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Black Skyy
By Janet Stevens Cook Strebor Books
Copyright © 2007 Janet Stevens Cook
All right reserved. ISBN: 9781593091132
CHAPTER 1
New York, 1977
Damn, I can't believe this shit! These heroin dealers are gonna come up in here
and try to play Zee like this. No tellin' what the fuck Zee's done now,
thought Sandy. "Where's the fuckin' money, Zee?" screamed Six, who at six feet
six inches, towered over his intended target. His thick gold rope chains rattled
as he shook with rage.
Like a true addict, Zee trembled, either from fright or from her addiction. She
even couldn't tell the difference. Zelda was the poster child for heroin
addiction, waxy skin, ashy complexion, dark circles under the eyes, sunken
cheeks, excessively thin, hollow expression, scratched up skin, matted hair. It
was as if she and smack were "old friends"; there was nothing that Zee hadn't
done with her beloved drug. She had done it all, injected it, smoked it, sniffed
it.
"I never got nothing," said Zee. "He gave me an empty bag! I keep t..., t...,
tellin' y'all that," Zee lied through her rotting teeth.
Zee prayed that she could convince her accusers that she really didn't have the
money. Zee glanced over at the cookie jar where they had already found some of
the money that she had hid. She glanced past the thugs into the bedroom. She
prayed they did go into the room and into the dresser drawers. What if they
found thegold key to the locker at Penn Station? She closed her eyes and
thought, I don't care if they rape, torture, or kill me, my babies are never
gonna want for nothin', they are gonna have the life that I should have had.
That was the least that Lord Bless could do for me. Got me hooked on
this SHIT!
For a moment, Zelda closed her eyes, as she remembered playing the piano, a
beautiful black baby grand. Her two long black pigtails swinging as she
playfully bobbed her head as she went from "This Little Light of Mine" to "The
Sting" to "Beethoven's Fifth Symphony." She was a child prodigy and could play
any song by ear or read the most complex concerto. At fifteen, her gift from God
had led her from a small town in North Carolina all the way to the Big City of
Dreams, where she met the man who would change her life, forever.
I held my breath so that no one could hear me, and pinched my baby brother as
tears rolled down his terrified cheeks. Malcolm was scared. Shit, so was I! But
I would not let Malcolm know it. I had to protect him from these crazed fools.
As Malcolm and I hid in our tiny one-bedroom flat, no air conditioning, the
closet felt like a sauna. I closed my eyes and allowed myself to drift for a bit
and tried to play like I was on a tropical island like Hawaii, or some exotic
fuckin' place. Right now this sauna was the safest place on earth as me and
Malcolm hid from a gun-crazed giant who called himself Six and Low Down, a
psychotic, wannabe drug dealer. I was snapped back to reality when I heard the
voice of a TV newscaster say that it was the hottest summer on record.
Summers in New York were always so hot, that the kids in the 'hood would have to
open the fire hydrants just for relief. Before the cops could get to shuttin'
off the next hydrant, the youngins would turn them back on again. Of course,
some folks were so poor that once in a while they would actually take baths in
the hydrant water.
A wannabe drug dealer is the worst kind of brother, because he is too
stupid to be a real drug dealer, but loco enough to try to prove that he should
be in charge. His whole game is about trying to prove something. Well tonight,
Low Down, with Six's help, was sure trying to prove something. The outcome
tonight would make a point to the entire 'hood whether Low Down was the Man
or not. It was simple, he either had to get the money and kick Zee's ass,
or he had to kill her to make an example out of her. Either way, tomorrow,
motherfuckers would be at his feet or trying to punk him for his position.
Malcolm and I had been in that closet for what seemed like an eternity. I was
proud that Malcolm was able to contain his emotions. Most four-year-old boys
would not have been so cool. Malcolm had seen a lot in his four young years, but
unfortunately for me, I had seen more. He had seen his mother sexually violated
by a countless number of strangers. From time to time, he also had been
propositioned by men so vile that he would respond by regurgitating. Malcolm was
always hungry. He had a longing and hunger not only for food, but also for his
mother's love and protection. Malcolm never felt clean, or safe. He just closed
his eyes, rocked himself, and quietly cried silent tears of both pain and
terror.
My blouse was so wet with sweat and tears, that it clung to my caramel-colored
skin. My mother, "Zee," named me Sandora, but all the kids called me Sandy
because my skin was the color of sand. I smiled, as I remembered myself jumping
rope. Life was good, before Zee was introduced to the "heh' ron."
I was so hot and tired, that I thought I would pass out at any moment. However,
I clung to Malcolm like he was the only person on earth. It's a shame that Zee
had to put us through this shit. All of the rehabs that the church referred her
to, she couldn't seem to stay in any of them. Zee was so high, half the damned
time she didn't know what I had to do to pay the fuckin' bills. Most
times, I felt that it was a mistake that I was born. No one should have to live
like this. Malcolm is the ONLY reason why I didn't slit my wrist a long time
ago. He was the ONLY reason worth living.
I smiled, looked at Malcolm, and whispered, "my pride and joy." Malcolm was an
innocent bystander in a cruel, cruel game. He was the only thing in my life that
was "good" and "pure." I vowed that when he was born, that I would always be his
protector. I would protect him with my own life if necessary. It was pure
instinct that made me grab him and push him into the closet within seconds of
the drug boys' invasion of our apartment. I began to rock Malcolm, trying to
keep us both from losing it. They had no idea that we were there.
I closed my eyes and said a silent prayer: "God, please keep my mother safe." As
triflin' as Zee was, she was still my mother. I prayed that God would
miraculously give her some kind of wisdom to shut the fuck up, or tell the
truth, so that we could all get out of this alive. While at the same time I
prayed for my mother, under my breath I whispered, "I hate you,Zee." I hated
that she could put us in this kind of danger, over and over again.
Right now, though, as I gaze upon this poor excuse for a woman, I felt a weird
kind of, I guess the word would be, love, sprinkled with a generous
helping of hate. And then again, I always wondered, What kind of pain drove
her to drugs in the first place? Why did she always choose drugs, over her
children?
Suddenly, we were startled by the sound of LD and Six ransacking our crib, as
they went from the kitchen to the living room. Zee panicked, as her attackers
started toward the bedroom. "I said I don't have no money!" said Zee, barring
the entrance to the tiny bedroom.
"Oh, I see what you wanna do. You want som'a dis." LD snickered, while grabbing
his dick. "Go 'head, take off your clothes, bitch." LD looked at Six, winked his
eye, and licked his lips. Pulling out a shiny switchblade, LD licked the length
of the knife like a child would lick a lollipop.
"Where is that fine daughter of yours? What's her name, Sandy?" LD
questioned Zee and looked at Six to help bolster his manhood. LD was in the zone
now. He could have his cake and eat it too. LD would have both Zee and Sandy,
and then kill the cheating heroin addict, as an example.
"Sandy ain't here. She took her brother over to the park," said Zee while she
took off her clothes. "Just kill me and get it done with," she whimpered.
As I carefully pushed the closet door open to peek through, my eyes widened as
LD took the knife and traced the various private parts of my mother's naked and
shivering body.
"Zee, I'm gonna try and be nice." LD smirked and smacked his lips. But then
without warning, he screamed, "Look, bitch, where is the money?!"
"Baby, let me just help you relax. Let me make you feel like a real man," Zee
said as she knelt down before LD, unzipped his pants, and began to blow that
scum.
As LD got lost in the moment, Six stepped in, grabbed Zee by the hair and put
his massive hands around her throat. "You either give us the money now, or I
will kill you and come back to kill your two kids later."
Zee looked into the bedroom, then up at the ceiling, smiled, and said, "Do what
you gotta do."
Angered by her defiance, Six retaliated by closing his hands even tighter around
her throat. Zee's ninety-eight-pound, smack-drained frame shook as she resigned
herself to death. In a way, it was as if she had made peace with herself, and
preferred death to the life that she had lived. Rather than her life, or her
children passing before her eyes, Zee felt her last "high" before passing out in
Six's hands.
After having to put his semi-aroused manhood back in his pants, LD angrily
grabbed Six by the shoulders trying to pull him off of Zee.
"What the fuck are you doing? You gonna kill her before I get some pussy?"
growled LD. He wanted to fuck Zee, call in his crew to run a train, get the
money, and then kill Zee on the street in front of her crib. How would he be
able to make a name for himself now if she were already dead?
In a fit of rage, LD dragged Zee's lifeless body out of our rundown apartment. A
bunch of the 23rd Street Crew hovered in a corner underneath the stoop playing
dice. Like radar, a crowd began to form and everyone came in front of 1249
Amsterdam Avenue to see what was up. I ran to the window, telling Malcolm to
stay put until I said he could come out. Through the torn window shade, I
watched the spectacle below.
"If you fuck with my money, or you fuck with my shit, this is what happens!"
shouted LD. By this time mothers and their "illegit" kids had come on the scene.
Old women and even a couple of workin' stiffs wondered what this fool was doing
with a lifeless, drug-filled, naked body.
"If you fuck with Low Down, then you plan to go Down Low," and with that,
LD took his knife and gutted Zee like a wild animal, starting from her neck
going straight down to her stomach and stopped past her navel. It was the most
horrible thing that most folks had ever seen yet no one did or said anything.
Everyone started to disperse, running for dear life into their apartments and
shutting their doors. The young dudes began slapping each other high-five and an
occasional, "Oh, shit!" could be heard.
All in all, at the expense of my mother's life, LD had in fact established
himself as THE MAN that night.
Back in the apartment, I finally let Malcolm come out of the closet. I looked
around the place and everyone was gone. For good, I hoped. Again, I peered
outside to see Zee lying lifeless and alone on the sidewalk, with her body torn
apart. Although I was stunned, I shed no tears. Somehow, a long time ago, I
resigned myself to the fact that eventually there would be a night something
like this. Zee had done too much shit to too many people. I told him that Zee
probably went to the store, and quickly closed the window so that Malcolm could
not see what I had witnessed. He knew I was lying but did not tell me so.
In the distance I heard faint cries. I snuck to the front door and hastily
peeked out into the hall and saw three old ladies holding hands and praying.
Unfortunately, as the women prayed, the only thing that I can remember was how a
sense of anger washed over my entire body. Anger, not sadness.
Then there was nothing but silence. A sound that so permeated that rundown
joint, that it was a sound and a night that I would never forget. I vowed to
make LD, Six, and Lord Bless wish they had never been born. As I said my own
silent, but deadly prayer, I closed my eyes tight and began to create Skyy.
© 2007 by Janet Stevens Cook
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