Dear Reader, When I found myself experiencing a motherhood that I never expected, one that I was terrified of living, I didn't know how I would carry on being 'normal'. I didn't know how much I would long for people to say my son Teddy's name, to not treat him like he didn't exist. Maybe you're in this boat too, or maybe you want to support someone who is? Whatever your reason, I hope our story goes a little way to help. Love, Elle
What do you do when the unthinkable happens?
Elle Wright had an admittedly easy pregnancy - her scans went well, she and her baby were healthy throughout, and in May 2016, she and her husband welcomed their son, Teddy, into the world.
Just a few hours after giving birth, they woke to find a nurse holding a cold and unresponsive Teddy, who had stopped breathing during the night. The happiest day of Elle's life had turned into every parent's worst nightmare, and she had to let her beautiful baby boy go. Three days after delivering him into the world, Elle sat with Teddy in her arms as he took his last breaths, and tucked him in for the final time.
Ask Me His Name is a moving account of Elle's pregnancy, Teddy's life, and what happens when a mother leaves a hospital with empty arms. In the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies end in premature death, but conversations about the heartbreakingly frequent issue of baby loss are few and far between. In this honest, beautifully written and hopeful exploration of a different kind of mothering, Elle explores how she navigated a parenthood that no one had prepared her for.
* A portion of the proceeds from the sale of this book will be donated to Tommy's charity. Reg. (1060508) *
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About the Author
Elle Wright is a wife, mother, homemaker and blogger. After the death of her son, Teddy, at three days old, Elle started writing to navigate her new life and as a way to feel purpose again. Her Feathering The Empty Nest blog is a way of finding light in darkness, positivity in times of desperation and, hopefully, making a few people laugh along the way. Elle was the 2018 recipient of the Mum's Voice Award from Tommy's, the baby charity, which celebrates one mum who has spoken out about her own pregnancy experience and given hope to others.
Table of Contents
Chapter 1 In the Beginning 3
Chapter 2 All Change 25
Chapter 3 Becoming a Mother 41
Chapter 4 Then There Were Three… 49
Chapter 5 Just 74 Hours on this Earth 55
Chapter 6 What Now? 77
Chapter 7 A New Normal 93
Chapter 8 When the Dust Begins to Settle 101
Chapter 9 Benchmark of Shit 115
Chapter 10 Helping Myself (When No One Else Could) 133
Chapter 11 The Friends I Never Knew I Needed 141
Chapter 12 The Darkness and the Dawn 159
Chapter 13 Let's Do This 173
Chapter 14 Please, Just Say His Name 183
Chapter 15 Is This Forever? 201
Chapter 16 Knowing My Limits 215
Chapter 17 Learning to Live Again 233
Chapter 18 It's Not Just Me 259
Chapter 19 Moving Forward, Not On 285
Dear Teddy 299
This Might Help 309