The Weight of Ghosts

by Laila Halaby

Overview

The Weight of Ghosts is a circling of grief following the death of the author’s older son when he was 21, a horror that was compounded by her younger son’s drug use, the country’s slow eruption as it dealt with its own brokenness, and reckoning the author had to do regarding her own story. Weight is a lyrical reclaiming and an insistence by the author that she own the rights to her story, which is American flavored with an unreleasing elsewhere. Weight is an immigrant story and a love story. While it is raw and honest and tragic, it is also a hopeful, funny, and original telling that demonstrates the strength of the human spirit, while offering a vocabulary for these most unmanageable human experiences.

Product Details

ISBN-13:	9781636281346
Publisher:	Red Hen Press
Publication date:	09/05/2023
Pages:	208
Sales rank:	1,089,094
Product dimensions:	6.00(w) x 9.00(h) x (d)

About the Author

Laila Halaby is the author of two novels, Once in a Promised Land (Washington Post top 100 works of fiction for 2007; Barnes and Noble Discover Great New Writers) and West of the Jordan (PEN Beyond Margins award winner), as well as two collections of poetry, why an author writes to a guy holding a fish and my name on his tongue. Laila has two master’s degrees (UCLA and LMU), was a Fulbright recipient, and currently lives in Tucson, Arizona where she works as a counselor, museum educator, and creative writing teacher.

Editorial Reviews

Equal parts devastating and life-affirming, Laila Halaby's memoir offers wisdom and truth for everyone who has ever moved through a difficult time and shredded a skin to adapt. There are many layers to this story, all tied together by the clear, poetic language that is as musical as the birdsong that accompanies Halaby on her healing walks around Tucson. The Weight of Ghosts is a brave and remarkable achievement.”—Alice Elliott Dark, author of Fellowship Point and In the Gloaming

“Beautiful and heartbreaking.”—Randa Jarrar, author of Love Is An Ex-Country

"In this raw, poetic, and relentlessly probing narrative, Halaby plumbs the depths of loss while attempting to piece together the “puzzle” of a life born at the crossroads of clashing multiethnic truths and fictions. A fiercely authentic memoir." —Kirkus Reviews

"The Weight of Ghosts is a hauntingly beautiful memoir, painstakingly attentive to the eddies of grief and the signs of regeneration, and a testament to the power of language to reconnect us with what we have lost." —The Markaz Review

"The Weight of Ghosts is complex, layered, and sometimes messy, as grief is, but this memoir offers readers a deeply affecting, lyrical and often profound journey into the experience of love and loss." —New York Journal of Books

From the Publisher

2023-06-02
A writer and oncology counselor reflects on how the death of her oldest son helped her own a personal story that had “always felt like a lie.”

The illegitimate daughter of a white mother and a Jordanian father, Halaby, author of two novels and two collections of poetry, felt that she was a “fiction…squished between other people’s tall tales.” Many years later, when her son Raad was killed in a car accident, the author was forced to redefine the true and singular nature of her “borders” with the world. As a counselor, Halaby had spent most of her professional life emotionally insulated, a “ghost” who listened to the traumas of her clients but never had to reveal her own pain. The fictions that had rendered her invisible began in childhood, when her single mother “insisted that I was Caucasian,” then “fill[ed] my head with myth of white privilege and superiority.” That “certitude” did not save Halaby, who lived in the “impossible homelands” of cultural in-betweenness, from being alternately judged and claimed by both white and brown people. In its implacable reality, the grief she experienced after Raad’s death changed everything. Cracks developed in her relationship with a white partner who, while offering love, also criticized Arab cultures without fully knowing them. “Boundaries are different with white people,” she writes. “Boundaries are different with men.” The author sought to better understand the components of her own life: a 17-year marriage that ended in divorce; a younger son who was “in and out of rehab”; the impotent rage she felt alongside the grief she tried to blunt with medicine “to keep from spending the afternoon on the kitchen floor.” In this raw, poetic, and relentlessly probing narrative, Halaby plumbs the depths of loss while attempting to piece together the “puzzle” of a life born at the crossroads of clashing multiethnic truths and fictions.

A fiercely authentic memoir.

Kirkus Reviews