Table of Contents
Preface ix
Acting Like Boys Instead of Men 1
I Can No More Disown Him 5
A Real American 8
The Crazies 15
Spooked by a Black Man in the White House 21
I Have Never Learned to Sail 27
An Attention-Seeking Real Estate Developer 37
I Didn't Know My Father 41
There Were Black Folks Who Heard It 45
A Guy Who Lives in My Neighborhood 51
The American Way and AH That Shit 56
A Smaller and Smaller Coil of Rage 63
Subprime Lending Started Off as a Good Idea 69
Kill Him! 73
Knee-Deep in the Subprime Market 77
Almost Forty and Broke 82
There's No Such Thing as Shovel-Ready Projects 88
Warts and Unwanted Compromises 93
The Old Camelot Magic 97
I Make Love to Men Daily 102
Above My Pay Grade 110
This Could Get Her Knocked off the Ballot 114
My Shadowy Muslim Heritage 118
I've Been Fighting Alongside ACORN 123
Fox News Conspiracy Theorizing 130
I Instructed Hillary 134
Apache Helicopters Leveling Entire Neighborhoods 138
We're Gonna Punish Our Enemies 143
Wandering a Cracked Earth 147
A Serious Mistake Had Been Made 154
Journalists Threatened, Arrested, Beaten, Attacked 166
The Sound of Car Locks Clicking 169
Eating Chicken and Listening to Stevie Wonder 172
If We Are Honest with Ourselves 183
Endnotes 187
About the Author 209