This novel follows the Stassos family through four generations, as it is touched by ambition, love, violence, and the transforming effects of time.
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Michael Cunningham is the bestselling author of The Hours, which won the Pulitzer Prize and was adapted into an Academy Award–winning film. He lives in New York.
MICHAEL CUNNINGHAM is the author of the novels A Home at the End of the World, Flesh and Blood, Specimen Days, By Nightfall, and The Snow Queen, as well as the collection A Wild Swan and Other Tales, and the nonfiction book Land’s End: A Walk in Provincetown. He is the recipient of a Whiting Award and a Guggenheim Fellowship, and his work has appeared in The New Yorkerand The Best American Short Stories. The Hours was a New York Times bestseller, and the winner of both the PEN/Faulkner Award and the Pulitzer Prize. Raised in Los Angeles, Michael Cunningham lives in New York City, and is a senior lecturer at Yale University.
Hometown:New York, New York
Date of Birth:November 6, 1952
Place of Birth:Cincinnati, Ohio
Education:B.A., Stanford University, 1975; M.F.A., University of Iowa, 1980
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Flesh and Blood
By Michael Cunningham
PicadorCopyright © 1995 Michael Cunningham
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1935 / Constantine, eight years old, was working in his father's garden and thinking about his own garden, a square of powdered granite he had staked out and combed into rows at the top of his family's land. First he weeded his father's bean rows and then he crawled among the gnarls and snags of his father's vineyard, tying errant tendrils back to the stakes with rough brown cord that was to his mind the exact color and texture of righteous, doomed effort. When his father talked about "working ourselves to death to keep ourselves alive," Constantine imagined this cord, coarse and strong and drab, electric with stray hairs of its own, wrapping the world up into an awkward parcel that would not submit or stay tied, just as the grapevines kept working themselves loose and shooting out at ecstatic, skyward angles. It was one of his jobs to train the vines, and he had come to despise and respect them for their wild insistence. The vines had a secret, tangled life, a slumbering will, but it was he, Constantine, who would suffer if they weren't kept staked and orderly. His father had a merciless eye that could find one bad straw in ten bales of good intentions.
As he worked he thought of his garden, hidden away in the blare of the hilltop sun, three square feet so useless to his father's tightly bound future that they were given over as a toy to Constantine, the youngest. The earth in his garden was little more than a quarter inch of dust caught in a declivity of rock, but he would draw fruit from it by determination and work, the push of his own will. From his mother's kitchen he had spirited dozens of seeds, the odd ones that stuck to the knife or fell on the floor no matter how carefully she checked herself for the sin of waste. His garden lay high on a crown of scorched rock where no one bothered to go; if it produced he could tend the crop without telling anyone. He could wait until harvest time and descend triumphantly, carrying an eggplant or a pepper, perhaps a tomato. He could walk through the autumn dusk to the house where his mother would be laying out supper for his father and brothers. The light would be at his back, hammered and golden. It would cut into the dimness of the kitchen as he threw open the door. His mother and father and brothers would look at him, the runt, of whom so little was expected. When he stood in the vineyard looking down at the world — the ruins of the Papandreous' farm, the Kalamata Company's olive groves, the remote shimmer of town — he thought of climbing the rocks one day to find green shoots pushing through his patch of dust. The priest counseled that miracles were the result of diligence and blind faith. He was faithful.
And he was diligent. Every day he took his ration of water, drank half, and sprinkled half over his seeds. That was easy, but he needed better soil as well. The pants sewn by his mother had no pockets, and it would be impossible to steal handfuls of dirt from his father's garden and climb with them past the goats' shed and across the curving face of the rock without being detected. So he stole the only way he could, by bending over every evening at the end of the workday, as if tying down one last low vine, and filling his mouth with earth. The soil had a heady, fecal taste; a darkness on his tongue that was at once revolting and strangely, dangerously delicious. With his mouth full he made his way up the steep yard to the rocks. There was not much risk, even if he passed his father or one of his brothers. They were used to him not speaking. They believed he was silent because his thoughts were simple. In fact, he kept quiet because he feared mistakes. The world was made of mistakes, a thorny tangle, and no amount of cord, however fastidiously tied, could bind them all down. Punishment waited everywhere. It was wiser not to speak. Every evening he walked in his customary silence past whatever brothers might still be at work among the goats, holding his cheeks in so no one would guess his mouth was full. As he crossed the yard and ascended the rocks he struggled not to swallow but inevitably he did, and some of the dirt sifted down his throat, reinfecting him with its pungent black taste. The dirt was threaded with goat dung, and his eyes watered. Still, by the time he reached the top, there remained a fair-sized ball of wet earth to spit into his palm. Quickly then, fearful that one of his brothers might have followed to tease him, he worked the handful of soil into his miniature garden. It was drenched with his saliva. He massaged it in and thought of his mother, who forgot to look at him because her own life held too many troubles for her to watch. He thought of her carrying food to his ravenous, shouting brothers. He thought of how her face would look as he came through the door one harvest evening. He would stand in the bent, dusty light before his surprised family. Then he would walk up to the table and lay out what he'd brought: a pepper, an eggplant, a tomato.
1949 / "It's some kind of night, isn't it?" Mary said. Constantine couldn't answer. Her courage and beauty, the pale straight-spined fact of her, caught in his throat. He sat on her parents' swing, which creaked, and watched helplessly as she leaned over the porch railing. Her skirt whisked against her legs. The dark New Jersey wind played in her hair.
"Oh, nights like this really get to me," she said. "Will you look at all those stars? I'd like to scoop up big handfuls and sprinkle them over your head."
"Mm," Constantine said, a muffled groan he hoped had signified his pleasure. It was almost six months now, and he still couldn't trust his fortune. He couldn't believe he was dating this magnificent American girl. He had a second life now, inside her head. He worried, almost every moment, that she would realize her mistake.
"You'd look wonderful with stars all over you," she said, but he could tell from her voice that she'd grown tired of her own idea. When her voice dropped and her hands went idly to her hair she'd lost interest in whatever she was saying, although she could keep talking without listening to herself. He'd never known anyone so steadfast and yet so easily bored.
To bring her back he stood up and went to the railing. He looked with her at her parents' small back yard, her father's toolshed, the riot of stars. "You are the one that looks wonderful," he whispered.
"Oh, I'm all right," she said, without turning to him. Her voice maintained its hazy, sleepwalker's quality. "But you're the beauty, and you know it's true. Just the other day a girl at school was asking if it didn't make me nervous, to be seeing a fellow as good-looking as you. She was speaking out in favor of homely boys."
"I am a homely boy," he said.
Now she did turn to face him. He was surprised to see an angry flush on her cheeks.
"Don't fish," she said. "It's unbecoming in a man."
Again, he'd said the wrong thing. He'd thought that by 'homely' she'd meant boys who cared about making a home. Always, he tried to position himself so that he resembled what she wanted most.
"I don't —" he said. "I only mean —"
She nodded, and ran her finger down his shirtfront. "Don't mind me," she said. "I'm a little jumpy tonight, for some reason. All these stars seem to be driving me just slightly crazy."
"Yes," he said. "They are very beautiful."
She took her finger from his shirt. She turned back to the yard, and began twisting a strand of hair around her finger. Constantine stared at her finger with a wistful desire that lodged in his gullet like a stone.
"But they're wasting themselves over Newark," she said. "Look at them, shining away for all they're worth. It's sad, don't you think?"
Constantine was in love with Newark. He loved the proud thrust of smokestacks, the simple domestic serenity of square brick houses. Still, he knew Mary needed him to disdain all the ordinary beauties her presence had helped teach him to adore.
"Sad," he said. "Yes, it's very sad."
"Oh, Con, I'm tired of, I don't know. Everything."
"You are tired of everything?" he said.
She laughed, and her laughter had a mocking edge. Sometimes he said things that were humorous to her in ways he couldn't follow. Direct statements or questions of his often seemed to confirm some bitter joke known only to her.
"Well, I'm tired of school. I don't see the use of all this history and geometry. I want to get a job, like you."
"You want to work a construction crew?" he said.
"No, silly. I could work in an office, though. Or a dress shop."
"You should finish school."
"I can't think what for. I'm no good at it."
"You are good," he said. "You are good at everything you do."
She wrapped the hair tightly around her finger. She was angry again. How was it possible to know? Sometimes flattery was wanted. Sometimes flattery was hurled back like a handful of gravel.
"I know you think I'm perfect," she said in a low voice. "Well, I'm not. You and my father both need to realize that."
"I know you are not perfect," he said, and his voice sounded wrong. It was hollow and young, with an apologetic squeak. In a deeper voice he added, "You are the girl I love." Was a statement like that part of the immense, unguessable joke?
She didn't laugh. "We both say that." She continued looking deep into the yard. "Love love love. Con, how do you know you love me?"
"I know love," he said. "I think about you. Everything I do is for you."
"How would it make you feel if I told you I sometimes forget about you for whole hours?"
He didn't speak. A small animal, a cat or an opossum, browsed quietly among the garbage cans.
"It's not that I don't care about you," she said. "I do, I care about you awfully. Maybe I'm just shallow. But I keep wondering if love isn't supposed to change everything. I mean, I'm still myself. I still wake up in the mornings and, well, there I am, about to live another day."
Constantine's ears had filled with an echoing, oceanic sound. Was this the moment? Was she going to tell him it would be better if they didn't see each other for a while? To stop time, to fill the air, he said, "I can take you anyplace. I am assistant foreman, soon I'll know enough to get other jobs."
She looked at him. Her face was clear.
"I want to have a better life," she said. "I'm not so awfully greedy, really I'm not, I just —"
Her attention drifted from his face to the porch on which they stood. Constantine saw the porch through Mary's eyes. A rusty swing, a carton of milk bottles, a wan geranium growing in a small ceramic pot. He was aware of her parents and her brothers moving around inside the house, each nursing a private bouquet of complaints. Her father was poisoned by factory dust. Her mother lived among the ruins of a beauty she must once have thought would carry her into the next life. Her lazy brother Joey sought the bottom of everything with blind instincts, the way a catfish sought the bottom of a river.
Constantine took Mary's small hand, squeezed it in his. "You will," he said. "Yes. Everything you want can happen."
"Do you honestly think so?"
"Yes. Yes, I know it."
She closed her eyes. They were safe, at that moment, from the joke, and he knew that it was possible to kiss her.
1958 / Mary was assembling a rabbit-shaped Easter cake according to the instructions in a magazine, cutting ears and a tail from a layer of yellow cake round and placidly innocent as a nursery moon. She worked in a transport of concentration. Her eyes were dark with their focus, and the tip of her tongue protruded from between her lips. She sliced out one perfect ear and was starting on the next when Zoe, her youngest, bumped against her ankle. Mary gasped, and cut a nick big as a man's thumbnail into the second ear.
"Darn," she whispered. Before Zoe bumped into her, Mary had been wholly usurped by the need to cut a flawless, symmetrical ear out of a freshly baked cake. She had been no one and nothing else.
She looked at Zoe, who was crouched at her feet, whimpering and slapping the speckled linoleum with the palms of her hands. Mary knew what was coming. Soon Zoe would topple over into a fit of dissatisfaction from which no comfort would rouse her. Zoe was the strangest of the children, a locked box Mary couldn't penetrate with kindness or impatience or little gifts of food. Susan and Billy were more comprehensible; they cried when they were hungry or tired. They'd look beseechingly at Mary, even in their worst tantrums, as if to say, Give me anything, any little reason to feel whole again. A toy could console them, or a cookie. But Zoe seemed to welcome misery. She could fuss for an hour or longer for no discernible reason — she was preparing to do so now. Mary could feel it coming, the way her own mother had claimed to feel the approach of rain on a fair day. She felt it in her joints. Spread before her on the countertop were cake layers, coconut icing, gumdrops, and licorice whips. She looked at her work and she looked down at the furious child who was about to fall into despair with a kind of voluptuous and hopeless pleasure, the way a grown woman might fall into bed after still another frustrating day.
"Con?" Mary called.
"Yeah?" he answered from the back yard.
"Con, the baby's all over the place in here. Would you take her out there with you for a few minutes till I finish this?"
She waited through the three-beat silence, during which he would be drawing a deep, moist breath, considering refusal. She waited until he said, "Okay. I'll be right there."
She straightened her knife on the Formica. "It's okay, sweetheart," she said to Zoe. "Daddy's going to take you outside for a while, to play with Susie and Billy. You've been cooped up in this old house way too long, haven't you?"
Constantine banged in through the screen door. "She's really bothering you?"
Mary took a breath, and turned to him. She put a lilt into her voice.
"Hi, honey," she said. "I'm working on my masterpiece here, and I need just a little tiny bit of peace and quiet to get it done. So would you be an angel?"
She touched her hair and offered a soft, embarrassed laugh. She was as lost in the demonstration of her own qualities as she had been in the slicing of the cake.
Constantine kissed her cheek, laid a hand on her shoulder. "This is a big deal you're putting together, huh?" he said.
"The biggest," she answered brightly. Zoe pounded the linoleum with the flats of her hands.
Constantine said to her, "Hey, you wanna go play with your brother and sister a little? Huh? You wanna go raise a little hell in the back yard, give your momma a break?"
He bent over to lift the baby. Mary caught a hint of his smell as he raised the child in his arms: his dank odor mixed with deodorant and the new cologne he'd taken up, a combination of sweetness and brine.
"You're a saint," she said.
Constantine bounced the baby in his arms. "How's it coming?"
"Fine," she said. "Just fine." She leaned over the cake to block his view. She was surprised to find that she didn't want him to see the damaged ear, though she knew he would neither notice nor care.
"It's a surprise?"
"Mm-hm. You kids just go out and play now, okay?"
"Yes. Come on, Zo. Let's see what your sister and brother are getting into out there. Let's go knock some sense into them."
He left with the baby, whose imminent fit of misery had been at least temporarily checked by motion. Mary waited for the sound of the screen door sighing shut. Then, with a relief that was palpable, like tiny valves opening inside her chest and belly, she returned to the cake. Although she was not artistic, she believed she understood an artist's temperament. She understood the absorption and the urgent, almost bodily hunger for time, simple uninterrupted time in which to work. She stayed up past midnight sewing and baking, carving pumpkins, twisting leftover pine branches into wreaths. Still, there were never enough hours and there was never enough money. Almost every day when the children cried, fought, or clung to her she lost her breath, as if the sheer disorganized passage of time was sucking the wind out of her. She grew dizzy and yawned enormously, struggling to fill her lungs as she tied shoelaces or read a favorite story one more time. Now, with Constantine watching all three children in the back yard, she breathed quietly while she finished cutting out the rabbit's second ear. She lifted both ears and placed them at jaunty angles atop the rabbit's spherical head. Yes, it would match the picture in the magazine. The gouge could be filled with icing.
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Table of Contents
I CAR BALLET,
II CRIMINAL WISDOM,
III INSIDE THE MUSIC,