The Elizas: A Novel

The Elizas: A Novel

by Sara Shepard


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From the New York Times bestselling author of the Pretty Little Liars series comes a thriller “blending Hitchcock, S.J. Watson, and Ruth Ware” (Entertainment Weekly) filled with half-truths, suppressed memories, and ingenious twists.

When Eliza Fontaine is rescued from the bottom of a hotel pool just a few weeks before her first novel is going to be published, her family assumes that it’s another failed suicide attempt. But Eliza swears she was pushed. The problem is she remembers little of that night, a result of the large quantity of alcohol she consumed and a worsening struggle with memory loss due to a brain tumor. Feeling ignored and vulnerable, she decides she must find the truth of what actually happened.

As she searches for answers, something very peculiar begins to happen: The people closest to her start to confuse the events in her novel with those in her real life. The dividing line between fact and fiction seems to be dissolving, and even Eliza is becoming uncertain about where her protagonist’s story ends and hers begins. She glimpses a shadowy presence hovering nearby, a mirror image of herself...but is it all in her head or is there really someone following her, studying her, wishing to do her harm? Perhaps the answers to all her questions already exist in the pages of her novel, if only she could put the pieces together in the right way.

The Elizas is a heart-pounding, Hitchcockian double narrative composed of secrets, lies, false memories, and an unreliable narrator you’ll never forget.

Product Details

ISBN-13: 9781501162787
Publisher: Atria Books
Publication date: 01/15/2019
Edition description: Reprint
Pages: 352
Sales rank: 127,779
Product dimensions: 5.30(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.00(d)

About the Author

Sara Shepard is the #1 New York Times bestselling author of the Pretty Little Liars series. She has also written other young adult series and novels, including The Lying Game, The Heiresses, and The Perfectionists. Sara now lives outside of Philadelphia with her husband, sons, and dogs.

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The Elizas

I’M SCREAMING AS I wake up. The sound is sucked away as soon as I open my eyes, but it leaves a mark on my brain, a quickly fading handprint in wet sand. My throat is raw. My head is pounding. I struggle to look around, but all I see are blurred shapes. There’s an acrid taste of booze in my mouth.

Way to go, Eliza. You dodge a bullet, and you do this?

I picture the upgraded suite I’m missing out on because I’m too wasted. When I arrived at my suite in the Tranquility resort in Palm Springs late Saturday afternoon, I opened all the blinds in all the rooms. I stripped off my clothes and lay atop the bedsheets in only my underwear. I sat in the enormous empty tub and later warmed my ass on the heated toilet seat. And then, against my better judgment, I unlocked the minibar and belted down several bottles of vanilla-flavored Stolichnaya in quick succession. It tasted so good. Like an old friend.

As I drank, I stood on the balcony and stared into the courtyard seven flights below. It’s a perfect square, that courtyard, made up of flagstone paths and flower beds. The space is divided into secluded quadrants that invite privacy . . . and scandal. The lore about this place is that in the early sixties, a wannabe starlet named Gigi Reese was murdered in that courtyard. Bludgeoned in the head, apparently, probably by some local goons she got mixed up with. When they first found the body, officials ID’d her as another blonde actress named Diana Dane—the two women looked very similar. The public mourned for Diana Dane, who’d danced alongside Danny Kaye in a few pictures. What a tragedy! A life cut short! We must find her killer, pronto! Then Diana Dane returned from a USO trip to Japan and told the world she was just fine, thank her lucky stars. When the coroner got the dead woman’s true identity sorted out, the Hollywood headlines barely mentioned it. They were still talking about what a relief it was that Diana Dane was okay. No one cared who’d offed Gigi Reese. The mystery is still unsolved.

After I finished my third mini bottle of vodka, I was feeling loose and reckless, so I figured I might as well go all out. I ordered room service, telling the guy taking my order, “Oh, just send up one of everything, especially the desserts.” While I waited, I looked at the hand towels in the bathroom. They were soft, yet substantial. Unforgiving. I tried to imagine Gigi Reese’s killer using such a towel to muffle her screams. Or maybe he knocked her out quickly, and she hadn’t had time to make a sound. I ran my fingers over the spaceship-shaped alarm clock next to my bed, noting the sharpness of the tip and the heaviness of its base. It would make a good bludgeoning tool.

But now, when I turn my head to check out the space-age alarm clock again, it’s not on the bedside stand. In fact, I don’t even see the bedside stand. Light streams through a window, too—but isn’t it nighttime?

A face emerges above me. “I think she’s awake.”

It’s my mother’s crinkled forehead, her wire-frame glasses, the sunburned nose from Saturdays spent kite surfing. She is so incongruous in this setting I assume, at first, that I’m still dreaming.

“What are you doing here?” I ask. It is an effort to speak. It feels as though there is someone sitting on my face.

My mother licks her lips. “Eliza.” Her voice cracks. Trembles. And then she sighs. It’s a big sigh, sad and long, gloomy and defeated. “Honey.”

Honey. It sets my heart thumping. My mother only calls me honey when I’ve done something to really shake her up. We’ve been through things, me and my mom. I’ve scared her one too many times.

“W-what’s going on?” I croak.

My stepfather, Bill, shimmers into view. There are mussed tufts of grayish hair above his ears. “Don’t worry, chicken. You’re going to be okay.”

I remember the scream I’d made upon waking. “Did something happen?”

Gazes slide to the left. I spy my stepsister, Gabby, slouched in a doorway. This isn’t my hotel suite at all. And what I’d thought was the typical crushing, sticky-mouthed descent into a hangover doesn’t feel that way anymore, not completely. I notice a machine standing to my left. Green LED numbers march across a screen. The beeping sound is rhythmic, organic, matching the cadence of a body—my body. There’s an IV pole with bags and tubes next to me, too. The goopy liquid in the IV bag is tinged an inorganic, vampire red, but when I look again, the liquid is thin and clear.

“Why am I in a hospital?” I whisper.

Again, no one speaks. A slick, cold feeling creeps down my back. A voice prods from somewhere deep. You’ve got to get ahold of yourself. I hear clinking glasses and a strain of “Low Rider” on the stereo—but what stereo? My vision swirls. Stop staring, someone says. And: I’ve been looking for you.

I try to grab the memory, but it’s a petal blowing off a patio. Someone’s screaming. Then . . . nothing. When was this from? Is it even real?

I try another question. “What day is it?”

“Sunday,” my mother answers. “Sunday morning. You’ve been asleep for a while.”

“Why am I in a hospital?” I ask again. “Please. Somebody tell me.”

Bill clears his throat awkwardly. “You were found at the bottom of another pool last night.”

I blink. In a way, I’m not surprised. This is, what, the fourth time I’ve almost drowned? The fifth? No wonder my family seems fatigued.

“The one at the Tranquility resort?” I ask tremulously.

“You don’t remember.” Bill says it like a statement, not a question.

I glance at my mother. She’s staring down at her chest, biting her lip, so she doesn’t see when I shake my head—but then, it’s clear she already knows. I hate that I’m disappointing her—scaring her—but . . . I don’t remember. Again.

“Where’s my phone?” I ask.

My mother’s face shifts into a mix of anger and annoyance, her favorite way to deflect fear. “Eliza. The last thing you should be worrying about right now is your phone.”

Bill leans forward. “It’s true. The doctors want you to rest. You need to get your strength back up.”

I crane my neck and look at Gabby. Her expression is grave behind her round glasses. A sliver of memory from last night suddenly wriggles through. It’s nighttime, a few hours after my minibar and room-service binge. I am standing on the pool deck at the Tranquility, but I don’t know why. Every other time I’ve been at the pool, it’s been pleasantly crowded with lounging bodies, but in this memory, the area is empty, as though everyone has just evacuated. Waves bob tempestuously on the water. Towels are thrown haphazardly across chairs. An upended cup sits on a table, a balled-up napkin printed with the resort’s logo has missed the trash can and lies on the concrete. The diving board wobbles, as if someone has just jumped off . . . and dissolved into nothing.

The sky is very dark in the memory, opaque black velvet. The air is a cleansing kind of chilly, like there was a sudden drop in barometric pressure wicking away all the humidity. I can practically feel my heels ticking against the hard tiled pool deck. I stand near the water, looking around frantically—for what? And I feel scared—but why? And then I hear footsteps. There’s a confusion of movement, and I trip. There’s a yelp—my yelp—and a stranger’s laugh. The water is shockingly cold when I hit it belly-first. My useless limbs flap, I try to paddle, but I quickly give out. Air leaves my lungs. My shoes fall off my feet as I sink to the bottom. I can’t swim. I never learned.

I inhale and detect the faintest hint of pool chlorine in my nostrils. I hear that “Low Rider” riff again. A cold sweat breaks out on the surface of my skin. “Did they find him?”

My mother’s lips part. “Who? The person who pulled you out of the water?”

Once again I feel those strong hands pushing me from behind. Once again I hear that laugh. A high-pitched, mocking, satisfied laugh.

“The person who pushed me in,” I whisper.

Gabby’s blonde head shoots up. My mother’s face turns red, and she pokes her head into the hall. “Nurse,” she says in a panicked voice.

Now I am shaking. “No, seriously, someone pushed me!” My voice grows louder. “Someone pushed me into that pool! We have to find him! Please!”

“Eliza.” Bill’s face is large and close. “No one pushed you. You jumped.”

“Like every other time,” my mother murmurs into her hands with a sob, just as a nurse walks into the room with a gleaming syringe.

I cower back on the bed. My eyes bulge as the nurse steps closer. “No!” I cry, but it doesn’t matter. The nurse isn’t listening, and neither is anyone else. It’s not so crazy they think I jumped. I have a bit of a track record of this kind of behavior. But I didn’t go into that water willingly—this I know for sure.

Someone wanted me dead.

• • •

The clock on the wall of my hospital room says 3:15, and judging by the sunlight, I have to assume it’s now Sunday afternoon. I must have fallen asleep from the shot the nurse gave me because, she claimed—they all claimed—I was having another episode. The whole way down, milliseconds before I lost consciousness, I argued with the room this wasn’t a repeat performance. I wasn’t delusional like all those other times. I was telling the truth.

Now, the room is silent and still. I don’t know where anyone is—maybe my family has left. In many ways, I hope they have.

I feel around on the little bedside table, hoping my phone is there. It’s not. It’s discomfiting not to have my phone by my side, like one of my senses has been taken away. I’ve missed hours of news. I’ve missed random snaps from celebrities I’ve never met and friends I never see and distant family members I don’t really like. I’ve missed emails about shoe sales, makeup sales, and emails that proclaim Free shipping today and today only! Maybe I’ve even missed an email from my editor or agent. I want to Google this hospital to make sure it’s reputable and search for news of last night’s incident at the Tranquility. I want to Google the meds in my IV drip, and ask Siri why all hospitals smell like sadness, and also confirm with Siri that my family actually drugged me to keep me quiet.

Okay, it had been a major slip to drink. I’d promised my family I wouldn’t after my surgery and treatment. Only, it had tasted so good. Once I’d started, I couldn’t stop. I’m not really very good at refraining, to be honest. Willpower isn’t my strong suit. But drinking was my only slip, and it didn’t dull what I know. Everything I’d said to them about someone pushing me is true. It happened. I know it.

There’s a knock at the door, and I shoot up. A guy in a faded blue shirt enters. He’s sandy-haired, with black plastic glasses that were probably hip about five years ago. He’s got a weak, wimpy half smile and long, thin fingers with carefully manicured nails. I arrange the sheets around me so that my ass isn’t exposed and pull my hospital gown tight. I wish the gown were any color but white. The fabric matches my skin tone perfectly.

“Miss Fontaine.” He extends his hand. “I’m Lance Collier, with the Palm Springs PD. I’ve been assigned to your case.”

“You’re a detective?” My voice leaps. The world blossoms.

He sinks into a plastic chair next to my bed. “I have a few questions for you. I hear you’re going to be with us for a while longer.”

“What do you mean?”

“I was told your family would like you to take a few days to recover in psychiatric.”

My heart sinks. “No. No. I wasn’t trying to kill myself.”

Lance turns his head to the right. His neck cracks noisily, and I wince. I have never liked the sound of cracking joints. “What I see”—he flips a page—“is that two passersby rescued you from the bottom of the Tranquility resort pool last night. True?”

I shrug. “I guess.”

“And you can’t swim, right?”

“That’s right.”

“So what were you doing in the pool?”

“Someone pushed me.”

This doesn’t even elicit an eyebrow raise, which surprises me, considering the last time I made this claim I got a needle jammed into my bicep. “Did you see the person who pushed you?” he asks in an even tone.

“No, but I felt hands on my back.”

“But no face. So you can’t be positive you were pushed.”

I lick my lips. “Are you saying I’m lying?”

He crosses his legs. The clock on the wall ticks loudly. “Miss Fontaine, it’s come to my attention that you’ve had some issues with suicide attempts in the past.”

I inwardly groan. “Yes, but that was . . . before.”

“Before what?”

“Before her brain tumor.”

My mother rushes into the room, never mind that this is a private meeting. Bill follows. Gabby pulls up the rear.

“Um, hello?” I say awkwardly, defensively.

My mother turns to the detective. “She tried to drown herself four other times last year. Three were in hotel swimming pools. The fourth time was in the Pacific Ocean—Santa Monica. She kept saying she had to. Someone was after her. Someone was trying to hurt her. Finally, about eleven months ago, a doctor gave her a brain scan, and it turns out she had a tumor pressing against—”

“—my amygdala,” I interrupt, desperate to regain control of this. “It’s this part of your brain that tells your body how it’s supposed to respond to emotionally charged situations.”

“I’m aware of how an amygdala functions,” Lance says.

“That’s why you see all those suicide attempts on my record,” I say. “But the doctor got the tumor out. I had treatment, and I’m better now. Last night was different. I wasn’t trying to die. Honest.”

“It’s just so similar, chicken,” Bill says quietly. “The drinking, the fear that someone was after you . . . everything about the situation is the same.”

“Well, it’s not the same.” I look around the room and see tilted mouths, downcast eyes. “It’s not.” It comes out like a whine.

There’s a small, condescending smile on Lance’s face. “How about you walk me through what you remember?”

I try to grab on to that memory of the strong hands on my back at the edge of the pool, but the shot that nurse gave me—a mixture of drugs I’m unfamiliar with—is making even reality seem dreamlike and unfathomable. “I walked out to the pool. I stood there. Then I felt this whoosh. I was pushed from behind, and I fell in. I was in a public place. Weren’t there witnesses?”

Lance studies his notes. “According to the report, there were no witnesses besides the people who rescued you. By the time they saw you, you were already in the water, and they said no one else was around. They pulled you out, laid you on the deck. One of them gave you mouth-to-mouth.”

I feel itchy. It’s harrowing to hear the details of your almost-death. I notice, out of the corner of my eye, that my mother has her lips pressed tightly together.

“Are they sure no one else saw?” I ask. It seems impossible. There were hundreds of guests at that resort when I checked in. The lobby was clogged with guys in Maui Jim sunglasses and women carrying raffia Tory Burch handbags.

“There was a thunderstorm—the pool area had been cleared. The staff wonders how you even got onto the deck—it was roped off.”

I’d climbed over the rope? My patent leather booties had five-inch heels. What the hell prompted me to do that?

“Who pulled me out of the water?” I ask. “Who was it?”

He looks again at the notebook. “Someone named Desmond Wells. Know him?”

I crane my neck at the notebook, too. Lance has written the name Desmond Wells in all caps along with a Los Angeles area code phone number. The name doesn’t ring a bell. “Does he work at the hotel?”

“He said he was a guest.”

“So what about video surveillance? Didn’t that pick up what happened?”

“There normally are security cameras in the pool area, but the power was down because of the storm.”

I snort. “And I bet it snapped right back on after I got out of the pool, huh?”

“This isn’t a conspiracy, Eliza,” my mother says, almost inaudibly, her voice tinged with that sad, scared bitterness again.

“How about people at the bar? I was talking to someone there, I think, before I went to the pool. Can you interview them? Maybe they saw something. Or I could interview them, actually. Do you happen to know where my phone is? I could call the bar and straighten this out.”

My mother looks aghast. “You were at a bar, too?”

I clear my throat. I’d promised I wouldn’t go to bars after the tumor surgery. Just like I promised I wouldn’t drink, period. I look at Lance. “I-I just went for some atmosphere. I wasn’t drinking.”

Lance coughs awkwardly. “The lab did a toxicity report on you. Your blood alcohol level was sky-high.”

I can feel my family’s gaze upon me. It sucks to be caught in a lie, especially such a foolish one. But sometimes lying’s my natural response. The lies come out of my mouth involuntarily.

Lance flips a page. “Anyway. The police who responded to the 911 call spoke to two men who rescued you, and they said they’d never seen you before, and they didn’t know where you’d come from. Can you describe who you were talking to at the bar, Eliza? Did you get a name?”

I swallow hard. I have no idea.

“Was it a man? A woman? Anything?”

Still nothing. I’m not even sure I was talking to someone.

“Can you tell me which bar you were at? I could look into it.”

According to the big binder in my room at the Tranquility, the resort has six bars. D’Oro’s, the casual one off the lobby; The Stuffed Pig, for business dinners; Trax, with the DJ; Meritage, a wine bar; Shipstead, the nautical-themed martini bar; and Harry’s, a tiki bar. So I have a one-in-six chance of getting it right. Stingers, buzzes a little insect in my head. I drank a stinger last night. How had that come about? That’s not a drink I usually order.

“Ah. Here it is. You were most likely at the Shipstead. That’s the only bar whose door leads to the pool area.” Lance looks up from his notes and squints at me. “It’s possible, though, that you don’t remember the night properly. There’s the issue of your toxicity report, for one thing. And I happened to get a look in your bag, too—I found . . . well, I suppose you know what I found.”

“What?” my mother gasps.

Lance is still looking at me. “Are you sure that’s not why you fell in the pool? Maybe you were too wasted to realize what you were doing?”

I try to swallow, but my throat is so dry. I can picture the label of the bottle he found. It reads Xanax, 1 mg, twice daily. “I don’t suppose you noticed all the other things in my purse, did you?” I finally say. “All the vitamins? Metabolic maintenance, immuno drops, Metformin, CoQ10?” I give Bill and my mother a self-righteous glance. “It’s everything the doctors ordered me to take to keep the tumor from coming back. I’m trying.”

“We know you are, chicken.” Bill pats my arm. “We know.”

“Are you on any other prescription medications?” Lance asks.

This is unbelievable. “I’m sorry, but do cops usually ask these sorts of questions?”

“Actually, I’m a forensic psychologist. But I have ties to Palm Springs PD, and I report everything we’re speaking about to them.”

I scoot away from him in the bed. “We’re done, then. Conversation over.” I’ve had enough of talking to shrinks.

“Eliza.” My mother crosses her arms over her chest. “Honey, please. He’s just trying to help.”

“Too bad,” I say, like a toddler. And stop calling me honey, I want to add. It’s just too incongruous . . . and heartbreaking.

“I promise I can help put the pieces together for you,” Lance says. “But for this process to work, you have to be a willing participant. So how about you tell me if you took any other meds last night before you fell into the pool?”

I chew the inside of my cheek. I hate the turn this has taken.

“You know, even just mixing Xanax and alcohol can give you blackouts, memory gaps, and—”

“That might be true, but I didn’t take all those last night,” I cut him off. “You’re not listening to me. This isn’t a memory gap. This really happened.”

Lance looks at me easily, but I detect a slight smirk on his face. As he shifts in the seat, he’s lined up squarely with a poster of a curly-horned mountain goat in the hall. His head tilts just so, and it looks like he’s the one with the horns.

“Let’s talk about the drinking,” Lance circles back. “So why drink so much? Were you upset about something?”

I stare down at the sheets. “No.”

“You sure?”

I look him square in the eye. Focus, I tell myself. Breathe. “Of course I’m sure.”

“And what prompted this visit to Palm Springs, anyway?”

Why the hell does that matter? “I don’t know. It’s . . . pretty there. I like the dry heat. I like art deco. And I like hotels.”

“You should have told us you were going, sweetie,” Bill chimes in.

This takes me by surprise. “Am I on probation?”

“You promised us you’d tell us if you went anywhere outside LA,” my mother says.

I push my tongue into my cheek. I did?

Lance sits back in the chair and crosses his ankles. “That must have been tough to have a brain tumor last year, huh?”

I wrinkle my nose. He’s using his Shrink Voice. I’ve heard a few of those in my day. “It wasn’t that big of a deal.”

“You don’t have to downplay it. Cancer scares the shit out of everyone.”

“Of course it scared her,” my mother says. “As a kid, she worried she was going to get a tumor. She worried about a lot of things. Illness. Death. She was an unusually anxious child. And then she got a tumor. She was beside herself.”

“Mom,” I warn.

My mother shrugs. “But you were.”

Lance peers at me expectantly. I swallow hard, readying my own version of what it was like to have gone through brain surgery and recovery at twenty-two years old. The thing is, though, my mother is right. I was a strange child. A kid who worried. A kid who had obsessions, obsessions that still exist today. I was that kid who lined a storage bin with silk, climbed in, shut the lid, and lay there for hours, pretending, absorbing, fantasizing. I used to make my Barbies strangle, bludgeon, asphyxiate, stab, and hack apart one another. I was that kid who hanged every one of my stuffed animals from nooses in the closet doorway, pinning miniature suicide notes to their plush bodies. My mother found those suicide notes. She asked me why I’d done such a thing. I didn’t have the vocabulary for it at the time, but I guess I was just curious about how someone could sink to that level of despair. I identified with that level of despair, though I didn’t know why. It came from somewhere deep inside of me, a place I was too young to understand.

Maybe my errant amygdala was to blame. Being diagnosed with the tumor was a bit of a paradox for me—it was nightmarish, yes, but it also kind of explained why, sometimes, I made very strange and unhealthy decisions. It was like a get-out-of-jail-free card. I was no longer responsible for my actions.

“Look, it wasn’t fun, but I got through it,” I answer. “And I’m doing well now. I have my own place. I have a job. I even wrote a book.”

Lance raises an eyebrow. “A book?”

“A novel. The Dots. A publisher bought it and everything.”

“How about that!” Lance glances around at my family. They shift from foot to foot. “What’s it about?”

Gabby makes a loud throat-clearing sound near the door, but when I try to catch her eye, she doesn’t look up. “It’s a coming-of-age story,” I say.

Lance nods encouragingly. He probably expects me to tell more, but I don’t want to. The last thing I want to do is explain my creative endeavors to my family. This is my achievement, not theirs—they didn’t foster it in the least. They aren’t artists. They aren’t even readers. They’ll deem it silly, probably. Frivolous. Melodramatic. They don’t even know that it’s publishing in a month. I hope they miss it entirely and never read a word, because then I won’t have to hear their misinterpretation.

“Eliza, let’s try and think this through,” my mother says. “You had a shock last night, and I think you need some time to rest. If you don’t want to stay in this hospital, maybe consider this place instead.” She fishes in her Band-Aid-colored bucket bag and hands me a pamphlet. It takes me a moment to make sense of the words on the cover. The Oaks Wellness Center. There’s a picture of people sitting around a farmhouse table, eating soup and looking joyful and serene. Psychiatric treatment in a relaxed, soothing environment, reads the cover.

Acid rises in my throat. “No way.”

“The last year has been hard for you,” Bill says. “It’s okay to admit you’re going through a rough patch again.”

“This isn’t a rough patch!”

“It’s okay, Eliza.” Lance puts his pen in his front pocket. “People with serious illnesses often have psychological relapses.”

“I. Didn’t. Jump. Into. That. Pool,” I tell the room. “I felt . . . hands.” I hold up my two shaking palms and make a shoving motion. “I don’t need a rest. My tumor isn’t back. And I definitely don’t need a psych ward.” I look at Lance. “Can you at least ask around again, see if anyone saw anything, or if there was a backup video? Or even just ask the bartender on duty if they saw anyone with me in the bar that night?”

“But you seem like a nice girl, Eliza,” Lance says. “Would someone really want to hurt you?”

My brain catches. A nice girl. It’s comical. On the other hand, am I someone a person would like to hurt—even kill? Someone must have consciously made the decision to thrust me forward into the water. Someone must have hated me that much. It has to be someone who knows me. Someone who knows I can’t swim.

Sometimes I pick flowers, beautiful flowers, off people’s lawns. People I don’t even know. I don’t do anything with them. I smell them, drop them, and sometimes step on them.

I can be cruel and withhold affection.

I’m a liar. A fabulist. It’s probably why I wrote a book so easily post-tumor.

A lot of my decisions don’t make sense. I piss people off. I burn bridges. I do nothing to repair them usually, either.

There are certain things I don’t remember at all, huge chunks gone. I’ve been told the tumor’s to blame, but sometimes I wake up with a residue of shame over me, as gritty as sand. And sometimes, I still get the feeling I’ve done something. Something awful. I just don’t know what. So maybe someone does hate me that much.

I jut my chin into the air. “I guess that’s for you to find out, isn’t it, Lance?”

Lance looks at my family. My mother raises her eyebrows. Bill breathes out, looking heartbroken. Gabby is trying to morph into the wall. And then I glance at Lance’s clipboard again. He has flipped to a sheet of lined paper with the heading Eliza Fontaine. But he hasn’t written a single thing. No testimony. No details of my attack.

It doesn’t take me but a moment to get it. In his mind, there was no attack. He has sided with my family. I’m just a crazy girl. I don’t know what’s real.

I look desperately to Gabby, hoping she’ll speak up in my defense, but she’s pointedly consulting her phone as if we’re all just inappropriately loud strangers she’s stuck sitting next to on public transport. And for a moment, I entertain the idea that perhaps there is a third girl in the room, a different Eliza, and they’re talking about her, not me. After all, I’m the Eliza who’s better. I’m the Eliza who just had a few too many drinks. I’m the Eliza who remembers hands at her back pushing her into the water. I’m the Eliza who has the niggling worry that someone might have done it on purpose, for something I deserved.

That last bit strikes a dissonant chord. Only, no. This isn’t like the other times, those paranoia-fueled plunges brought on by a twisted lump of abnormal cells. Someone really is after me. Whatever happened to me this time, my fear is completely and unequivocally justified.

I just wish someone else believed it, too.

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Xkoqueen More than 1 year ago
I love psychological thrillers, so I jumped at the chance to read The Elizas by Sara Shepard. From the start it is abundantly clear that Eliza is an unreliable witness. It is also clear that she doesn’t have the best relationship with her family. Her relationships with other people in her life are marginal at best. I was intrigued and curious about the story line, but I wouldn’t say that I found the story gripping. The author tells the tale in chapters that alternate between Eliza’s present day and excerpts of the book she has written. The fact that the plot of Eliza's book parallels her life makes readers question Eliza’s reality. When Eliza finally comes to terms with reality, the story threads are woven together. The Elizas is truly a psychological thriller as most of the action takes place in the main character’s muddled head. It is a meaningful story for readers who are sympathetic to mental health issues.
HC_TheHeathersBlog More than 1 year ago
The Elizas is a YA thriller that will keep your mind reeling and makes everyone seem suspect. Eliza Fontaine finds herself at the bottom of a pool, nearly drowning. When she goes on a quest to find out who she believes pushed her, she finds herself without support from her family and a world that seems to easily brush her off. You see, she has a past. This isn't the first time she's been at the bottom of the pool and almost dead. She has her reasons for the past but now this time is different and there seems to only be one person who is willing to help her uncover the truth. Throughout the book, there are also snippets from Eliza's book that she has written and her world compared to Dot's world in that book is so parallel that that lines are blurred between fiction and reality. I will admit that The Elizas started off extremely slow for me. For that reason, I never really connected to Eliza the way I wanted to, which kind of spiraled into me not really connecting to the book she was writing either. I absolutely loved the concept and truly believe that it was an issue with myself. Maybe I wasn't in the right head space to read it at the time. Who knows. I think that Shephard's writing flows well and she has this way to be able to spin a story that keeps you on your toes and always guessing. If you are looking for a YA thriller that messes with your mind and gives you a "Ah ha!" moment then you need to pick up The Elizas today!
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I only read the sample and I was so into it . I just wanna keep on reading it!!
Anonymous More than 1 year ago
This book was so good. Sad and heartbreaking at the same time. The pieces slowing falling together and has a great ending.
KrittersRamblings More than 1 year ago
Check out the full review at Kritters Ramblings There are two books within this one book. Eliza Fontaine is a woman who has been found at the bottom of a pool and she can't swim and this isn't the first time this has happened to her. The other thing that is within this book is a book that Eliza has written and the chapters of the book are interspersed within her chapters about her character. For me it was a little confusing and I had some trouble with it.
TheLifeofaBookAddict More than 1 year ago
After waking up in the hospital and finding out her family believes she attempted suicide, Eliza isn’t sure what is really going on. She has gaps in her memory and nothing seems to make sense to her. Despite what her family thinks, Eliza knows that something isn’t right, so she takes it upon herself to investigate her “incident” and get to the truth. As a writer, Eliza is used to creating fiction, but it isn’t long before it appears that Eliza’s imagination has gotten the best of her and reality starts to blend in with her book. And then everything comes into question. Eliza is very much an unreliable narrator in this story. The point of view shifts from Eliza in one chapter, to her novel The Dots in the next chapter. I was constantly trying to figure out what was true and what wasn’t. Is Eliza crazy? Is her novel pure fiction or something more? I’ve been a fan of Sara Shepard ever since I read Pretty Little Liars several years ago. She knows how to weave a good story and fill it with lies, suspense, and unique characters. If you like a story that keeps you guessing and has some twists and turns along the way, then take a look at The Elizas. ***Though this book was given to me by the Publisher, the thoughts and opinions expressed in this review are solely my own.***
SilversReviews More than 1 year ago
Eliza and Dot - one is a real person, and the other is a character in Eliza’s book. The similarities are striking and a bit confusing. We follow both Eliza and Dot as they move through situations both in real life and in Eliza's book. The book begins as Eliza was pulled out of a swimming pool, and no one believes that it was an accident since she previously tried to commit suicide. Doctors and family members also question her story and her memory about many things, but are they just trying to make her think she can’t remember things? THE ELIZAS was odd, but interesting. The characters seemed to be trying to put Eliza in a bad light even though Eliza’s publicist met with her and said the stunt with the pool was a brilliant tactic for publicity. Were they really worried about Eliza or their book sales? Was anyone really worried about Eliza or just themselves? Eliza couldn't let everyone think she had purposely jumped in the pool and was more interested in clearing up the story the police are telling everyone about the pool incident than worrying about publicity for her book. Each chapter was titled Eliza or Dot, and the ending of the chapters about Eliza seemed to have someone questioning her memory. When Eliza asks a question about a situation since she can't remember, the other characters confirm that it is someone she knew or a situation that had happened. Each chapter parallels each other with a similar situation for each character. THE ELIZAS was a psychological fest. Did I or didn't I do that? Did I or didn't I remember that situation? Is the character in my book really me? THE ELIZAS was a bit confusing at first and kept me guessing. Once a few things were revealed, the tension mounted and things came together, but the oddness continued. More than one story seemed to be going on at once throughout the book. Be patient and read carefully when you read THE ELIZAS. You never know who may be lurking. 4/5 This book was given to me free of charge and without compensation by the publisher and NetGalley in return for an honest review.
SarahJD82 More than 1 year ago
I often get caught in such a loop of romance novels I forget how much enjoy a true psychological thriller. The Elizas was quite the mind****, and I’m still not sure what was real, what was fiction (within fiction), and what was completely imagined. I’m certain this is one book I will be thinking about for some time. The Elizas is a standalone novel. This is a psychological thriller with minimal romance, for those of you who are used to me reviewing romances. The Elizas is written in two different styles, Eliza’a narration is in first-person perspective, and her novel, The Dots, is written in third-person limited perspective. I loved how this novel was delivered, the book within a book format, and reading the book Eliza is about to have published as we are getting her story. The play back and forth between Eliza and Dot was fascinating. Sarah Shepard did a sublime job of building up two different plots in order to tell the incredibly riveting story of a fickle girl. The story within a story aspect of this book was ingenious. I found myself completely caught up in both stories so much; it eventually became difficult – for Eliza and me – to delineate where she stopped, and Dot started. Between the fluidity between Dot and Eliza, Dot’s aunt Dorothy and Stella, and the shadowy figure Eliza continually glimpses, the security of self and the identity of those we think we know was constantly changing and in question. It was enthralling. By the time I finished the novel, there wasn’t a single person I hadn’t questioned the intentions of. The characters, no matter the time they spent on the page, were highly developed and unique. It seemed as if each and every one of them was hiding things. From Eliza, from each other, from the reader. Such is the intention of an unreliable narrator, and Ms. Shepard gave us a great one in Eliza. Sara Shepard’s Pretty Little Liars series fascinated me, and I was ecstatic to get the chance to check out her foray into adult fiction. She delivered a multi-faceted and engaging story, full of fascinating characters with dubious intentions. I was wholly invested in figuring out the intricacies of Eliza’s world and was left reeling by the time the novel finished. Ms. Shepard is truly a fantastic author with an incredible knack for weaving a quirky, intense, psychological thriller.