Table of Contents
Author's Note v
People Always Ask … xiii
She Broke Me
Chapter 1 Dare You 3
Chapter 2 Home 7
Chapter 3 Always Drunk 13
Chapter 4 The Intervention 23
Chapter 5 Culture Shock 31
Chapter 6 Get This Town Off of Me 39
He Bound Up My Wounds
Chapter 7 New Life 51
Chapter 8 Surrender 59
Chapter 9 Obnoxious Jesus Girl 67
Chapter 10 Something Has to Change 71
Chapter 11 Core Lies 77
Chapter 12 Holding the Ball 83
Chapter 13 Mourning the Loss of a Mother 91
Chapter 14 Caked-on Face 101
Chapter 15 He Heals the Brokenhearted 109
Chapter 16 The Accusation 115
Chapter 17 Search Me, God 123
Chapter 18 Jesse 131
Chapter 19 Poppy 137
Chapter 20 The Impossible 143
Chapter 21 Mom Moves In 147
Chapter 22 Sorry 155
Chapter 23 The Last of Nine Lives 161
Chapter 24 When His Breath Leaves Our Lungs 169
She Was Broken Too
Chapter 25 Meeting My Mom 179
Chapter 26 Mourning the Loss of a Mother, Again 185
Chapter 27 Releasing My Vow 193
Chapter 28 Dear Mom 195
Addendum
From Darkness to Light 201
What Do I Do Now? 205
For When You Think It's All Impossible 207
Six Ways to Forgive (When You Don't Know What to Do with the Unfairness of It All) 209
How to Work through Your Core Lies 211
Acknowledgments 217
About the Author 219
Notes 221
