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The Cheaters The MISTRESS Her Story
By Verona J. Knight AuthorHouse LLC
Copyright © 2014 Verona J. Knight
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ISBN: 978-1-4969-1420-0
CHAPTER 1
The first time I saw his face I knew that I was looking at a special man. There was something different about him, but whatever it was I couldn't identify at the time. I remember looking up and seeing his handsome, muscular, clean and though casually dressed, his chiselled body very well put together peaking beneath his muscle hugging clothes. My heart skipped a beat or two when I saw his glance heading in my direction.
It looked like he was just hanging with his friend and dropped in at the party. Even though we didn't actually meet each other then, from what I saw that night, that glimpse said something. Told me I would love having a man like him to go home to every day.
The more I watched him that night the more I needed to get to know him. By the end of the night my mind and body decided that he would be a part of my life; whether he wanted to be or not.
I got anxious about making it happen. That night I was thinking ahead of myself and made a promise to myself that I would find out everything about him and everything that was important to him.
I watched him that night walking across the room with such assurance, with his confidence spilling from his body. He needed nobody to tell him how or when to do whatever he wanted to. Along with everything a part of his exposed personality was tagging along beside him; that demanding personality I thought would be useful if I needed a hand later.
All that I saw excited me enough and I thought of how much a man like him could bring to my life after all the dead beats I've been through; including my kids' fathers. My mission to find out all there was to know about him intensified. His stay wasn't too long but enough for me to asked friends about him and my friend Beverly did.
The first thing I found out was his name, Dwayne, and that he was married, but that wasn't enough to change my mind in anyway.
Of course I was disappointed but not disinterested. I wasn't going to change my mind about wanting him. In the back of my mind I also already figured that a man like him must have someone in his life. I was thinking along the marriage lines but I was hoping he wasn't.
One important thing I found out was about his hung-out places which one of them was a bar in the evenings. I thought why not make some stop-by visits there in the future. Even heard about few other places I might run into him using mutual friends. Even thought he didn't notice me much that night, I think I did enough noticing for both of us.
* * *
It took a few stop-bys at the different places before I ended up seeing him. I did whatever I could and when the right moment came, naturally, I created a friendly introduction. By the time he and I met, I already knew quite a lot about him. (I still haven't told him I saw him back then.)
It was the work on my part why we met back then and are together now. I started stopping by the bar, with and without my other friends. Whenever I did I made sure he noticed that I was noticing him. Every time he looked in my direction he saw me looking back at him. After a few times, we started to play the look to see if the other is looking game. I knew he had to look to see if I was still watching him while I did the same.
After awhile, my smiles greeted his eyes and he returned one to me. It didn't take long after that for him to start talking to me, having real conversations. After that started I didn't feel out of place anymore so I felt fine dropping by the bar on my own.
After going to the bar a few times, he started keeping me company until I left to go home. He also walked me to my car to make sure I was safe; such a gentleman. He watched out for me and it felt damn good since I couldn't remember the last time anyone gave me so much attention without wanting something back for it.
Before I met Dwayne, the men who showed me kindness did it because they believed there was sex waiting for them down the road. And if they gave attention for any length of time without the sex their attention quickly turned the other way.
With all that I tried to find some mutual friends to use to make sure that we kept running into each other. He probably thought I was following him, which I was but from my end he didn't seemed to mind.
After several months we became closer friends, seeing each other all the time, but like I said definitely with hard work on my part. Spending that time together finally gave me a closer look inside his life. We became sort of close friends.
We started with small talks and jokes before we started confiding a few personal things to each other, even though he stayed away from talking too in depth about his family. Most of our talks were casual but friendly. After a while, I found myself looking for problems so I would have something for him to advise me on.
We were both enjoying the closeness of our friendship after, and even though he tried to keep it at just a friendship, in the back of my mind I never gave up on having him as more than that. With each thought, I saw him and my body pleasuring each other. [left arrow] And with every thought I got more excited than the thought before, giving strength to my reasons why I should continue on my pursuit to please myself. I gave myself some restrictions with hopes that I wouldn't make a fool of myself, and hoping I wouldn't lose control, going out of my way too much.
The last thing I wanted to do was scare him off before having him and I welcomed every thought each time his face invaded my mind. My hope was that a man like him should be easily convinced that he needs a woman like me in his life to make him happier. His wife can make him happy and adding me to the mix will make him even happier.
I could see that his attraction to me was getting stronger and I enjoyed watching his body react to mine when we were around each other. Screaming, on the inside, whenever he was close; putting fire between my legs. With that I tried to find as many reasons to pass him close as possible. Feeling both our energy, even if just brushing up against him, sent my vagina crazy. That feeling being returned gave me a sense of satisfaction and it was enough for a little while but after several months it wasn't enough anymore.
It got to the point where I had no idea how to react anymore to what was happening to my body. Whenever he came around, my body barely could contain itself. After months of trying to control myself, I began experiencing a feeling of being too restrained. I just wanted to touch his body in so many ways; to bring us both pleasure. His gorgeous body taunted me with each glimpse and drove me crazy with every single touch.
I later realized that he figured out what he was doing to me and thought he would have some fun doing it. Sometimes all I got was a gaze indicating his interest, and if that gaze seemed too long, my hunger felt satisfied enough to help ease my aches for him. I swear I even surprised my panties a few times.
Many times my mind got cloudy and all I wanted was to leave this reality with him, and just for a while, pretend that he belonged to me. Every thought of him had my body reacting. I watched the smirks his facial muscles created whenever he noticed my body's reaction. It gave his demanding personality a great sense of championship knowing his ability to make me go quietly crazy.
* * *
Our relationship took a turn for better the night I decided to go with friends and have a drink at the bar for my birthday. It was the weekend and I knew Dwayne and his friends would be there so we could share some part of the evening together for sure. I wanted to see him. After the long hours at work I needed some relaxation time to enjoy special day, and the bar was it.
The people there were nice enough, so I felt comfortable around them, after going there for several months. Most of the faces became familiar and I hardly saw strange faces which felt safer than any other place I could have gone to celebrate. After that night things took a turn towards better for sure.
Dwayne and I became as close as being each other's confidant after my birthday celebration. I found it refreshing to have a man like him taking time to make me feel that I'm good company, making me feel special. To spend hours talking and finding things to talk about with so little effort was refreshing. There were times we went on for hours without noticing the time and none of us thought it was strange. I ended up not minding my week at work because I had something to look forward to on my weekends.
Every conversation with Dwayne felt like I was talking to an old friend, one that I had known forever. The fact that I could talk to him about anything without him judging me in anyway, felt safe. He would also give me advice from a man's point of view about things that would affect my future. I even talked to him about my past relationships and all the problems I had and was having with my kids' fathers. Sometimes he even gave me advice or suggestions about career decisions.
At times I found myself wanting to throw myself at him without him asking just to see what he would do. All I kept imagining was how it would feel having him inside me. I thought it was insane that I was so hungry for him even though he never tried anything, away from casual touching that I think he purposely used to taunt me with. He was flaunting his body like a piece of meat to a starving animal, heightening my curiosity even more and that made me want him more than ever. I went crazy with every single thought.
I also provided a female ear for Dwayne whenever he needed one. He had his stressful times that I tried my best to help get him through, whatever it was at the time. I confess that I wanted to hear his problems to bring us closer. Hearing his troubles gave me a feeling of partnership instead of just a friend.
The comfort he brought to me by then, had me thinking about how much he changed my life since that first night I saw him. (Do I ever need to feel him.) Becoming his friend and confidant was a bonus bringing me a closeness I never felt before. I kept thinking I needed more. Even though he didn't know he was the main reason I continued going to the bar, he seemed happy to see me when I showed up there.
I knew he was God sent for me and I was falling in love with the idea of falling in love with him. Actually, by then I was in love with him and it felt good, especially because of the awful men I was used to having in my life.
The strong attraction I had for him evolved into something else all because of my past. And the time I was spending with him proved my first impression was correct, he was different. The comfortable cozy feeling I got when we're together gave me more reason why I needed him.
The way my body felt and reacted said it all, I was right about what he could bring me if I was more to him. I called my time of getting to know him foreplay and there were times I went as far as testing him. I would say something sexual just to see his reaction. I concentrated more on reading his body language even though sometimes it was harder to do than other times, but I still tried.
* * *
One day Beverly and her husband had a business meeting with Dwayne at his house so she and I pretended we had some shopping to do. We told him we would drive him there and take the car and pick him up after. We only said that so we could go with him. When we got there we told him since the meeting was a short one we would stay and do our shopping later. She told him if he's planning to work with Dwayne then it would be good for her to get to know Jenny better and he agreed.
We stayed until they were finished then we left but didn't do any shopping. My visit was different than I thought. Jenny seemed alright but I wasn't all that impressed by her. There was nothing special about her and she didn't give any indication that there were any problems in her marriage.
From my conversations with Dwayne I knew that they weren't a perfect couple even though he never came out and said anything about it. My thought was that if his marriage was perfect he wouldn't have any reason to stay away from his house so much.
If he was as in-love as everyone thinks, he would've been running home to her every night but he wasn't doing that. Anyway, when I visited Dwayne's house with Bev she got an invitation from Jenny to a surprise party she was having for him a few weeks later and she asked me to come along with her and Felix. I thought it would be nice so I told her I'd go with her.
Beverly already knew about my interest in Dwayne so having me tag along with them got her a bit excited; she likes gossip. I thought it was a great idea since I was still curious about Jenny and wanted to find out whatever more I could. I was glad that Beverly was with me when I met her the first time.
I'm even more so now since it'll give me some comfort knowing I won't be alone, even though it'll be just another casual meeting. I thought she can help my nerves; hanging with both Dwayne and his wife in the same room.
The invite came at the perfect time to help my body concentrate on the information I would find out. My curiosity was getting the better of me. I wanted to find out as much about his home life as possible. I needed more details and to see where it could take me. I had also planned to see much more of him after that but I had no thoughts about the consequences of going to his house. I knew that I shouldn't be friendly with his wife. I guess I was afraid I was being too harsh on her and might end up liking her, but the thought of not going only lasted a minute.
Evelyn Once Said:
"Sometimes the ones we look to for strength are the same ones draining it the most."
CHAPTER 2
I saw Dwayne after I got the invitation from Bev and in one of our conversations I told him that he was the only special man in my life and that he meant a lot to me. I think he took it that I was speaking as a friend. He knew that I wasn't seeing anyone special so I wanted to plant the seed to make him know that I wasn't having sex with anyone; making him know that I'm sex starved.
I hoped then that he'd take notice and get curious about my sex life. My thought was that if I got him thinking about it, it might have given him the reason I needed to make him want to spend much more time with me. There were times I even wondered, and asked, if his wife didn't mind him staying out as often as he did but he took it as nothing. I knew when I wasn't at the bar, he was. Sometimes I kept it from my good sense and I secretly hoped he was disappointed when I didn't show up there.
I decided to go to Dwayne's birthday party with Beverly without a date. The last thing I wanted was for him to think I changed my mind about having someone in my life and went out and found someone to be. I couldn't handle him thinking I didn't need his company any more. Going alone was a statement that I was still alone, maybe even lonely. Also, going by myself might make him think that I look good but couldn't find anyone and that he might be the cause.
I wanted to be with him and nobody else. It could make him see that I treasured his company when he's there for me. He was the only person I could see myself with and finding ways to get and keep his attention became my obsession.
I did everything for that attention to help him see my importance in his life; more as the days passed. In our conversations I'd help him visualize me fulfilling all the fantasies the man in my life would have to live through, in every way he needed me to. In my mind, I had no intension of any other man ruining my plans.
I had several men in and out of my life before I met him but I wasn't about to give him reasons to think I was the type to have men coming and going on a regular basis. Like I said, I couldn't afford for him to have any doubts where I was concerned. I knew what I wanted and that was his wife's life with him. I got to the point where he had to understand how serious my feelings for him were and that I want him.
I knew I had to step-up and must find a way to come out. My thoughts then were if I said the words 'I want you' to him I might have given him a heart attack. But, I couldn't let him forget everything and not think about being that special person I was looking for.
(Continues...)
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