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Surviving Suicide: One Mother's Journey to Acceptance After Her Son's Death

Surviving Suicide: One Mother's Journey to Acceptance After Her Son's Death

by Victoria Polmatier, Kerri Miller (Editor)
Surviving Suicide: One Mother's Journey to Acceptance After Her Son's Death

Surviving Suicide: One Mother's Journey to Acceptance After Her Son's Death

by Victoria Polmatier, Kerri Miller (Editor)


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Some things in life require we walk through fire to get to the other side. Surviving the suicide of your child is one of those things. In Surviving Suicide, Victoria Polmatier relates the agonizing first year of her life after her adult son’s death by suicide, looking back over his history of multiple suicide attempts and the amazing individual he could be in between. Full-color photography throughout the book demonstrates the many contradictions in Jason’s life. Victoria shares a journey through grief to acceptance and finding she could carry her love for her son and live her life fully once again.

Surviving Suicide explores the grieving process, how grief feels in the body and how it affects daily life, how Victoria’s son still touches her life and how she managed to embrace the surrender necessary to move on.

This book reflects the deep, all-consuming pain caused by suicide. It can be a valuable aid to parents and provide needed information for friends, family, clergy and other support people of those who are grieving.

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Product Details

ISBN-13: 9780999344507
Publisher: Mystic Haven Press
Publication date: 09/10/2017
Pages: 172
Product dimensions: 5.51(w) x 8.50(h) x 0.47(d)

About the Author

Victoria Polmatier is best known for her loving heart and laughter. She's happiest when with her family or writing a poem about life or when she has her hands in the dirt tending her herbs and garden. Victoria lives in Southwest Washington with her husband, their pets and a flock of chickens. She can be found on social media as "naturalvic" or her website at

Kerri Miller is a freelance editor who works with a wide range of clients, from books to blogs. A former English teacher, she also maintains a YouTube channel called ELA Academy, where she produces free educational videos for students and teachers in English language arts. She lives with her family, including two dogs, two cats, and a lot of fish, in the great state of Texas.

Table of Contents


  • I Will Always Love You
  • Prologue
  • Farewell
  • The Man of the Beautiful Mask
  • Start Writing Again
  • Black Hole of Despair
  • I’ve Learned, Day 11
  • No Tears
  • Life Goes On
  • Full Circle
  • Unexpected Tears
  • I’ve Learned, Day 23
  • The Tornado Has Ended
  • Surrender
  • My Birthay
  • Grief’s Tears
  • Breadcrumbs
  • I’ve Learned, Day 43
  • Dark Circles
  • Photo by Jason Williard
  • The Spider Runs Round and Round
  • Inspirations in a Bottle
  • What If I Love Again
  • Who You Are
  • Breakfast Remembered
  • Air Thick with Grief
  • Family, Part 1
  • Party Night
  • This Crazy Maze
  • I’ve Learned, Day
  • The Loss of My Son
  • Ebb and Flow
  • Grief’s Anger
  • What I Know
  • I Could Feel It
  • Two Worlds
  • Wandering
  • Winter
  • Holidays
  • Winter Cold
  • Memories
  • One Step At A Time
  • Crossing A Line
  • Ice Storm
  • Another Year
  • An Evening of Remembrance
  • Spring’s Stirring
  • Your Presence
  • The Spaces Between
  • The Darkness Surrounds Me
  • Returning to the Light
  • A Gathering of Family
  • Happy Birthday
  • Spring Forth
  • Grief Sucks
  • A Window in Time
  • Dispelling the Energy
  • His Civic Nature
  • Standing in the Midst
  • What Does Today Hold
  • No Do-Overs
  • Breaking Down Barriers
  • The Man Behind the Beautiful Mask
  • Good Mom?
  • Ponderings on Life Without Jason
  • A Nighttime Visit
  • This Roller Coaster Called Grief
  • Driving Down the Road
  • Warm Day Memories
  • Mother’s Day
  • Mr. Kitty’s Freedom
  • He Knew
  • Moving Forward
  • Black and White and Tuna Sandwiches
  • Choice Points
  • A Frame of Photos
  • Coming Home
  • Almost a Year
  • Some Things
  • In a Different Reality
  • I Was a Tormented Soul
  • Epilogue
  • Author Bio

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