I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can

I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can

by Barbara Gordon


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Barbara Gordon's groundbreaking memoir tells the extraordinary story of a woman who has it all, or thinks she does-a career as an Emmy-award-winning documentary producer, a man she loves, a world of friends, and a beautiful apartment in Manhattan. But beneath the façade, Barbara's life is spinning out of control. In spite of the pills prescribed by her doctor, a nameless terror disrupting her daily life intensifies until she is besieged by crippling anxiety attacks. A formerly strong, independent, successful woman, Barbara's life becomes a nightmare of paralysis and fear. When Barbara finds herself unable to leave her apartment or walk the streets of New York alone, she decides to take charge of her life. She doesn't want pills, she wants answers. Instead of ending her fears, quitting the medicine leads to the unraveling of what she thought was her perfect life, and Barbara becomes a casualty of a flawed and inept mental health system. Barbara had often spoken for the voiceless in her films, but she suddenly finds herself powerless, without a voice of her own. Though she feels frightened and misunderstood, the tenderness and love of another young patient, Jim, helps Barbara rediscover her voice and her identity. In the years since her memoir was first published, thousands of readers all over the world have read her book, followed her descent into hell, traveled with her along the bumpy road to recovery, and celebrated as she creates a new life. I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can is a strikingly honest look at a life gone off the rails. Throughout her journey, Gordon's hope and strength make her an incredible heroine worth rooting for.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780825306303
Publisher: Beaufort Books, Incorporated
Publication date: 10/03/2011
Pages: 352
Sales rank: 946,015
Product dimensions: 5.50(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.10(d)

About the Author

Barbara Gordon is the author of the best-selling drug-addiction memoir, I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can. In addition to having been a writer for NBC's The Today Show, Barbara is also a three time Emmy award winning film maker. She has written for Parade and numerous other magazines. She has given scores of lectures and speeches throughout the US.

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I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can 4.5 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 8 reviews.
KarinNY More than 1 year ago
I could not put this book down. I work as a psychiatric nurse practitioner in a teaching and research facility and found Barbara's depiction of both the private and state hospital so accurate. The stigma continues for a diagnosis of a mental disorder after all these years. The mentally ill are severly underserved in our culture and Barbara, with all of her accomplishments, tells it like it was and still is. Thank you Barbara.
Guest More than 1 year ago
A harsh reality of a Doctor sending a women to the depths of hell to go eye to eye with the devil and have to fight for her life! Tragic, compelling, a women living in a mans world who had to fight on her own to save her own life!
pamkaye on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Barbara's story is fascinating. I found I couldn't put the book down.Barbara Gordon, a documentary producer finds herself addicted to Valium. The decision to just stop taking them cold turkey, causes such nuerosis in Barbara's mind. To watch the downfall of her entire life happen in a few short weeks, and then the many years it takes to rebuild everything. The woman is strong.
scartertn on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
In her memoir Barbara Gordon presents an engaging story of her fight against mental illness. Her story is proof that we are all just a few pills away from our own fight.
tommiescoggins on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
This is a must read for anyone who thinks they can't get addicted to valium. A personal account, Barbara Gordon takes you through her personal struggle with addiction and her triumph over it. After many misdiagnosis, hospitalizations, and a boyfriend that treats her like dirt, she finally finds her way back to "normal".
Draak on LibraryThing More than 1 year ago
Anyone who thinks that becoming addicted to Valium can't happen to them should read this book. Brutally honest it follows Barbara Gordon, a successful award winning documentary film maker, through her addiction to Valium and her painful struggle to get off. This is a great read. I won this from Goodreads.
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Guest More than 1 year ago
To remain healthy you must ignore the self-described doctors,and of course eat your vegetables.