the Indian corn is ripe." Simon settled back on his chair and cleared his throat like one ending a grim sermon.

"Well, then," I rallied. "Now that's done, I'll tell you my story."

"What story is that?"

"Of the sinner's brand at Mother's breast. She wears a red letter on her dress." I lowered my voice for effect. "I would tell of her walk through the prison gates with a babe in arms."

"What is all that to me?" he asked, but I could see that I had grown in stature in his estimation.


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Angel and Apostle 3.9 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 8 reviews.
GRgenius on LibraryThing 5 months ago
I first became aware of this title when roaming around the internet. Upon discovering it was connected to 'The Scarlet Letter', I was hooked. Now, it's not exactly a continuation of the story as you may be led to believe, nor is it an exact match up of the original events, but on its own with the facts taken as presented, it is an enjoyable romp through the literature days of yester year that will have you basking in the glow of Victorian Europe. Learn what happens to Pearl and Hester in one authors mind and see the classic as you've never seen it before.
BrokenTeepee on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Wow!Good start, huh? I will admit that this is not the type of book that I would ordinarily pick up but I am trying to expand my reading range. I don't tend towards literary novels but I am so very happy I opted to read this book. I have not read The Scarlet Letter, although I do know the basics of the story. You do not need to have read to read Angel and Apostle - it stands all on its own but I do admit that I want to go out and read it now...The book is written in way that draws you in to the time period, to the exact place. Every time I had to put it down - and that was hard - I almost had to shake my head to bring myself back to the present. I have had that experience with very few books and know that this book will now become one that I read again and again.When Ms. Noyes describes a scene you feel like you are in the room, on the beach, running from the fire. That kind of writing is rare and to be cherished. The conversations are real and true to age; the main character grows from child to adult through the course of the book and the transition is seamless.The story is haunting. It stays with you. You want to know more. Is there anything better in a novel? To want to continue the story?
kraaivrouw on LibraryThing 5 months ago
First let me confess that I'm not a huge fan of The Scarlet Letter nor of [Nathaniel Hawthorne. I've read it multiple times for multiple classes and the novel has always left me cold. I could never find anything to relate to with regard to Hester Prynne other than a vague admiration for her stubbornness. Beyond that the whole thing always felt to me like An Important Book You Should Read and I just never really liked it.Having said that, I enjoyed Angel and Apostle, Deborah Noyes' debut novel. She manages to capture the flavor of Hawthorne's writing without being enslaved to it and it was fun to see how someone thought Pearl, the impish symbol of a child from the original, might turn out.The character of Pearl is fleshed out here as well follow her through her friendship with Simon, a blind boy with whom she explores the world. Less about the nature of sin and more about what constitutes a good life in a colonial setting this was a well-written, well-imagined book.
knittingmomof3 on LibraryThing 5 months ago
An absolute must-read a a novel to be enjoyed over the decades. Noyes' vision of how Hester Prynne's daughter's life would be is brilliant and makes for an endearing novel.
dablackwood on LibraryThing 5 months ago
This is the story of Pearl, the illegitimate daughter of Hester Prynne. Ms. Noyes writes the story in the style of Nathaniel Hawthorne and does an admirable job of putting the reader into Puritan New England. The trouble is that the story is just not very interesting and by the end has become a soap opera. Historical fiction is not my favorite genre, but I think Ms. Noyes is a very good writer and as far as I can tell historically accurate. Her plot is undistinguished, however.
kboucher on LibraryThing 5 months ago
The story of the Scarlet Letter told from the daughter's perspective. It was interesting - not great but pretty good.
LisaLynne on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Angel and Apostle is intended as a sequel to The Scarlet Letter, on of those books we all read in high school English class that enraged my budding feminist nature. Why should Hester Prynne bear all the burden and shame? Why shouldn't the men who put her in that position be punished, the husband who abandoned her and the man who fathered her child. Why should she protect them?In Angel and Apostle, we hear the story from Pearl's point of view. The treatment of Pearl is even more unfair, to my modern eyes. She has sinned against no one, but she is spit upon and treated horribly by the people of Puritan Boston. How anyone who treats their fellow man so viciously could call themselves a Christian is beyond me. Her mother cares for her but always holds something of herself in reserve, and Pearl feels isolated and unloved. She is a wild child, reckless and willful, but her fortunes change when she meets a young blind boy, Simon. His fate and hers will be linked, as Pearl learns the extent of her mother's shame by falling into an even worse error.The book is beautifully written and the language and descriptions conjure a real sense of time and place. Still, I found myself unreasonably angered by the book. First, I was enraged at the townspeople for treating an innocent child so hatefully. Then I was angry at Pearl, for her foolishness. Maybe it's unfair to expect someone who lived such a lonely, loveless existence to make wise decisions about love, but she had every reason to know her choices would lead her to ruin.
harstan More than 1 year ago
In 1649, Pearl knows her mother Hester Prynne spent time in the stocks and has been condemned as a fallen woman by her Puritanical neighbors The Scarlet letter engraved on her by a dutiful priest represents intolerance. Her sire Dimmesdale may have felt some guilt about abandoning his lover and hiding the truth about siring his daughter, but though he marvels at Hester¿s courage in his journals, he never mentions her by name as if spelling out the letters Hester would mean acknowledging his part in her downfall. --- Pearl grows up in Europe far from where her mother was accused and condemned. However, everyone knows she is a child born out of wedlock and some feel her father is the devil all treats her accordingly. Pearl has learned to trust no one as she depends on herself to overcome the intolerance of others. Over the years she becomes a wife and mother living in England and America, but though in love never quite loses her distrust of everyone even those inside her heart. --- Though Pearl acts more like a modern woman at times, fans of the classic Hawthorne tale will fully want to read this powerful sequel that takes some poetic license with the key cast members especially Pearl. The story line follows up on the climax to The Scarlet Letter as the audience learns about Pearl¿s life in mid to late seventeenth century Europe and America where intolerance remains steadfast. Historical readers will appreciate this deep look at an era through the eyes of a woman who struggles to overcome her place beneath the food chain by a society that damned her mother for having her. --- Harriet Klausner