The Return of Captain John Emmett (Laurence Bartram Series #1)

PROLOGUE

NOVEMBER 1920 , KENT

They gathered in the dark long before the train arrived at the small station. It was mostly women: young mothers holding tightly wrapped infants, elderly women in shawls, black-coated middle-aged matrons alongside grown children. There were men too, of course, some already holding their hats self-consciously at their sides, and a cluster of soldiers stood to one end of the platform near the bearded stationmaster. Even so, the men were outnumbered by the women as they always were these days.
 Occasionally the station buffet sign creaked or a baby wailed and the isolated murmur of one woman to another was almost indistinguishable from the faint sigh of wind, but mostly there was quiet as they waited. Still others stood a little further away.
In the houses on either side of the line, behind lighted windows,
silhouetted occupants held back curtains. Below them,
at rail-side garden fences or on the banks, stood a handful more. On the far platform, almost out of reach of the lights,
it was just possible to pick out one individual, swathed in a dark coat and hat, who stood at a distance from the rest. The stationmaster looked across the rails with some apprehension.
In a long career he had never had a suicide, but tonight was different;
this train’s freight was despair and sorrow. However, the watcher seemed calm, standing at a reasonable distance from the platform’s edge, with the width of the down track separating his stiffly upright figure from the expected train.
 They felt it before they heard it. A faint vibration in the rails seemed to transmit itself to the people waiting, and a shiver trembled through them, followed by a more audible hum and finally a crescendo of noise as the train, pulled by its great dark engine, appeared around the bend. Tiny points of fire danced red in its smoke and singed the grass. The last hats were removed hurriedly and one young woman buried her face in her companion’s chest. The soldiers stood to attention and, as the train thundered by without stopping, its compartments brilliantly illuminated, they saluted. A wave ran through the crowd as several of the spectators craned forward, desperate to catch a momentary glimpse of the red, blue and white flag,
draped over the coffin of English oak, before its passing left them to the dark loneliness of their changed world.
 As the crowd slowly dispersed, almost as silently as they had assembled, the stationmaster looked along his platform once more. Now quite alone on the far side of the track, one figure stayed immobile. Hours after the stationmaster had gone to his bed, reassured in the knowledge that it was six hours until the milk train, the last watcher remained solitary and now invisible in the darkness, waiting for dawn and the last battle to begin.

CHAPTER ONE

In years to come, Laurence Bartram would look back and think that the event that really changed everything was not the war, nor the attack at Rosières, nor even the loss of his wife, but the return of John Emmett into his life. Before then,
Laurence had been trying to develop a routine around the writing of a book on London churches. Astonishingly, a mere six or so years earlier when he came down from Oxford, he had taught, briefly and happily, but on marrying he had been persuaded that teaching was not a means of supporting Louise and the large family she had planned. After only token resistance he had joined her family’s long-established coffee importing business. It all seemed so long ago, now. There was no coffee, no business – or not for him – and Louise and his only child were dead.
 When his wife and son lay dying in Bristol, Laurence was crouched in the colourless light of dawn, waiting to move towards the German guns and praying fervently to a God he no longer believed in. He had long been indifferent to which side won; he wished only that one or the other would do so decisively while he was still alive. It would be days before the news of Louise and their baby’s death reached him. It was not until he was home, with his grief-stricken mother-in-law endlessly supplying unwanted details, that he realised that Louise had died at precisely the moment he was giving the order to advance. When he finally got leave, he had stood by the grave with its thin, new grass while his father-in-law hovered near by,
embarrassed. When the older man had withdrawn, Laurence crouched down. He could smell the damp earth but there was nothing of her here. Later, he chose the granite and spelled out both names and the dates to the stonemason. He wanted to mourn, yet his emotions seemed unreachable. Indeed, after a few days shut up with his parents-in-law, desolate and aged by loss, he was soon searching for an excuse to return to London and escape the intensity of their misery.
 As he sat on the train, returning to close up his London house, he had felt a brief but shocking wave of elation. Louise was gone, so many were gone, but he had made it through –
he was still quite young and with a life ahead of him. The mood passed as quickly as it always did, to be replaced by emptiness. The house felt airless and stale. He started packing everything himself but after opening a small chest to find a soft whiteness of matinée jackets, bootees, embroidered baby gowns and tiny bonnets, all carefully folded in tissue paper, he had recoiled from the task and paid someone to make sure he never saw any of it again.
 Louise had left him money and so he was free to follow a new career. It did not make him a man of substantial means,
but it was enough for him to tell Louise’s father that he wouldn’t be returning to the business. Even if Louise had survived and he were now the father of a lively son, he doubted he would have continued buying and selling coffee beans. The war had changed things; for him life before 1914 was a closed world he could never reach back and touch. He could recall banal fragments of people but not the whole. His mother’s long fingers stabbing embroidery silks into her petit point. His father snipping and smoothing his moustache as he grimaced in the looking-glass. He could even remember the smell of his father’s pomade, yet the rest of the face never quite came into focus. His memories were just a series of tableaux, dis -
connected from the present. Louise, and the small hopes and plans that went with her, were simply part of these everyday losses.
 He’d rented a small flat, a quarter the size of the town house he and Louise had lived in for their eighteen months of marriage before he was sent to France. It was in Great Ormond
Street and on the top floor, with windows facing in three directions so that the small rooms were filled with light. There he could lie in bed listening to the wind and the pigeons cooing on the roof. He rarely went out socially these days but when he did it was usually to see his friend Charles Carfax who had been at the same school and had served in France. Charles was someone to whom nothing need be explained.
 Sometimes as he gazed out across the rooftops Laurence tried to picture where he might be in a year’s time – five years,
ten – but he couldn’t imagine a life other than this. At Oxford he had been teased about his enthusiasms: for long walks,
architecture, even dancing. That excitement was a curiosity now and he had stopped worrying that he had drifted away from friends. He no longer had any imagined future different from the present.
 Where he felt most alive was sitting in the chapel of
Thomas More inside Chelsea Old Church, wondering at the man’s courage, or in All Hallows by the Tower where bodies,
including More’s, had been brought after beheading at the
Tower. Somehow horror was blunted by thirteen centuries.
Churches, he thought, weren’t buildings but stories; even their names fascinated him. However, when he tried to re-create that excitement for his own book, he was reduced to stone and floor plans and architectural terms. For St Bartholomew the
Great, his notes read: billet moulding, cloister, twelfth-century transept. Yet when he was sitting, resting his eyes, he had sometimes sensed the monks brushing by him on their way to
Compline, or stumbling bewildered through the teeming streets after Henry VIII had evicted them, while the building survived as best it could: as stable, forge, factory or inn, before it returned to what it was meant to be.
 He had had a happy childhood, adored by parents who had produced him quite late in life, but both had died unexpectedly before he was sixteen. His much older married sister,
Millicent, had been like a second mother, but she had moved to India before their parents died, remaining there with her large family and a husband who was part of the colonial administration. She had tried her hardest to persuade her young brother to join them and, when Laurence turned out to be surprisingly stubborn in refusal, sent him stories by
Rudyard Kipling, which revealed India as a magical and dangerous place. He still kept one book near his bed, unable to imagine his sensible sister amid the gold elephants, turbaned elephant boys and rearing rattlesnakes on the cover. A distant aunt agreed to be his guardian and this satisfied Millicent, if not his need for love and comfort. In due course he went up to Oxford where his tutor had been something of a father to him from the day he arrived at Merton College as an undergraduate.
Shortly before his death a year or so ago, this kind,
unworldly man had introduced him to a publisher who had shown surprising interest in Laurence’s diffidently proposed work.
 Meanwhile his sister wrote regularly with an innocent assumption of his love for Wilfred, Sally, Bumble, James and
Ted, his unknown, unimagined nephews and nieces. Given her determination never to speak of anything unpleasant, her letters only increased his feeling that Louise and the war were something he’d dreamed up.
 For a while young widows, or girls who had once been engaged to officers in his regiment who hadn’t made it through,
made it fairly clear that his attentions would be welcome. He was nice-looking rather than conventionally handsome, with thick dark hair, pale skin, brown eyes and strong nose, a combination that sometimes led people to assume a non-existent
Scottish ancestry. Unable to cope with the possibilities on offer,
he invariably withdrew with the excuse that he needed to focus on his research. His married friends had been kind after
Louise’s death but he felt uncomfortable in their houses, watching their family life unfold. He had tried it once. He had journeyed down to Hampshire for a perfectly undemanding weekend of tennis and cocktails, country walks and chatter,
then found himself in the grip of overwhelming anxiety. As they trudged through waist-high bracken and followed earth tracks through thickets of dense flowering gorse, he found himself jumping at every rustle or crack of a branch. He made his excuses straight after Sunday lunch.
 Sometimes now he could go a week or more without revisiting the smells and tremors of the war, and a whole month without dreaming of Louise: that unknown Louise, ever pliant,
ever accommodating. It was an irony that he thought about the dead Louise a great deal more intensely than he ever had the living woman, and with real physical longing.
 Just once he had weakened. He was walking alone late when a woman stepped from a doorway.
 ‘On your own?’ she said.
 He thought she had a slight west country accent.
 ‘I say, you’re a quiet one. You on your own?’
 Inadequately dressed even for a mild winter’s evening, she smiled hopefully.
 ‘Do you want to get warm?’
 His first thought had been that he didn’t feel cold. His second, that she looked nothing like Louise.
 Her back curved away from him as she took off her clothes,
folding them carefully on a chair. Then she turned to him.
Standing there, in just her stockings, her body thin and white and her bush of hair shocking and black, he was simultaneously aroused and appalled. She watched him incuriously as he took off his shirt and trousers. Then she lay back and opened her legs. Yet when he tried to enter her she was quite dry and he had to spit on his hand to wet her before he pushed hard against her resistance. He couldn’t bear to look at her. As he took her he wished he had removed his socks. When he had finished she got up, went over to a bowl on a stool in the corner, half hidden behind a papier-mâché screen, and wiped herself with a bit of cloth. He paid, noticing she wore a wedding ring, and went briskly downstairs into the dark where he drew mouthfuls of night air, with its smell of cinders and drains, deep into his lungs. He was lost. Too much had gone.