My Secret Self: Trials and Tribulations of an Innocent - Book One

My Secret Self: Trials and Tribulations of an Innocent - Book One

by Christine U Cowin

Paperback

$19.99
View All Available Formats & Editions
Choose Expedited Shipping at checkout for delivery by Thursday, July 29

Overview

My Secret Self is an internalised story of my life, and my impressions of the world around me. I kept my views of that world, and of other people, a secret. I felt misunderstood. If I shared my views, I felt I’d be laughed at. I would keep my biggest secret, a secret. I saw magic in nature, and nature could be trusted to support me in my times of trouble.

Our family lived only as individuals; we lived in a world of pretence, lies, shame, guilt, and conditionings, under a grief imposed on us. Innocence was lost due to the manipulations of my grandmother, through her fears of being isolated.

As I observed these people, I knew my life would be different. I coped by observing others and realising this is not how a family should be.



Related collections and offers

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780648401308
Publisher: Publicious Self-Publishing
Publication date: 09/18/2018
Series: My Secret Self , #1
Pages: 336
Product dimensions: 5.00(w) x 8.00(h) x 0.75(d)

About the Author

I grew up on a farm in Australia. I was one of three siblings. In my young childhood, I encountered sexual abuse by my father. My mother found out when I was eleven and seemed to think it was my fault. This caused me a lot of pain and isolation. I found it very difficult to make friends. I went through high school experiencing some good times and some difficult times. In my last years of high school, I decided to discipline myself and studied hard to pass with good marks. I would have loved to have continued on at school; however it was not in my parent's vision.

I married early, had two children reared them, and they made their way in life. I divorced my husband to realise my life's dream. I wanted to travel but I never thought I could financially.

I worked, bought my own home, and had many, many friends. I was always helping others but I couldn't solve my own issues.

I studied at the Esoteric College in my home town. Here I had the opportunity to open myself fully to my spiritual self. Through this college, I was able to journey overseas to study in Italy.

When I was making arrangements to go to Egypt, before we went to Italy, I remembered where I had to go: Turkey.

In 1984, after seeing this fishing village in Turkey in a magazine, I thought I had to go there. The memories came flooding back and so I went to Egypt and to Italy, left the group and got on a train from Rome to Brindisi in Italy to catch a ferry boat to Samos, then on to Turkey. On touching Turkish soil, I knew I'd come home.

After a long month travelling around Turkey knowing it like the back of my hand, I sold all I owned in Australia in 2002 and went back to Turkey to live, not knowing what would unfold for me there. I just followed my spirit and went.

There I re-lived my life, awakened. In Turkey, I didn't feel lost, misunderstood or angry. I felt I had purpose and direction. I learned to feel and be in my body, and I was not sailing through life. I had many experiences, met many people, and formed strong friendships. I was very popular there and learned many things.

I learnt I had to write my life story. I had to re-live my life, from age 7 through to my present age at that time, to write this story. Later on, I had to either study to get my Celta Certificate to teach English, or go home. Because I was short of money, I decided to return home. As I prepared to return home to Australia, I began to get angry.

In 2008 I returned to Australia and all those lost, misunderstood, and no-direction feelings, and feelings of unhappiness, returned. Now I had to unravel myself on a deeper level to unlock the secrets within me that were holding me back from stepping into the life I should be living.

That process would take me another 10 years. In 2018 I unlocked an unknown mystery that had me chained to fear, stopping me from moving forward, achieving my dreams, and living my true life's purpose.

My books are a series. I invite you to walk with me as I journey into my secret self, expose those secrets, move into my truth, and live my true life.

Customer Reviews