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A mother and her daughters drive for days without sleep until they crash their car in rural Oklahoma. The mother, Amaranth, is desperate to get away from someone she's convinced will follow them wherever they go—her husband. The girls, Amity and Sorrow, can't imagine what the world holds outside their father's polygamous compound. Rescue comes in the unlikely form of Bradley, a farmer grieving the loss of his wife. At first unwelcoming to these strange, prayerful women, Bradley's abiding tolerance gets the best ...
A mother and her daughters drive for days without sleep until they crash their car in rural Oklahoma. The mother, Amaranth, is desperate to get away from someone she's convinced will follow them wherever they go—her husband. The girls, Amity and Sorrow, can't imagine what the world holds outside their father's polygamous compound. Rescue comes in the unlikely form of Bradley, a farmer grieving the loss of his wife. At first unwelcoming to these strange, prayerful women, Bradley's abiding tolerance gets the best of him, and they become a new kind of family. An unforgettable story of belief and redemption, AMITY & SORROW is about the influence of community and learning to stand on your own.
"A beautiful and terrifying book. Peggy Riley tells a complex and enthralling tale of family love and religious belief with uncommon wisdom, grace, and skill."—Sigrid Nunez, author of The Last of Her Kind
"Fierce and disturbing.... Riley's debut novel is a harsh but compassionate look at nature vs. nurture through the lens of a polygamous cult."—Publishers Weekly (Starred Review)
"[An] accomplished, harrowing debut.... Riley's descriptive prose is rich in metaphor.... [and] the haunting literary drama simmers to a boil as it deftly navigates issues of family, faith, community, and redemption."—Ann Kelley, Booklist (Starred Review)
"A literary page-turner.... Her writing is clear, crisp, chilling..."—Reader's Digest
"Fierce and disturbing.... A harsh but compassionate look at nature vs. nurture."—The Washington Examiner
"Gripping.... a must-read for book lovers."—Ladies Home Journal
"A powerful book about hope and redemption, as well as the perils of unquestioned belief and obedience."—SheKnows.com
"[A] shimmering first novel.... This delicately stitched, finely patterned and poetic novel suggests there is a tipping point at which human resilience disappears.... Riley has a gift for metaphor that gives this novel loft, and a rhythmic way of swinging from present to past."—Dylan Landis, New York Times Book Review
"An accomplished debut novel.... The prose moves easily between past and future, between mother and daughter. Riley possesses a remarkable ability to prettily describe disturbing events; it's abrasive, yet compelling. She examines the complexities of families and the need to belong, how we lie best when we lie to ourselves (well said, Stephen King), and the ability to adapt."—Rory O'Connor, Examiner.com"Tense, compelling.... [and] tightly constructed.... Riley constantly surprises the reader with strangely apt metaphors.... The subject matter could easily lend itself to melodrama, but Riley doesn't fall into it. Even the most shocking and violent scenes don't exploit the suffering of the characters; they reveal the complicated reasons for their behavior. Riley strips her story to an almost mythic essence without losing track of the details that ground it in a specific time and place. A sense of imminent danger coexists with an awareness of the possibility of healing, and the tension between horror and hope makes the novel hard to put down."—Margaret Quamme, Columbus Dispatch
"Riley writes with a quiet lyricism.... the relationships [Amaranth and Amity] build there are genuinely moving."—John Williams, New York Times
"Hooks readers from its riveting opening.... What makes AMITY & SORROW so fascinating is Riley's compassionate portrayal of these women...each emotion is captured exquisitely. This novel is not sensationalist, but rather realistic and frightening as it captures the horrors of real-life cults."—Megan Fishmann, Bookpage
Amity watches what looks like the sun. An orange ball spins high above her on a pole, turning in a hot, white sky. It makes her think of home and the temple; it makes her feel it is she who is spinning, turning about in a room filled with women, their arms raised, their skirts belling out like moons. She thinks how the moon will go bloodred and the sun turn black at the end of the world. She is watching for it still.
“Amity!” Her mother calls her back to earth, back to the gas station and the heat and the hard-baked ground, beckoning from beneath the metal canopy that shades the pumps. “Did you find anyone?” Amity walks back to her, sees that there is dried blood on her mother’s face and figures she must have some, too, but neither of them can get into the bathroom to wash. The door is locked.
“I found a man,” Amity says. “I talked to him.”
“It’s okay. I told you to. What did he say?”
The bathroom door is marked with a stick lady wearing a triangle dress. Locked behind it is her sister. “He said it locks from the inside. There is no key. It’s a bolt she turned.”
Mother slaps the triangle lady with the flat of her hand. “Sorrow, you come out of there right now. We are not stopping here!”
Amity pulls on her sleeve to cover her wrist, its bareness, the bruise blooming on the bone. All of this is her fault. If she hadn’t taken the wrist strap off, her sister wouldn’t have run.
“Where did the man go?” Mother asks.
Amity points at the flat of fields, where heat and haze make them shimmer like flu. She points to a yellow field, violent yellow, like yolk smeared across the land.
“You didn’t go out there!”
“No!” says Amity, shocked.
Four days they drove, until Mother crashed the car.
Four days they drove from home to here.
Four days and the seasons have changed around them, the dirty ends of snow from home melting and running to make rivers, mountains flattening to make plain land, then fields. Four days Amity had been tied to her sister, to keep her from running, until the car hit a tree and spun over a stump and Amity took the strap off and Sorrow flew out of the car and ran.
The sky is spinning orange when the man comes from his fields. Dirt rides in on his overalls, spills down from his turned-up hems. With every step, it scatters like seed. “Hey,” he calls to Amity and he raises his hand to wave. Then she sees him see her mother. She sees him take in Mother’s clogs and long, full skirts, her apron and her cloth cap, as if he hadn’t noticed Amity’s own. His eyes follow the stripe of blood down Mother’s face. “Hey,” he says again and Mother nods to him, primly. “Closin’ up now. Was there somethin’ y’all needed?”
Mother looks at Amity. “I thought you told him.” Then she points at the bathroom door. “My daughter,” she says.
“Is she still in there?” He pounds his fist on the stick lady, calling, “Come out of there, hey—what’s her name?”
“Sorrow?” He squints and bangs harder on the door. “Sorrow!” He turns to Mother. “Maybe she’s unconscious?”
“She’s stubborn. How can you not have a key?”
“It’s a bolt. Jesus!” The man rushes into a little shop and crashes around inside it, then he runs back out to his fields, darkening beneath the fiery sky.
Mother watches him go, saying, “Has he just run away?”
But he does come back, pulling up in an old Chevy pickup, its red paint turned pink from hard sun, and clambers down with a noisy box of tools. A boy jumps down from the truck bed to follow him, brown-skinned and lanky with a long tail of black hair that reaches halfway down his back. Amity steps behind her mother and grabs hold of her skirts to watch him.
The man and the boy jangle through the tools. They try ratchets and hooks, rasps and claws. They hit the door hinges with chisels, but they cannot lift it out of its frame for the bolt.
“Sorrow,” Mother pleads. “Open the door.” But not a sound comes from her.
Finally the man takes a sledgehammer to the doorknob. He batters away until he smashes it off and then there is only a hole in the door. The man calls through it, tries to stick his hand into it, but it won’t fit. “You go,” he tells the boy, but his hand is too big, too.
“You,” he says to Amity.
Amity cowers until Mother pulls her out of her skirts. Then Amity creeps toward the door and bends to look in, sure she will find Sorrow staring back at her or her finger aimed to give Amity’s eye a poke. But there is only darkness. She slides her hand through the hole, slowly, craning her wrist to find the bolt. “I’m sorry,” she whispers. She turns it with a click.
And then she is being pulled back, out of the way, and the man and her mother are yanking at the door and it is opening. And only then is Sorrow revealed, there in the bathroom, there in her awful red glory.
The man goes inside to pull her up from the floor, as if he doesn’t mind the blood on the tiles, the blood at her hem, the blood on her skirts, or the blood in her hands. He catches hold of the bloody strap hanging from her wrist. “Jesus, girl, what you gone and done?”
Mother screams then, “Don’t touch her!” And she rushes in to Sorrow, clogs slipping on the blood, and she grabs hold of Sorrow, to push her from the man. And the man grabs her mother, shaking her and shouting, “What’s wrong with you, woman? What’s wrong with you people?” And Amity is saying, “She’s all right, she’s all right now,” and the man’s saying Jesus, and her mother’s saying don’t, and then there’s only Sorrow, rising up from the tiles and coming slowly to her clogs with her palms open, bloody, to quiet them all.
“Behold,” she says. “Behold.”
Two sisters walk, hand in bloody hand, through the darkness, following a man and a boy they do not know, being followed by a mother. They walk the path that loops away from the gas station and the dirt road and the stump where the car crashed, the path that leads them between piles of trash and junk and the far, dark fields. They cannot see what these things are, these shapes beside them, these washtubs with no bottoms, these bentwood chairs with no seats, these window frames and paint cans and stacks of tractor tires. They might be anything in this darkness. Maybe low, metal monsters, crouching in clumps and clusters to snatch at passing skirts with rusty claws. When they see them they’ll know that this is a land that throws nothing away, a land once made of small family farms like this one, a land now surrounded by industrial-scale cropland, a highway, and hog farms. When the wind blows from the right direction, you can smell the stink of them; you can hear the squeal.
When they reach the house, the three females fear it. Not for the look of the place, a gap-toothed, rough-hewn, clapboard two-story, painted white a long, long time ago. Not for the four windows, up and down, dark and empty as sockets. Not for the porch that sags beneath it or the old, scabby tree that grows to the side of it, branches arching over to smother the roof. They would fear any house.
When the man pulls open a screen door it groans on its hinges. When he pushes in the front door, so that all of them can see inside the dark mouth of his house, they shiver. They are forbidden to go in. It is a rule.
The man invites them inside, but they all of them shake their heads. To his offer of a bath or a coffee, Mother will say no, but she will accept a couple of his blankets, a tin bowl for washing, a plastic pitcher of fresh water. When the man says he can run Sorrow into town, see a doctor in the morning, she tells him, “She’s fine.”
“She ain’t fine,” the man says, head bent to look down the bloodied front of Sorrow and the wrist strap, dangling. “Why’s that thing on her?”
“It hasn’t hurt her,” Mother says.
“I see you bleedin’. I see this strap on your daughter and I see all this blood. You can’t tell me she ain’t been hurt.”
Mother shakes her head. “I haven’t hurt her. She hasn’t been hurt. It isn’t the strap. There was—a… there was a child. And she’s lost it.”
The man takes a step toward her, hands out. “Sorry.”
“No,” Mother says. “Praise the Lord.” A small cry escapes Sorrow.
“Jesus!” the man spits out and he goes into his house with the squeal of the screen and the hard door slamming. Mother stands, holding his blankets and shaking, until Amity takes them and makes a nest of them, there on the porch for her sister. Then Mother slumps down onto the steps.
Amity settles Sorrow down and lies beside her, to pray. She whispers, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you.” She waits for her sister to say the next line of it, but her sister only turns away from her, to hold herself in her own arms, as if she knows what Amity has done to her.
Where are you, woman?
On the porch step, Amaranth sits upright. She blinks into the darkness, then whips around to check that her daughters are safe in their blankets, all flung limbs and linens.
She shakes herself. She must not sleep.
Four days and nights she has driven and every mile, every hour, made them safer. She did not dare to stop. Every town they passed took them farther from home, but she cannot let her guard down now. He is right behind them. She knows it. Every car, every headlight behind them, was him.
I will find you. She hears him and her hands fly up to her cap, to cover her ears. She looks up, expecting to see him thundering over her, but finds there is only a leaf-bare tree and a thick spread of stars between its branches.
The voice is in your head, she tells herself. He is not here. The voice comes because she has stopped, because her eyes keep closing, sliding shut so that the world tilts her toward sleep. He is not here. He has not found them.
And yet, she must stand, pace the dirt yard before the house, and scan the dark for him, again and again, searching for the small red flash of brake lights, the sweep of his headlights, come to take them home. She has been watching for him so long she can’t stop herself.
Even on her feet, sleep tries to take her. The ground rises up as if he has taken hold of a corner of it, pulling it toward him, hand over hand, like a rope or a bedsheet. I won’t ever let you go. Once, it was all she wanted to hear. Once, she wanted to be so kept. His voice growls, hushed and soothing, so close she can almost feel his breath in her ear. She has to crawl back to the porch steps to keep from falling. And then she cannot help it; she falls.
She lies back on the hard porch steps. She feels herself rolling backward, curling into a ball, and her arms rising, as if reaching for branches. Her hands open, as if to catch its buds. She feels herself sinking, folding and falling, into the porch that sleep makes her marriage bed, where five hundred fingers coax her and claim her, pulling her flat onto clean, white cloth. She reaches for him and finds the brittle-boned arm of a woman. The plump hand of a young woman holds her own. She feels hair unspooled across her face: a blond braid, a gray curl, a chestnut hank that smells of wood smoke and of home. Long, slender arms wind about her to hold her. There are tears in her eyes and lips in her palms and she is cradled between them, snug and molded, rocked among women in their wagon of a bed. Safe. Silent.
And then he is there. Axis to their circle, pole to their spin. Center of the bed.
He comes for her and wives part like waves. He feels down the length of her and holds her down. He rips her open before a hundred eyes. He breathes his heat on her skin and she unfolds for him, unbraids for him. Seen in the eyes of fifty wives, she unravels before him, coming undone in a tangle of thread.
Mine, he calls. And Amaranth is home again.
The room where Sorrow bled hums with bluebottle flies, eating. They cover every pool and shield every smear, turning Sorrow’s red to an iridescent blue and black. Every stain of hers is transformed, vibrating and shimmering with a million wings and eyes.
Amity watches from the threshold of the bathroom door.
Is this a sign, she wonders—the end of the world, revealed to her at last? She knows you may not ask for a sign, for even the king of Judah was told that he might ask and he did not, and Father said it was for God to test man and not the other way around. She can only watch and wait for whatever she is given and even then it will be Sorrow who will pronounce it sign or no.
The fourth plague of Egypt was the plague of flies, but there are no flies in Revelation. She knows the world will end with the scroll that is opened and the seals that are broken. She knows her father will open them, every one, the white horse and red horse, the black horse and pale horse, the martyrs and saints and the stars dropping down. She has seen the martyrs and the saints, wrapped and spinning in the temple. She knows the timeline for the end of the world, but she doesn’t know if they missed the signs that would come with the seals being broken, because Mother drove them so far and so fast. The flies and the blood might be a sign, but Sorrow is too sick and too sad to interpret and Mother has told her to wash them away.
The boy comes loping to the gas station with a hose and a plastic bucket. “What you doing?” he asks her.
Amity can only point at the bathroom and the hum of the flies in the blood.
“I got told to clean it, too,” he says, nose crinkling. “Guess we’re the ones who work ’round here.” He drops the hose and takes an end to the side of the gas station to hook it to a spigot. She watches him working, how his over-big blue jeans hang off his skinny hip bones, how they pool over-long onto greasy-toed boots. When he hands her the spout end, she watches his dark brown hands and arms, how his sleeves have gone see-through from overwashing and his arm hairs are gold in the sun.
“Watch out,” he calls, and he turns the hose on.
Amity takes aim at the bathroom door. She points the water at the walls and the floor, the corner sink and the metal toilet. She washes away the flies. She washes away the blood until the water goes pink then runs clear down the tiles, out the doorway, and into cracks in cement where the dry dirt drinks it down.
When the boy turns the hose off, it hangs limp as the wrist strap in her hands. “She okay now? Your sister?”
Amity can only shrug. She cannot speak to him.
“I was standing there,” he reminds her. “I saw it.”
“But you don’t know,” Amity says. Then she clamps her hands over her lips, aghast. Another rule, broken already. She had talked to the man because she was told to, but Mother didn’t say she could speak to the boy.
“What’s your name, anyways?” he asks her.
Amity stares at the boy, deciding if she might answer. He crosses his eyes at her. He sticks out his tongue. He pulls off his cap to waggle his ears at her while she wonders if every word spoken was like breaking a rule, over and over, or if a rule, once broken, was broken eternally. “Amity,” she finally says.
“Amity? Like that horror town? What’s it called?”
“I don’t know about towns.”
“You don’t know much.”
“I know plenty.”
“Oh, yeah? Like what?”
“I know my sister’s not having a baby now.”
“Jeez Louise,” he says. “You don’t tell people stuff like that.” He whips the hose out of her hands.
“You said you saw.”
“Yeah, but it’s private, that stuff. Family stuff—girl stuff. You don’t talk about it after.”
“Okay.” Amity nods, absorbing the new rule. “What’s your name?”
“Dust? Dust. Dust.”
“Don’t wear it out.”
“What kind of a name is Dust?”
“What kind of a name is Amity?”
“It’s an attribute,” she tells him. “We’re all attributes. What’s dust? You can’t be dust. I’d call you Honor, Honesty. Grace.”
“Grace? Jeez. I’m Dust,” he says. “It’s a joke.”
“What’s a joke?”
“Polvo. I’m Pablo, but they called me Polvo. Means ‘dust.’ ”
“What language is that?”
Dust squints at her. “Are you serious?”
Amity shrugs. She is always serious. “I don’t think it’s funny.”
“No,” he says. “Neither do I.” He starts winding the hose back onto his shoulder, the water rolling out to write onto the cement. “Where do you all come from?”
“I can’t tell you that.”
“Well, you’re learning something, anyways.”
She nods. It isn’t only that she isn’t entirely sure herself where they’ve come from, but because she is certain it is a secret. “Where do you come from?”
He looks out at the fields then. “Dust,” he says. Then he goes back to them, boots clomping, jeans flapping. When he turns back to look at her he can see she is watching and only then does she turn away from him, to look at the bathroom. Any signs that might have been here are well and truly gone.
Amity walks the looping path back, around the piles of scaffolding, the broken-toothed saws and wagon wheels, until she can see the house and the porch, where Mother waits on the steps for her, swinging the wrist strap. Sorrow sits bunched in her blankets.
Amity sets a bucket of water on the dirt.
“You took your time, daughter.” Mother hands Amity the strap.
“I had to wait for the boy,” she says.
“You don’t talk to boys.”
Amity hangs her head. Too late.
Mother turns to Sorrow, all smiles. “Are you ready?”
“For what?” Sorrow scowls.
“To get in the car. It’s time to go.”
“The car?” Amity gasps.
“Where else?” Mother says. “There’s no magic carpet. There’s no chariot of fire and horses to take us away.”
“But the car, Mother,” Amity starts.
“I’m too sick,” Sorrow complains.
“No, you were sick. You’re fine now,” Mother says.
“I’m sick, I tell you. Sick!” Sorrow burrows into a blanket.
“Mother?” Amity says. “The car—”
“We can’t stay here. We can’t stop.” Mother grabs Sorrow’s blanket and tries to wrest it from her, but Sorrow clings to it. She dives for Sorrow’s arm, to wrench her up, but Sorrow curls herself in, like a turtle tormented.
“Can’t we stay?” Amity says.
Mother snaps around to her. “Of course we can’t stay. What makes you say such a thing?”
“She says she’s sick… and the car, Mother—”
“Didn’t you see me?” Sorrow yells. “Didn’t you see I was sick?”
Mother lets go of Sorrow. She puts her hands to her face and winces. She sinks onto the porch steps and takes her cap off, fingering the cut at her hairline and pulling on her pile of chestnut braids as if she wants to open her head. “I saw you, Sorrow.”
Sorrow pokes her head out. “I’m still sick.”
“Mother,” Amity whispers. “Don’t you remember the car?”
“Would you stop going on about the car?” Mother says.
Sorrow sits up. “You don’t even know where we’re going. What would Father say, dragging me halfway around the world when I’m so sick?”
“I don’t know, Sorrow.”
Mother ties her cap back down, good and hard. “It isn’t safe here, girls. We cannot stop.”
“But how will we go?” Amity asks her. “You crashed the car and Sorrow ran. Don’t you remember?”
Her mother tilts her head at her.
“It’s a wonder you didn’t kill us all,” Sorrow says.
Mother looks from daughter to daughter, then she steps off the porch, wavering a moment, shaking her head as if to dislodge something, then she runs away. Runs away.
Sorrow watches her go, then she kicks off her blanket. She takes hold of her bloody skirts to flap them in the air, like a sheet on the line, until Amity can smell the meat and metal of her. “Did you clean that room out?”
Amity nods, sadly.
“I didn’t tell you to.”
“Mother told me.”
“What about what I tell you? You should listen to me.”
And that is her life, Amity thinks, suspended between the two of them. She wonders what would happen if Mother kept running. What would happen if she just left them here? And what would Amity do? Would she run after Mother or run away in the opposite direction? Would she run away from them both, or would she stay and wait with Sorrow until Father came, as he will, as he must?
“I’m sorry,” she tells her sister.
“It isn’t your fault,” Sorrow says. “You’re too stupid to know what’s what.”
“Maybe it’s a sign,” Amity says, thinking of the sea-red floor.
“You don’t know what signs are. I tell you what signs are there.” Sorrow lies down and Amity hears her say, “I was the sign. Me.”
Amity wonders if her sister can remember what she did in the car, how she rubbed her hands together and put them onto Sorrow’s belly, to boil up the pain within her, to still whatever was hurting her, to try to heal her if she could. She would do anything in the wide world for Sorrow. She slips her hand into one loop of the wrist strap and puts the other over Sorrow’s, to tie them together, making her choice again.
Amaranth runs from the house on the hard red earth, around the pile of bedsprings and car parts, washing lines and aluminum siding, and along the fields where a farmer works a chemical sprayer, insecticide hanging in the dry air like a cloud. She doesn’t stop for him.
She runs for the gas station, though their clothes are not made for running. Skirts twist and tangle, jam between legs. The bindings they wear beneath blouses are too tight to allow for deep breaths. Clogs rock over stones. She passes the gas station and the canopy’s shade, the wet front of the bathroom, and turns onto a long dirt road that she can’t remember driving down. She can only remember being followed, pursued by her husband and speeding to break free from him, his car bearing down on them, faster and faster. It is all she can remember.
Strips of wild scrub sit on either side of the road; beyond them, fallow fields grow grasses, tall and thistle-headed—spikerush, prairie threeawn, devil’s grass—baking brown beneath the vicious sun. She pulls her collars open as a bead of sweat rolls down from beneath her cap.
The car, she thinks. It is all they have—until she sees it.
The car, caught up on a black-bark tree, upside down and lying hoodfirst in its red-cherried branches. The trunk and back bumper have slammed into the ground. The four tires are upright and the undercarriage splayed, so the car is like a dog on its back, wanting rubbing. A branch has pierced the windshield and her hand goes to her head again. Glass sparkles from the road.
My God, she thinks. Sorrow was right. She is lucky. And she can remember it, all of it, swinging off the highway onto the thin road below it, sun in her face, and the road turning and churning into dirt and hedge and speeding to get away from him. Her daughters were screaming. She must have lost control somehow. She remembers the feeling of flying.
When she took his car, she hadn’t known if she could drive it, remember the dance of pedal and clutch, of stick and steering wheel. She hadn’t driven in so, so long. And now she could have killed them.
She crouches on her haunches in the road. She plants her hands on the dirt and feels certain she will be sick, from fear, from relief. She pants until she retches, shutting her eyes and hearing him, laughing.
She looks over at the trunk, upside down. She can’t see how she’ll open it, but she must. There are things inside that she must salvage, all she hoarded and packed. The full weight of the car rests on the trunk, but she tugs at the frame, uselessly. Beneath the car, flour dusts the dirt. Honey oozes, pooling onto dirty oats, and she thinks of the jars inside it, shattered and spilling now, soiling their bedding and clothing. She sifts the dirt for anything she can salvage: wooden matches, small bits of paper. She remembers that her wedding ring is in there, knotted into a handkerchief, the last thing she would have to pawn or sell when it came to it. She has to get inside.
The roof of the car, now the floor, is covered with metallic candy wrappers, bargain gas station treats on the road, for sweet mouths are silent ones. She jabs her hands between the seats to see if she can reach through to the trunk, but she only finds more paper, small white squares stuffed into every crack. She pulls them out of her way. And then she sees them for what they are.
Small white envelopes. Tithing envelopes.
The backseat is full of them. On each one you could read her husband’s name and their address. You could see the sketch of a small, plain, barn-shaped temple, as it was before the fire.
Her throat tightens. Had her daughters found them? Had her daughters thrown them? Did tithing envelopes litter roadsides everywhere they’d been for the last four days and nights? Had they been tossed at borders and crossroads like crumbs for birds, for fathers, to follow?
Amaranth builds a fire beside the car from plaits of dry grass and a precious match. Into it, she feeds the envelopes, watching their church burn again and again. When the smoke is high and all the paper churches become ash, she sees a truck coming, heading straight for her. She stands and waves her arms to flag it down, to get help, to escape. And then she stops waving. Her hands drop. The truck is pink, a faded red.
The farmer swings down from the cab, engine running. “What the hell?” he says, rushing at her fire, kicking dirt at her flames. “What the hell, woman?”
“I’m sorry,” she starts.
“Damn right you’re sorry. Saw your fire four fields over. Take just the one spark to burn every damn crop of mine down. We have drouth here, woman, look about you. What you thinkin’?”
She looks at his tinder-dry fields. “I’m not thinking. Clearly.”
“I’ll say.” He stomps the fire flat with his boots. Then he sees her car and gives a low whistle. He juts his chin at the tree. “Chickasaw plum there. Only tree on the whole goddamn road and you found it.”
“Can you fix my car?” She puts her hand into her apron waistband and pulls out all the money she has in the world now. Her unfolding and counting have made the few bills left as supple as leather. She holds it out, but he shakes his head. “You have to fix it,” she tells him. “You’re a gas station.”
“Maybe. Ain’t a service station. Hardly even pump gas, now the highway’s gone in. No one comes. Only folks like you, lost.”
She squeezes the money in her hand.
“Where was you headed?” he asks her.
She cannot tell him. She doesn’t really know. Turning away from him, she says, “I must have fallen asleep.”
“Well, that’s why the good Lord invented motor hotels.”
She laughs. Of course she had slept, she must have. She would find herself suddenly awake at an intersection and wonder how she had come to it. She had woken at a suburban stop sign, roused by a car’s insistent honking from behind. One time it was a long-haul truck that only narrowly missed her, asleep where she was in the middle of the road. Its lights full on in the darkness, the truck was an avenging angel, delivering justice. The driver stormed out, leaned his beefy face into her open window to tell her off, tell her she wasn’t fit to drive and all that, but she only asked him what state they were in. The trucker stared at the sight of her two girls, tied together, honey smeared across their lips.
“Where you come from?” the farmer asks her.
She shakes her head. She dare not tell him. She shows him her money again. “Please help me. I don’t know what to do.”
“I’ll tell you,” he says. “Go home.” He starts for his truck.
“But how?” She stares at her miserable handful of money. She stares at the last curl of smoke going out, drifting over the wreck of her car and his tree and out to the flat of his fields.
No one knew who fired the first shot.
No one knew who started the fire.
For weeks they had been fasting and watching, praying and waiting. Because of the patrol cars. When they arrived, the countdown for the end of the world began anew. Fear twined across their land and looped around the wives, pulling them tight to their husband, tight to their rituals.
By day, patrol cars idled on their gravel path. Officers drank from Styrofoam cups, radios crackling. By night, red and blue lights spun across the front of their temple while within it women were spinning like hoops, like wheels. Women spun in solo orbits, lost in chanting, lost in prayer, then they spun together in a wide circle that swung around the room, around the altar, and the hole in the floor that led to the room below them. When they spun they could forget patrol cars, forget that they were being watched and judged. When they spun they only thought of how the heavens turned above them and how God cupped them all in His wide, white hand.
“Who will be with me at the end of days?” he called from the center of the temple: preacher, father, husband.
“Who will see the might of the Lord against the fallen?”
“I will, husband.”
“Who will rise in glory? Who knows now, in their hearts, in their bones, that the end of time is coming? Who will watch to see it come?”
“I will, I will,” the wives called in response.
“Who will bear the Lamb?”
Her husband had been looking for signs of the end for years now. Gossip from wives and news reports from the car radios that still worked only confirmed it. Millennium bugs and the towers collapsing had started a chain of evil, with earthquakes that split the land and unjust wars that split its people. They felt safe together and safe on his land, hidden like jewels. But more dark stories came with every woman. He told them the end was coming. Couldn’t they feel it, every one? Soon, it was all he could preach or even think about.
He read them Revelation from memory. By then, it was the only Book he would speak, pouring the words of God out in hot, steaming bowls of wrath, while his face flickered red and blue, red and blue.
That last night in their temple, he called them to prayer and told each wife to wake her children, to bring them to the temple. “Husband,” Amaranth said. “You have had them at prayer all day. They are terrified and tired. Let them sleep.”
He gave her a look that rattled her teeth. “I will have my children at the end.”
Women roused children from their motley assortment of sleeping places, from the cars and trailers and yurts and sheds that stood across the frozen early spring land. Sorrow was up, child no more now, but Amaranth had to shake Amity awake in the attic bed. “Bring down a change of skirt and petticoat,” she whispered. Amity did as she was told. Amaranth ran through wives and baffled children and into the kitchen to pop spelt rolls into her pocket, dropping them onto the key that sat there.
In the temple there were candles lit in bobbins all across the planked altar, blazing in jam jars in each rough-hewn windowsill. Women brought their children in and all grew hushed when they crossed the threshold, stepping from the red and blue to the soft, pale light inside. Wives formed a ring about the room, encircling their husband and the altar and Sorrow.
He roared his Revelation. “Behold, I stand at the door and knock! If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come!”
There, from outside the temple door, there came a knock. Wives screamed out. Children whimpered.
“This is a holy place!” he called. “No law or government will defile our church!”
Another knock came.
“Will I answer it?” Amaranth asked him, stepping into the circle. She saw how Sorrow gripped the edge of the altar with clenched fingers. “Husband, I will answer.” She walked toward the door.
“Don’t do it!” called a wife from the circle. “Lock it!” called another. The wife from Waco began to scream, uncontrollably, “It’s a trap; this is how it happens!”
A baby began to wail and a mother bounced it, shushed it.
Amaranth reached to open the door and her husband called out.
“Stop! Hide the children. Hide them below. They will not take my children!”
Amaranth’s hand froze on the door. Children were their glory, their purpose. How should they be hidden from police, as if they were shameful, as if they were not made, all of them, in their holy love?
He dragged the altar table back from the hole in the floor and lifted the hatch. “We must keep them safe,” he said.
Women clung to their children, then bent to soothe them and explain. They dropped them, child by child, down into the hole, down into the dark of the room below. As for the children, they were happy enough, for down below there were piles of blankets, quilts to lie in and to jump on. There was food to last them for months of Armageddon, should it come to that.
Amaranth watched toddlers handed down by older children who swung in to follow them, but when Amity started down to the hole, she stopped her. “Stay with me,” she said, and Amity nodded. She pulled her daughter toward the door to hide her in women.
The knocking at the door was a pounding now and Amaranth ran back to open it even as her husband shouted, shutting the hatch and moving the altar, candles swaying, “We will pray! You will pray!”
The women joined hands to make their circle. They began to spin their circle about the room. Amaranth opened the door on a chubby female officer in a navy polyester uniform. She had spoken with the officer before, but she did not smile or greet her.
The officer looked into the temple, to see inside the thing they had been watching from the outside: the plain wooden interior and the candles, the circle of women rushing by. She saw the officer startle at Sorrow’s open-throated, guttural cries and her husband’s upraised hands.
“That the girl there?” the officer asked her, pointing at Sorrow.
And then she heard a shot ring out behind her. One single gunshot and women began to spin in a frenzy. Only the wife from Waco was still, gun in her outstretched hands. The officer crouched and grabbed for her own gun, shouting into her radio over Sorrow’s prayers and the pounding of clogs, “I need backup!”
Amaranth scanned the room for daughters, for Sorrow, clinging to her father, for Amity, pressing herself against the wall. Amaranth forced her way through the spinning women, weaving among them, crashing into them, while her husband shouted, “I will break the seals!”
And then there was only grabbing and clutching and dashing and rushing and hands in her hands, hands pulling away, and the screaming of women, the silence of children, and the smoke and the flames and the driving away.
Go home, he said. As if it were that simple.
Amaranth scoops the last pathetic handful of oats from the dirt beneath the car. She searches the scrub for something she can feed her daughters, any edible weed she might boil into a gruel. She looks for wild sorrel or chicory, picks dandelion and horehound. She snaps the pinkish tops of henbit. She pulls a Chickasaw plum cherry from the tree and rolls it between her fingers. When she nibbles it she finds it bitter and throws it down.
Go home, he said, when she has risked their lives to leave it, when she has hidden and lied and left, left her family and home and all the world that her daughters knew. This was her one chance and she has ruined it, squandered it. Less than a week from home and she has failed, utterly and completely.
He narrowed his eyes when she told him she couldn’t go home, that there was no way of driving now and no one they could call for help. “No one?” he pressed.
“We have no phone,” she explained. No phone, no electricity. They cooked with propane and heated their house and outbuildings with wood from their forests. They weren’t on the grid and no local government knew who lived there or under what circumstances. That was how her husband liked it. She had liked it, too.
“There’s gotta be somebody you can call,” he said. “Somebody who cares you all are gone.”
Amaranth tries to lever the license plate off with a branch. Police might find it and run it against their records. The tags were hopelessly out of date. Worse was the thought that her husband would find the plate and know for certain that they were there. What would he make of a farmer who had tried to help his family, who had seen and dared to touch his daughter, a farmer who had shaken her and told her to go home? What would he do to him?
The branch snaps. She has only managed to pucker the metal. She throws what’s left of the branch with a shout and stomps back down the dirt road, pausing before the small shop. There will be food and drink inside it, and she thinks of all the gas stations she stopped in to fill their tank, how she stared at the packets of food while she waited to pay, the foam-filled cake snacks, the cans of fizzy pop from her childhood. She could take something for her daughters. She could even set money on the counter inside, so it wouldn’t be theft. But she does not. Not because her children do not know this chemical food or that she fears its effects on them, but because she has seen a pay phone.
There, on the side of the gas station, above a water spigot, is an ancient pay phone. Someone has cracked the receiver and attempted to graffiti it with a marker. It takes her a long time before she can lift it to listen for a dial tone, convinced that the farmer has already used it, called the police to tell them she is there.
But no sound comes. The phone is dead. She hangs it up, grateful. And worried.
She stands at the hedge edge of the farmer’s field and watches him working. He is a low shadow, flying across his fields on the back of a tractor, plowing ruts into dirt. In the distance is a grove of thin trees, grouped around a dry wallow. Clouds of red dust rise and drift, coloring the sky. She waits until he comes in for water. “Have you called the police?” she asks.
He opens the spigot on the back of his neck. “Should I?”
“Your pay phone’s broken. Do you have another phone?” Water spatters off him. It dots her skirts. She catches it in her hands.
He shakes the water from his neck and hair. “What’s it to you?”
“I need to know,” she says, “if you’ve told anyone we’re here.”
“Who would I tell? What would I tell ’em?” He moves to the shade of the metal canopy and pulls a box of cigarettes from his jeans. “I had a phone. Had it ripped out some years ago. Got tired of people callin’ me up, askin’ for money.” He holds the pack out to her. “You married?”
“No,” she says, to the cigarette. Then, “Yes, I am. Married. Are you?”
He scrapes a match on the side of a gas pump. “Yep. My wife took off. Don’t know where. So I know what it’s like for your husband, you going.”
“You don’t. He’s not waiting at home for me, I can tell you that. He’s coming after me.”
“You think so?”
She nods, her throat tight.
“He drink?” he asks her.
“Hit you? Hit your girls?”
“You don’t understand.”
“What’s he done that’s so bad? What’s he done you can’t forgive? You think marriage is some picnic? It ain’t.” He takes a long pull on his cigarette. “Maybe you done somethin’, somethin’ you think he can’t forgive. And maybe he can’t, but I’m tellin’ you, he’d rather not be alone. You either made a vow or you didn’t.”
“I made a vow,” she tells him. “I made a million of them. Don’t you dare tell me how marriage works when your own wife left you.”
He blows out smoke at her but she doesn’t turn away. He stalks back to his fields, calling back over his shoulder, “I want you gone.”
She soaks dirt from oats and watches her children sleeping. In the dark of night, she listens to him, in his house. The scrape of his chair leg, the endless scratch of matches being lit, aluminum cans being scrunched and tossed. She is waiting for him to crash through the screen door and sweep them all off his porch, back to the dirt and the road and the wreckage.
Are you married? he asked. He has no idea.
Lights switch on and off inside. She hears a brief burst of static, white noise from an old television, and a burst of recorded laughter before the volume is turned right down. And then it is silent, still, and dark. She can almost hear the house breathing with each breath that the man takes, inhaling and exhaling his smoke through window screens and the tree rapping on the roof.
She grew up in a small house like this, in a dark place with no streetlights, just like here. The land was hard and the people harder, but the sounds of night were of sand switchbacking beneath snake bellies, the cries of coyotes, the lonesome who-who-who of a horned owl from a Joshua tree. The rumble of her grandmother’s empty-mouthed snoring, dentures foaming in a glass. In her bedroom, she would click her flashlight on and off, pointing light at the dark shapes of furniture and toys that she knew were creeping toward her every time she closed her eyes.
Her daughters have never known such silence and it makes their sleep fitful. The house she took them from was a clamorous one. Women moved from room to room along hodgepodge hallways, clogs thumping, skirts swishing, following the skitter of tiny feet, bare on boards, constant as rain. Doors opened, slammed shut. Children whined and giggled. At the very end, at its fullest, every bed and every room was full and no one wanted to be alone.
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2. What the meaning behind how names are given (i.e., attribute names for the children and the family name shared by the Bradleys of Oklahoma), and do you think they serve a purpose
3. How does the writer explore the bond between Sorrow and Amity? In what ways is their relationship typical of the bond between sisters?
4. The children in the polygamous community were illiterate. What are the implications and impact of that type of ignorance? Is a faith that is designed to keep its believers ignorant and isolated a “true” faith?
5. How can blind faith be dangerous? Was Sorrow brainwashed or devout?
6. Who defines what makes a family, and is there a true definition of family anymore? Do you think these polygamous women are a “true” family?
7. Are there scenarios that can justify a polygamous lifestyle? What are the benefits of a polygamous community to the wives in Amity & Sorrow? Do you think Amity will be drawn to live a polygamous lifestyle?
8. What role did meth play in the story? What did that add to the plot or reveal about the community?
9. Is it a fair exchange to join a faith and a family to “get clean”? Who gets more out of the exchange—the individual women or the family in total? Does a faith that offers a safe place of healing appeal to you, or is it a kind of con?
10. One of the hardest decisions a mother can make is to turn against her child. How does Amaranth struggle with this decision? Do you think she makes the right choice?
11. To what extent was Sorrow a victim? Or did she become a willing participant when she returned “home”? At what age should children be responsible for their actions?
Posted April 16, 2013
Faith, love and trust are questioned in this story about polygamy and a cult...It is written in a way that I found quite annoying at first. Stunted, almost lacking in vocabulary and description. Then it becomes clear that we are listening to the voice of Amity for the majority of the book.
That writing became irrelevant after the first few pages. It is hard to explain, but despite the odd flow of language the story just drew me in. It was like a spider weaving an unorthodox web and enticing me to just read a little bit more.
I am not exactly sure if I will be able to pinpoint why but I really enjoyed this book.
Amity, her sister Sorrow and their mother have escaped the clutches of the man they call husband, father and God.
This is a story about the control of one man, his congregation of fifty wives and the subsequent children. This book looks Polygamy straight in the face and questions the validity of its existence in our day and age. It also takes a hard look at the fine line between religion and cult. How mere people elevate themselves to a higher sphere and equate themselves to God. Then as that 'God' they use their power to control, manipulate, harm and abuse those that want to believe in the higher power that walks upon earth.
Sorrow is a prime example and result of that abuse and I as reader often forgot to separate the madness from the clarity in her actions. A product of the abuse, the madness or perhaps a combination of everything.
We see Amity struggle with the abandonment of the rules and whilst part of her wants to ease her sisters pain the other part acknowledges how dangerous Sorrow has become.
Their complete ignorance of anything educational or basic social skills is just another example of how these type of cults breed their own disciples. They know nothing else.
I thoroughly enjoyed this very distinctive and memorable book.
I received a free copy of this book via NetGalley.
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Posted June 5, 2013
The current cultural spotlight on polygamous cults has peaked my interest in the subject, and it was for this reason that I decided to accept the invitation of Little, Brown and Company to read an ARC of Amity & Sorrow: A Novel ,Peggy Riley's debut novel, and review it. I started the book with trepidation as several of my friends thought that it was just okay. At first I thought I would agree, but the more I got into the story, the more that I realized that this book was going to be one that spoke to me on a certain level.
The success of cults in our culture is a subject that has fascinated me for quite a while. For this reason I am drawn to books where the cult phenomena takes center stage. I admit, my purpose in reading these stories is to try to shed some light on why cults are so successful.
Amaranth is the first wife of Zachariah, the patriarch of a polygamous cult. The central story in this book revolves around what happens to her when she decides to flee the cult and take her two daughters, Amity & Sorrow, with her. The three of them end up in Oklahoma, stuck on a farm in the middle of nowhere with the man who owns the farm, his father, and his adopted son. The compelling story of what transpires between the girls, their mother, and the inhabitants of the farm, and how it transforms the lives of everyone involved, is only half of the story, though. The other half of the story is about their life in the cult, which is told through the memories of the three characters that escaped the cult. It is this part of the story where the author attempts to answer the basic question about the psychology of a cult that is my prime fascination. These two sides of Amity & Sorrow's story and the way that the author was able to successfully entwine them was what drew me into this book.
I also liked the way that the author used the characters of Amaranth, Sorrow, Amity, Bradley, his father, and Dust to represent the various layers of the story. Through the individual stories of these characters we see the contrast between the world of the true believer, the world of the non believer, and the world of those still trying to make up their minds.
When discussing this book with friend, the most common negative comment that I came across was the author's unconventional writing style. I do admit, the writing style was different, and for the first few chapters I found it a bit distracting. After I got into the story, though, it ceased being something to overcome and became an integral part of the story as a whole. In fact, as the story continued, I felt that the author's writing style, like the behavior of some of the main characters, became less strange and more -- normal, for want of a better word.
All in all, I found this book, its characters, and what it had to say about the psychology of a cult interesting. It showed me various sides of a question that fascinates me, and took me on a journey that I was glad to take. I thank Little, Brown and Company for the opportunity to read and review it.
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Posted June 3, 2013
I have always had a bit of an interest in cults. But this is the very first time I have read a book pertaining to them. I am glad that I gave this one a try. It was different than my normal reads, but in a good way.
The story interchanged from the past to the present to show what lead Amity and Sorrows’ mom, Amaranth to join the polygamous cult they were in and what promoted her years later to finally make the big decision to pick up and leave.
Amity and Sorrow’s previous life on the farm restricted their ability to do a lot. Because of this it’s pretty understandable that they would struggle with trying to fit into the new modern world they have been thrown into.
Amity is loyal to a fault when it comes to her sister. Even though it’s a struggle, she seemed more willing to try and forge a new life for herself.
Sorrow is supposed to be the special and chosen one from her community. Forced to leave everything behind, she still did not want to give her past life up. She wanted to go back to her old life and the way things were because that was all she knew.
My only big issue was that I felt like Amaranth should have done something sooner than she had originally. I thought she waited too late.
Amity & Sorrow is a slow and steady paced novel that was easy to read through; but it is not a light story by any means. It has some dark, sad, and definitely heart tugging moments.
The writing style was for lack of a better word…different. But it did not stop me from enjoying the story and less. I wasn’t terribly happy with the ending though, but Amity & Sorrow turned out to be a nice change of pace for me. I liked it.
**I received this book on behalf of Little, Brown and Company in exchange for nothing, but my honest opinion. Thank you**
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Two sisters, and their mother escape the aftermath of a raid on their compound. Their mother has come to the realization that their father has betrayed their beliefs, made new rules that made little to no since, and may have abused her oldest daughter. She must save the girls from his diabolical plans. She must escape his influence and power. But just physically leaving has not created peace for her, can she really save her children?Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
Posted October 3, 2013
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Amaranth and her two teenage daughters were staring death in the face as her polygamist husband pledged to take them into the heavens while federal agents waited outside to take action. With her daughters, she flees as far away as she can to escape the horrors and nightmares of the life she has known. Barely knowing how to drive, and with nothing to their name but the items in the trunk, and nowhere to go, Amaranth soon finds herself wrapping the car around the only tree in sight. They are stranded at a rundown gas station, hungry, and the two young girls are utterly terrified. Can Amaranth make a new life for them here in this forsaken place? How do you convince your teenage daughters everything they have been taught is a lie and that their father is not the man they have been lead to believe he is?
Amity and Sorrow is an emotional roller coaster through a life filled with mental anguish, lies, and abuse that provides a way out, and had me questioning what happens when those you love don’t want out and will try and find their way back at all costs, even at the expense of other lives? Author Peggy Riley fills Amity and Sorrow with such defined personalities, sparing no detail, and had me needing to know chapter after chapter what was to come. Amity and Sorrow will leave you on the edge of your seat with suspense as an entire new reality comes crashing down. My only question is when will the next book be coming out?
Posted September 3, 2013
An excellent Book Club choice.
This was an interesting read because the author managed to evoke a kind of surreal atmosphere, not in the way of fantasy, but effectively depicting the strangeness of a world not previously experienced. Amity and Sorrow are teenage sisters who have been raised in a religious commune and know nothing of the world outside, they cannot read and have lived all their lives in a polygamous cult with strict rules.
When a suspicious fire drives their mother to escape from the commune with her two daughters, the sisters find themselves in an alien world. After four days of driving, Amaranth, their mother, crashes the car into a tree and they are all stranded in an isolated farm, with a brusque farmer and his elderly dad.
The book follows their reactions to their new surroundings. Each of them behaves differently, but they all feel a strong pull to the 'family' that they have left.
Flashbacks provide the reader with an insight into life in the cult, where one husband has taken fifty wives. The children run wild, with many mothers. There are various rituals, such as winding their chests with cloth, and spinning, which supposedly brings the women closer to each other. But there are darker goings on behind the surface.
A fascinating read, with a really weird feel as the girls and their mother adjust. Not quite five stars though because I found it a bit confusing at times. This is a book that would make an excellent book group read, as there are some parts that are left in the air and I'd really like to know what others thought.....
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Amity & Sorrow by Peggy Riley seems to have mixed reviews, even from my trusted blogger friends.
But I'm not mixed about my feelings in the least. This book was amazing! Dark and full of desperation and sadness, for sure.
Amity & Sorrow is a story about two sisters, Amity, age 12, and Sorrow, older, but unsure of her exact age, who escape with their mother Amaranth from a dangerous polygamous cult.
Amaranth, first wife of fifty wives, decides it's time to escape when she realizes a few hard truths.
Amity and Sorrow have a difficult time adjusting to life in the "real world" outside of the cult, and Sorrow resists wholeheartedly.
This story is about the cult, sexual perversions (but not graphic), sorrow, and trying to create a new life in a world with many unknowns.
I don't think this book is for everyone. It's dark, creepy, depressing. But it's a unique book and very interesting, if you can handle the hopelessness it induces.
Thanks for reading,
Rebecca @ Love at First Book
Posted August 10, 2013
A few months ago, Amity & Sorrow by Peggy Riley made the book blogger rounds and it was a big hit. I tried to snag a copy of it on NetGalley but missed the deadline and was lucky enough to have Leah in my life, who sent me her paperback copy. Now that I’ve read it, I’m not quite sure how it got to be so popular.
Don’t get me wrong – the book is good and I didn’t dislike it. I finished it within 36 hours so it obviously has its redeeming qualities. For one, the story is interesting (a mother and her two daughters fleeing a polygamist compound is automatically intriguing). And two, the ending was unexpected. Unfortunately, the experience was a bit fuzzy. I don’t know if it was the writing style or lack of character development that kept me at an arms length from the story, but I was unable to connect with it.¿
¿Part of the problem, for me, was that I went into the book thinking it was more about the polygamist culture than it was. Because the book starts off when the women flee the compound, I should have known that their lifestyle was hindsight and not the main focus. But based on other reviews that I had read, I thought that it was going to be more in-depth.
Despite my underwhelming response to this book, I am looking forward to reading some non-fiction books written by wives that have left their polygamist cultures. Maybe that is what I was looking for without fully realizing it until the end of Amity & Sorrow. So before you decide whether to read this book, check out some other reviews!
Posted August 6, 2013
I couldn’t get through this book. It is too intense. That’s not to say it wasn’t beautifully written, powerful, and memorable. It just isn’t my type of reading.
I won’t lower my rating, however, due to personal subject preferences. From what I read, it is a lyrical, commanding book.
Posted May 31, 2013
I found this book boring and depressing. I wanted to yell,"Wake up, don't you see what is happening" to the characters.
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Posted May 19, 2013
The only reason I read this book was I payed for it. I hate wasting money.
It never got better as it went along.
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Posted May 8, 2013
Interesting , but a very depressing book . Because the book is a subject that I find interesting I read all of the book , otherwise I would have walked away...Was this review helpful? Yes NoThank you for your feedback. Report this reviewThank you, this review has been flagged.
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