Fast Into the Night: A Woman, Her Dogs, and Their Journey North on the Iditarod Trail

by Debbie Clarke Moderow

Overview

Part adventure, part love story, part inquiry into the mystery of connection between humans and dogs, Fast into the Night is an exquisitely written memoir of a woman, her dogs, and what can happen when someone puts herself in that place between daring and doubt—and soldiers on.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781597099769
Publisher:	Red Hen Press
Publication date:	06/05/2018
Edition description:	Reprint
Pages:	228
Product dimensions:	5.40(w) x 8.40(h) x 0.80(d)

About the Author

Debbie Clarke Moderow, originally from Connecticut, went to Alaska in 1979 for a mountain-climbing expedition and met her husband, Mark. For the Moderows, dog mushing has always been a family affair. Debbie ran the Iditarod in 2003 and 2005, completing the latter in 13 days, 19 hours, 10 minutes, and 32 seconds. In 2013, Debbie graduated from Pacific Lutheran University's Rainier Writing Workshop with an MFA in creative writing.

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PART 1
 
1: Night Fog
 
Leaving camp near Denali: January 2003, 4:30 a.m.
 
Juliet and Kanga watch me. Standing in lead at the front of the line, they turn and follow me with their eyes as I step onto the runners of my dogsled. For the past fifteen minutes they’ve been clamoring to go—yapping and singing for the night trail and the star-speckled sky. Now they tremble with quiet anticipation. They know I’m about to reach for the rope and set us free.
 
“Good girls,” I say. “Ready?”
 
I grab the end of the slipknot. Give it a tug. Juliet and Kanga leap, and so do the others. My ten huskies and I streak from camp in bright moonlight, slipping through shadows of gangly black spruce that line the outgoing trail.
 
For the first time all season conditions are perfect for mushing. It’s ten degrees below zero with eight inches of fresh snow. A big round moon lights the trail and lightens my spirits, but I cannot ignore the weight of my plan. Iditarod starts in six short weeks, and training has been miserable all winter. To ask these dogs for another fifty-five miles after a six-hour rest seems like a lot, but I have to try it. It’s time to make sure we’re ready.
 
As we sweep around a wide bend toward the river, I study each dog’s gait to make sure no one is sore. Shining my head lamp toward their feet, paw by moving paw I double-check that every bootie is on. I’m pleased that Kanga’s new harness fits well, and that Nacho runs with focus next to his buddy Teton. Young Sydney prances with spunk; her ears are frisky tall. I’m so consumed with my huskies, I don’t notice the wall of fog until we run right into it.
 
Ice crystals sting my eyes; the bright beam of my head lamp illuminates a mass of ice flecks. As the dogs accelerate, threads of silver rush toward me in a blinding onslaught. I struggle to see where we’re going, but they aren’t bothered. Bounding into the glitter, Juliet woofs and noses Kanga, who responds with a happy-dog shake on the run. No one misses a stride.
 
For the next hour and part of another, I shield my eyes with one hand and hold on to the handlebars with the other. Focusing on the dog team helps me ignore the fog, but after fifteen miles my eyes tire from the effort. I turn off my head lamp and run by feel.
 
It doesn’t take long to adjust—and to notice moonbeams sifting through billows of haze. The resulting shadows threaten at first. We run toward dark shapes that look like moose and approach an expanse of bare ground that turns out to be an ice-fog mirage. With every mile my fears subside, and then I give in.
 
Losing myself to the huff of their breathing and their steady pull on the line, I stop trying to gauge our tempo or analyze whether one dog is loping instead of trotting. It doesn’t matter if the trail ahead is strewn with rocks, and I no longer fret about what lurks in the willows.
 
My huskies and I cruise up and over those frosted hills for hours. As we move through murky light toward the faint glow of dawn, we share a primordial momentum. Although I cannot see them, at last I understand that they are ready.
 
Ready for Iditarod.
 
No matter how long the trail or how rough her conditions, I know we will go.
 
 
 
2: Countdown
 
2003 Iditarod start: Fairbanks, Alaska. March 3, 11:00 A.M.
 
Sixteen huskies donning crimson harnesses charge into the chute. Four officials grab the bulging dogsled to make sure the team stays anchored for the two-minute countdown. Overhead, small planes arc in a bright March sky; the thwap of a helicopter blends with the buzz of fans cheering and of dogs yapping and yowling. Barricades line the outgoing trail, and throngs of people lean over them. Watching, waiting.
 
This is an annual ritual. I know it well. The sight of courageous Iditarod mushers and their canine athletes launching onto the one-thousand-mile trail usually casts me into a tearful state of awe. But I’m not crying now. The romantic in me had better not engage. I’m the small woman wearing bib #32, the musher who has just ridden the sled runners into the chute. After years of preparation, I’m the Iditarod rookie fighting for composure, seeking focus in a windstorm of hype.
 
The voice in my busy head speaks: It’s only about the dogs.
 
So I look to them, to my sixteen beauties with their glossy fur and feathered tails, paired on the long line ahead of me. They’re a rowdy bunch—barking and leaping—crazed with impatience for the trail. My husband, Mark, stands with the dogs, trying to calm them; so do our grown children, Andy and Hannah. The four of us have negotiated many race starts over the past fifteen years, most often for the kids. But this countdown is different, and we all know it. I need to pay attention.
 
“We got ’em, Debbie. Your rig isn’t goin’ anywhere. Feel free to get on up there with your team,” the official tells me.
 
I nod and step off the runners. That’s when I notice the clusters of school kids holding signs and calling my name. Their rosy cheeks and busy voices shout high expectations. These children believe in me. The mere hint that I’m their hero spins everything out of control. My stomach lurches and the snow beneath my feet rolls like a wave. I have to find my way to my huskies.
 
In two strides I’m with Zeppelin and his sweetheart, Fire. Running in wheel position, they’re responsible for keeping the sled clear of trees and other obstacles. Strong and agile, Zeppy is my rascal black-and-white hound dog. His floppy black ears frame an innocent gaze that doesn’t fool me today. Without my friend kneeling next to him, holding him by the harness, he’d be chewing up the gang line. She scratches him behind the ears, and for the moment he behaves. Meanwhile, mellow Fire nuzzles my leg and looks at me with sweet adoration. Her light-blue eyes promise that everything will be fine. She’s been to Nome several times with other mushers; I’ve paired her with Zeppy hoping she’ll be a good mentor. I coo at Fire, give Zeppy a stern hello, and then move on to Piney and Creek, who lean against each other wagging their tails. Creek is so bulked up this season, I call her my little bowling ball. I put my hands on either side of her face and look into her zany eyes—one blue and the other brown. Sweet Piney is jealous and nips my leg. I answer by shaking her paw.
 
Next are skinny-boy Nacho and the ever-focused Lil’ Su, two of Andy’s charges. They leap and bark while he stands smiling alongside them. I greet these spicy teammates before embracing my twenty-year-old son.
 
“You can do this, Mom,” he tells me. Andy should know—he’s the most experienced musher in the family. I pull him into a hug, as if to absorb some of his brassy nerve. If it weren’t for him, I would never be here. His words make me stand a little bit taller, and for the moment my jitters subside.
 
It’s hard to believe I’ve greeted six dogs and am not even halfway through the lineup. I usually train an eight-dog team—plenty of power, yet manageable. This sixty-five-foot gang line looks endless, and I know the whiplash at tight corners could send all 120 pounds of me flying. For the past week I’ve considered starting with fourteen dogs, but one thousand miles is a long way. During the race, mushers can drop dogs—leave anyone who is sore or simply not having fun in the care of veterinarians before flying home—but substitutions aren’t allowed. Despite the potential for too much power, it’s best to start with sixteen.
 
Taiga and Spot are next. They greet me with wiggles, Spot with a rising howl. Taiga, the strawberry-blond princess of the team, leans against me at the perfect angle for a butt scratch. When I comply she shifts contentedly from side to side. Meanwhile her sidekick, our all-white Spot, woofs and wags, playing the crowd. Mark keeps watch over these two. He gathers me into his arms.
 
“See you in Nome,” he jokes.
 
“Think again,” I respond. “You’d better be in Nenana.” He knows full well that this isn’t good-bye, and that he’ll see me later today at the first roadside checkpoint.
 
He smiles and squeezes my arm. Of course he’ll be there.

Table of Contents

Part 1

Night Fog 3

Countdown 7

Beginnings 19

Open Water 29

A Cool, Dark Stillness 35

Balance 45

The White Dog 57

River Miles 67

Mentor and Friend 83

From the River to the Sea 93

Childhood Dream 103

Sea Ice 107

Legacy 119

Shelter Cabin 123

To See Far 133

Part 2

Taking Turns 145

The Shadow of the Arch 155

Getting It Right 165

Drop Bags 177

Stepping Out 183

New Start 187

Hallowed Ground 197

Deep Water 211

Trail Friend 219

Dog Time 233

Resolve 247

Going Home 259

A Line Dance 271

Epilogue 281

Editorial Reviews

Not only does Fast into the Night detail in spare and honest prose all the grit and excitement that is the Iditarod, but its author aptly takes us along on her personal journey with all its internal struggles, tribulations, and tumult. At the same time, she captures the remarkable bond that exists between mushers and their dogs. Bravo for turning out what may be the quintessential Iditarod story, and for crafting what is simply a great Alaskan adventure well told.”—Dave Atcheson, author of Dead Reckoning and Hidden Alaska

“Moderow heard the call of the wild. She writes about racing dogs through the wilderness lyrically, like Robert Service writes about seeking adventure in far-off places. She heard the challenge, learned the lessons with her dogs, paid the cost, and won the enthralling and inspiring experience. It’s a book you can’t put down.”—Lynne Cox, author of Swimming to Antarctica and Elizabeth, Queen of the Seas

“I expected high adventure from Debbie Moderow’s story of running the Iditarod—and happily, I found it. Moderow beautifully captures the personality of each dog as she struggles to earn the team’s trust, and she reveals her vulnerabilities as she learns to trust herself. This is an extraordinary account of a family’s faith in one another—four-leggeds and two-leggeds alike.”—Sherry Simpson, author of The Way Winter Comes and Dominion of Bears

“Personal, vivid, and authentic, Fast into the Night lives up to its title. Moderow’s ability to project emotion through her graceful prose had me from the start and never let go. Through moments of failure and triumph, Moderow’s love for family, he dogs, and the grand adventure of life shines forth.”—Nick Jans, author of A Wolf Called Romeo

From the Publisher

12/01/2015
Dog musher Moderow presents a memoir focused on her experiences racing in the Iditarod, a legendary and grueling dog sledding competition that stretches more than 1,000 miles from the Alaskan cities of Anchorage to Nome. Moderow describes her early life in Alaska, the terrible disappointment after her first failed attempt at completing the difficult race in 2003 at age 47, and her eventual joyful success after finishing her second attempt in 2005 after more than 13 days of racing. Moderow's strongest theme is the power of the precious and sometimes fragile bond between dog and human to overcome hardship both on the trail and in life. Unfortunately, her workmanlike, bland prose only barely manages to convey the mental and physical challenges of the Iditarod, and her work lacks an effective narrative arc or a sense of suspense or momentum. The author's diaristic tendency to describe mundane conversations and seemingly unimportant details occasionally bogs down her tale. VERDICT Ideal for dedicated dog sledding fans or recreational readers interested in Alaskan adventures, who may also like Gary Paulsen's Winterdance: The Fine Madness of Running the Iditarod.—Ingrid Levin, Salve Regina Univ. Lib., Newport, RI

Library Journal

2015-10-26
Moderow briskly recounts her experiences in the brutally challenging Iditarod race, a journey that requires "passion, dedication to learning, and an immense amount of patience," not to mention "the collaboration of many beating hearts."The author's memoir proceeds by leaps and bounds, now in forward, now in reverse, in Connecticut, Vermont, and Wyoming, but mostly on the snowy, icy, windy mushing trails of Alaska. Moderow recounts how her parents nurtured in her their adventurous streak—not wild but zestful. After graduating from Princeton and a brief stint as a paralegal in Manhattan, the author moved to Wyoming, where she had her heart broken and decided to move yet farther west and north to Alaska. There, she met her future husband and had children but also fell into a deep depression. Then she became familiar with sled dogs, and her life changed. Moderow touchingly describes her life's transformations, including the deaths of her parents and the lasting ramifications of slipping silently into a glacial crevasse. As the memoir's larger picture takes on shape, the author threads into the narrative the stories of her two Iditarods (in 2003 and 2005), tales of great intensity and fraught progress leavened with light farce and moments where readers may ask, what was she thinking? Moderow understates the sheer roughness of the endeavor, but she engagingly chronicles one wind-blasted, aching-cold day after another, long, slippery runs and crashes on black ice, and injuries that were likely more painful than she lets on. The author also faced the treachery (or wisdom?) of her dogs: "‘Let's go!' I call. No one budges. Two by two they sit on defiant haunches….The dogs won't press on and they won't turn back." The 2005 race went more smoothly, though the dogs engaged in another sit-down strike in response to the absurd cold. By then, however, Moderow was far more experienced and understood the words of another old musher: "You can't push a rope." A soulful memoir of adventure and one woman's love for her sled dogs.

Kirkus Reviews