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Don't Go Crazy Without Me

Don't Go Crazy Without Me

by Deborah A. Lott
Don't Go Crazy Without Me

Don't Go Crazy Without Me

by Deborah A. Lott


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Don’t Go Crazy Without Me tells the tragicomic coming of age story of a girl who grew up under the seductive sway of her outrageously eccentric father. He taught her how to have fun; he also taught her to fear food poisoning, other children’s infectious diseases, and the contaminating propensities of the world at large. Alienated from her emotionally distant mother, the girl bonded closely with her father and his worldview. When he plunged from neurotic to full-blown psychotic, she nearly followed him. Sanity is not always a choice, but for the sixteen-year-old, decisions had to be made and lines drawn between reality and what her mother called her “overactive imagination.” She would have to give up beliefs carried by the infectious agent of her father’s love.

Saving herself would require an unconventional reading of Moby Dick, sexual pleasure in the body that had confounded her, and entry into the larger world of political activism as a volunteer in Robert F. Kennedy’s Presidential campaign. After attending his last stop at the Ambassador Hotel the night of his assassination, she would come to a new reckoning with loss and with engagement beyond the confines of her family. Ultimately, she would find a way to turn her grief into love.

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Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781597098151
Publisher: Red Hen Press
Publication date: 04/07/2020
Pages: 256
Product dimensions: 5.00(w) x 8.00(h) x (d)

About the Author

Deborah A. Lott’s memoirs, essays, and reportage have been published in the Rumpus, Salon, the Alaska Quarterly Review, Bellingham Review, Black Warrior Review, Cimarron Review, the Los Angeles Times, StoryQuarterly, the Good Men Project, the nervous breakdown, and many other places. Her family’s legacy of hypochondria was featured on NPR’s This American Life. Her first book, In Session: the Bond between Women and their Therapists, offered an unprecedented look at psychotherapy from the perspective of clients interviewed by the author. Her essays have been thrice named as “notables of the year” by Best American Essays. She teaches creative writing and literature at Antioch University, Los Angeles, where she serves as faculty advisor to Two Hawks She lives with her husband, Gary Edelstone, in Los Angeles.

Table of Contents


Present, UCLA Neuropsychiatric Institute 9

Tuesday, 1:00 p.m.

1968, UCLA Neuropsychiatric Institute 11

Memory Lessons

1 Gotchernose 19

Present, Bedroom, Midnight 28

2 Flipped 30

Present, Bedroom, 2:30 a.m. 43

3 My Bad Habit 45

4 The Kindergarten Papers 56

Present, Kitchen, 9:00 a.m. 66

5 Storytellers 68

6 Migraine 77

Present, Dining Room, Sunday, 6:00 p.m. 89

Invasive Maneuvers

7 Remodel 95

8 Party Crasher 115

9 Perfectly Empty 121

Present, Dining Room, Saturday, 2:00 p.m. 133

10 Pigeon Drop 137

Four Fathoms Five

11 Screw Nature 149

12 Buffers 158

13 Folie à Deux 173

14 Grief Fails to Stop Time 186

15 Conspiracy Theories 199

Present, Restaurant, Santa Monica, 1:00 p.m. 214

16 A Line Drawn 217

17 Visiting Hours 229

Present, Living Room, Sunday, 3:00 p.m. 245

18 Released 251

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