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A gay ghost, a talking dog, and a street kid who thinks he's an elf-child join our narrator Bud, best friend Dennis Savage, eternally young Little Kiwi, devastating hunk Carlo, and the other characters from I've a Feeling We're Not in Kansas Anymore and Buddies in this final volume in Mordden's trilogy on gay life in the big city.
And there's trouble in paradise: Dennis Savage is suffering midlife crisisl; his lover little Kiwi who uses sex as a weapon, threatens to tear apart the delicate fabric of this gay family of buddies, lovers, and brothers and the AIDS crisis may bring an end to this whole world.
Product Details
| ISBN-13: | 9781250128263 |
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| Publisher: | St. Martin's Publishing Group |
| Publication date: | 06/28/2016 |
| Series: | Buddies , #3 |
| Sold by: | Macmillan |
| Format: | eBook |
| Pages: | 312 |
| File size: | 385 KB |
About the Author
Ethan Mordden is the author of dozens of books, both fiction and nonfiction, including Buddies and I've a Feeling We're Not in Kansas Anymore. His writing has appeared in The New York Times, The New Yorker and numerous other magazines and journals. He lives in Manhattan.
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Everybody Loves You
Further Adventures in Gay Manhattan
By Ethan Mordden
St. Martin's Press
Copyright © 1988 Ethan MorddenAll rights reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-250-12826-3
CHAPTER 1
The Complete Death of the Clown Dog
The restaurant got a rave in the Times, and it was hot. If they didn't recognize your name, I was told, they wouldn't take your reservation. It was not that hot, it turned out, for they gave me no trouble. Still, it was horribly crowded, as if they had decided to run with the fame as long as it held out, and so had filled the room with tables, to serve the vested gentry at their lunches, then the chic cabaret watchers who would learn of the place from their friends because they never read, then the avid bridge-and-tunnel tourists, who would hear about it in Cue. Then the prices would go up, and the menu would lose its energy, and the waiters would mess up your drink order. And the place would falter and close.
I was taking an old friend to lunch to celebrate his promotion to managing editor of a prominent fashion magazine. He had been given little more than a few days in which to change the magazine's entire "book" — the major columns and features — and thus was invariably behind in everything that followed. Normally thoughtful and punctual, he became one of those nearly inaccessible heavy hitters who seldom return your phone messages or show up on time, the kind of Significant Other you are proud to know but can never see. At last I nabbed him for lunch, oddly timed to two o'clock, to fit into his schedule. Of course he was late, and as there is nothing else to do while awaiting the rest of your table but eavesdrop on your neighbors, I ordered a Kir and began to listen. To my right were three rowdy Communications people dishing a great load of apparently famous names; but I couldn't place those they cited. To my left were two men in their mid-thirties, whose quiet tone and conservatively sporty tweeds suggested the book trade.
They had reached the coffee stage. I supposed one was a writer and the other his editor, perhaps his agent, but I couldn't be sure because they weren't talking business. Many a telling silence passed between them. The one facing me — the authority figure, I guessed, whoever he was — sometimes smiled and sometimes nodded wisely. The one next to me, who was doing all the talking, had the heaviest regional accent I've ever heard, yet he spoke quickly, and filled his back country lingo with the articulate penetration of the literary man: as if he had picked up New York habits without losing his own.
What a backstory he must have, I thought — and suddenly, without preamble or explanation, he was spilling out his tale. I imagined that these two had met professionally and had just reached the moment — just now, here, at this lunch — when the business relationship turned into friendship. I imagined that the one speaking was a writer, and that he was sharing some profound and painful secret with the man who published his work. I imagined that he had come a long way to arrive at this lunch, at this career, at this friendship. I began to hope that my friend the heavy-hitting magazine editor would be unforgivably late, so I could hear the stranger's story.
This is the story he told:
* * *
In Hanley, West Virginia, close on to Wheeling, where I was when I was little, there was a pokey little circus run by Hopey Paris. Most places don't have their own circus on the premises, not even a little one like Hopey's with almost no animals and a busted trapeze and these admission tickets that must have been printed up before the Civil War that you couldn't even read what they said on them anymore. In Hanley we figured it was okay to have this circus, though most of us didn't much care about it one way or the other. Anyway, you never knew when Hopey was going to put his circus on, because he ran it by whim. Also he owned the dime store. I expect what he got out of the dime store he plowed back into keeping the circus going, since he didn't own anything else.
It was like this about having the circus. Some night in light weather, mostly at the tip end of summer when everyone would just sit around and wait for something cool to happen, Hopey would come up from his end of town and find a crowd on the steps of wherever it was they were ... someone's porch, whoever had beer. He'd wait about three lulls, nodding and shaking along with the gist of things as they got said. Then he'd go, "Guess I'll have to have the circus tonight." And everyone would get everyone else and go on over because, look, what else is there to do? You go to the circus.
What a funny circus — but how much do you want for free? Hopey handed out the admission tickets in a little booth at the entrance and you would take your seat inside the tent, which stood in Hopey's backyard, hanging on by a thread to these old poles. It wasn't a big tent, of course, but, as it is written, size isn't substance. And then Hopey would come in with a whip and this hat he got somewhere to be a ringmaster in. You'd want to think he would look pathetic, wouldn't you? Hopey Paris trying to hold down a circus all by himself in Hanley? He didn't, though. He didn't look much like anything. But he did have a star attraction, the clown dog.
It's crazy about dogs, how some can do things and some can't. I knew a dog once that caught softballs in the air if you threw them underhand. Then he'd go racing off with the ball in his teeth and you'd have to trap him and pry the ball out with a stick. That was his trick, I guess, is how he looked at it. And my father had a dog named Bill who was quite a hero in his day. Bill ran away finally and never came back.
But the clown dog sure was prime. He had this costume, a yellow coat-sort-of-thing with polka dots that he wore fastened around his middle and a red cone hat with a little pom-pom at the top. Whether the circus was on or off, and in all weathers, never, never did you see the clown dog out of costume. And his trick was he could talk. That dog could really talk.
This was why we would always come back to see the same old one-man circus, with no animals or clowns except one animal-clown, like that was all you needed to call it a circus. The tent was hardly alive at all, the big-top tent itself. But you always had to go back because you wanted to see how the trick was done. Because no dog, not even a circus trick dog, can talk. But the thing about tricks is whether or not you can figure them out. That's the art of tricks, right there. And the clown dog, though he often roamed around his end of town like any dog, free in the sun, except he was dressed ... the clown dog would never do his talking except in the circus. This was probably the deal he made with Hopey, who was, after all, his master. You'd suppose that they must have come to terms on something that important.
That's what's so funny. Because, speaking of dogs, my father never did come to terms with his dog Bill, though he would try, hard as stone, to make that dog his. He trained it and trained it. It must have run near on to two years of sessions in Sunshine's field, and Bill just didn't ever submit and be trained. My father was a ferocious trainer by the standards of any region, but he couldn't get Bill to obey even the most essential commands. And he never could teach him not to chase around the davenport, especially late at night, when Bill most felt like a run. "I will have that dog behave," my father said, and I recall how he looked, like behavior was just around the corner. But Bill would not be suppressed. Sometimes he would come when you called, sometimes not. But when he did come, he had this funny look on him, as if he was coming over just to find out why you persisted in calling his name when it had already been established that he wasn't about to respond.
Bill was a mutt, not like the clown dog, who was a poodle, a very distinct breed. You can't miss a poodle, especially in a polka-dot coat and a cone hat with a pom-pom. But Bill was just another dog you might know, kind of slow for his race and disobedient but generally normal, except once when he was The Hero of '62. They called him that because he accidentally bit this management scud who was getting on everybody's nerves at the factory the summer before the strike.
McCosker, I think this guy's name was ... one of those mouthy hirelings absolutely corrupted by a little power. He had been tacking up this notice by the front gate, some mouthy, powerful thing about something else you're not supposed to do, just busy as anything tacking away and being hated up by the people who were standing around watching. Suddenly Bill bounded over to where this guy McCosker was. I guess maybe Bill thought he saw something to eat near this McCosker's foot, but McCosker took it for some stunt and he made a sudden move and Bill got thrilled and bit him.
It was a tiny little bite on the ankle, kind of in passing, but McCosker screamed like he was being murdered and all the men cheered and patted Bill, and they all shook my father's hand, and mine, too. So Bill was The Hero of '62.
This is a funny thing. Because all Bill had done was what a dog will do every so often, whereas the clown dog was truly some kind of dog. Everybody said so. You just could not tell anyhow that he wasn't talking when Hopey Paris brought him on for his circus turn. Now, that was a trained dog if ever there was one. Yet nobody ever called the clown dog a hero. And the clown dog never ran away, either, which Bill did once. Once is all it takes.
I guess you have to figure that a dog that goes around in circus clothes isn't going to earn the respect of the community, besides him being a poodle, which is not one of your heroic breeds of dog. But I liked him, because he was the first thing I can remember in all my life. Hunkering back down in my mind as far as I can sail, the picture I reach is the clown dog talking in the circus, and the polka dots, and the hat. I wonder if he ever had a name, because he was always known as the clown dog that I ever heard, and I don't recall Hopey ever calling to him. Sometimes Hopey would act like that dog was this big secret, cocking an eyebrow and looking cagey if you asked after him, as if everyone in town hadn't seen the circus a hundred times.
I expect the clown dog must have liked me, because he used to follow me around some days that I know of with his coat and his dumb little hat. He looked so sad. I guess he sensed that he was supposed to be a secret, because he tended to hang back a little, like someone who has already been tagged out of a game and is waiting for the next thing to start. I don't recall that he even barked. And he never went along with us when we tried to get him to talk out of the circus.
Of course we had listened, with all the concentration of adolescents, to the exact words Hopey used in the act when the clown dog would speak, and we would try these words on the clown dog ourselves — imitating Hopey's voice, even, and standing the way he stood to be an imperial ringmaster. But we couldn't make it happen; never did the clown dog utter a word out of his context, the circus. It was the strangest thing. I was just thinking that I would have hated to be around Bill someday if someone tried to get him into a hat with pompoms.
I was at college when Bill ran away, so I only know about it secondhand, from stories. I couldn't help thinking it was presumable in the end that Bill would take a walk one day and not come back. It was presumable. But still I was surprised to hear of it. It was Christmas, when I was a freshman, and the first sight I got of home when I got off the bus was my father cutting the grass with the Johnsons' lawn mower, and Bill nowhere to be seen. I knew something was wrong then, because Bill never missed a chance to play dogfight with the Johnsons' lawn mower, which always enraged my father. Bill would growl at it for starters, lying way off somewhere, and slowly creep towards it ... you know, paw by paw. Then he'd run around it, fussing and barking, and at last he'd get in to rushing it like he was going in for the kill, only to back up snarling at the last second.
So when I saw the lawn mower and no Bill I thought he must be sick, but my father said he had run off like as far back as October sometime. I listened carefully to this, though he didn't talk careful, not ever in all his life that I knew him. Whatever he was thinking when he spoke, that's what he'd say, as tough as you can take it. He didn't expect Bill back, he said, and he didn't miss him. He said it and I believe him. I can just see that now, what he said, and saying it, so plain it was like a picture somebody drew to prove something. I could see that way he didn't care right up front on him.
"No," he said lazily, because he is lazy. "I don't miss him. You run away from home and don't come back, nobody misses you at all. That's the rule."
I don't know of any rule saying you don't miss a runaway dog, even if he never comes back. If he's of a mind to run, there's usually a good reason. My father used to say, "There's always a reason for something, and sometimes two."
That was one of his wisdoms. He had wisdoms for most things that came up in life — lawyers, school, elections, working. He had his wisdoms for Bill, too, even when it was really clear that dog was born to go his own way in a nice wisdom of the animal kingdom.
I can see why that dog took off, anyway, because my father wasn't any too easy to get along with, especially when proclaiming one of his wisdoms. But despite what he said and how he looked saying it, I suppose he really did love that dog ... or he wanted to love it, which would be the way people like my father express affection. It must have threatened to tear him up some when Bill deserted him.
That was a bad time, too, with the strike coming up sooner or later but sure as doom. I wasn't around for the strike. I was sixteen when I finished high school, and I could still have been young some more and not done much of anything with myself, but I had more ambition than to work in the factory or pump gas on Route 16. So I went to college on what you might call a soccer scholarship. My father always poked fun at me for playing soccer. "What kind of sport is that for a man, chasing a ball around with your feet? You look like a bunch of giant bugs," was his view of it. But soccer took me to college, on a full scholarship. It's true, I guess; soccer isn't much of a sport, and this wasn't much of a college. But one wisdom might be that college is college. Anyway, I went.
I came home for Christmas, because I was only two states away, one long bus ride. Besides, they closed the dorms on me and I had to go somewhere. That first night, Thursday, when I came home and saw the lawn mower and learned that Bill had run away, standing in the yard with my bag like a salesman, I decided to walk around town instead of just being home. Because I already knew about home, but I felt mysterious about Hanley, that it was a place filled with riddles that ought to be solved, even by someone who had lived his whole life of sixteen years so far in it.
I thought maybe I would take a look over to Hopey Paris's circus, in case that should be going on ... or maybe I would talk Hopey into doing his show just for me, because it was extremely rare that the circus would happen in December. I had an idea that Hopey favored me over some others of my generation there in Hanley because I had always been keen to see the clown dog and figure out how he talked, and Hopey was pleased to be appreciated, even by kids.
He liked to think — I'm guessing at this — that his circus, starring the clown dog, which he celebrated as The Talking Dog of the World ... his circus was what kept the town from feeling too complete. You might suppose that a town with a circus is more complete than most, but instead I sense that it is less complete, and therefore more open and more free. Because a circus is magic. And having its own private circus reminds the town of all the other magic things it doesn't have. It is like ... it puts the town a little in touch with another town, a secret town that is the ghostly image of itself, a kind of myth in a mirror. Now, so long as the town is aware of its ideal twin, it will wonder about itself, and never think it knows everything there is to know, and not pretend that it is complete. Which I think is all to the good. So no wonder I liked to watch the clown dog's act. And that's why I went over to Hopey Paris's circus on my first night back from college — to watch the ghost dance by me again. Even after all those years, I still didn't understand how the clown dog did his trick.
This was the act. Hopey comes in with his whip and his hat and he stands in the ring. "And now we take great pride and the most highly principled pleasure" — this is exactly what he said every time — "in presenting for your delectation and enlightenment the one and only clown dog ... The Talking Dog of the World!"
And out from behind a flap of the tent, in his coat and pom-pom hat, the clown dog would trot in. And he would sit on his hind legs looking expectantly at Hopey. That same old coat and hat. That poor little clown dog. Or I guess maybe he was well off, even if no one called him a hero.
(Continues...)
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Table of Contents
Contents
Title Page,Copyright Notice,
Dedication,
Acknowledgments,
The Complete Death of the Clown Dog,
The Handshake Deal,
Do-It-Yourself S & M,
The Ghost of Champ McQuest,
The Boffer,
I Read My Nephew Stories,
Beach Blanket Mah-Jongg,
The Right Boy for Cosgrove,
The Dinner Party,
The Tale of the Changeling,
The Woggle,
Also by Ethan Mordden,
Stonewall Inn Editions,
About the Author,
Copyright,