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CHAPTER 1
Disillusioned
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. — Psalm 34:18
At no time in my life was I more immersed in white evangelical Christian culture than during college. I was studying to become a youth pastor at a small but prominent Christian university called Moody Bible Institute. At Moody, everyone is required to be Christian, and students must sign a doctrinal statement agreeing to follow a set of rules and regulations based on so-called Christian morals and conduct. I spent most of my time attending church, studying theology, playing in worship bands, reading Scripture, and participating in an array of ministries and organizations.
We weren't allowed to watch television in our dorm rooms or see R-rated movies anywhere. We weren't permitted to have facial hair, or wear pants that were too wrinkled, or be off campus after eleven at night. Our evangelical Christian bubble was regulated by "biblical" laws, inspired by "biblical" expectations, and facilitated through "biblical" authority structures.
As a young man passionately trying to follow God, I loved it.
But while I was at Moody, September 11 happened. Terrorists hijacked planes, brought down the Twin Towers, and forever changed the course of American history. The United States was suddenly waging a war against terror, and my classmates and I were turning to God for answers with a newfound sense of urgency and desperation. Such violent death and destruction wasn't supposed to happen in our homeland! So we prayed for our country, prayed for our soldiers, and sang "My Country 'Tis of Thee" in our churches.
As an energetic, all-American college student, I desperately wanted to contribute to the war effort. So after finding an old mattress and dragging it into my dorm's lobby, I propped it against a wall and used a black magic marker to draw a human outline on it. Then, having gathered all the sharp knives I could find from dorm kitchens, I stood about twenty feet from the mattress and planted my feet in position. I hurled one knife, and then another, and then another at the guy on the mattress.
The terrorist.
It wasn't long before other students joined me. With a ruthless vengeance, we chucked knives, forks, makeshift spears, chairs, recycling bins, and anything else that wasn't nailed down at the terrorist. On the numerous occasions that I stabbed homemade weapons into the mutilated bedding, I visualized cutting open a jihadist's stomach, spilling his blood, and ripping out his guts.
Soon long lines of Bible students were eagerly awaiting their chance. What became known as the "anti-terrorist camp" quickly became a popular attraction for guys on campus. Throwing knives requires a certain amount of skill and a lot of practice. Being college students with nothing better to do, we became quite good at it. We threw, we sliced, and we stabbed. Eventually it turned it into a game of "Who can make the knife stick into the terrorist from the farthest away?" With a morbid passion inspired by hate, patriotism, and fear, we unleashed violence upon this unnamed Islamic enemy and defended our country — God's country — from evil forces.
The anti-terrorist camp lasted for days. Every morning we'd pretend to torture and kill hundreds of Muslim terrorists. Then we'd go to our classes and learn about God. Later in the day we might even walk the streets of Chicago and evangelize to strangers, telling them about the wonderful love of Jesus.
So there I was: a bloodlusting, hate-filled, revenge-seeking Christian. But that's how nearly everyone I knew was. I remember how I felt during that time: confident, holy, righteous, and assured that everything I believed in was right.
When Christians are wrong
But I was wrong. I was nowhere close to reflecting the character of Jesus.
Jesus: a Middle Eastern man. Jesus: a Savior who forgave people's sins. Jesus: the Messiah, who commanded his followers to love their neighbors as they love themselves.
Jesus: God who came to earth to lovingly sacrifice himself for enemies — not gleefully kill them.
Fully engulfed in white evangelical Christian culture, I was thinking and acting in ways that were totally anti-Christ. My entire religious system — or at least the religious people surrounding me — affirmed this depravity and actually prodded me further from the reality of Jesus. Our knife hurling and terrorist hating were all done under the guise of Christianity. We wrapped our faith and our nationalism into one great big package: national security, justice, judgment, a holy nation, Christian America, demonic Islam. "Something needs to be done about the innocent people being killed by terrorists!" "I don't want Muslims wiping out Christianity!" "This is a sign of the end times!" "And for crying out loud, my loved ones aren't going to be the next victims!" So it was that we, Christians following the Prince of Peace, advocated bombing our enemies to death and asking questions later. To God be the glory. God bless America.
Like adherents of many popular movements, we molded our faith on the principles of wealth, political gain, comfort, and power, which were all disguised and spiritualized. Christ's gospel of love was manipulated as a means to an end and became a way to justify our worldly desires and fool ourselves into believing we were being godly. Instead of love-based power, we were advocating for a worldly power. We believed getting power was preferable to giving power, and that taking life was better than sacrificing our own. We entrusted our souls to the kingdoms of the world instead of to the kingdom of God.
My Christian faith at that time — and for a few years after — was so radically different from the life of Jesus as documented in the Bible that one might wonder how the two could ever possibly be reconciled. Yet I didn't even wonder about the discrepancy. Millions of us didn't wonder. Instead of seeing our world through the lens of Christ, we saw our Christ through the lens of our own religious worldview.
While much has changed since 9/11, much has also stayed the same. To this day, lots of Christians — many of whom I love and admire — defend such thoughts and actions as reasonable and justifiable. But reading the accounts of Jesus' life in the New Testament has made it increasingly hard for me to rationalize such sentiments. I have changed. Some of my loved ones would say I've changed for the worse, but I think it's been for the better. For the very first time in my entire life, I'm starting to understand that Christianity is about Christ.
That sentence — Christianity is about Christ — may seem painfully obvious. But when you attend a church that doesn't welcome you, or listen to pastors who are preaching hate, or see theologians banter on social media, or watch evangelists spew lies on television, or see Christians engage negatively with the culture around you — well, you would be justified in thinking that Christ is absent from much of Christianity.
When Christianity no longer looks like Christ, the act of advocating for the least of these — refugees, immigrants, the maligned — might be met with fierce and often hateful resistance. When Christianity looks nothing like Christ, sacrificial love is replaced with brute force, and allegiance to Jesus is supplanted by allegiance to nation. Christians then support policies that block refugees from entering their country, deport people instead of embracing them, continue to funnel billions into a military-industrial complex that expands across the globe, and passively allow systemic racism and inequality. Rather than look to Christ for guidance, they embrace immoral leaders who care more about acquiring power than loving others.
Looking back, I realize that as I held a knife in my hands and prepared to hurl it at the image of a human being, Jesus was conspicuously missing from my mind and heart. I should have noticed that then. But I didn't notice, and neither did legions of other self-proclaimed Christians. Throughout history, Christians have been guilty of abandoning the virtues of the Jesus they claim to follow. Christians have even been the key instigators and players in some of the world's most evil movements. The Crusades. The exploitation and genocide of Indigenous peoples. The Holocaust. Slavery, segregation, and white supremacy.
The list could go on and on. Time and again, Christians throughout history have gotten it wrong. We continue to get it wrong today.
What do you mean by "Christian"?
Christianity could mean a million different things to a million different people. Whenever someone asks if you're a Christian, you might want to ask what they actually mean when they say "Christian." Author Sarah Bessey notes, "In some circles, using the word 'Christian' is the equivalent of saying you're a racist, homophobic, climate-change denying ignoramus ready to storm a women's health clinic to murder a doctor." The biggest problem with defining Christianity is that everyone has wildly differing ideas of what it actually is.
Let's consider a few terms. The word Christianity describes the religion surrounding the teachings, life, death, and resurrection of Jesus. The word Christian comes from the Greek word Christianos, which means "follower of Christ." Christian has become an adjective in contemporary conversation — a way to describe not only a person who follows Jesus but also a modifier for a family, a corporation, and even an entire nation. For example, because they're closed on Sundays and espouse conservative "family values," businesses like Chick-fil-A and Hobby Lobby are deemed to be "Christian" companies. Starbucks's support for LGBTQ (lesbian, gay, bisexual, transgender, and queer) communities casts it, in the minds of many, as a non-Christian business. Strangely enough, in this way it becomes possible to identify a chicken sandwich and shabby-chic picture frame as somehow "Christian" and a disposable coffee cup as not.
Christendom, then, is a form of Christianity that has gained cultural and social and political dominance. Christendom blesses and is blessed by the political realm in which it enjoys widespread popularity. Christendom dates back to the fourth century, when Constantine made Christianity the dominant religion of an entire empire and used the faith to justify and sanction violence and warfare. Christianity has never been the same. Christendom still reigns wherever the church blesses the state and the state smiles on the church. Christendom is present whenever Christian culture becomes dominant. We'll look at this more in a later section.
Evangelical Christianity is a particular brand of Christianity that emphasizes personal conversion, the centrality of the cross, the authority of the Bible, and evangelism. White evangelical Christianity, which is represented by the majority white culture, has become a dominant force in U.S. politics and public life and a primary driver of Christendom as it is experienced in the United States today.
"Religion is man-made," the famous atheist Christopher Hitchens once declared. "Even the men who made it cannot agree on what their prophets or redeemers or gurus actually said or did." Hitchens sees little that is good in Christian faith. But Christopher's own brother, author Peter Hitchens, believes that Christianity is one of the best things to happen to humanity. "Only one reliable force stands in the way of the power of the strong over the weak," writes Peter Hitchens. "Only one reliable force forms the foundation of the concept of the rule of law. Only one reliable force restrains the hand of the man of power. And, in an age of power-worship, the Christian religion has become the principal obstacle to the desire of earthly utopians for absolute power."
Here we have two brothers who are both talking about the same thing — Christianity — yet have polar views of what it represents. Which brother is correct? They both are. Christianity is as various as the people who adhere (or don't adhere) to it.
Indeed, anybody can call themselves — or anything else — "Christian." Adolf Hitler once said, "I believe today that I am acting in the sense of the Almighty Creator." Hitler obviously wasn't a follower of Jesus, but at the time many thought that he was, partly because he implemented Christian rhetoric in his speeches and propaganda. While we may easily dismiss the idea that Hitler was a Christian, the very fact that he was able to use Christianity to serve his evil purposes should prompt us to reflect seriously upon our own world. What might we be mistakenly identifying as "Christian" today? The label of Christianity can fulfill sinful desires, and Christianity can be misused for many deplorable purposes. In Christendom, Christianity comes in handy for raising campaign donations, increasing business, acquiring fame, and justifying the shaming, hurting, and even killing of others.
Exploiting Christianity is as old as Christianity itself; it's a tactic that's been employed throughout history. The original deception that Satan used to fool Adam and Eve was an attempt to pass wickedness off as being godlike. Satan promised Eve, "You will not surely die. For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened, and you will be like God, knowing good and evil" (Genesis 3:4-5). Many have been similarly deceived, being presented with a religion they mistakenly perceive as representing Christ when in reality the "Christianity" they're experiencing, and possibly even living, is a lie.
Frederick Douglass clearly witnessed this type of deception when the white Christianity of his day widely participating in slavery. He offered this accurate indictment:
Between the Christianity of this land and the Christianity of Christ, I recognize the widest possible difference — so wide that to receive the one as good, pure, and holy, is of necessity to reject the other as bad, corrupt, and wicked. To be the friend of the one is of necessity to be the enemy of the other. I love the pure, peaceable, and impartial Christianity of Christ; I therefore hate the corrupt, slave-holding, women-whipping, cradle-plundering, partial and hypocritical Christianity of this land. Indeed, I can see no reason but the most deceitful one for calling the religion of this land Christianity.
White Christians spiritualized slavery with a bold confidence. In The Great Stain: Witnessing American Slavery, author Noel Rae notes how white Christians of that era used the Bible to rationalize the evil of owning slaves, citing Old Testament references and using verses like Ephesians 6:5-7 ("Slaves, obey your earthly masters ..."). Rae quotes Stephen Elliott, a bishop who presided over the Episcopal Church in the Confederacy, as an example of how many put a positive spin on it:
Around Sierra Leone, and in the neighborhood of Cape Palmas, a few natives have been made Christians, and some nations have been partially civilized; but what a small number in comparison with the thousands, nay, I may say millions, who have learned the way to Heaven and who have been made to know their Savior through the means of African slavery! At this very moment there are from three to four millions of Africans, educating for earth and for Heaven in the so vilified Southern States — learning the very best lessons for a semi-barbarous people — lessons of self-control, of obedience, of perseverance, of adaptation of means to ends; learning, above all, where their weakness lies, and how they may acquire strength for the battle of life. These considerations satisfy me with their condition, and assure me that it is the best relation they can, for the present, be made to occupy.
In that way, the evil of slavery was presented as a form of Christian goodness. White evangelical Christianity still lives with the legacy of its justification of slavery, and dominant Christianity continues to issue theological statements and rationalizations that downplay or disregard the injustices related to incarceration, inequity, income inequality, and immigration. Decades from now, will the American Christianity of our day be known for a legacy of inspiration, or will its stance on racism, refugees, immigration policy, welfare, gender, and poverty leave a damning mark in history? We must always be vigilant and aware of how Christianity is being co-opted. In 1993, over seventy people died after federal agents stormed a compound in Waco, Texas, after a fifty-one-day siege. Inside the compound were Branch Davidians, a group of religious followers led by David Koresh, who claimed to be a messiah figure and used biblical references and symbolism to establish a cult following. Using the books of Ezekiel and Revelation, Koresh manipulated people into believing they were being faithful followers.
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Excerpted from "The Great Reckoning: Surviving a Christianity That Looks Nothing like Christ"
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