My Beautiful Suicide

by Atty Eve

Overview

"Suicide is selfish. It tells the world that you are weak. It tells the world your family and friends have failed. It leaves them with guilt that they could have done more but didn't. It tells them they are clueless and helpless. I am weak, but I am not selfish. My suicide will not leave my family and friends with guilt and shame; it will leave them thankful that they knew me for the short time I was here." - Cosette Hugo Her brother died. Her parents divorced. Her high school bully is relentless. Cosette doesn't have a lot to live for, but it isn't until she accidentally kills someone that Cosette makes the decision to take her own life. Unwilling to bring shame to her mom, best friend Mattie, or her boyfriend Chris, Cosette decides the best method of suicide is to become a victim of the local serial killer, The Poser. But when she goes out to find him she gets attacked; her instincts take over, and she ends up killing her attackers. This quickly leads to unbearable guilt. Desperate to finish this before she gets caught or racks up more victims, Cosette does the unthinkable. "And when I reach my final goal, to meet my brother in heaven, and we're looking down at my victim in Hell, he will say to me 'Well done, Cosette. What a Beautiful Suicide.'"

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781942366027
Publisher:	Spikenard Publishing
Publication date:	10/15/2013
Series:	My Beautiful Suicide , #1
Pages:	310
Product dimensions:	6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x 0.65(d)

Editorial Reviews

2015-06-02
In Eve's dark debut, 16-year-old Cosette Hugo finds herself the victim of a high school bully, but after she kills her bully's rapist and is wracked with guilt, she decides that the best way to die is to get herself killed.Cosette doesn't like her life. She lives with her mom in a beige apartment, her dad and his new trophy wife ignore her, her war hero brother was killed in a car accident, and a bully, Hilda, is making her life miserable. Cosette doesn't think she's attractive, strong, or confident; that's nothing, however, compared with how she feels after she stumbles across Hilda being sexually assaulted one night. In a flood of adrenaline, Cosette scares away two of the attackers and kills the third. Afterward, she feels so guilty that she considers suicide, but she decides it would hurt her friends and family too much. So Cosette formulates a plan: she'll find one or both of Hilda's remaining attackers and let them kill her. At least, that's the plan until she accidentally runs into a drug addict who attacks her, and Cosette kicks him to death. After murdering twice, Cosette is apparently hooked; she stumbles into one dangerous situation after another, but instead of feeling weak and afraid, she begins slitting throats and chopping up bodies. Eve is a strong writer whose prose makes it easy to get sucked in, yet the plot may turn some readers off. What appears to be a story about bullying and teen suicide takes an abrupt (at times, not wholly believable) left turn when Cosette becomes a psychotic vigilante serial killer who gets sexually aroused by murder. When she says things like, "He holds my neck and clenches my hair, forcing me to bend to his demands. It's painful and violent. And I love it," it feels as if two types of books—YA about bullying and depression and thriller in the vein of Dexter or Fifty Shades of Grey—are warring for dominance. The two halves don't entirely fit together.A grisly thriller that will satisfy fans of serial killers, though it might mislead readers into thinking it's a YA novel when it decidedly is not.

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