Even If I Fall

Even If I Fall

by Abigail Johnson


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ISBN-13: 9781335541550
Publisher: Inkyard Press
Publication date: 01/08/2019
Edition description: Original
Pages: 352
Sales rank: 152,828
Product dimensions: 5.80(w) x 8.30(h) x 1.20(d)
Age Range: 12 - 18 Years

About the Author

Abigail Johnson was born in Pennsylvania. When she was twelve, her family traded in snowstorms for year-round summers and moved to Arizona. Abigail chronicled the entire road trip and has been writing ever since. She became a tetraplegic when she was seventeen, but hasn't let that stop her from bodysurfing in Mexico, writing and directing a high-school production of Cinderella, and becoming a published author. Visit Abigail at abigailjohnsonbooks.com and on Twitter @AbigailsWriting.

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Even If I Fall 4.8 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 5 reviews.
_magicbookdom_ 5 days ago
Even if I fall by Abigail Johnson 5⭐️ Thank you to NetGalley and Harlequin TEEN for a review copy in exchange for a honest review. Heartbreaking, love, family, strength, forgiveness. A contemporary book so compelling you won’t want to put it down. Brooke, a 17 year old girl is struggling to keep her family together after a devastating event that could severe the family entirely. Her older brother Jason has been convicted of murdering his best friend Cal. Brooke has giving up her dream of becoming a professional ice skater because she can’t fathom leaving her family to deal with this event by themselves. The only person Brooke has in her life that she can count on is her best friend Maggie, Maggie Is new to town. She hasn’t heard about the family tragedy that keeps to whole town from disliking them and Brooke tries to keep it that way. One day she encounters Health, the younger brother of the boy her brother murdered. They start to talk and slowly start to fall for each other even though they know they should truly despise one another. They learn they can’t keep living in the past and the hate towards one another can’t keep coming up because it’s not their fault but Brooke’s brothers fault. While trying to heal the brokenness within themselves and there families, love, strength and forgiveness is such a huge part of the story. I recommend this to anyone who needs a book to break your heart but heal it all the same.
Anonymous 6 days ago
WOW! This book was absolutely incredible! This was my first read by the author, and certainly will not be the last. The writing was fantastic, descriptions were perfect, and the story moved at a beautiful pace. This is definitely one of the top 3 best books I’ve read this year. I honestly had put this book off for awhile because of how heavy the content would be, but I’m kicking myself for not picking up this book sooner. It was heartbreaking and emotional. While there was a love story, it was not the focal point of the book. I found the relationships with her family actually more interesting. Brooke also is trying to find the truth about what actually happened that horrible night; this part was so thrilling, my pulse racing the entire time trying to put it together, and when I finally did, I just kept saying “no, no, no.” This story was more about the different ways people deal with their grief, how to forgive and move on with their life. Brooke, her sister and her parents all dealt with their reality in vastly different ways. I’ve never really given much thought to how a criminal’s family must feel after their loved one did something so horrible. But, this book really opened my eyes to that. I finished the last page in the middle of the night and literally sat there for minutes after just saying “wow” over and over. This is a book that I cannot get out of my head and something I don’t think I’ll ever forget. * ARC provided by NetGalley and the publisher in exchange for an honest review. Thank you!
Jody Blogger/Book Reviewer 8 days ago
Brooke pressured Jason “tell me who else was there that night Jase?” he slammed his hands against the table to push himself away, and he got up and told the guard “I’m ready to go back”. Talk about suspense, mystery and a who, how and why plot. Oh my goodness this book has got it for sure. I could not read the pages fast enough. I had to find out what was going to happen next. It also has pain, heartbreak, resentment, hatred, and a slow journey to healing. Would I recommend this book? Yes, with out a doubt. I have never read anything by Abigail Johnson before, but you can bet I will now. Thank you to Harlequin TEEN & NetGalley for the opportunity to read this fantastic book. I received an eARC from them for my honest opinion.
lenorewastaken 11 days ago
3.5 stars — This one ended up being a little weird for me, b/c the thing I usually love most about a book is characters…read any of my reviews, it’s always about the characters. Normally if I can’t connect with them, the book is just not going to hold my attention. But this was my exception to the rule!! Because truly, the exploration of what a family would go through in these circumstances was fascinating, and kept my attention. Not to mention the mystery surrounding the murder! I had many theories, and it was interesting to learn pieces at a time. I fell for some red herrings, and definitely didn’t get it right in the end, but I appreciated the answers I got. I have to say, if you’re going in expecting an epic romance (especially given that blurb), you’re going to be disappointed. The romance was very much a background story. And while it played heavily into Brooke’s journey, I would not categorize this story as a romance. I kind of wanted more to be honest. What we got instead was a story about a family struggling with something unimaginable. I was sucked in right from the start, and I had a hard time putting it down. There was a point where my attention started to wane, but that could have been just me (either that or the pacing could have used some help). Brooke was a character that I simultaneously felt a lot for, and had a hard time connecting with. I know that doesn’t make a lot of sense, but occasionally it felt as though she wasn’t consistent…like I couldn’t figure her out, and certain things didn’t fit. She was so steeped in guilt, it was insanity. And her feelings were often kept close to the vest, even from the reader. The romance actually took me a bit by surprise as a result! Because of the nature of their relationship, it’s not like other romances where you read about their crush and butterflies and stuff. Their feelings for one another were mixed in with all these other feelings, and often the romantic feelings didn’t come to the forefront. It’s hard to describe. Obviously. But I never really got a good handle on what they felt for each other or why…or at least not as much as I would have wanted if this book had been more heavily a romance. I give it a pass because of everything else going on. The book is full of very flawed characters. They all make such poor decisions, and are constantly hurting each other. It’s very hard to read about actually. Even Brooke was hurting people, from her family to Maggie. Which is why I’m still surprised I enjoyed the story so much. But in the end I really did enjoy watching the dynamics shift in Brooke’s family. When everything came to a head, it was satisfying to watch them start to figure things out and finally heal. While I hated the way they hurt each other, I thought each of their coping mechanisms were completely believable, and I understood how they got to the point they were at at the beginning of the story. So if you’re desperate for a romance, I’d give this one a pass. But if the whole idea of how a family would cope when one of their own is guilty of murder fascinates you, then you’re looking at the right book. Again, it didn’t have any of my usual go-tos, but it made me think a lot and feel a lot, so I call it a success.
courtofbingereading 12 days ago
Prepare to feel all of the emotions with this stunningly heart-wrenching contemporary novel. This is the first book I have read by Abigail Johnson, and now I’m scrambling to add all of her others to my TBR list. That is how much I love her writing. Even if I Fall is a story about the aftermath of a murder conviction. Brooke Covington’s brother, Jason, confessed to killing his best friend, Cal, a year ago. Ever since that fateful day, Brooke and her family’s lives have been irrevocably changed. Brooke and her younger sister, Laura, are now homeschooled due to being bullied and ostracized at school. Brooke’s mom hides her pain by acting as if Jason is just away at college while also taking off on random runs throughout the day. Brooke’s father spends all of his time in the basement working. Laura has shut down emotionally and physically. All she ever does is listen to music or watch TV on her phone. Needless to say, Brooke feels lonely. No one wants to speak about Jason or what happened that fateful night, but Brooke needs to; she’s plagued by nightmares of the various possibilities of that night. She’s desperately trying to reconcile the brother she knows and loves with this version of him that has committed a heinous crime. There doesn’t seem to be anyone who can relate to Brooke--except Heath, Cal’s brother. At first, Brooke feels undeniable guilt when she sees Heath on the side of the road with his broken-down truck. How can she feel sad about her life when she still has her brother and he doesn’t? How can she feel happy knowing her brother took away his? After a few encounters, Brooke and Heath find themselves drawn to the other. No one else quite understands their respective situations. Together they learn how to navigate the rocky terrain of their brothers and learn that they aren't a reflection of their siblings. I can’t say enough great things about this book. Johnson’s words convey such raw, real feelings that I was brought to tears...numerous times. The love Brooke has for her family is nothing short of beautiful. Her dedication, selflessness, and grief were written so incredibly well that I actually felt her internal struggles. I honestly cannot imagine how I would act if I were in her shoes. This is such a phenomenal story about grief, guilt, shame, and forgiveness. Even if I Fall explores how everyone navigates these emotions in vastly different ways that can actually be harmful to others. Some people shut down like Laura in the face of trauma, but shutting down can hurt those around you who need to vocalize their feelings such as Brooke. However, this is also a story about not letting someone’s past dictate your own future. When this book starts, Brooke has given up on her ice-skating dreams for her family even though deep down she clings to a kernel of hope that maybe one day she will skate professionally. One of my favorite themes from this book is forgiveness. Brooke has to learn how to forgive her whole family and herself for how they have dealt with this painful situation. But, she also has to learn that she never needed to take on her brother’s guilt for his actions. Though everyone in town acts as if she (and her whole family) too killed Cal, she didn’t. So why is she punishing herself for a crime she didn’t commit? I could go on and on about this book--which is why you should read it. I need people to discuss with about this book! This story is truly beautiful and I cannot recommend it enough.