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More Than Everything: My Voyage with the Gods of Love

More Than Everything: My Voyage with the Gods of Love

by Beatrix Ost


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“Beatrix uses words like she uses paint. . .with brush strokes so vivid and rich I feel as if I’m there watching as her story unfolds. I love this book!” –Sissy Spacek

Beatrix Ost’s memoir of her artistic awakening and early marriage opens on the heels of Germany’s recovery from the self-imposed disasters of World War II. She is part of the new generation that dances disobediently in the bombed-out villas and underground jazz caverns of Munich. Beatrix rides the dynamic decade up through the world of art, fashion, and cinema into the revolution of politics and consciousness.

Marriage to the self-made prodigy and archaeologist, Ferdinand, impresario of the Hot Club, draws her into the mystical realm of the ancient Mexican gods. Soon, two sons are born. They make an odyssey through Mexico where, under the wing of the artistic elite, their homes full of Riveras and Kahlos, the initial impression is intoxicating. But the further they press inland, the more Ferdinand loses himself in his obsession and addictions.

Ost draws us into the vortex of human craving to portray the complexities of her early marriage to a man scarred by the war, climbing the magical mountain of his own desires.

Accompanied by the author’s artwork and photographs from her private collection, Ost “…shakes free of an impossibly dark life as the wife of an alcoholic…brushes off the stardust of romance and, stepping back in the light, comes into her own.” (Barbara Epler, President, New Directions Publishing)

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ISBN-13: 9781933527901
Publisher: Turtle Point Press
Publication date: 04/04/2017
Pages: 280
Product dimensions: 6.30(w) x 7.40(h) x 0.90(d)

Table of Contents

Before We Begin 11

Part 1

The Sphere: A tale of innocence 15

A Farewell: Fathers dream of Africa 23

The Bird of Paradise Dress: How a young former officer became our family's familiar 31

My Sister Becomes a Beast: Shoving a fiancé off to America 45

Hammer or Anvil: A saffron dress, a marital blessing 55

Part 2

The Letter-Writer: They never doubted my cleverness 65

Black and White: Beauty causes a car accident 77

Coffeehouse Culture: There I saw him for the first time 83

The Villa: We became creatures of the demimonde 91

The Raft: The infallible omnipotent finger into the future 97

Love: A sandstorm of grandiose words 107

The Mother: They were accomplices 121

Proper Lies: Love is a powerful, moody god 129

The Song of Irresponsibility: The listener falls for the storyteller 139

Chaos Takes Over Order: Robust reality holds the thread of happiness 147

Elixir of Personal Freedom: The ampule in the desk drawer 155

Bob: Probably even the sofa is pregnant 167

Sympathy for the Object of Contempt: A kind of Machiavellian footnote 175

Smoky Language of the Wind: She carries a knife of obsidian at her breast 187

Part 3

The Journey: Mankind must sacrifice its treasures to the gods 197

Ciudad de México: Self-dramatization as an art form 207

Yo creo que es él: She called him Ixtla Octli 213

The Black Bull: God of seduction, pain, and pleasure 225

The Castillo: Our wedding of Eros and Despair 241

What I Still Wanted to Say 257

A Thank-You Note 263

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