In 1969, Dixie Dupree is eleven years old and already an expert liar. Sometimes the lies are for her mama, Evie’s sake—to explain away a bruise brought on by her quick-as-lightning temper. And sometimes the lies are to spite Evie, who longs to leave her unhappy marriage in Perry County, Alabama, and return to her beloved New Hampshire. But for Dixie and her brother, Alabama is home, a place of pine-scented breezes and hot, languid afternoons.
Though Dixie is learning that the family she once believed was happy has deep fractures, even her vivid imagination couldn’t concoct the events about to unfold. Dixie records everything in her diary—her parents’ fights, her father’s drinking and his unexplained departure, and the arrival of Uncle Ray. Only when Dixie desperately needs help and is met with disbelief does she realize how much damage her past lies have done. But she has courage and a spirit that may yet prevail, forcing secrets into the open and allowing her to forgive and become whole again.
Narrated by her young heroine in a voice as sure and resonant as The Secret Life of Bees’ Lily or Bastard Out of Carolina’s Bone, Donna Everhart’s remarkable debut is a story about mothers and daughters, the guilt and pain that pass between generations, and the truths that are impossible to hide, especially from ourselves.
|Product dimensions:||5.20(w) x 8.20(h) x 0.90(d)|
About the Author
Amy Melissa Bentley is a professional stage and screen actress. A member of SAG-AFTRA, she has performed in Scotland, New York City, and throughout Connecticut.
Read an Excerpt
The Education of Dixie Dupree
By Donna Everhart
KENSINGTON PUBLISHING CORP.Copyright © 2016 Donna Everhart
All rights reserved.
My diary was my best friend until I gave it up as key evidence against Uncle Ray. Mr. Evans, the prosecuting lawyer who would go to court on my behalf, showed up on our doorstep here in Alabama all the way from New Hampshire just to get it. I had no idea it was so important, but he told Mama it was, even though everyone already knew what had happened. He said it would be helpful in getting the facts, since I was still too embarrassed to talk about certain things. Being as I like words, I had looked up prosecute to find out why Mr. Evans was called that, and according to the definition, if I were in jail like Uncle Ray, I'd be worried.
Mama stood in the kitchen chatting with him while I went to my bedroom to get it. Reaching under my mattress like I'd done a thousand times before, I realized this would be the last time I would do that. I hesitated. Could I give it up? If I did, who would I "talk" to once it was gone? Who would I tell my deepest secrets and fears to?
Mama came down the hall, calling my name, "Dixie?", and I snatched it from its hiding place, hurrying to pull the pink chenille bedspread back in place.
I came out of my room, the familiar feel of it in my hand more pronounced than usual, the weight of my words and private thoughts sitting heavy in the palm of my hand.
"I have it," but I held on to it tight while we walked back into the kitchen, where Mr. Evans stood waiting, looking like he was in no big hurry. He was tall, with gray hair and glasses. I liked his blue eyes, they were friendly and they didn't seem to hold any judgment of me. Just as I lifted my hand to give him the diary, my fingers tightened and there we stood, me clutching it and him ready to take it, yet I couldn't turn it loose. He dropped his hand and waited patiently. I think he knew I was trying to be brave about giving it to him, but it was a big decision and I understood what it meant. After a few seconds, I took a breath, and let it go. He nodded, as if in approval.
It's 1969, the Age of Aquarius, at least according to The 5th Dimension on the radio. Being one of my favorite songs, I'm always listening for it so I can turn the volume up, flip my hair over my shoulders like Cher, and sway to the music while hoping Mama won't yell at me to turn it back down. The 5th Dimension's song said that when Jupiter aligned with Mars, peace would fill the planets. I figured if that could happen, there was a chance things could be perfect here, as well. Nineteen sixty-nine has been hard, a year when everything in my life and those around me got forever turned upside down. I've been smack-dab in the middle of it, well, me, and now my diary.
It was one of the few presents I ever got that was exactly what I wanted. Mama gave it to me three years ago, a present for my eighth birthday, and when I removed the pale pink paper she'd wrapped it in, saw the blue and green cover with the gold latch and special little key, I was thrilled. I wore the tiny key around my neck all the time, only taking it off to bathe, so having to part ways with it was going to be like losing a hand or something equally important.
From the beginning, I'd written about all kinds of things, although now, at the ripe old age of eleven, I realized some of those earlier entries were childish. I'd written about certain foods I hated, but Mama still made me eat. I wrote how my best friend, Barbara Pittman, loved the color orange. I even wrote about her stinky brother, Bryan, who was always trying to show his whatchamacallit to the girls in my class, in other words, mostly non-important stuff.
I'd written about Mama, too. In some ways, she was a mystery, an enigma I'd yet to figure out. There were many facets to her, like a diamond under a microscope; depending on which way it was turned, there was something else to see. Her unhappiness and that sporadic temper that would burst out of her were puzzling. I didn't understand her, and I thought she certainly didn't understand me. Sometimes she would say, "You're too much like me for your own good," which in turn made me study her, trying to find the parts of her that were me.
For a time, I'd thought our family was happy, but my na-ïveté was only a safeguard from reality. As things fell apart between Mama and Daddy, I blamed myself, feeling responsible for how it started. But it was what Daddy did that sealed our fate. And when Uncle Ray showed up appearing to be full of good intentions about helping us out, he ended up causing more than his own share of trouble.
Uncle Ray. I always shiver when thinking about him, and Granny Dupree said when you shiver and its ninety-some degrees outside, that's someone walking over your future grave. It was hard writing about what he did, and I couldn't go back and reread those entries like I did some of the other ones. You could say what was on those pages about him was akin to a coming storm, like dark clouds gathered on a horizon, persistent in their approach. If someone else had read those words, they might have wondered: Would they bring rain or something worse, something destructive? But the only one reading them was me, and I was too close to it all, too young to see how twisted up it was, too innocent to consider the danger and heartbreak.
Intent on Mr. Evans's every move, I watched as he put my diary in his briefcase, and only when it was out of sight could I look at him again.
He said, "Dixie, you understand, you might not get it back."
I had suspected this, but knowing it was another thing.
Still, all I said was, "That's okay."
Really, it wasn't, and my eyes felt like they consumed my entire face as I kept staring at him, the implications of it all too big for me to handle right then. I supposed the only reason to give it up was knowing it held the truth, the truth I wouldn't have to tell to a room full of strangers. At the time, I hadn't worried it was going to be exposed for all to read and then dissect. I mean, who cares about a young girl's diary except her? When I'd told Mama I had everything written down about what happened, she acted surprised.
"What do you mean you have it written down?"
"In my diary. I wrote about what happened with Daddy, and about Uncle Ray, too."
"You wrote about what happened with him ...?"
"Yes, ma'am, most of it."
I noticed how she wouldn't say Uncle Ray's name anymore. I didn't see what the big deal was, but she went to the phone and called Mr. Evans. Next thing I knew, he was here, taking the diary and explaining to Mama and me why it was so important. It was key evidence.
He said, "Well, with what happened, not much more needs to be known, but it certainly won't hurt. You are a smart young lady, Dixie."
That was all fine and good, but I didn't like the way people's faces changed once they had the facts, because I sure didn't want their god-awful pity. Before we left New Hampshire, I'd already been subjected to it all from the police, the doctors, and the nurses. They had looked at me with that "bless her heart" look. When we got back here, Daddy's folks acted different toward me too, like they were embarrassed, even my cousin, Debra, Uncle Elroy and Aunt Margie's daughter. I didn't think she could ever be embarrassed about anything, she was too damn mean. I tried to ignore the looks, but when I caught people unaware, their faces were open and revealing. That's when I got uncomfortable. I knew they knew, and they were thinking about it.
Mr. Evans asked me how I'd been so good about writing almost every day.
I told him, "Well, Mama said I'm stubborn, about as stubborn as Alabama dirt."
I thought of a good comparison.
"Do you know how hard it is to grow grass, Mr. Evans?"
We were now standing out in the front yard, and I scratched my toe through a patch of the red dirt I loved, but Mama hated with the wrath of someone who thinks it's out to get her. I stared down at the line and realized it was just like I'd issued a dare to Mr. Evans to step over it.
He glanced down at the dirt, and with a slight smile on his face, he said, "Sometimes soil just needs a little bit of TLC, right?"
I'd learned stubborn worked two ways; it could help you or hurt you. For me, it usually meant trouble, particularly when Mama was in the mood to conform me to her idea of respectful.
If things weren't going good with me, she'd say, "Well, I guess when life hands you lemons, you make lemonade."
Most of the time I'd felt like a fly in her glass of lemonade and just when she went to take a big swallow, there I was, ruining her attempt at making the best of things. Our relationship might have gone a bit more smoothly in the earlier days if she'd considered me as being tenacious. It was AJ who'd told me that word, AJ, who never caused her any grief. Once I overheard Mama telling Aunt Margie it was like having birthed an angel, then a small she devil.
AJ's two years older than me, and for the most part, he's the typical big brother, doing things like purposefully tripping me when I walk by him, or eating the last chocolate chip cookie when he knew I wanted it. But sometimes, he did nice, non-brotherly things, like trying to help me with homework, or letting me talk when I needed to talk, as well as giving big brotherly advice.
One day after Mama had got on me for persisting in talking to her when she was concentrating on her grocery list, he said, "Tell her you're not being stubborn, you're just being tenacious."
Maybe AJ was right, so next time, I was quick to let Mama know I wasn't stubborn.
I said, "I'm just tenacious, Mama, not stubborn."
Her hand connected to my cheek before I had a chance to take my next breath. AJ didn't mean to get me into trouble. We both knew there were times when you could say something like that and she'd laugh, or she'd unexpectedly snap, and neither of us could figure out when it would be one or the other.
Mr. Evans looked down at the bare patch I'd scraped my toe through and said, "You've got to give something to the soil before it will return the favor and give something back."
His smile broadened and the crinkles around his eyes showed he smiled a lot. I liked his explanation of TLC, and I made a decision right there; I would take him for his word from that point on.
He said, "I'll be in touch, Mrs. Dupree. And young lady, you don't need to worry, this will be over with before you know it."
I nodded my head, all the while wishing he'd tell me how that was going to happen. Mama watched as Mr. Evans got into the waiting taxi and left for the airport. I watched him, too, thinking, He's taking my best friend, the one way I've been able to cope. The knowledge my beloved diary was no longer under my mattress left a hole that couldn't be filled. I was sorry and blaming myself for everything, including opening my big mouth about it.
Mama turned without a word and walked into the house, and I thought, She's probably sick and tired of it all by now. I stood until I saw the last of the taxi's taillights disappear in the curve of the road and then I turned to follow Mama inside. Before I got to the screen door, it opened and she came toward me, her hand outstretched, something small and black held in it.
Her voice was quiet, "I want you to have this."
It looked like what Mr. Evans had just put into his briefcase, only it was bound in black leather. I stared at it and at Mama, puzzled.
"What is it?"
Her expression became detached, with a hint of sorrow.
She sighed and said, "It's my diary. I got it when I bought yours. I want you to read it."
I stared at its dog-eared appearance, and I could tell she'd been as intent on writing in it as I'd been in mine.
She turned to go back inside, and hesitated, "Dixie?"
"You know, none of this was your fault. I hope you'll understand things after you read it, if not today, then someday. It's going to get better, I promise."
I could only nod, mouth hanging open, dumbstruck by what I held. I walked into the house, finding it hard to stay behind her. I was anxious to be in my room and reading, and I had to fight the urge to push her out of the way so I could get there quicker. Mama went to the kitchen and picked up the phone, probably to call Aunt Margie while I hustled down the hall to my room.
I sure was glad AJ was down at the creek catching crawdads to go fishing so he wouldn't be pestering me to go outside with him. I sat on the edge of my bed and flipped it open, staring at the first entry. It was dated 1966, and what she wrote sent a shiver down my back and my heart to thumping.
It said, She lied. Just like I asked her to, but, what kind of life do I have when I have to ask my own child to lie for me?
She was writing about me. I'd been eight years old and I'd gone and got her in trouble with Daddy and Granny Dupree. It occurred to me this was when it had started, when we'd all begun to lose our way with each other. It happened so gradually, none of us saw it coming, until there was nothing left but empty conversations and useless arguments inside a house that had anticipated love, but had only seen sadness.CHAPTER 2
When I went and got Mama in that mess with Daddy and Granny Dupree, my way of making up for it was to help cover up what she'd done. She told me what to say and I said it. She said, "Don't tell," and I didn't. That was when I first noticed Mama and Daddy had a problem and I became fixated on them. Like a cat stalking a bird, I watched, wondering just when they'd started to come apart. Their trouble took such a hold of them it was like they'd got caught in a riptide, tossed and turned, neither one seeming to know which way to go to get free. The day it happened was like most days around our house. Mama didn't like chaos, she liked things in their place, meaning me and AJ, too, and it would start like this.
After Daddy went to work, Mama would throw open the doors to our rooms saying, "Get up! Get up!" while throwing the covers back on our beds while we were still huddled in them. Then, she'd throw the curtains open so the sun hit you right in the eyeballs.
Her next sentence was, "Come on, the sun's shining and I've got a million things to do!"
I'd often speculated how someone could have a million things to do every day if they'd just done a million the day before. Half-awake, we'd stumble out to the kitchen, where she'd shove a sausage biscuit in one hand, a glass of milk in the other, and we'd go sit on the back steps and eat. Most days AJ and I didn't mind eating outside if it was warm, and we'd sit out there stuffing buttery biscuits in our mouths, grease running down our chins. We'd drink our glasses of cold milk and feel full and happy. What did we care if we were in our pajamas playing in the yard at seven o'clock in the morning? If we did as she said, things were fine. Later on we'd go back inside and go about the rest of our day, Mama talking to us about this and that, or we'd play games until Daddy came home.
On that particular day, I resented her getting us up so early. It was a Saturday, and after being in school all week, I had decided we ought to be able to sleep in. All my friends talked about how their mamas let them do that, and then get up to eat a leisurely breakfast while sitting at the kitchen table. I stood defiantly by the screen door and Mama's frenzied vacuuming came to a stop. It was too late by the time I realized I'd made a mistake, too late to head for the back door. She grabbed me, shaking me so hard, my head snapped back and forth, turning everything blurry and causing me to drop my sausage biscuit on the floor.
"Look what you've done to my clean floors! You'll get nothing else, do you hear me?"
"But ... you made me drop it!"
Mama froze for a split second, and then, like I'd seen before, something took over, an anger that could come and go as fast as a summer storm. She drew back her hand and smacked me in the face so hard my ears rang. The blood from my busted lip tasted strange, a tinny flavor I found nasty. I wiped what trickled down my chin with my hand while Mama watched me, her expression calculating to see if I was sorry enough. No longer defiant, I crept out and sat beside AJ, sniffling, as I tried to clean my hand by scraping it against the edge of the porch. I sat, staring at the ground, letting my lip drip blood onto the cement step.
He hadn't seen anything, sitting there, oblivious, and happily cramming the rest of his biscuit in his mouth. He turned to me, his hand held out expecting me to give him mine since I didn't always eat it. He gawked at my red-stained mouth and my cheek, already starting to bruise.
Excerpted from The Education of Dixie Dupree by Donna Everhart. Copyright © 2016 Donna Everhart. Excerpted by permission of KENSINGTON PUBLISHING CORP..
All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
Excerpts are provided by Dial-A-Book Inc. solely for the personal use of visitors to this web site.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
Easy to read. Held my interest. Loved Dixie.
Sad yet meaningful, at times so raw it was hard to continue reading. Really hits home in terms of family strife and the way families deal with dysfunction. I rooted for Dixie the whole way through!
This coming of age book was a difficult "read." It was beautifully written, but the issues, which are presented, are hard to handle. Dixie Dupree is a liar...and she will learn the hard way how the lies have created an environment in which she needs to share a very disturbing situation, but no one will believe her. It's like the boy who cried wolf. She's lied so many times that no one believes she can actually tell the truth. Dixie and her family (mother, father, and brother) suffer through various issues. Dixie's parents fight, her mother has moments of extreme anger (emotions that are taken out on Dixie), and some of the family members may not be who they present themself to be. What Dixie endures is traumatic and your heart will just ache for her. But in a moment, you are sitting there cheering her on as she shows a strength that few 11-year-old children demonstrate. Her courage and spirit may flicker and threaten to die completely, but she finds the strength to persevere and to speak up for herself. This is not a feel-good story. But it is one that you should take the time to absorb. It will reach into your depths and wrench your heart out. The author has written a book that will touch you deeply and make you want to take Dixie out of her family situation and help her learn that love does exist and she can be adored and appreciated.
Set in the late 1960's south, Dixie lives in Alabama with her mom, dad and older brother AJ. Her mom has one of those tempers that can get away from her and Dixie tries her best to not trigger her 'other mom' coming out. Her mom is not happy living where she has no friends and her inlaws only tolerate her. Dixie learns to become an expert liar. She needs to in order to protect her unstable family. The story is told from Dixie's viewpoint, and the voice of this eleven year old comes through loud and clear. When Dixie's mom finally gets the courage to tell her husband that she want to go home to New Hampshire, disaster strikes. Then Uncle Ray comes down to help out his sister. Dixie is the kind of child the reader wants to reach into the pages of this story and yank from this life. This is a sad story at points, but it’s also filled with love and hope and kindness from some unexpected sources. It is written in flowing, deceptively simple prose and covers a lot of issues: alcoholism, depression, physical and sexual abuse, rape, suicide, and more. This is a story with flawed characters both innocent and others evil. There is enough goodness and charm to balance this dark but captivating story. I enjoyed the story told by Dixie, but did not enjoy some of the content. I recommend this story to anyone who enjoys family drama with a dark side.
I love it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! : - )
This book really explains how some children go through sexual abuse.
This book grabbed a hold of me and became therapy. It was the basis of an incredible discussion between my daughter and I, something I will appreciated forever.
Very emotional book to read
Told from 11 year olds point of view Twists and turns through the narative Worth reading