New York Times bestselling author Zac Brewer delivers his most honest and gripping novel yet, about a girl who believes she’s beyond saving—until she realizes the only person who can save her is herself.
Brooke Danvers is pretending to be fine. She’s gotten so good at pretending that they’re letting her leave inpatient therapy. Now she just has to fake it long enough for her parents and teachers to let their guard down. This time, when she's ready to end her life, there won’t be anyone around to stop her.
Then Brooke meets Derek. Derek is the only person who really gets what Brooke is going through, because he’s going through it too. As they start spending more time together, Brooke suddenly finds herself having something to look forward to every day and maybe even happiness.
But when Derek’s feelings for her intensify, Brooke is forced to accept that the same relationship that is bringing out the best in her might be bringing out the worst in Derek—and that Derek at his worst could be capable of real darkness.
|Product dimensions:||5.70(w) x 8.40(h) x 1.20(d)|
|Age Range:||14 - 17 Years|
About the Author
Zac Brewer grew up on a diet of The Twilight Zone and books by Stephen King. He chased them down with every drop of horror he could find—in books, in movie theaters, and on television. The most delicious parts of his banquet, however, he found lurking in the shadowed corners of his dark imagination. When he’s not writing books, he’s skittering down your wall and lurking underneath your bed. Zac doesn’t believe in happy endings . . . unless they involve blood. He lives in Missouri with his husband and two children. Visit Zac at www.zacbrewer.com.
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
"Welcome to the afterlife, Brooke Danvers." So begins the most passionate, intense, and dangerous relationship 17 year old Brooke has ever known. Derek is the new guy at school, a total babe, and a complete bad boy. But when his carefully crafted facade begins to crack the darkness starts showing through. Can Brooke save Derek from himself, even as she fights her own set of demons? This book is beautifully crafted, achingly nostalgic, and bittersweet to the very end. It is a love letter to those who have attempted suicide and survived, written in our own secret, sacred language by one of our own. It reminds us that our lives and the lives of those around us are constantly shifting and changing, and even those things inside ourselves that we think are so immutable can be removed, erased, or overcome. It is a reminder that even in our darkest moments, we are not alone. And it is a cautionary tale as well, on many levels. I was most profoundly struck by what I considered to be one of the most important lessons the books has to teach, one that even those who do not struggle with self harm, depression, and suicidal ideation should take away as well: trust your intuition and listen to your gut! I really, truly loved this book. I joked on Facebook that I thought the author had climbed into my head while I slept and snuck back out with my high school experiences, and that this was what made this his scariest book yet. I was wrong though. What made this book so chilling was how absolutely real it felt. How every single moment, every character, every word seemed to live in this world rather than the world of paper fantasy. At turns this book made me weep, cheer, smile, and laugh. I can't recommend it highly enough, but I can tell you that I finished it a few hours ago and have already started over on page 1. That should tell you all you need to know.
I've had this book for months and would constantly pick it up to pet the cover, but would always set it back down. I wasn't ever in the right mood for it. And man, I can't believe I waited so long. I loved Brooke. She's so much stronger than her depression and it was captivating to see how things changed for her. Duckie is hands down one of the best BFFs I've read and I loved the banter and routines that he had with Brooke. I loved it even more when Tucker comes around. Derek is interesting...I won't say more than that because spoilers. Plot wise, it is very dark. Obviously there's talk of depression and suicide, but also cutting and drowning and hanging. Some of the discussions seemed cavalier, but I can only imagine that it was realistic because it certainly felt that way. There are light and hopeful moments, but it starts as a pinprick of light before a good portion of the sun is showing. Overall, it grabbed me from the first page and didn't let go until the very end. And while I wanted just a bit more from the ending chapters, it went in a direction I wasn't expecting and was absolutely perfect. **Huge thanks to Uncle Zac for providing the arc free of charge**