Life Lyrics: Love, Sex & Other Deviances
LIFE LYRICS: love, sex and other deviances gives you the decadent sensation of sneaking a look at someone's personal diary. It is a journey of life experiences and observations about the author and people the author has encountered. She reaches into your heart, holds your feelings in her hands and then her pen tells your story and often yours... This is a poetic experience you shouldn't miss...
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Life Lyrics: Love, Sex & Other Deviances
LIFE LYRICS: love, sex and other deviances gives you the decadent sensation of sneaking a look at someone's personal diary. It is a journey of life experiences and observations about the author and people the author has encountered. She reaches into your heart, holds your feelings in her hands and then her pen tells your story and often yours... This is a poetic experience you shouldn't miss...
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LIFE LYRICS: love, sex and other deviances gives you the decadent sensation of sneaking a look at someone's personal diary. It is a journey of life experiences and observations about the author and people the author has encountered. She reaches into your heart, holds your feelings in her hands and then her pen tells your story and often yours... This is a poetic experience you shouldn't miss...
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ISBN-13: | 9781452076676 |
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Publisher: | AuthorHouse |
Publication date: | 06/17/2011 |
Sold by: | Barnes & Noble |
Format: | eBook |
Pages: | 116 |
File size: | 1 MB |
About the Author
Melody lives in the picturesque and tranquil British Columbia, Canada, just outside the city of Vancouver. Her writing experience has fundamentally been as a wordsmith for letters and articles: polishing corporate reports for others. Then, after being involved in the development of an independent film, her creativity stirred. She stepped outside the confines of business writing and her artistic spirit was born, and with it her joy. She writes fiction, but her true passion is poetry because it speaks the hearts universal language. She is inspired by the works of Maya Angelou, Alice Walker, Charles Bukowski and fellow Canadian Shane Koyczan because they embrace all aspects of human behavior and of life. Melody believes life itself is her greatest muse. Her insightful reflections leave you with the sensation that she has reached into your heart, held your feelings in her hands, and then lets her pen tell your story, and often hers.
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Life Lyrics
Love, Sex & Other DeviancesBy Melody Fowler
AuthorHouse
Copyright © 2011 Melody FowlerAll right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4520-7665-2
Chapter One
LOTUS FLOWERSWorldwide we are prisoners of our sex
We FEMALES
The pain is great and is small for us all
Widows of India living a half life
Some too young to have lain with their
husbands as a true wife
Lovely Lotus Flowers they float gracefully
imprisoned in the shadows
They drift in the dark & dank waters
of their existence
Still beautiful and resilient
Tragically they pray to the gods
that they might be reborn a man
How can it be, that man cannot embrace
the sex that births the human race?
Do you fear our power?
Young African girls
Tiny blossoms sliced with rusty razors
Uninformed
Saturated with blood, tears and fear
Their tortured cries no one will choose to
hear Fate forever denies pleasure
Instead there is a life of pain
Who could possibly see this as just?
Why is it wrong for women to lust?
Do you fear our power?
Chinese baby girls left in the elements
to die
Men cannot reproduce alone
They need us like flesh and like bone
Do you fear our power?
Burquas block the light
Buds need sun to grow
Just as a son needs a Mother
We all need a reason to be
And all have a right to be free
Do you fear our power?
Women in the Western world still earn less
Do they really see us as less?
Or do they desire that WE see us as less?
They look at us and think of what position
they could contort us in
Then we are made to feel that
we are the ones that are made of sin
Worldwide you whore us however you can
I ask you to remember this:
It is MOTHER earth
And WE that give birth
If you kill us, you too will be gone
You should not fear our power – Embrace it
We do not desire war
We do not wish to dominate you
We can
And will
Love you
If you see
The greatest power
Is
EQUALITY
I am the product of two sides
of one culture
One, born of privilege and
a sense of entitlement
The other, humble and hardworking
I am my Mother's desire
for fine things
and
My Father's sweat into the soil
Her French manicure and
the dirt under His nails
How do I reconcile my identity in this contrast of culture?
I am equal parts pride and shame
His ethics I value and
hers I oppose
I bow my head
This symbolic gesture communicates
two things:
Own personal shame and respect,
my ethnicity's disparity
I honor my Father, he is reverence and love
I avoid my Mother,
she is judgment and pain
He requests that I heal my relationship
with his wife
I cannot deny him anything
That is in my capacity to give him in this life
He is my core and my substance
She is unfathomable
We don't look or think alike
I believe behind her light skin
is my dark side
Most curse inherited physicality
For me it's the inner recesses I wish to reject
The negative dialogue echoes in my head
Forgiving her will soothe him
and release me
I recognize to be whole I must resolve
I am 2 sides of 1
Let the absolution begin
Without her
I never would have known
the great love of him
I forgive you Mother
2 became 1
that makes me whole
Amen
BLUE
I saw blue this evening
And that blue was all there was
Solid and beautiful
Fighting black
As it moves in a mist
Night black robbing the beauty of the evening blue
It was an endless patch of hope
If I were a color I would want to be that Lavender blue
Faith and Religion
One has little to do with the other
I know all about
quiet controlled environments
Where there is quiet
there isn't always peace
The confessionals
The small dark closets
Musty with fear, shame, regret
AND
sheer desperation
Men in black clothes
AND
white collars
They squashed the good girl in me
with their judgment
For a time there was comfort
in the rich tone of the bells
summoning the flock
The soothing scent of frankincense
the hymns of faith and forgiveness
It was a place of solace
I did hide there
Then after all the years of ritual,
Catholic school
Relatives on their moral high ground
Making themselves feel big
AND
trying their best
to make me feel
small
All that remains is
the Guilt
It was hammered into my soul
like the nails through His flesh on the cross
What was the cost?
I kept faith
And
let go of religion
I believe in being kind to others and
leaving things better than
I found them
Love is my religion
If only I could let go of
the Guilt
KNOW-IT-ALL
Arrogant and uncaring and PROUD of it
There is a difference between knowledge
and WISDOM
You please yourself hurling backhanded
comments wearing that
superior smirk
Insults are what they really are
but not to my intelligence
to yours
The evil grin says you have no feeling
of equality
You come from a culture of "me"
You toot your own horn like you are
performing part of a symphony
As though it would delight those listening
And if there is anything WE don't care about, it is to
listen to your soliloquy of:
"I did ..." "I know ..." "I told him ..."
"I ... I ... I"
You should recognize you love the sound
of your own voice
and spare the rest of us
Part of earning respect
is knowing to get it you must know how to GIVE it
But you don't care what we feel
That's good
because you don't have our respect
The years shall pass
If life teaches you the bare necessities:
You will know that caring is vital to personal growth
... and one day
If fate sees fit
You will see this younger self in another -
You will distinguish how little you really
knew
When you knew it all
STUPID HUMANS
If I had a dollar for every
stupid human I encountered ...
I would own my own island
I would live in a castle on
said island
Instead ...
I have high blood pressure.
You'll never be anything
He said
The words were poison
They infected my life
Index finger in MY face
Making sure I knew MY place
raised voice
Apparently I didn't listen to quiet reason
Pressing buttons
Especially the ones marked
"Danger! Don't press."
The ones marked with skull and crossbones
They are pressed over and over and over
The buttons eventually are broken permanently in the
"on" position
AND STILL
He couldn't break me
You're a WHORE
He said
Who died and made him the boss of me?
Oh yes. My Dad died.
My Mom became his bride
And he became the boss of us.
All his pontificating on the evils of ME
Beat me emotionally
And she
robotic and empty
A shell of who she used to be
Systematically erasing her and trying to destroy me
The light that shone so bright in us
He tried to extinguish
Squeezing it like it was pus
Doubt and insecurity reigned
Medicating myself to ease the pain
My SPIRIT refused to die
It like a pilot light
The flicker lay in wait
Spirit thieves only have the power we bestow unto
them
I began to release myself from his hold
I was eighteen, young and bold
There had to be more than this
I had to find my bliss
I met with her secretly
I have to leave
I said
To stay is death
I'll come with you
She said
My Spirit's flame ignited
Like the fiery red ball of the sun as it sets
A brilliant beacon of light
It revealed the path for our escape
She and me now free
You'll never be anything
He said
I will be everything
I said
I
Am EVERYTHING
And
He
Is
dead
WHEN DREAMS MEET DAYLIGHT
In that place caught between
Wakefulness and sleep,
I catch a glimpse of images,
Like a mosaic of life;
Little glimpses of what was or possibly what might be,
When my eyes squint to arrive into this day I travel into
full consciousness,
I realize that some images were strong enough to cross
to the daylight with me ...
Perhaps not dreams,
When they survive to consciousness,
They are like positive affirmations,
to guide our steps towards them.
BALLERINA
She floats across the stage
with the grace of a swan
Clear stiletto heels & brass pole
Easily replaced
With Ballet slippers and a barre,
More to her taste
They see her in leather lingerie
She sees herself clad in
silk and velvet finery
She is on another stage in her mind
She pauses to face the horny glares
But she's not there to return their stare
Mr Gyno-row
Depraved lost soul
He never misses a show
Eager to catch her eye
Her affections he tries to buy
But they are all faceless and nameless
Speakers blare guitar, heavy rock
The delicate aria of violins in her head;
It doesn't block
Her body sways and bends
forming strong straight Dancer lines
Unappreciated by the patrons
who she avoids like land mines
She pauses
to face their horny glares
but she's not there
to return their stare
She's writing up her grocery list
Bread – eggs – milk
Another spin on the pole
All the while wondering
if she took out the trash
This is what she does for cash
An hour a day,
a small price to pay
They in their fantasy and she in hers
She closes the door behind her
as she floats off the stage
She returns to her real life
The transition as simple as turning a page
The swan floats out the door and down
the street seeking her lake
In her sweatshirt and her jeans,
dreaming her ballerina dreams
BACKYARD BLISS
It's warm
The breeze carries the fragrance of the lilies and the
sound of chimes in my gazebo; I laze in the reclining
deck chair
Dividing my time between watching the inside of my
eyelids and the sky divers in the distance
I read poetry, mostly Bukowski
I listen to the birds, and the barking dogs, the passing
Trains ... peace washes over me
My thought is that we are all a little broken and that's
what makes us beautiful
Bukowski and me, in my backyard bliss
Broken and beautiful
THE VOICE
Then
My lips stretched to scream
but it was not audible
This silent scream rang so loud in my head
at times it stifled life
I wondered if I was invisible in this
deafening quiet
A lifetime peering through the looking glass ...
... but I did not fall down the rabbit hole
I journeyed there unwittingly and FACED
the madness
To understand it was NOT mine
It was theirs
They could not chain my mind
because my spirit is FREE
Now
My voice is heard
They could not take it ... it belongs to ME
The Scream is gone
Replaced
Now I sing
I sing my redemption song
I sing it proud, I sing it strong
I sing for others trapped in the silence
But not for long
THIS VOICE HAS PURPOSE
AND WILL BE HEARD
They cannot clip the wings of this bird!
IT'S NOT WHAT YOU THINK
Seduced by it
The lights, the riches,
surrounded by silicon bitches
Eaten by it
My trust, my faith, my soul
Left empty by it
Deconstructed, reconstructed;
Like I am made of paper
Ripped apart, piece by piece
by crows
Then glued together;
The jagged ripped edges
invisible to the world
What your eyes can't see
my heart feels
When the dream becomes
a nightmare
I don't answer to my name
Does anyone remember Robyn?
She feels like a distant memory
They told me
They warned me
I have to remind myself I wanted it
FAME
It's not what you think
Marching together we rally for peace
A mass, we are, growing like fungus
Shouting at the sky,
lifting our voices to the clouds
I stop and all sound disappears
Stepping back I watch the voiceless mob:
singing, chanting
Their words melt into the air
I look above my thoughts drifting
Making shapes with the clouds in my mind
Laughing children, smiling eyes
Souls that leave
without saying their goodbyes
Eagles, planes, missiles, bears,
blackened skies, barren land
Mushroom clouds
A child crying in the distance brings me back
The noise echoes
creating a wave of disturbance
in the atmosphere
Forming a blanket of white
smothering the mushroom cloud
Waving a flag for surrender
NICE LIPS
"Nice Lips," your words hum,
As you kiss them
Moments in the now
And
In the long ago
All one
You moan as you devour me
Until I convulse and
The pleasure sets me free
We stare into each other's souls
when you thrust into me
I feel you
The way you want me to
You leave your imprint on me
Do you daydream about this
Like I do?
Just thinking of all your intensity makes the blood rush
and the wetness flow
Oh baby do you really know?
What exists between us
Is
Just
Pure
Energy
"Nice lips" your words hum,
As you kiss them.
R u the 1 I've looked 4?
R u the 1 I've longed 4?
Do you seek 2 give & not 2 take?
I know you relate
I've always been a gambler
The stakes are high – Do I dare roll the die
What came before you is eclipsed
It and he was nothing but a fantasy
but U r reality
Always darkest before the dawn
R my eyes closed? Maybe u R the light?
How can this B?
R u the 1?
Or will I run? R u the 1?
Or do I lose everything
Is it my everything u want?
U will not claim me
2 the world
the whole thing looks shady
2 me it means I'm not ur baby
R u the 1?
I am like a child
spinning around with my eyes closed
When I open them I will fall down
Maybe it is time 4 me 2 leave this town
Maybe it won't hurt when u aren't around
I wanted u 2 b the 1
WHAT I WANTED TO BELIEVE
I wanted 2 believe
Believe that I could enjoy just a piece of u
My piece of u
The piece that God saved 4 me
The piece fate delivered 2 me
But my heart isn't made that way
I am not the 1 of many type
I am not a girlfriend
I am THE girlfriend
You can't just play with me and put me
back on the shelf
I feel u baby.
I feel u in the heart of me
Not just the part of me u think about
Maybe 1 day
1 day when U r old and gray
Maybe that day
Maybe then U will want 2 slow down
Maybe I could be the 1
Right now I think
I am meant 2 b ur friend
so this is the end
(Continues...)
Excerpted from Life Lyrics by Melody Fowler Copyright © 2011 by Melody Fowler. Excerpted by permission of AuthorHouse. All rights reserved. No part of this excerpt may be reproduced or reprinted without permission in writing from the publisher.
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Table of Contents
Contents
1. Lotus flowers....................12. 2 Sides of....................5
3. Blue....................8
4. Faith and religion....................9
5. Know-it-all....................13
6. Stupid humans....................16
7. Spirit thief....................18
8. When dreams meet daylight....................25
9. Ballerina....................26
10. Backyard bliss....................30
11. The voice....................31
12. It's not what you think....................33
13. Mushroom clouds....................35
14. Nice lips....................37
15. R U the 1....................39
16. What I wanted to believe....................41
17. The sum....................43
18. Lush....................47
19. Revelation....................48
20. I want only this....................51
21. Dying embers of love....................53
22. Ribbons....................55
23. 100 Pounds....................56
24. My heart whispered....................58
25. The heartbreaker and the heartbroken....................60
26. Lovers....................62
27. Addicted....................64
28. A fatherless girl....................66
29. My life, my rules....................71
30. I have my ticket....................74
31. The good brother....................77
32. Glory....................80
33. Lion heart....................81
34. Soul connection....................82
35. Us....................83
36. Tick tick tick....................84
37. All I have are tears....................86
38. Memory foam....................88
39. Recovering from brain surgery....................90
40. The slow goodbye....................92
41. A message from great-great grandmother Loucindia....................95
42. You were with me all along....................98
43. Lady on the park bench....................101
44. Royal and blue....................103
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