Come Back to Me

Come Back to Me

by Mila Gray


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ISBN-13: 9781481439657
Publisher: Simon Pulse
Publication date: 12/08/2015
Pages: 352
Sales rank: 801,465
Product dimensions: 5.90(w) x 9.10(h) x 1.20(d)
Age Range: 16 - 18 Years

About the Author

Mila Gray is the pseudonym for Sarah Alderson. Having spent most of her life in London, Sarah quit her job in the nonprofit sector in 2009 and took off on an around the world trip with her husband and princess-obsessed daughter on a mission to find a new place to call home. They are currently located somewhere between India, London, Canada, and the US. Sarah is the author of several YA novels, including Out of Control, The Sound, Hunting Lila, and its sequel Losing Lila, plus the paranormal trilogy Fated, Severed, and Shadowed.

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Come Back to Me

  • A whorl in the glass distorts the picture, like a thumbprint smear over a lens. I’m halfway down the stairs, gathering my hair into a ponytail, thoughts a million miles away, when a blur outside the window pulls me up short.

    I take another step, the view clears, and when I realize what I’m seeing, who I’m seeing, my stomach plummets and the air leaves my lungs like a final exhalation. My arms fall slowly to my sides. My body’s instinct is to turn and run back upstairs, to tear into the bathroom and lock the door, but I’m frozen. This is the moment you have nightmares about, play over in your mind, the darkest of daydreams, furnished by movies and by real-life stories you’ve overheard your whole life.

    You imagine over and over how you’ll cope, what you’ll say, how you’ll act when you open the door and find them standing there. You pray to every god you can dream up that this moment won’t ever happen. You make bargains, promises, desperate barters. And you live each day with the murmur of those prayers playing on a loop in the background of your mind, an endless chant. And then the moment happens and you realize it was all for nothing. The prayers went unheard. There was no bargain to make. Was it your fault? Did you fail to keep your promise?

    Time seems to have slowed. Kit’s father hasn’t moved. He’s standing at the end of the driveway staring up at the house, squinting against the early morning glare. He’s wearing his Dress Blues. It’s that fact which registered before all else, which told me all I needed to know. That and the fact that he’s here at all. Kit’s father has never once been to the house. There is only one reason why he would ever come.

    He hasn’t taken a step, and I will him not to. I will him to turn around and get back into the dark sedan sitting at the curb. A shadowy figure in uniform sits at the wheel. Please. Get back in and drive away. I start making futile bargains with some nameless god. If he gets back in the car and drives away, I’ll do anything. But he doesn’t. He takes a step down the driveway toward the house, and that’s when I know for certain that either Riley or Kit is dead.

    A scream, or maybe a sob, tries to struggle up my throat, but it’s blocked by a solid wave of nausea. I grab for the banister to stay upright. Who? Which one? My brother or my boyfriend? Oh God. Oh God. My legs are shaking. I watch Kit’s father walk slowly up the drive, head bowed.

    Memories, images, words, flicker through my mind like scratched fragments of film: Kit’s arms around my waist drawing me closer, our first kiss under the cover of darkness just by the back door, the smile on his face the first time we slept together, the blue of his eyes lit up by the sparks from a Chinese lantern, the fierceness in his voice when he told me he was going to love me forever.

    Come back to me. That was the very last thing I said to him. Come back to me.

    Always. The very last thing he said to me.

    Then I see Riley as a kid throwing a toy train down the stairs, dive-bombing into the pool, holding my hand at our grandfather’s funeral, grinning and high-fiving Kit after they’d enlisted. The snapshot of him in his uniform on graduation day. The circles under his eyes the last time I saw him.

    The door buzzes. I jump. But I stay where I am, frozen halfway up the stairs. If I don’t answer the door, maybe he’ll go away. Maybe this won’t be happening. But the doorbell sounds again. And then I hear footsteps on the landing above me. My mother’s voice, sleepy and confused. “Jessa? Who is it? Why are you just standing there?”

    Then she sees. She peers through the window, and I hear the intake of air, the ragged “no” she utters in response. She too knows that a military car parked outside the house at seven a.m. can signify only one thing.

    I turn to her. Her hand is pressed to her mouth. Standing in her nightdress, her hair unbrushed, the blood rushing from her face, she looks like she’s seen a ghost. No. That’s wrong. She looks like she is a ghost.

    The bell buzzes for a third time.

    “Get the door, Jessa,” my mother says in a strange voice I don’t recognize. It startles me enough that I start to walk down the stairs. I feel calmer all of a sudden, like I’m floating outside my body. This can’t be happening. It’s not real. It’s just a dream.

    I find myself standing somehow in front of the door. I unlock it. I open it. Kit. Riley. Kit. Riley. Their names circle my mind like birds of prey in a cloudless blue sky. Kit. Riley. Which is it? Is Kit’s father here in his Dress Blues with his chaplain insignia to tell us that my brother has been killed in action or that his son—my boyfriend—has been killed in action? He would come either way. He would want to be the one to tell me. He would want to be the one to tell my mom.

    Kit’s father blinks at me. He’s been crying. His eyes are red, his cheeks wet. He’s still crying, in fact. I watch the tears slide down his face and realize that I’ve never seen him cry before. It automatically makes me want to comfort him, but even if I could find the words, my throat is so dry I couldn’t speak them.

    “Jessa,” Kit’s father says in a husky voice.

    I hold on to the doorframe, keeping my back straight. I’m aware that my mother has followed me down the stairs and is standing right behind me. Kit’s father glances at her over my shoulder. He takes a deep breath, lifts his chin, and removes his hat before his eyes flicker back to me.

    “I’m sorry,” he says.

    “Who?” I hear myself ask. “Who is it?”

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    Come Back to Me 4.8 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 16 reviews.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This was a great read BUT I was surprised this book was located in the YA section when it should be in the adult section. This book talked too much abouy sex and it was forever on they're mind. I enjoyed the book but I'm an adult and wont be letting my 15 year old read it so I figured I would write a review for the parents who are looking into buying this book for their young teens.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Such a great book...could not put it down!
    Anonymous 3 months ago
    always a good book to reread. now i wish there was a movie.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    The book had such a good storyline!
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Good read
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    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I had a hard time putting it down. I enjoyed the story; sweet, heartwarming, tragic, entertaining. A great read.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Became one of my new favorites easily!
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    Loved the book. I read it in one day.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Good book
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    such a good story; sad, but happy :)
    chapterxchapter More than 1 year ago
    I absolutely adored the story of Kit and Jessa in Mila Gray’s Come Back to Me. The story opens up with a cliffhanger, and then starts at the beginning, recounting the moment we read in the beginning and onward. I loved it! What a way to start a story… Jessa has been crushing on her brother Riley’s best friend, Kit Ryan, for some time now. For years, it has been one-sided…admiring him from a far until the party being held for Riley, who is on leave for a month from the Marine’s (as is Kit). Now Jessa notices that Kit’s looks are little more lingering, his smiles a little more flirty… and when Kit admits to her that he has feelings for her, one of the most romantic, memorable romances starts to bud. Kit does everything he can to prove to Jessa that he has the ability to be the best boyfriend in the world, and that he’s not at all the player that he once was. The only problem? If Jessa’s brother and father find out, he is D.E.A.D. And why Jessa’s father loathes the very existence of Kit is a mystery to him and pretty much everyone else. So the relationship flourishing between Jessa and Ryan is done in secret, but as we all know, when two people have a true connection, no matter how hard you try to hide it, someone will notice. It’s undeniable! The sparks that fly between Kit and Jessa are so electric it’s impossible to ignore. I can’t go on! I can’t tell you anymore! Going beyond that will just spoil everything else altogether. Trust me when I tell you that you need to read this book. And when you do start, be sure to bring some tissues. It’s one of those reads that you just can’t stop reading! The love that starts to grow between Kit and Jessa is reminiscent to me of The Notebook…powerful, unforgettable, soul changing. It’s one of those stories that makes you fall in love all over again, or wish that you could find a love like Kit’s and Jessa’s. Not only is this a story about love with a capital “L”, it also deals with PTSD, which is something that is so important to deal with and talk about. Seeing Jessa’s father trying to deal with it on his own without any professional help is a scenario that is all too real. Again, I can’t say too much, because even the littlest details will give away the whole of the story! Fans of emotional, heart wrenching reads will fall head over heels in love with Come Back to Me by Mila Gray. If you love reads that will make your soul cry, don’t hesitate to grab a copy ASAP. You have been forewarned though, dear reader…this is definitely a tear jerker and just might leave you with a super huge book hangover…
    Angelized_1st More than 1 year ago
    Mila Gray’s Come Back to Me is a poignant love story of forbidden love. Kit Ryan returns home to discover he’s fallen for his best friend’s sister, Jessa. Unbeknownst to him, Jessa has been crushing on Kit for years. During the year Kit was deployed, he and Jessa had become pen pals, which in turn fueled their desire for one another. I’ve been reading a lot of military romances this year it seems, and I thought this book was really well-written. Kit and Jessa’s brother Riley are still in love with being Marines thanks to a cushy job at a U.S. Embassy overseas. Their military experience is nicely juxtaposed with the boys’ fathers who are career military, and have seen many horrors. The fathers’ PTSD has affected them each differently, but still managed to cause distress to their families. The effect of war on soldiers was respectfully explored in a meaningful way. As much as I enjoyed the military theme, Come Back to Me is a love story, and I loved every minute of reading it. Kit and Jessa’s characters were very well-developed. I loved that they had grown up together, and that their feelings for one another developed over time. It read as being very realistic, and their shared history wonderfully informed their actions. Kit is a man’s man, but he’s also extremely romantic. It’s easy to see why Jessa fell for him. I enjoyed reading his character arc, as it took him from a young soldier, to a man traumatized by war. Jesse was also very well-developed. Being a few years younger than Riley and Kit, Jessa was always on the boys’ coattails. Now that she’s eighteen, and all grown-up Kit can’t take his eyes off of her. Thanks to her father’s PTSD, Jessa has always been sheltered. It was great seeing how she changed over the course of the book. I also loved that she was a strong female who could stand on her own, and didn’t need a man to prop her up. This made her and Kit equals. I would recommend this book to people looking for a wonderfully sweet and touching romance. While there are sex scenes in the book, they aren’t graphic. Instead, Gray wrote the love scenes as beautifully romantic. Even though this book features the U.S. military, they’re shown respectfully. There are also some battle scenes, but like the love scenes, they aren’t too graphic. I tore through Come Back to Me, and highly recommend it. I received this book for free in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Great read