by Jodi Picoult


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ISBN-13: 9780743422444
Publisher: Washington Square Press
Publication date: 04/01/2001
Pages: 416
Sales rank: 84,411
Product dimensions: 5.31(w) x 8.25(h) x 1.20(d)
Lexile: 910L (what's this?)

About the Author

Jodi Picoult received an AB in creative writing from Princeton and a master’s degree in education from Harvard. The recipient of the 2003 New England Book Award for her entire body of work, she is the author of twenty-six novels, including the #1 New York Times bestsellers House Rules, Handle With Care, Change of Heart, and My Sister’s Keeper, for which she received the American Library Association’s Margaret Alexander Edwards Award. She lives in New Hampshire with her husband and three children. Visit her website at


Hanover, New Hampshire

Date of Birth:

May 19, 1966

Place of Birth:

Nesconset, Long Island, NY


A.B. in Creative Writing, Princeton University; M.A. in Education, Harvard University

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Chapter One

In the moments before, she laid a hand on his arm. "No matter what," she said, giving him a look, "you cannot stop."

He turned away. "I'm not sure I can even start."

She brought his hand to her lips, kissed each finger. "If you don't do it," she said simply, "who will?"

For a long while they sat side by side, staring out a streaked window at a town neither of them knew very well. He watched her breathing pattern in the reflection of the glass, and tried to slow his own heart until they were equally matched. The quiet dulled his senses, so that he became fixated on the clock beside the bed. He would not blink, he told himself, until the next minute bled into the last.

With a fury that surprised him, he turned his face into the bow of her neck, trying to commit to memory this softness and this smell. "I love you."

She smiled, that crooked little curving of her mouth. "Now," she said, "don't you think I know that?"

In the end, she had struggled. He wore the scratches like a brand. But he had held the pillow to her face; calmed her by whispering in her ear. My love, he had said, I'll be with you as soon as I can. At the words her arms had fallen away; then it was over. He had buried his face in her shirt, and started himself the very slow process of dying.

For the hundredth time that day, Cameron MacDonald, Chief of Police in Wheelock, Massachusetts, closed his eyes and dreamed of the Bay of Biscay. If he got it just right -- the thrum of silence in the station, the afternoon light dancing over the corner of his scarred desk -- he could make himself believe. There was no Smith and Wesson jabbing into his side; there was no mountain pass outside the window; hell, maybe he wasn't even Cameron MacDonald anymore. He opened his mind as wide as he could, and let himself tumble into the beautiful blue of it.

He blinked his eyes, expecting the bobbing shoreline of Prest, or the sweet scent of the Loire Valley that you could carry in your pocket when you were within a reasonable distance, but he found himself staring at the pale, pasty face of Hannah, the secretary at the police station. "Here's the file," she said. "He was indicted." She turned to leave, but stopped for a moment with her hand on the door. "You sure you're not coming down with something, Chief?"

Cam shook his head, as much to clear it as to convince Hannah. He smiled at her, because if he didn't, he knew she'd be on the phone with Allie and within a half hour, his wife would have him drinking a tea made of nettle roots and feverfew.

He put the file down, glancing longingly at Gall's Buying Guide catalog for public safety equipment, inside which he'd stuffed a Travel magazine. Hannah was right -- there was something wrong with him. It was the same thing that happened every year since he'd returned to Wheelock, as was expected, to become police chief after his father's death. He was suffering from wanderlust, complicated by the tension of knowing that he was rooted to this town by something as simple as his name.

Wheelock looked like other small western Massachusetts towns: the center consisted of a simple white church and a lending library, a joint building for fire and police, the local coffee shop, and a dotting of old men who sat on stone benches and watched their lives slouch by. But what made Wheelock different from Hancock and Dalton and Williamstown was the fact that had it not been for a twist of fate, nearly every family in Wheelock would still be living in Scotland.

At first you wouldn't notice. But then you'd see that the town restaurant served its specials on "ashets," not plates; that its serviceable stocky white china was decorated with the fat square rose of Bonnie Prince Charlie. You'd attend a marriage at St. Margaret's, and realize that the ceremony still ended with a blood vow. You'd drive through the winding side streets and see the name MACDONALD painted on an alarming number of mailboxes.

And if you happened to travel to the Scottish Highlands, you'd notice that a small town called Carrymuir on the banks of Loch Leven was an uncanny twin to Wheelock, Massachusetts.

In the 1700s, the Clan MacDonald was the largest and most powerful clan in Scotland, spread from the western isles through the main Highlands. One particular sect of the clan lived in Carrymuir, a small town north of Glencoe which was nestled between two jagged crags of mountains. In spite of the rampant clan warfare in Scotland, Carrymuir had never been defeated, built as it was in a natural, easily defended fortress.

Clann was the Scottish Gaelic word for children, and a clan was made up of relatives, some more distant than others, who happened to live on a given piece of land. The clan chief, or laird, had the power of life and death over his tenants and tacksmen, but the authority wasn't quite as one-sided as a king's. After all, the chief's subjects were his brothers and nephews and cousins, and the trust and respect they offered up to him came at the price of his protection and his promise to care for them.

Cameron MacDonald of Wheelock, Massachusetts, had been named for his great-great-great-great-great-grandfather, a legendary soldier who had fought in the battle of Culloden, where the English routed the Highlanders. Cameron had heard the story over and over as a boy: When his namesake realized that Bonnie Prince Charlie's Highland army didn't stand a chance against the English soldiers, he tried to save his clansmen from being killed in battle. He secured their honorable discharges by promising, in exchange, his own remarkable skill in a fight to the death against the British. But he hadn't died, as he had expected. And after Culloden, when the victorious English came through Scotland burning towns and slaughtering livestock and raping village women, the first Cameron MacDonald realized he had to again save his clan.

So while he went to jail as a Jacobite prisoner, he arranged for the families of Carrymuir to leave, one by one, on packets bound for the American colonies. Which explained why, when most Scots were being hanged or sold as indentured servants to the West Indies, this small sect of Clan MacDonald remained intact and resettled in the wilderness of Massachusetts.

They found a spot that looked like home, with a brace of rolling mountains and a narrow body of water that was more of a pond than a lake, and sent word back to Scotland about this place. Wee loch, they wrote. It's set by a wee loch.

And eventually, the laird and his family came over too, leaving a trusted uncle to watch over the land in Scotland. They traded the comfortable kilt for trousers; they proudly flew the Stars and Stripes; they accepted the Americanized name of the town. And as a natural extension of inbred responsibility, the man who was the figurehead of the Clan MacDonald also became Wheelock's police chief.

In 1995, that position belonged to Cameron MacDonald II, having been handed down from his great-grandfather to his grandfather to his father, passing along the same line of succession as the honorary title of clan chief. He'd be the first to tell you that things had changed. Obviously, although he was considered the chief of a clan and duly noted in the Scottish records, he was no longer directly responsible for the welfare of the townspeople. At least three-quarters of the town had never even seen the lands in Scotland that technically belonged to them. Hardly anyone spoke with a burr; fewer still knew more than a smattering of Gaelic.

On the other hand, old habits died hard. There was no tarnished silver bowl or royal edict that proved that Wheelock was MacDonald land, but it was theirs just the same, in the way that their ancestors had laid claim to that narrow pass in the Scottish Highlands. It was land, quite simply, they'd lived on forever.

At age thirty-five, Cameron MacDonald knew he would stay in Wheelock for the rest of his life; that he would be the police chief until he died and passed the office to his firstborn son. He knew these were things he did not have a choice about, no more than he had a choice about tossing off the choking obligation of being the current laird. Sometimes, in the very still parts of the night, he would tell himself that an honorary title did not mean today what it meant two hundred and fifty years ago. He'd reason that if he picked up his wife and moved to Phoenix for the climate, everyone would take it in stride.

Then he would remember how Darcy MacDonald, his third cousin's daughter, had tripped right on Main Street when Cam was no more than three feet away, talking to the town barber. She'd had seventeen stitches in her knee because he hadn't moved quite fast enough, or been in the right place at the right time. In fact, some days he felt that every arrest, every conviction, was a reflection of something he'd done wrong as a leader.

He'd press up against the soft, snoring curl of his wife, Allie, because she was as solid as any truth he could spin. And he'd try to push himself back into sleep, but his dreams were always of chains, link after link after link, which stretched across the vast Atlantic.

When Allie Gordon was in high school, she was not the most popular girl in her class. She was nowhere even close. That honor belonged to Verona MacBean, with her cotton-candy puff of hair and her Cover Girl mascara and her pink mohair sweater molded like skin to what the boys referred to as the Hoosac Ridge.

And today, fifteen years out of nowhere, Verona MacBean herself stepped into Glory in the Flower and ordered three large centerpieces for a library luncheon to be given in her name.

"Verona!" Allie had immediately recalled the name. There was something disconcerting about seeing her classmate dressed in a severe beige suit, her hair scraped into a knot at the back of her head, her cheeks flat beneath a sheer layer of foundation. "What brings you to town?"

Verona had made a little clicking noise with the back of her teeth. "Allie," she said, her voice just as thin and breathy as it had been in high school, "don't tell me you're still here!"

It was not meant as an insult, it never was, so Allie simply shrugged. "Well," she said, drawing out her words and savoring them like a fine French delicacy, "since Cam's here to stay..." She let her voice trail off at the end, peeking up at Verona from the order form she was filling out. Then she stared her in the face. "You did hear about Cam and me, didn't you?"

Verona had walked over to the refrigerated case, as if inspecting the quality of the flowers she had already commissioned. "Yes," she said. "I seem to recall something about that."

A few minutes later Verona had left, specifying the exact time for the centerpieces to arrive (it was an author's luncheon; it wouldn't do to have wilted roses for an author who, as she put it, was just coming into bloom). Allie had walked to the back room of the flower shop, where she kept her foam and moss and desiccants, her raffia and wire. She stood in front of the tiny mirror over the bathroom sink, assessing her complexion. Then, rummaging through a bookshelf, she found her high school yearbook -- kept solely for putting together names and faces that walked into the shop. She let the book fall open to Verona's page. It was much easier to believe that she, Allie, had grown older and wiser, while Verona MacBean, in glossy black and white, was trapped in time. It did not matter that Verona had gone on to Harvard and then to Yale, that her first book -- philosophy -- was the talk of the town. It only mattered that in the long run, Allie Gordon had married Cameron MacDonald, which no one in Wheelock would have guessed on a long shot.

On the other hand, it was no great surprise when Verona MacBean became Cameron MacDonald's steady girlfriend in the fall of 1977, although Cameron was a high school senior and Verona was a freshman. They were both undeniably beautiful, Verona in a collectible doll sort of way, and Cam towering over nearly everyone else in the school, his wide, strong shoulders and bright shock of hair always easy to spot.

Allie fell in love with his hair first. She used to sit in the school library bent over a slim volume of Plath's poetry, waiting for him to come through the double glass doors that blocked off the bustle of the hall. He came in every day during the period she worked at the counter checking out books for the grateful, understaffed librarian. She'd straighten the shelves behind the spot where he sat down, imagining her fingers weaving through that hair, separating it so the strands that looked like fire prismed off into reds and rangy yellows. At the end of the class period, she would pick up the books he'd left behind and tuck them back in their Dewey decimal places, trying to hold on to the heat Cam's hands had placed on the protective plastic covers.

The truth was that Cameron MacDonald did not know Allie Gordon existed for most of the time they had lived in the same town. She was far too quiet, too plain to attract his attention. There was only one incident in high school where Cam had ever truly come in contact with her: during a blood drive, they had been lying beside each other on the donor tables, and when she sat up and hopped from the stretcher to get her promised juice and cookies, the world spun and went black. She awakened in Cam's arms; he'd jumped off his own table to catch her as she fell, unintentionally ripping the intravenous from the crook of his elbow so that when Allie went home that afternoon, she realized that Cam's blood spotted the back of her blouse.

Allie had trouble convincing herself that the reason they had gotten married years later did not have to do with the fact that after college, they were two of the few who had come back to Wheelock. Cam had returned because it was expected of him, Allie because there was nowhere else she really wanted to be.

If she stood on the bottom ledge of the refrigeration unit for the fresh flowers and craned her neck in a certain way out the window, she could see Cam's office at the police station, even make out his shadowy form hunched over his desk. It was the reason she'd chosen this particular real estate space when she opened the flower shop eight years ago.

She saw that he was in, not out on patrol, and decided now was as good a time as any to bring him his arrangement and tell him about Verona. She crawled down from the ledge, rubbing her hands against her knees to warm them up, and closed the sliding glass door of the cooler. Absently, she ran her fingers over the sweet chestnut and barberry foliage that made up the greens in the piece she would bring over to Cam.

Allie knew the language of flowers -- the idea that every bloom stands for some quality of human nature. Bouquets sent from the shop for the arrival of a baby were stuffed with daisies, for innocence, and moss, for maternal love. Valentine's arrangements had roses, of course, but also lilies for purity, heliotrope for devotion, and forget-me-nots for true love. To Cam, she often sent designs that were full of messages she knew he could not understand. She eyed her latest work critically, nodding over the tulips which made up the bulk of the piece. In Persia, a man would give a tulip to his betrothed to show that as red as the flower was, he was on fire with love; as black as its center, his heart was smoldering like a coal.

She filled out the vase with Michaelmas daisies, China asters, and fire thorn. And then, as she always did for Cam's arrangements, she added as many sprigs of purple clover as she could without making the lines of the flowers seem overblown. Clover, which simply meant, Think of me.

When she walked out the door to take the flowers to Cam, she did not bother to lock it. Very few people would try to rob the wife of the Wheelock police chief.

Hannah was on the telephone when she walked through the door of the police station, but waved her toward Cam's closed office door to tell her he wasn't in a meeting. "No," she was saying firmly. "We don't use psychics, but thank you."

Allie set the tall vase in the center of the main desk, where bookings were done, and then walked to Cameron's office. She gave a quick knock and pushed the door open with her shoulder before Cam could tell her to come in. He was asleep, his head pillowed on his arms on top of his desk.

Smiling, Allie crept around behind his chair, running her fingers through the hair at the back of his neck. She bent close to his ear to whisper. "While justice sleeps," she teased.

Cameron came awake with a start, snapping his head up so abruptly he clipped Allie's chin. Allie staggered back, seeing black for a moment, until Cam grabbed her and pulled her down onto his lap. "Jesus, Allie," he said. "You scared the hell out of me." Allie rubbed her jaw, testing it gingerly by setting her teeth. Cam's fingers came up to brush her throat. "You okay?"

Allie smiled. "I brought you your flowers."

Cam rubbed his hand down his face. "I told you you don't have to do that."

"I like to."

Cam snorted. "This is a police station, not a hotel lobby," he pointed out. "People who are arrested aren't much interested in interior design. They don't even notice."

"But you do," Allie pressed.

Cam looked up at her wide brown eyes; her hands, gripping each other. "Sure," he said softly. "Sure I do."

He glanced out the open doorway to the front desk where Allie's latest arrangement stood. She was an artist; he told her that often. The mixtures of reds and blues, of stark lines and soft curves, and the overall whimsy of her floral designs gave her creations a comfort and an ease that did not exist in Allie herself. Once he had peeked at her personal journal when she was at work, hoping to find a layer to his wife that she didn't have the courage to reveal. But there had been no racy thoughts or dreamy recollections, just a review of how she had acted and what she had said to Cam, and then notes on what she might have done differently.

Sometimes he woke up in the middle of the night, sweating, worried that after years of marriage to Allie he, too, would wind up editing his life, instead of simply living it.

"Guess who came into the store today." Allie moved off his lap to sit on the corner of the desk, swinging one leg.

"Am I supposed to go through everyone in the town?" Cam asked.

"Verona MacBean." Allie frowned. "Well, I don't know if it's MacBean anymore, but she's here, all the same. She's a famous writer now. They're doing some hotshot lunch for her at the library."

"Verona MacBean," Cam said, grinning. He tipped his chair onto its two rear legs. "Good old Verona MacBean."

"Oh, cut it out," Allie said, lightly kicking him in the leg. "She's pinched and pruny and her boobs don't look nearly as big now as they did when she was sixteen."

"Probably grew into them."

Allie picked up a catalog and whipped it at Cam's head. A glossy travel magazine fell onto the desk between them. Her eyes widened at the white spray of beach and the weaving red sloop splayed across the front cover. She picked it up and curiously thumbed through it. "Well, at least it's not Playboy," she said. She skimmed a list of all-inclusive resorts, and peered closer at an advertisement depicting a tastefully nude sunbather.

Cam reached across the desk and plucked the magazine out of Allie's hand. His face felt hot, his collar too tight; he didn't want Allie to know what he spent his time daydreaming about.

Allie raised her eyebrows as a blush crept across Cameron's face. "I'll be damned," she said. "You're trying to keep a secret." She leaned close to Cam. "Not that it's up to me or anything, but I'd rather go sailing than skiing." She hesitantly moved forward an inch, keeping her eyes open, and touched her lips to Cam's.

For a moment, Cam let her breath brush his mouth and then he kissed her quickly and pushed her back. "Not here," he murmured.

"Then where?" Allie whispered, before she could stop herself.

They both looked away, remembering the previous night. Allie's hands had stolen across the bed, slipping under the blue T-shirt he was wearing, moving in quiet circles. That was her invitation. And Cam had simply turned toward her, his eyes setting a distance, his fingers staying her own.

"Oh," she had said, her hand dropping away.

"It's not you," he'd explained. "I'm just exhausted."

Allie wondered where the myth that men wanted to make love more than women came from, since in her experience it was always the other way around. She did not like being less beautiful than her husband, or being the one who always made an advance. Sometimes Cam did not even bother to tell her he was tired. Sometimes he simply pretended to be asleep.

She questioned if it might have been different if she were a classic beauty, or if she were sexy. She told herself that she'd lose ten pounds and cut her hair and mold herself into someone irresistible, and then when Cam came grabbing for her she'd simply turn away.

Maybe she'd find someone else.

And then she'd laugh at the very thought of letting anyone touch her the way Cameron MacDonald had.

ardAs if she had conjured it, Cam reached for her wrist and began to stroke it with his thumb. He did not know what else to do. There were some things he just could not tell Allie, not even after five years. There were some times he needed to be alone with thoughts of what he might have otherwise done with his life, and unfortunately that was often in the hollow of the night when Allie needed more from him. But in spite of what she thought when he rolled away from her, there was never any question in his mind about his feelings for Allie. Loving her was a little like taking the same seat day after day on a commuter train -- you couldn't imagine how it might feel to be in the row behind, you could swear that the dimensions and hollows of the seat were made just for you, you came back to it repeatedly with a whoosh of comfort and relief that it was still available.

Allie was staring at him. If only she'd stop looking at him like that, her eyes catching his excuses and throwing them to the wind. He wished he could make her happy, or even spend as much time trying to as she did for him. Cam dug his thumbs under the loops of his heavy ammunition belt; out of the corner of his eye he saw a two-page spread of Acadia National Park. "I'm sorry," he said.

No, Allie thought, I am.

The woman stood behind the counter of the flower shop with her hands flying over a mix of fan palm, angel wings, bells of Ireland, gaultheria, oats, and milkweed. Cuttings carpeted the Formica and the black and white tiles of the floor. For a moment, Allie stood shocked in the doorway of her own store, watching a stranger do her job. Then she focused on the arrangement to the right of the cash register.

It was bell-shaped and quiet, a delicate arch of every shade of greenery that Allie had stored in the refrigerated case. At two spots, a splash of bright red caladium peeked from behind feathers of grass, shocking as blood.

Allie took a step forward, and the woman jumped, her hand at her throat. "You're in my place," Allie said.

The woman smiled hesitantly. "Well, then...I'll move." She hastily gathered up the tools she'd filched from the back room, and in her hurry dropped a pair of shears on the floor. "Sorry," she murmured, dipping below the line of the counter to pick them up. She stepped around the counter and handed them to Allie like a peace offering.

It was the most presumptuous thing Allie had ever seen -- some stranger walking into the store and making her own flower arrangement -- and yet this woman seemed to blend into the shadows, like this had all been a mistake and out of her range of control. Allie glanced at the plum beret on the woman's hair, the nails bitten to the quick, the heavy knapsack slung against her right foot. She was about the same age as Allie, but certainly not from Wheelock or anywhere nearby; Allie would have remembered someone with eyes the wet violet color of prairie gentians.

Allie walked up to the counter, letting the softer greenery graze her palms. "I thought you might be looking for an assistant," the woman said. She held out her hand, which was callused at the fingers from florist's wire, and shaking slightly. "My name is Mia Townsend."

Allie could not tear her eyes away from Mia's arrangement, which brought to mind rolling fields and nickering horses and the hot, heavy press of a summer afternoon. She knew it had nothing to do with the actual flowers and ferns Mia had chosen, but rather the skill of the placement and the thoughts that had gone into it.

Allie had not been looking for anybody; in fact in a town the size of Wheelock most of her business came from the shop's association with FTD. But then again, Christmas was coming, and Valentine's Day, and she'd kick herself if she let someone with Mia's talent walk out the door before she could learn a thing or two from her.

As if she knew that Allie was equivocating, Mia suddenly reached down for her knapsack and pulled out a carefully wrapped package, which she began to unwind. Allie found herself looking at an exquisitely twisted bonsai tree; miniature, gnarled, ancient.

"Lovely," Allie breathed.

Mia shrugged, but her eyes were shining. "This is my specialty. They remind me of those babies you see sometimes, the ones with tiny little faces that look like they know all the wisdom of the world."

The wisdom of the world. Allie looked up. "I think," she said, "we can work something out."

Hannah, who had a talent for eavesdropping, told Cameron that Verona MacBean had written a book on the image of hell.

"It's not like it used to be," she said, tracing the top edge of her coffee cup. "You know, fire and brimstone and all."

Cam laughed. "Don't tell Father Gillivray; he's looking forward to that stuff."

Hannah smiled at Cameron. "Verona says that instead of physical pain, it's more mental. Like, you know, if you marry this gorgeous guy only to find out in hell that he really married you for your money."

"I wouldn't worry," Cam said. "I don't pay you nearly enough."

She smirked. "And suppose that in order to marry this hunk, you gave up someone who was really in love with you. The pain you'd feel knowing you picked the wrong guy is supposedly what hell is like." Hannah wrinkled her nose. "Not that I can see where Verona MacBean, Wheelock Queen, would know what hell is like at all."

Camerona's full-time sergeant, Zandy Monroe, stuck his head out from the locker room. "You forget, Hannah, that Verona used to date the chief."

Cam threw a stack of mail at him. "Don't you have anything better to do?"

"That depends," Zandy said, grinning. "You taking me out to lunch?"

"No," Cam said. "I'm taking Allie out." He surprised himself; this wasn't something they'd planned when she stopped by earlier, but he knew she'd jump at the offer to spend an hour with him. He pulled on his heavy blue coat and locked his office door behind him. "If the town comes under siege," he said to Hannah, "you know where I'll be."

Walking down the half block to Allie's flower shop, he started to smile. He'd step into the store and tell her he was looking for a bouquet, dahlias and lilies in colors that called back August. He'd say it was for someone special and he'd make her play along and give him a gift card and then he'd write, What are you doing for the rest of your life?

Humming, Cam threw open the door of the flower shop and came face-to-face with a woman he had never seen before. Allie's name died on his lips as he stared at the tangle of hair that bobbed just to her shoulders, the soft swollen curve of her lip, the pulse at the base of her throat. She was not beautiful; she was not familiar; and still all the breath left Cam's body. As he grasped the hand she extended in greeting, he realized that her eyes were blue-violet, the shade that he'd dreamed as the Bay of Biscay.

Oh," Allie said, coming out from the back room. "This is Mia." And that was all she had time to tell Cam before Zandy Monroe burst through the door of the shop, throwing it back against its hinges hard enough to crack one pane of glass.

"Chief," he said, "you'd better come."

Years of instinct had Cameron flying out the door behind his sergeant, left hand trained and ready on his gun. He saw a growing crowd of people in front of the police station; from the corner of his eye he noticed Allie and Mia shivering their way closer to the commotion.

With adrenaline pulsing through his limbs, Cam stepped into the center of the group, where a red Ford pickup truck was parked. Zandy walked up to the driver's-side window. "Okay," he said, "this is the chief of police." With a shrug at Cam, he murmured, "Wouldn't talk to anyone but you."

"Cameron MacDonald?"

The man's voice was strong but strained; an officer with less experience than Cam might not have noticed the pain that ran ragged over the syllables. "Yes," he said. "What can I do for you?"

The man stepped out of the car. He did not live in Wheelock, but Cam thought he'd seen him around town this past week. At the post office, maybe the tavern at the Inn. He was every bit as

tall as Cam, but thinner, as if being alive had simply taken its toll.

"I'm James MacDonald," the man said, loud enough for everyone to hear his last name. "I'm your cousin." He took a step back toward his truck, gesturing toward the passenger seat, in which a woman was slumped over, sleeping. "My wife here, Maggie, is dead." He looked up at Cameron MacDonald. "And I'm the one who killed her."

Copyright © 1996 by Jodi Picoult

Reading Group Guide

Readers Guide
Questions and Topics for Discussion
1. To what degree is the title a metaphor for this novel?
2. Are Jamie's actions justified? What about Cam's? Allie's?
3. Who is the author of the "notes" between the chapters? Whom are these snippets addressing? Did you believe this throughout the book?
4. Jamie says, "You know it's never fifty-fifty in a marriage. It's always seventy-thirty, or sixty-forty. Someone falls in love first. Someone puts someone else up on a pedestal. Someone works very hard to keep things rolling smoothly; someone else sails along for the ride." Do you agree?
5. In what ways does Mia's memory of her parents' love influence her relationship with Cam?
6. Who is the most selfish character? The most selfless?
7. In what ways are Cam and Jamie similar?
8. How is Cameron MacDonald like his namesake ancestor? How is he different? To what extent does the Scottish history of this clan affect his decisions?
9. What is the significance of the moments in Mercy that are magical or somewhat unreal?
10. There is a catch-22 in Mia and Cam's relationship: They have each fallen in love with a person who would no longer exist if they were to run off together. Do you agree or disagree with this statement, and why?
11. Is there a hero in this book?
12. What attracts Allie to Jamie? To Cam? What attracts Mia to Cam, and Cam to Mia? Do you believe that we try to find in the people we love parts of our personalities that are lacking?
13. At the end of chapter 17, Cam "wondered how he had so quickly gone from holding everything he wanted in the palm of his hand to having absolutely nothing at all. He wondered how he could have been so blinded by something shiny and new and elusive that he couldn't at least give equal credit for the strength of something stable, and strong, and his." Do you think his feelings are heartfelt? Do you agree?
14. Why did Picoult choose to make Jamie a pioneer in virtual reality?
15. How has Jamie changed by the end of the book?
16. What will happen to Cam and Allie? To Mia? To Jamie?
17. Is this novel about love, or loyalty? Are they the same thing?



Readers Guide

Questions and Topics for Discussion

1. To what degree is the title a metaphor for this novel?

2. Are Jamie's actions justified? What about Cam's? Allie's?

3. Who is the author of the "notes" between the chapters? Whom are these snippets addressing? Did you believe this throughout the book?

4. Jamie says, "You know it's never fifty-fifty in a marriage. It's always seventy-thirty, or sixty-forty. Someone falls in love first. Someone puts someone else up on a pedestal. Someone works very hard to keep things rolling smoothly; someone else sails along for the ride." Do you agree?

5. In what ways does Mia's memory of her parents' love influence her relationship with Cam?

6. Who is the most selfish character? The most selfless?

7. In what ways are Cam and Jamie similar?

8. How is Cameron MacDonald like his namesake ancestor? How is he different? To what extent does the Scottish history of this clan affect his decisions?

9. What is the significance of the moments in Mercy that are magical or somewhat unreal?

10. There is a catch-22 in Mia and Cam's relationship: They have each fallen in love with a person who would no longer exist if they were to run off together. Do you agree or disagree with this statement, and why?

11. Is there a hero in this book?

12. What attracts Allie to Jamie? To Cam? What attracts Mia to Cam, and Cam to Mia? Do you believe that we try to find in the people we love parts of our personalities that are lacking?

13. At the end of chapter 17, Cam "wondered how he had so quickly gone from holding everything he wanted in the palm of his hand to having absolutely nothing at all. He wondered how hecould have been so blinded by something shiny and new and elusive that he couldn't at least give equal credit for the strength of something stable, and strong, and his." Do you think his feelings are heartfelt? Do you agree?

14. Why did Picoult choose to make Jamie a pioneer in virtual reality?

15. How has Jamie changed by the end of the book?

16. What will happen to Cam and Allie? To Mia? To Jamie?

17. Is this novel about love, or loyalty? Are they the same thing?

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Mercy 3.6 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 192 reviews.
KasWolf More than 1 year ago
I've read a lot of Picoult, and I never grow tired of her stories. Mercy, however, was especially well written. I really enjoyed the characters, their interactions and developments, the twists and turns of the story and especially the way she ties it all up at the end. I recommend this bood to anyone who has ever loved.
AshleyLC More than 1 year ago
This is the second of Jodi Picoult's books that I had to force myself through. (The Tenth Circle being the first) Most of her books are wonderful stories that you can't put down because you come to love the characters and feel as if you know them. Mercy, however, was a completely different story. The book is supposed to be about Maggie and Jamie, but instead over half of the book is dedicated to Cam's philandering with Mia...I wanted to slap Cam and Mia and tell them to get it together. I also wanted to slap Allie for being so naive. The concept of a mercy killing should have made for a great novel, but I think Picoult's ambitions got in her way with this book. I wouldn't recommend wasting your time on this one...
Marlene8888 More than 1 year ago
Jodi Picoult never disappoints.....her storylines are timely and thought-provoking. I usually go into her books with a set opinion on the topic, and always end up either changing my mind or at least admitting that life in rarely black and white. I love the way she tackles her subjects and characters. From Page 1, I am involved and I care. In my opinion, she is one of our best current authors. I am in the process of reading ALL of her books.
BookLoverLC More than 1 year ago
This book was interesting enough at first but then when i started to get into it i just became so disgusted with Cam and Mia that I almost didn't finish it.I was soo upset that he knew it was wrong and he just kept doing what he was doing, and Mia was so incredibly fake that I just wanted to slap her. I don't care if they were "soulmates" as some people implied, they could've handled the situation differently instead of hurting Allie when all she tried to do was be the perfect wife for Cam. I really loved Allie and Jamie, I was kind of hoping that Allie would leave Cam and find someone just like Jamie because she deserves better than the lying cheating excuse for a man Cam is.
I've read 6 of Jodi's books and consider her one of my favorite authors, I always recommend her books to people but not this one. Although I liked the mercy killing plot I wouldnt really recommend it because the affair made me so upset with the characters that the whole book was ruined for me.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I love Jodi Picoult! But this book was not one of her best. I hated Cam, was irritated with Alli, and annoyed with Mia. The only characters I liked, Jamie and Maggie, weren't in it enough. This book wasn't what I expected. The end was slightly redeeming but still left way too much unsolved and up in the air.
Guest More than 1 year ago
This is deffinitly Picoult's worst book. it was boring at the beggining and didnt catch my attention. Don't be discouraged try reading The Pact, or Salem Falls
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book is so riveting that I could not put it down. It is down to earth with a lot of feelings. The author has portrayed the characters in a way that it seems like neibhors down the way. This book has my highest rating. You must read if you like stories that are realistic and down to earth.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I've read several of her books and this one was not what I expected. The book focused a lot on Cam's affair with that sorry excuse of an assistant. I only finished reading because I wanted to know how it all turned out. I agree with some of the other readers that Jodi usually has a really great twist at the end. I was left dumbfounded and completely upset with the characters in this book.
Guest More than 1 year ago
I was propelled through this 'different' Picoult book because I was sure things would somehow tie together at the end and come together. When I realized that this wasn't going to happen, it was a bit of a struggle to finish. I kept waiting for it to become clear that Cam and the woman he was having an affair with were reincarnated loves from hundreds of years ago, as I thought was implied in some of the things the uncle and other characters were saying. That was one of the many stories that ended up going nowhere. Because of this assumption I had that they were meant to be together, I was OK with their affair, but then I felt bad when I realized that that wasn't it at all. I still love her books, though! Looking forward to the next.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
After reading the reviews I was surprised by how much I enjoyed this book. I was was able to relate to, and feel sympathy for all of the characters in this book. Jodi Picoult often takes her characters through extreme situations. Love can be difficult or come at times and places that are not ideal. All of us felt bad for Allie, but I don't think that she was the only one that deserved sympathy. Cam had gone through his marriage to that point knowing that the life he really wanted to live was something he wouldn't be able to have, then found deep understanding and happiness with Mia. He can only have a future with her if he hurts everyone else that he cares for and loves. He has no ideal options. Mia has finally found true love after after neglect as a child and all her wandering and searching. It's tragic that in order to reach for her own happiness she would need to hurt both her friend (Allie) and Cam (while he loses so much of his life from pursuing her). Jamie and Maggie's story is beautiful and well done. I thought that this story was as much about their love and whether they had wronged each (by Jamie honoring Maggie's request), then it was about the trial, and whether Mercy Killing should be legal. The intellectual discussion on Mercy killing was interesting and well explored - especially by Jamie's lawyer as he thinks through the implications. The heart of mercy in all its forms is love. I thought this book was wonderful.
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Amazing author, cant go wrong with any of jp books
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
Beautiful words, intiguing premise, brave perspective; however, not the most uplifting read--not really my typical read but i also couldnt put it down. I needed to know how it ends--even though there really could be no happy ending.
JP31CS7 More than 1 year ago
I picked this up one day not knowing much about the plot. It was the most amazing and touching love story I've read by her! The characters were so well developed and you keep asking yourself, what would I have done? The twists and turns keep you turning the pages! This is an absolute MUST READ!!
Aimee60 More than 1 year ago
Jodi Picoult has written many novels over the years, but "Mercy" leaves you questioning right versus wrong. She writes about real-life issues that are dealt with every day in our society. "Mercy" is a page turning novel about a man (Jamie) who has killed his wife (Maggie) out of mercy and goes to his police chief cousin (Cam) for help. He is facing a trial and during that time Cam starts an affair with his wife Allie's assistant Mia while Allie is away gathering witness testimonials for Jamie's trial. This novel not only has you questioning whether euthanasia is right or wrong, but also whether or not it is right or wrong to forgive the spouse who betrayed your trust.
RZAZ31210 More than 1 year ago
"Mercy" was also an interesting book by Picoult. There were kind of two stories being intertwined throughout the book. One half was about a love so pure a man would do anything for his wife. The other was about a very proud loving wife, but an unfaithful husband. I like the plot a lot of this book and it kept me reading. It did make me uncomfortable reading about the affair though because it made me think a lot about how awful that would be. Picoult once again does such a great job of making these characters seem so real. She really gets me thinking about so many different situations that could end up being very real ones.
SB-fan1 More than 1 year ago
I could not put this book down! I fell in love with Cam McDonald and his life with Allie & Mia. I also fell in love with Jamie and his love for Maggie. Picoult kept my attention with the complex lives of these characters instead of focusing on the life of only one. I could not wait to find out what the verdict would be as much as I was excited to find out where Cam's heart would take him. If you understand the struggles of life, love and harship you will appriciate Picoult's thought in this book.
PiccoultFan More than 1 year ago
Interesting plot for a story, one I was anxious to read, but it seemed that the outcome of the book was revealed on page 20! I kept wondering why I was reading the book because it was so predictable and I knew what was going to happen at the end. I also found some sections of the book just plain boring, not filled with character insights and action like her other novels. Piccoult is a great author, but I would definately choose one of her others: Salmen Falls, My Sister's Keeper, Nineteen Minutes, or The Pact.
lgillingham on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Not as well written or riveting as some of her other books.
jrepman on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Mercy killing and marriage-more great characters.
CatieN on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Camerone McDonald is the police chief in a small town in Massachusetts. He is also clan chief due to the fact that the townspeople's ancestors all came from the same clan in Scotland. The two story arcs are about euthanasia and a cheating spouse. Neither is done very well. Normally, I enjoy a Picoult book because she is great at character development , it is a quick read, and she usually has a great twist at the end. Not so in this case. This book was awful, and I hated the ending having to do with Cameron & his wife Allie. Very disappointing. I gave it 2 stars only because I was able to finish it.
jacketscoversread on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Jodi Picoult is probably one of my favorite authors, excluding Jane Austen, of course. I love the way her books grab a hold of you and don¿t let you go until the very end. But probably my favorite thing is that she tackles tough moral issues in her novels.Throughout the novel, I got the distinct suspicion that I had already read Mercy but never finished it. Maybe that was a sign of things to come.I liked the story in Mercy and there certainly where some parts when Picoult grabbed at my heartstrings and tugged with all of her might. However, I don¿t believe this is one of Picoult¿s best works. The ending was abrupt, almost like she was rushing to finish the novel and that was very detrimental to how I felt after reading this novel.But she question she posed it a tough one: Is it okay to kill a loved one out of mercy? This really hit home for me, seeing how my mom had breast cancer, which one of the characters, Maggie, did too, and the fact that my dad makes me promise that if he¿s ever a ¿vegetable,¿ I¿ll take care of it.
Gary10 on LibraryThing 5 months ago
I picked the author before the book. This one begins a bit slowly and I had difficulty following and understanding the characters. But Picoult is skilled at posing difficult moral and ethical questions. In this case, euthanasia and marital infidelity.
jlouise77 on LibraryThing 5 months ago
Jodi Picoult is one of the best writer I have ever read. This book captures the internal struggle that most everyone with a terminally ill loved one must go through. I love the way she can show both sides of the coin without showing bias towards one side or the other.
booksandjava on LibraryThing 5 months ago
I really enjoyed the first Picoult book I read:My Sister's Keeper. I liked the second Picoult book I read: Plain Truth. I hated this book. It seemed all over the place and I couldn't identify with any of the characters. I'm not sure why I wasted my time.
eembooks on LibraryThing 5 months ago
I confess not really remembering this book well except that I do not like Jodi Picoult's writing.