For most of her life (and even during her years as the host of a popular radio show), Courtenay Hameister lived in a state of near-constant dread and anxiety. She fretted about everything. Her age. Her size. Her romantic prospects. How likely it was that she would get hit by a bus on the way home.
Until a couple years ago, when, in her mid-forties, she decided to fight back against her debilitating anxieties by spending a year doing little things that scared her things that the average person might consider doing for a half second before deciding: "nope."
Things like: attending a fellatio class. She did that. She also spent an afternoon in a sensory deprivation tank, got (legally) high in the middle of a workday, had a session with a professional cuddler, braved twenty-eight first dates, and (perhaps scariest of all) actually met someone who might possibly appreciate her for who she is.
Refreshing, relatable, and pee-your-pants funny, Okay Fine Whatever is Courtenay's hold-nothing-back account of her adventures on the front lines of Mere Human Woman vs. Fear, reminding us that even the tiniest amount of bravery is still bravery, and that no matter who you are, it's possible to fight complacency and become bold, or at least bold-ish, a little at a time.
|Publisher:||Little, Brown and Company|
|Product dimensions:||5.40(w) x 8.30(h) x 1.10(d)|
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Table of Contents
Introduction: Getting Plucky 3
Stepping Down: Wherein I Unknowingly Plant the Seeds for a Series of Tiny Adventures 9
The Sensory-Deprivation Tank: In Which I Spend a Terrifying Ninety Minutes in a Bath of Warm Water 26
Casa Diablo: In Which a Stripper's Vagina and a Blind Chihuahua Cause Me to Send a Monumental Text 40
A Little Bit of Background: Wherein I Attempt to Explain My Dating Situation 55
Adventures in Dating I: Winter, Spring, and How Microsoft Excel Turned Me into an Asshole 76
A Brazilian in Portland: Wherein I Discover a Border I'd Rather Not Cross Again 94
Adventures in Dating II: Summer, the Season of Underboob and Back-of-Knee Sweat 106
Getting Legally High: In Which I Learn That Some People Just Shouldn't Smoke Pot 120
Dating the Polyamorous I: In Which I Develop an Aversion to Soccer Equipment 137
Dating the Polyamorous II: In Which I Learn Who the Boss Is, and It's Not Judith Light 153
Build-Your-Own-Burrito Night at the Sex Club: Wherein I Am Disappointed by Public Sex and Tortillas 166
An Hour with a Professional Cuddler: Wherein I Learn Not to Hate Affirmations … As Much 185
Water Aerobics: In Which I Learn How to Make Myself Feel (Relatively) Young and Attractive 206
Adventures in Dating III: Winter Is Coming 220
Fellatio Class: Wherein I Learn That There Are Ways in Which My Oral Fixation Makes Me an Overachiever 239
Adventures in Intimacy: Wherein I Test the Boundaries of Affection and My Bladder 252
The MRI: Wherein I Go on a Medical Adventure of My Own Making and It Is Louder Than Expected 260
One Last Leap: Wherein I Do the Thing I Should've Done Years Ago and Try Not to Wallow in Regret 279
The Epilogue That's Really Just Another Chapter: Wherein I Attempt to Tell You Why You Just Read This Whole Fucking Book 290