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Undone is author Michele Cushatt’s quest to make peace with a complicated life. It is an honest confession of a diagnosis of cancer and the joys and disappointments of motherhood and marriage, ripe with regret over what is and, yet, still hopeful for what could be.
With enough humor to ease the rawness of the story, Undone takes the reader on a roller coaster two-year journey through the unexpectedness of life. A look back makes Michele long for a do-over, the chance to make fewer mistakes and leave less of a mess to clean up. A look forward makes Michele wonder if all her attempts to control life have robbed her of the vibrancy of it. And, in the middle of this internal chaos, she finds her once-pristine house filled with the sights and sounds of three small, uncontainable children who just want to be loved.
In the end, Undone turns complication into a beautiful canvas, angst into joy, and the unknown into an adventure, revealing that sometimes life’s most colorful and courageous stories are written right in the middle of the mess.
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About the Author
Michele Cushatt is a successful speaker and author who shares about the complicated intersections of real faith and real life, speaking for Women of Faith, Compassion International, Focus on the Family, and Hearts at Home. She and her husband, Troy, have been married for fourteen years and share a stepfamily of three boys, and more recently have added three small children, just as they thought they were preparing to enter the empty-nest phase of family life. They live in Denver, Colorado. Website/Blog: http://www.MicheleCushatt.com
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A Memoir: Finding Peace in an Unexpected Life
By Michele Cushatt
ZONDERVANCopyright © 2015 Michele Cushatt
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The Phone Call
Little by little we human beings are confronted with situations that give us more and more clues that we are not perfect. —FRED ROGERS, Mr. Rogers' Neighborhood: Thoughts for All Ages
It started with a phone call.
November 23, the Tuesday morning before Thanksgiving Day. The doctor's voice caught me by surprise, his words even more so: "Michele, it's not good."
I didn't expect to find out I had cancer two days before Thanksgiving. Some holidays should be off limits. Just saying.
The breakfast dishes sat in the sink, cereal bowls and coffee mugs dropped in my hurry to get kids to school. My husband, Troy, already late, hustled through the house grabbing computer bag and coat for a full day of customer appointments. Bread crumbs from hastily assembled sack lunches lingered on the counter, the newspaper sprawled across the table. All marks of an ordinary day in our home.
Only today was no longer ordinary. Even as I sat in the living room chair, the phone in one hand and my forehead in the other, I knew my life would never be the same.
Six days before, after doing a biopsy, Dr. Francis had assured me I had no reason to fear. "It's nothing, Michele. Nothing. But we'll do the biopsy anyway." Yes, he'd said that. Multiple times. So I didn't worry, because I had no need to.
Michele, it's not good.
All the fear the doctor had stayed the week before now filled me with panic. I couldn't breathe, felt like I was drowning.
I'd turned thirty-nine only a few short months before. Too young. I thought of my three teenage boys without a mother. My husband without a wife. I pictured the dreams I wouldn't reach, all the events I would miss. The cross-country meets, homecoming pictures, and high school graduations. In a moment, cancer rewrote my life as a worst-case scenario. I hated it.
At different times in my life, I'd imagined getting a phone call like this, even wondered how I'd respond. Every time, I pictured myself a pillar of strength, absorbing bad news with a sweep of the hand and a stoic grace, an actress's well-executed theatrics. It seems silly now, my imagination, compared with reality. Cancer has nothing of Hollywood in it.
Officially, Dr. Francis said, cancer of the tongue. A rare, squamous-cell carcinoma typically found in smokers. Only I wasn't a smoker, had never been. Regardless of how many times I asked, he couldn't explain it, couldn't tell me why. Instead, he assigned me to a surgeon who later scheduled a PET scan and a December surgery, a partial glossectomy to remove a section of my tongue. After that, results would be analyzed and a treatment plan would be created.
Fear and unknowns marked Thanksgiving that year. Waiting and worrying, crying and praying. A hundred times I've tried to put words to that time. Like trying to explain the deep end of the ocean to a bird who has known only the feel of the sky. How do I capture that first day, my kids at school and my husband at work, when I cried at home alone, curled up in my bedroom closet? How do I describe telling my youngest boy when he came home from school, the one who still cuddled with his mama at night, and then holding him and wiping tears from his eyes? How do I give justice to the sleepless nights and panic-filled days while I waited, waited, waited for PET scan and pathology results? At six o'clock I woke up to a life I loved. By eight thirty it was gone.
The phone call with Dr. Francis ended almost as quickly as it began, like a tornado ripping through a town in just minutes but changing the landscape forever.
"Any questions?" he asked.
Of course I had questions! Terrifying, consuming ones. What if it has already spread? How soon will we know a prognosis? Will I be able to talk normally once I heal? Is my speaking career over? What about my boys? What should I tell them?
Will I live?
"No, I'm okay."
Only I wasn't.
I hung up the phone. And fell completely apart.CHAPTER 2
Of course it is different when the thing happens to oneself, not to others, and in reality, not in imagination. —C. S. LEWIS, A Grief Observed
For as long as I can remember, Thanksgiving has been my favorite holiday. The pinnacle of every year.
Until the year cancer joined my family at the table.
I tried to stay festive, buy the turkey, whip up pies and side dishes, all while smiling and laughing as expected. But behind the charade of activity, I felt myself crumbling.
That first day proved the most difficult. I hung up the phone with Dr. Francis as Troy rushed out the door to work. An empty house. I tried to do the dishes but couldn't stand still. I pulled out my Bible but couldn't read. Fear made me inconsolable. The silence screamed.
From the time I sat in a kindergarten Sunday school class, I've been told to talk to God about these things first. Call him up on the heavenly 911 and "pour out my lament" like David or Isaiah. Certainly my heart called out to him while I paced from room to room trying to find a distraction. But I couldn't form any coherent prayer other than "Help me." Even then, more silence in reply.
So I called Kate, the friend with whom I'd shared countless cups of tea. She always seemed to know the right thing to say to a friend in crisis. But she didn't answer. I thought about leaving a message, but what to say?
Call me. I have cancer.
Not voicemail material. Besides, speaking would've breached the dam holding back a torrent of emotion. I was afraid I'd start crying and never stop.
I tried another friend, Robbie, the one who always knows how to make me laugh. I needed to laugh. As long as I've known her, she's been strong, feisty, and optimistic. She wouldn't break down at my news, wouldn't fall apart in a panic. I didn't need any more of that. Knowing her, she'd talk a little smack, shake me by the shoulders, and dole out a plateful of faith and perspective.
I couldn't dial fast enough. But again, no answer.
For the third time that morning, I hung up the phone to an empty house. Fear spread like a flood, drowning me. I wanted to run but had nowhere to go.
Why? Of all days, why can't I find someone to help me?
My terror finally pushed me to my bedroom closet. To pray.
I don't remember what I said, and I'm quite sure it wasn't anything worthy of the pages of the Psalms. It was more groans than words, more tears than testimony. I fell facedown on the carpet, the closet door shut and darkness enveloping me, and uttered a prayer of panic.
Father God, help me. Please, help. I want to live!
Somewhere at the tail end of that prayer I made a request. Desperate for human company, for some kind of physical presence to ease my fear, I asked God to bring someone—anyone—to sit with me. Didn't matter if it was a phone call or a visitor on my front step.
Please don't make me endure today alone.
I listened for the doorbell. Waited. Strained to hear. Nothing. Only silence. Defeated, convinced of my aloneness, I pulled myself off the floor and headed downstairs to work on the breakfast dishes.
Only a few minutes passed.
Then my cell phone rang.
I felt a surge of hope, anticipating Kate's or Robbie's name on the caller ID.
Neither. Instead, Christine.
Christine and I weren't really friends. At least, not anymore. At one time we'd been part of the same circles and spent regular time together. But for reasons I didn't understand, she'd fallen out of love with our friendship. With me. It'd been nearly a year since we'd last spoken or seen each other. I couldn't imagine why she'd be calling.
"Hello, this is Michele."
"Michele? Michele Cushatt?"
"Yes, it's me. Good to hear from you, Christine. How are you?" I tried not to sound disappointed.
"Oh." She hesitated. Sounding disappointed. "Actually, I was trying to call my friend Melissa. You're right next to her on my contact list. I must've hit your name by mistake."
Really, God? I need a friend, and this is all you can come up with?
"No problem." I moved to hang up.
She didn't. Instead, she threw a lifeline: "While I have you on the phone, do you mind if I pray for you?"
Silence hung thick between us. Pray? I fell to my knees.
"Yes. Yes, please. I'd love that."
I wish I had a transcript of that prayer, wish I could go back and savor each unsuspecting offering. Without knowing any of the events of the morning, Christine prayed for peace, for my heart and mind to be covered and secured by the presence of God, and that I would know, in no uncertain terms, God's overwhelming, incomparable love.
Within a minute, maybe less, we said our goodbyes so Christine could call the friend she'd meant to call all along. Again I hung up the phone to an empty house. But this time, instead of hearing taunts of fear, I heard the whisper of God: If I had sent anyone else, you would have called it a coincidence. I sent her, the one person you'd never expect, so you'd know it was me. I'm with you, Michele. I'm with you!
That's all it took. I didn't start skipping through the house or planting daisies. Didn't sing hymns or quote long passages of memorized Scripture. But I did close wet eyes and say, "Thank you."
The day cancer showed up in my life, God showed up bigger. He served up a portion of his presence, enough for one day. Enough to reassure me I'm not alone.
He did the same a hundred times over in the days that followed.
* * *
I show love with food offerings.
Nearly every morning, I make my family a hot breakfast. Biscuits and gravy. Omelets and muffins. Waffles with fruit. After school, I serve up gooey chocolate-chip cookies and tall glasses of cold milk to my boys. When Troy's had a tough week at work, I put together a gourmet dinner with enough courses to earn a college degree.
It's what I do when I don't know what to do. I cook.
That's why, in spite of the diagnosis and unknowns, I still wanted to host Thanksgiving dinner. I couldn't eat, couldn't keep any food down because of the fear hijacking my stomach. Still, I cooked with a feverish desperation.
Guests began to arrive around noon: Don and Rhonda, dear friends and former neighbors whose two daughters had grown up with our boys; Damian, a college kid and friend of my oldest who'd been joining us for holiday dinners as long as I could remember; Troy's mom, Dana, who drove two hours to eat turkey with her grandchildren. These dear souls were more family members than friends, and they joined my parents, husband, and three boys to complete our Thanksgiving celebration. Honestly, I couldn't imagine anyone else I'd rather spend such a day with.
Soon, every inch of my kitchen reflected warmth, nourishment, and love: Steaming side dishes and chilled salads. A basket of homemade rolls served alongside a full stick of real butter. Cherry-red Jell-O with enough marshmallows and calories to ruin a faithful Weight Watcher in one serving. Creamy mashed potatoes whipped with an embarrassing amount of butter and half-and-half. Cinnamon-laced sweet potatoes. The best apple-walnut stuffing known to mankind. Gorgeous deep-dish pies—a gooey pecan, two cream-topped pumpkins, and a thick dark chocolate.
And towering above these lesser dishes, assuming one entire section of my granite-surfaced kitchen island, sat the glory of our feast: a golden-brown, twenty-two-pound turkey.
Cancer wasn't good for my peace. But it inspired quite a feast.
For me, the kitchen table has always been the axis around which our family revolves. And the making of the food is how I keep our world spinning. There's something about feeding people that fills me with both peace and purpose. With my two hands, I create life-sustaining meals and serve them in generous, heaping portions to my family. And the satisfaction on their faces warms me from head to toe. In all the preparing and serving, I both love well and feel loved in return.
I prepare the plate; they eat it. And we both end up full.
I like to think God gets it. After all, he is the one who served up breakfast daily to his children. Manna from heaven. Sweet flakes falling from the sky.
Exodus 16 tells the story. For four hundred years, the Israelites had been slaves in Egypt, abused and mistreated by ruthless captors. So they cried and prayed, in fear and panic. And God showed up with a man called Moses to set them free. Overjoyed, they left Egypt behind in the hope of finding a Promised Land.
But they didn't expect to first endure a wilderness. The shine of the promise faded at the first pangs of hunger. Forgetting their rescue and the God who arranged it, they chose to whine in despair rather than revel in their freedom. How quickly one miracle is forgotten when another is wanted.
Even so, God promised to nourish: "I will rain down bread from heaven for you."
Dinner dropped from the sky. Manna.
One condition, God warned: Gather only enough for today. I'll provide more tomorrow.
But hunger drives desperate behavior. The Israelites didn't listen. Instead, they pulled out the Tupperware. And those who stockpiled enough for the week ended up with stinking, maggot-infested leftovers.
Though I wish it weren't true, I'm no different. One-day-at-a-time living is difficult for me. I prefer to plot and plan, save and stock up. I gather and hoard for my unexpected tomorrows as if the Promised Land hinges on me. On me. But in my wilderness, my stockpiles turn rotten and unfulfilling. What can a full pantry and bulging 401(k) do for the woman facing cancer?
I will rain down bread from heaven for you.
He whispers it to me, again and again. Provision. But provision delivered in portions. One serving at a time. One day at a time. No stockpiles or truckloads. Not enough to fill a pantry, but certainly enough to fill a plate.
Can you trust me? he asks.
I couldn't answer that question on Thanksgiving Day. With a single phone call two days before, infinite life turned finite. A PET scan and more doctors' appointments loomed, during which doctors would stage the cancer's progression and provide me with as close to a definitive prognosis as the medical community can. Until then, even as I whipped up potatoes and gravy, I hovered in horrific limbo. Life and death wrestled at alternate poles with me in the middle, curled up in the fetal position. I needed to know I'd beat this to again sit at the Thanksgiving table the next year. But no one could make that promise. No one could tell me, for certain, that it would all turn out okay.
So while my family and guests ate platefuls of turkey and stuffing, I sneaked off to my bedroom, where I curled up on my bed, alone, and cried.
I'm afraid! I don't want to die, don't want to miss out on life.
But as it turns out, I did exactly that. Like Israelites consumed with hunger pangs, I couldn't see beyond the ache of my circumstances. Downstairs, a dozen of my dearest family and friends filled my dining room, laughing and celebrating the gift of life. But rather than savor the day with gratitude, I wanted a stockpile of reassurance about tomorrow. In my fear of death, I almost missed life.
It was my husband who finally helped me back to the feast. Finding me closed in behind bedroom doors, he wrapped sure arms around me.
He didn't wait for an answer. Just held me close. Let me cry. Rubbed soft, tender circles on my back. Listened to my panicked questions without trying to fill the void with promises he couldn't make.
It was enough. Not for weeks and months to follow. But enough for that day. Enough to get me back to the table.CHAPTER 3
Jesus, say the word. I am the bleeding woman. The crippled woman. The Samaritan woman. The little girl. I need your touch and your healing. Extend my life ... I want to live! —JOURNAL ENTRY, November 29
I don't wait well.
I like answers, tangibles, plans. Not unknowns and waiting.
When I was eight and a half months pregnant with my youngest, Jacob, I was convinced I'd be pregnant until Jesus came in glory. Have mercy. At each weekly appointment, the doctor shook her head, both at my girth and the stubbornness of my unborn child. The baby wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. He seemed quite content eating at my internal buffet. So I heaved my enormous self home, where I whined and tried every birth-inducing remedy known to womankind, including three-mile waddles around the neighborhood and spicy food. As if.
In the end, it took a scheduled induction, gallons of IV pitocin, and almost twenty-four hours of horrible labor to drag my reluctant nine-pound, five-ounce man-child into his life.
The Monday after Thanksgiving, the PET imaging clinic called to schedule my scan. I'd been waiting for their call for days, hovering near the phone like a girl desperate for a date.
We'd done the biopsy, had a preliminary appointment and physical exam with the surgeon, Dr. Forrester, to discuss the process and options. But none of us yet knew the extent of the disease. The biopsied ulcer had been giving me fits off and on for two to three years, at least. When had it turned cancerous? Last week? Last month? Last year? Had cancer cells been slithering through my body all that time, sabotaging healthy cells without my knowing it? The PET scan would tell the truth, for better or worse. Once the results were in, my doctor would know what we were working with, "stage" it, and set a plan to tackle it. Until then, I fretted and paced.
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Table of Contents
Contents1. The Phone Call, 11,
PART 1 Life and Death,
2. Thanksgiving, 17,
3. Waiting, 25,
4. A Cancer Far Worse, 33,
5. Till Death Do Us Part, 43,
6. In Pursuit of Peace, 53,
7. New Year, New Fear, 63,
8. The Strength of Empty, 73,
9. Hammer Blows and Houses That Stand, 85,
10. Un-Mother's Day, 93,
11. The Ford and the Phone Call, 105,
PART 2 Death and Life,
12. Popsicles, the Park, and Jesus, 115,
13. Counting the Cost, 125,
14. Love in the Land of Limbo, 135,
15. La Vita è Bella, 147,
16. No Room, 159,
17. Attached, 171,
18. The Grace of a Rough Draft, 183,
19. Dying in the Deep, 193,
20. Lay It Down, 203,
21. Marker on My Walls, 215,
22. Until We're Home, 225,
Most Helpful Customer Reviews
An honest story about marriage, motherhood, and malignancy. Michele's narrative style is captivating, welcoming, and engaging. At times I felt as thought I were sitting across the table from her, or next to her. It isn't so much a story about cancer and struggles, as it is about God proving Himself present and loving during even the toughest of times. After reading through it once, I plan to re-read and try to absorb more of it. This is a highly recommended read.
Life is a journey in which the story of our life unfolds – a page at a time. Much like a good mystery, those very pages of our lives contain circumstances and events which are completely unexpected. No time is given to prepare, we just roll on through holding on hoping to survive it all. I recently had the joy of reading Michele Cushatt’s memoir, Undone: A Story of Making Peace With an Unexpected Life. Michele’s life is a complicated one which includes divorce, remarriage, the challenges of a blended family, and a cancer diagnosis. She honestly and transparently tells of days and experiences which will make you laugh, cry, and scratch your head. Through it all, in the midst of it all, she will always point you to Jesus. I never doubted I would enjoy this book. However, I was not prepared for how it would touch my heart and buoy my faith …. Pin-A A boat anchored to itself is not anchored at all. Shoring up your faith in the right place is far more important than simply claiming to have it. If I believe only in what I can see, manage, and control, sooner or later something will come along to rock my boat. When that happens, I’ll scream into the wind, “I’m going to drown!” Instead, I must secure my faith where it cannot be unmoored. Faith is choosing the anchor of your focus. It’s about turning your eyes away from the questions that lead to fear, and instead locking eyes with the one who knows the answers. (excerpt taken from pages 201-202) This book truly was my companion the last few weeks in my own unexpected journey. It came with me everywhere I went and at this point, I have read it several times through. During those moments when I thought I myself would come undone, I found Michele’s words infusing me with courage to continue on. This is a book for everyone, no matter where life may find you. Michele has written in the middle of her own mess. It therefore, speaks right into the middle of any mess breathing life back into that very mess. And it it right there, in the middle of it all, when we are undone, that we discover His Presence is with us – loving us, holding us, leading us. We may feel undone, but Jesus is never done with us. This book quickly touched my heart and became one of my favorite memoirs. This is a book in which the pages will become worn as I turn to its pages again and again. Trust me – it will quickly become a favorite of yours as well. AD-TWOI was given an advanced copy of this book to review in exchange for my honest opinion. It was a joy to read this book. An even greater joy to share about it with you all.
Open. Honest. Vulnerable. Raw emotion. Fear. Faith. Pain. Peace. Alone. His Presence. These characteristics and emotions are laid bare for all to see in Michele Cushatt’s book, “Undone.” Michele has opened her life–and that of her family–to share her journey through raising teenagers, adopting three “littles” as she calls her little children, all while going through the big “C.” Cancer. Cancer of the tongue. This for a woman whose career centers around speaking and teaching. She writes of normal days and happier times. She shares about panic-stricken, fearful days when she could only cry out, “Help me, God. Please help me.” In her journey, she learned many things about herself and about how God sees her. She tells of these lessons throughout the book: “In the relinquishing of independence, I discovered community. My brokenness gave me connection, relationship. I thought asking for help was an admission of weakness. Instead, I discovered it a declaration of independence.” “Our God is a refuge for the broken, not a shelf for the display of the shiny. No more pride for those who have it all together, or shame for those who don’t. Only stripped-bare humility, crowns on the ground. Together.” “I learned that faith in the middle of the unknowns is the only real kind. And peace can’t be found in the past or the future, but only in a Person, and in whom you believe him to be, today.” From the back of the book: “…that faith in the midst of the unknown is the only real kind of faith at all. It is her call for each of us to relinquish perfection and embrace what is. To lean in. Because right here, right now, in your own unfinished story with its missteps and misfortunes, there is peace. And there is Presence. Because sometimes life’s best stories are written right in the middle of the mess.” If you want to read a book that sugar coats life, this is not the book for you. But if you want to read about life “Undone,” and the faith that comes from that undone-ness, this is the book. It will change your life.
Unexpected Life When my plans go awry and the unexpected happens, all the cracks in my theology show up. I like to believe that if I do “A,” then “B” will happen, and I might just have some teensy control issues, so Michele Cushatt’s memoir, Undone: A Story of Making Peace with an Unexpected Life held me in its grip from start to finish. Michele’s cancer diagnosis could not have come at a worse time. Her three teenage sons required energy and attention and, on top of that, her career in public speaking was taking off — all good things! But how could she manage this in the aftermath of a surgical procedure on her tongue that would leave her speechless and in unrelenting pain? Through a vulnerable narrative of her circumstances, Michele reveals that “the day cancer showed up in my life, God showed up bigger.” In words, raw and relevant, she traces the lessons in “one day at a time living” that came with a second marriage and blended family. She addresses the futility of worrying, her frustration with the imperfection that accompanies mothering, and the miracle of providence — all the times that God showed up to prove His faithfulness and to demonstrate His love. “Just because something is hard doesn’t mean we’re not called to it; and just because it’s hard doesn’t mean it’s not good,” became a watch word for Michele as she lived the hard gift of mothering through cancer. Then, just as the Empty Nest (“The Promised Land!”) seemed to be within her grasp, the Cushatts added three special-needs preschoolers to their family. In spite of her best efforts, she could not make perfection happen in the midst of the upheaval of their PTSD and attachment disorders, and once again, her readers have a front row seat to witness the miracle of God’s grace at work in the circumstances of her life. Undone marches through the heaviness of some very intense days, but Michele brings her humor and creativity of expression into the telling so that grace gets the last word. The reader who battles perfectionism will find food for the soul in reading about Michele’s relinquishment of the day-to-day struggle to keep all the plates spinning in unison and about her acceptance of the “the holiness of a rough-draft life. . . Of trying and stumbling, but finding the grace to get up and try again.” This book was provided by Zondervan through Book Look Bloggers in exchange for my honest review
Truly inspirational! Michele is so open and honest about her struggle with faith during life's challenges. It seems easy to tell someone to just believe that God has a plan when you don't know how else to console a friend enduring pain, frustration and heartache. But how often do I question God's plan for my own life, especially for things that seem so trivial compared to the struggles that others face. Michele reminds us that we are not alone in our questioning...and God is not surprised or angry by it. I have purchased this book 4 times already because I keep giving copies away to people who I know will be blessed by this beautiful memoir.
You won't be able to put this book down! Michele's honesty as she shares the journey of her unexpected life will both inspire and encourage you. This beautifully written book is a MUST read!
Allow me to open this review with a statement I rarely use: If I had the means to do so, I would buy this book by the CASE to give to as many people as possible. The message of Michele's book is so universal, profound and desperately needed by people--especially Christian people. We all long to 'get it right'. But life tends to happen without consulting our plans, dreams and even abilities. I know very few people who have never met an "Undone" moment at some point in their lives. In fact, I must correct that to read, I don't know ANYONE. Sometimes those moments are life-altering, like Michele's battle with cancer (which is still ongoing, so please pray for this lovely woman of God). Other times the moment when we come "Undone" is the moment our marriage unravels, our child rebels, our income is lost, or a beloved person leaves this life unexpectedly. I myself can point to several "Undone" moments. The beauty of those moments is simply this: if we don't waste them, those moments can change us, renew our perspective, and make us into the person we truly long to become. "Undone" matures our faith, and we need that maturation. Yes, life is hard, God is good, and we are imperfect people loving and serving a perfect Savior. All of those things tend to drive us to unrealistic expectations and create a false drive toward the unachievable goal to be right, solid, perfect. What we need to be is easily molded, purified, and continually set apart for His will. Michele writes with gut wrenching honesty, and a transparency that gloriously reveals Jesus in her life. In the midst of her already challenging life, even more of the unexpected occurs, resulting in another moment of being "Undone". This book is deep, real, profound, and honest. My thanks to my friends at Zondervan for allowing me the opportunity to take part in the "Undone" book launch, and for a complimentary copy. I personally plan on purchasing as many copies as I can to give out to friends and family. "Undone" is a must-not-miss read, and is one of the best memoirs I've ever had the privilege of reading. If you knew how much I read, you'd know that is a really huge statement! And "Undone" is a book that will be permanently placed in my 'library of influence", to be read over and over again. Please, do NOT miss out on "Undone" or meeting Michele through her writing. And keep tissues near by. Keep Michele and her family in prayer as she continues her battle with cancer an influencing lives for Christ.