After (After Series #1)

After (After Series #1)

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by Anna Todd
     
 

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Book 1 of the After series—newly revised and expanded, Anna Todd's After fanfiction racked up one billion reads online and captivated readers across the globe. Experience the internet's most talked-about book for yourself from the writer Cosmopolitan called “the biggest literary phenomenon of her generation.”

There was the time before

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Book 1 of the After series—newly revised and expanded, Anna Todd's After fanfiction racked up one billion reads online and captivated readers across the globe. Experience the internet's most talked-about book for yourself from the writer Cosmopolitan called “the biggest literary phenomenon of her generation.”

There was the time before Tessa met Hardin, and then there’s everything AFTER... Life will never be the same. #Hessa

Tessa is a good girl with a sweet, reliable boyfriend back home. She’s got direction, ambition, and a mother who’s intent on keeping her that way.

But she’s barely moved into her freshman dorm when she runs into Hardin. With his tousled brown hair, cocky British accent, tattoos and lip ring, Hardin is cute and different from what she's used to.

But he's also rude—to the point of cruelty, even. For all his attitude, Tessa should hate Hardin. And she does—until she finds herself alone with him in his room. Something about his dark mood grabs her, and when they kiss it ignites within her a passion she’s never known before.

He'll call her beautiful, then insist he isn't the one for her and disappear again and again. Despite the reckless way he treats her, Tessa is compelled to dig deeper and find the real Hardin beneath all his lies. He pushes her away again and again, yet every time she pushes back, he only pulls her in deeper.

Tessa already has the perfect boyfriend. So why is she trying so hard to overcome her own hurt pride and Hardin's prejudice about nice girls like her?

Unless...could this be love?

Editorial Reviews

Fangirlish
Anna Todd manages to make you scream, cry, laugh, fall in love, and sit in the fetal position... Whether you have read the Wattpad version or not, After is a can't miss book – but get ready to feel emotions that you weren't sure that a book could bring out of you.
Vilma's Book Blog
The one thing you can count on is to expect the unexpected.
Biblio Belles
Be prepared to have an emotional explosion!

Product Details

ISBN-13:
9781476792484
Publisher:
Gallery Books
Publication date:
10/21/2014
Series:
After Series, #1
Pages:
592
Sales rank:
39,125
Product dimensions:
8.20(w) x 5.30(h) x 1.60(d)
Lexile:
HL750L (what's this?)

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After


  • My alarm is set to go off any minute. I’ve been awake for half the night, shifting back and forth, counting the lines between the ceiling tiles and repeating the course schedule in my head. Others may count sheep; I plan. My mind doesn’t allow a break from planning, and today, the most important day in my entire eighteen years of life, is no exception.

    “Tessa!” I hear my mother’s voice call from downstairs. Groaning to myself, I roll out of my tiny bed. I take my time tucking the corners of my bedsheet against the headboard, because this is the last morning that this will be a part of my regular routine. After today, this bedroom is no longer my home.

    “Tessa!” she calls again.

    “I’m up!” I yell back. The noise of the cabinets opening and slamming closed downstairs makes it known that she is feeling just as panicked as I am. My stomach is tied in a tight knot, and as I start my shower I pray that the anxiety I feel will lessen as the day goes on. All of my life has been a series of tasks in preparation for this day, my first day of college.

    I spent the last few years nervously anticipating this. I spent my weekends studying and preparing for this as my peers were hanging out, drinking, and doing whatever else it is teenagers do to get themselves in trouble. That wasn’t me. I was the girl who spent her nights studying cross-legged on the living room floor with my mother while she gossiped and watched hours of QVC to find new ways to improve her appearance.

    The day my acceptance letter to Washington Central University came I couldn’t have been more thrilled—and my mother cried for what felt like hours. I can’t deny that I was proud that all my hard work had finally paid off. I got into the only college I applied for and, because of our low income, I have enough grants to keep my student loans to a minimum. I had once, for just a moment, considered leaving Washington for college. But seeing all the color drain from my mother’s face at the suggestion, and the way she paced around the living room for nearly an hour, I told her I really hadn’t been serious about that.

    The moment I step into the spray of shower water some of the tension leaves my strained muscles. I’m standing here, under the hot water, trying to calm my mind, but really doing the opposite, and I get so distracted that by the time I finally wash my hair and body, I barely have enough hot water to run a razor over my legs from the knees down.

    As I wrap the towel around my wet body, my mother calls my name yet again. Knowing that it’s her nerves getting the best of her, I give her some leeway but take the time to blow-dry my hair. I know that she’s anxious for my arrival day at college, but I have had this day planned down to the hour for months. Only one of us can be a nervous wreck, and I need to do what I can to make sure it’s not me by following my plan.

    My hands shake as I fumble with the zipper on my dress. I don’t care for the thing, but my mother insisted that I wear it. I finally win the battle with the zipper, and pull my favorite sweater from the back of my closet door. As soon as I’m dressed, I feel slightly less nervous, until I notice a small tear on the sleeve of my sweater. I toss it back onto my bed and slip my shoes onto my feet, knowing that my mother is growing more impatient with every second that passes.

    My boyfriend, Noah, will be here soon to ride up with us. He’s a year younger than me but will turn eighteen soon. He’s brilliant and has straight A’s just like I did, and—I’m so excited—he’s planning on joining me at WCU next year. I really wish he was coming now, especially considering that I won’t know a single person at college, but I’m thankful that he’s promised to visit as often as possible. I just need a decent roommate; that’s the only thing I’m asking for and the only thing I can’t control with my planning.

    “Ther-e-saaaa!”

    “Mother, I am coming down now. Please do not scream my name again!” I yell as I walk down the stairs. Noah is sitting at the table across from my mother, staring down at the watch on his wrist. The blue of his polo shirt matches the light blue of his eyes, and his blond hair is combed and lightly gelled to perfection.

    “Hey, college girl.” He smiles a bright, perfectly lined smile as he stands. He pulls me into a tight hug and I close my mouth when I catch his excessive cologne. Yeah, sometimes he overdoes it a bit with that.

    “Hey.” I give him an equally bright smile, trying to hide my nerves, and pull my dirty blond hair into a ponytail.

    “Honey, we can wait a couple minutes while you fix your hair,” my mother says quietly.

    I make my way to the mirror and nod; she’s right. My hair needs to be presentable for today, and of course she didn’t hesitate to remind me. I should have curled it the way she likes anyhow, as a little goodbye gift.

    “I’ll put your bags in the car,” Noah offers, opening his palm for my mother to drop the keys into. With a quick kiss on my cheek he disappears from the room, bags in hand, and my mother follows him.

    Round two of styling my hair ends with a better result than the first, and I brush a lint roller over my gray dress one last time.

    As I go outside and walk to the car packed up with my things, the butterflies in my stomach dance around, making me slightly relieved that I have a two-hour drive to make them disappear.

    I have no idea what college will be like, and, unexpectedly, the question that keeps dominating my thoughts is: Will I make any friends?

  • Meet the Author

    Anna Todd is a writer spending her days in Austin, Texas, with her husband. She has always been an avid reader and boy band and romance lover, so now that she’s found a way to combine the three she’s enjoying living a real-life dream come true. She now knows what life is like when you get to do what you love. She also has a thing for things that begin with T's: Tom Hanks, TOMS, Target...

    Find her at AnnaToddBooks.com, on Twitter at @imaginator1dx, on Instagram at @imaginator1d, and on Wattpad as Imaginator1D.

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    After 3.3 out of 5 based on 2 ratings. 263 reviews.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I am desperately trying to use the word books loosely, because not only is After terribly written, but there’s zero characterization, limited plot, and tons of cliches. I would be fine with this fan fiction existing, despite my disliking towards it, if the writer (I’m using this term loosely as well, for I aspire to become a writer one day and I definitely do not aspire to become Anna Todd, nor have her “talents”) wasn’t receiving a six figure paycheck and selling the book rights for it to become a movie. I would also be fine with this fan fiction remaining on the internet, where every teenage girl can see it, for the damage has already been done for them, considering the majority of the readers are between the ages of 12 and 18, but it’s not going to be. After is going to be brought into the public eye, reeking of the influence that domestic abuse is okay. It’s okay so long as he’s attractive and a few years older. It’s okay that he knows you’re vulnerable because you have no sexual experience besides him and you’re a freshman in college, far away from home with every friend of yours also being friends or relatives of his. You’re so vulnerable and your life is now built around him; your internship, your friends, your relationships, your living situation, your closest friend since childhood that’s relationship is now tarnished because of him. It’s okay because he’s cute and characterized after Harry Styles. Not only does After teach that domestic abuse, or any type of abuse, is cute and lovey dovey, and that your boyfriend or significant other constantly keeping tabs on you is okay, so that teenage girls who have that as an influence now believe so as well, but it’s going to further tarnish the career of an innocent celebrity. The entire relationship between the two main characters was based off of a humiliating, violating *Spoiler so I won't say*. What also wasn’t cool was that Tessa, the female protagonist, stayed with Harry, who should be the antagonist, yet is also portrayed as a protagonist. Nevertheless, Tessa continuously stays with Harry. She stays with Harry through terrible, terrible situations, and going on about it is sickening. I sincerely regret ever reading After, for at times it’s given me the assumption that rape and abuse is “hot” and “such a turn on,” that domestic abuse is something I’d like to read about, and not as sickening as it should be portrayed. And yes, that could be considered my own fault, because despite the lack of warnings written on the book (even though I probably wouldn’t have acknowledged them, anyway), it was posted to the internet freely and Anna Todd has the right to post it wherever she’d like. After is disgusting and foul and there is nothing necessarily wrong with reading it as fan fiction harmlessly made for the internet and the internet only. Supporting After published as a book and filmed as a movie would not only be harmful for young teenage girls with minds that soak up information like a sponge and consider every influence that’s presented to them, but towards a young celebrity who’s done absolutely nothing wrong.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Info dumps make this piece difficult to read, particularly when followed by writing with no worthwhile detail.  (Abysmal) sexual scenes galore at the expense of any sort of plot. Save yourself the $10 and simply read it for free when you Google 'After on Wattpad.' Why pay to read about an abusive relationship based on a boyband member when you can simply torture yourself for free? P.S. Any form of plot the editor was able to salvage was taken from 50 Shades of Grey (a worrying amount, really), so if you have that laying around the house, you already have this 'book'.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Glorifies abusive relationships and rape. Disgusting.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    I am sickened and frustrated with how little knowledge the author has about abuse. Her fanbase calls it "unconditional love", when really the main character (Tessa) is blindly in love with the man who keeps making her cry. Yes, couples make mistakes- but when the whole trilogy is about them fighting and crying? It seems like these two are horrible for each other! Tessa is in love with Hardin, which i honestly don't give a s*** about! If he keeps making you cry, then he isn't worth your love, you need to leave the relationship! F*** all this "unconditional love" bulls***! The fact that there is '#Hessa" on the back of the book just screams the author is blindly encouraging this kind of relationship. Oh, how distressing it is to see prepubescent girls clamouring over how they want a relationship like like Tessa and Hardin! Thinking it's 'unconditional love', but really- glamorized and over exaggerated abuse! Not to mention, this book is a poorly constructed, horribly written mess. All three books are immature dialogues about the main character's sex lives, problems, and things completely irrelevant to the stony. The story abruptly ends happily- when only chapters ago they were arguing about f***ing sex! I am offended that this sparkly- pink diary mess is being published! "Writers are liars..." -Neil Gaiman, never believe what you read. "Hessa" isn't a love story, or a realistic relationship. In real-life, Tessa would've left Hardin the minute he opened his mouth! The fact that the authors motto is "Romance is out, realism is in." makes me sickened! YES, THIS STORY DEALS WITH REALISTIC PROBLEMS (WE GET IT). BUT NOT IN A REALISTIC WAY!  
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Sorry, I don't support a story that glorifies abuse and rape.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    DISGUSTING BOOK
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    i feel sorry for the trees that were cut down so they could print this god forsaken monstrosity of a story. abuse is abuse. REAL LIFE abusers do not change their ways. i can't believe she had the gall to romanticize abuse. EXCUSE ME!! if you love a person you RESPECT THEM; NEVER EVER hurt them physically, emotionally or mentally; and you SUPPORT them through everything. everything that the male lead has done (i will not acknowledge that the lead was characterized after Harry Styles) was abuse her, manipulate her, and had no respect what so ever. such relationships are toxic and unhealthy. the fact that the majority of her fan and reader base are young and impressionable makes me so angry!! imagine 13 year old girls believing that it is alright for her partner to abuse her the way the male lead had in that book and think that her love or what ever can change him, makes my skin crawl. in REAL LIFE these things do not happen!! what happens you think after getting hit too much in the head? or pushed around so hard? or fall down the stairs too many times? or maybe being isolated for so long you forget how to interact with other people? or being degraded so much that you think so lowly of yourself? how much is too much when they finally realize that the one they think they love don't actually love them at all? when they're in the hospital too many times? or maybe when they're on the brink of death? this is what that "book" is saying. that its alright to be in a abuse relationship. and i for one will never let any of the younger impressionable cousins read this book. and i ask for you to do the same
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    THIS BOOK PROMOTES RAPE CULTURE! I DONT RECOMMEND IT! 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    THIS BOOK GLORIFIES ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS. IT'S DISGUSTING! 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    With the hype surrounding this, I expected a story of higher quality. I was left disappointed by Todd's lack of imagination (ironic, considering her username, juvenile as it is) and inability to form any memorable quotes that don't include the words 'dimples', 'love' or 'pathetic'. It comes as no surprise that quotes worth any kind of mention come from classics, like Pride and Prejudice and Wuthering Heights (I have my doubts that this woman has read the books and simply went on SparkNotes, but I digress). Tessa is a virginal freshman (and who didn't see that coming?) with a sweet, loving boyfriend (whom is forgotten by her throughout the book) who meets a punk called Hardin, who is rude (very original) and covered in piercings and tattoos (we also learn that the protagonist of this story is a judgmental so-and-so). Long story short, they fight every second chapter and copulate on every available surface. Todd refuses to acknowledge the wrongdoings of her characters, providing excuses that bring her little fan girls to tears; Tessa cheats on her boyfriend? She had a rough relationship with her mother. Hardin burns down a house? He had a rough past.  These scenes will make you both weep for the future of character development, and tilt your head in confusion as you wonder how a thirty year old could be so dense. Despite the size, there is a shocking lack of detail (unless, of course, we're talking about how Tessa pulls up the zip on her dress; plenty of detail to be found there).  For effort on the editor's part, I would have given this two stars, had I not felt personally insulted by the cover on this $10 that ripped midway through chapter four. This is now hiding in the depths of my bookshelf, never to be seen again.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Just a cliche love story, but also a ripoff of 50 Shades of Grey. It romanticizes and glamorizes abusive relationships, which I find sick and disgusting. And most of the positive reviews are by prepubescent teenage girls who have no idea what real literature is and are brainwashed to the idea that abusive relationships are supposed to be desired. Abuse comes in different forms, and the main protagonist is mentally and emotionally abused, yet she keeps running back to him. It's not love, it's lust. The whole relationship isn't based on love at all, it's all lust. I actually feel so sorry for the people who have seen abuse in their lives, and now they're forced to see that become entertainment to people. How sick and disgusting.  This doesn't deserve the recognition at all, it only got popular because Harry Styles is the main character, of course that will draw dozens of little girls. It's really pathetic how much was stolen from 50 Shades of Grey, almost to the point there was no plot and that was her only choice, was to steal from 50 Shades of Grey. This 'book' portrays abusive relationships unrealistically, and makes them seem desirable, when they are nowhere near supposed to be desired. The audience for this 'book' ranges from 12-18. Yes, 12 year olds are reading about glamorized abusive relationships and sex. What a great message to send! But this was so awfully written that I couldn't get through half of it, until I shut it and returned it within the same day. I don't understand how a 'book' like this can be praised when it's so horribly written and sends such a horrible message to these young girls. And most of the positive reviews are from these prepubescent girls who have no concept of what real literature is. This is far from literature, I wouldn't even call After a piece of literature, it's that awful. It insults the authors with actual talent, like J.K Rowling. Anna Todd can't write at all, and that's the truth. Anyway, the positive comments sicken me, as it's obvious they are all by teenage girls who have their heads so far up Todd's butt they can't see the awful message After is sending to them. The negative reviews are actually telling the truth, don't listen to the positive reviews. The negative reviews are by people with actual sane minds, and how awful it is so promote a topic like abuse through a story and make it seem entertaining. Save your money and brain, don't read this atrocity of so-called 'literature'. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Words can't describe how horrible this book is. It glorifies abusive relationships, rape and sexism. These poor young girls are brainwashed. They think it's okay to stay with your abuser. Such a bad message to send to readers.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    If I could give this "book" a zero I would. Anna Todd glamorizes abusive relationships, promotes misogyny and anti-feminism. Most of her audience are young girls who think that abusive relationships are okay. This is such a negative message to send to young readers.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Personally I'm appauled that people are considering this the literary phonemon of our generation! It is nothing more then a walmart version of Fifty Shades Of Abuse, and has more plagerism then I care to comment on. I don't think this is a good book for teenage girls to read and as an concerned elder I've decided to contact my local schools and bookstores and stress that they shouldn't allow young girls to have ownership of this horrible piece of writing. I'm insulted the publishing company even considered this and I know twelve year olds who can write better. There's to little dialogue and to much wording. The only thing somewhat good is the grammar. What else pisses me off is that some of the reviewers down there are obviously uneducated about abuse and rude to call the reviewers complaining stupid young girls who know nothing. Yes "avid adult reader" I'm talking to you. I could go on and on all day about how problematic this story is but I chose not to waste my precious time.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Just a teeny-bopper 50 Shades of Grey, but much worse. This doesn't deserve the recognition it is getting, and I'm appalled at the adults on here who claim to be 'avid readers' but give this a good review. You cannot simply be an avid reader and call this good writing, when its just glamorized abusive relationships, and it's sick that the audience, which is ranging from 13-18 find these types of relationships desirable and romantic now, when they are not. It's constant abuse, emotional and mental. When reading it I wanted to burn it, from how horribly it still was written. The editor clearly gave up in many areas, and I can see why. Anna's writing is beyond awful, and it only managed to get so many hits because it's a Harry Styles fanfiction on this website called Wattpad. I can't believe such awful writing like this is praised, an English teacher would have a heart attack, if they read this atrocity. So much was stolen from 50 Shades of Grey, that that's where most of the plot was salvaged from. How original. Save your eyes and time, don't buy. I beg of you. Read it for free on Wattpad.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Unbelievably awful. An endless cycle of cliche. Break up, make up, sex. Make up, break up, sex. Break up, break up, sex. Sex, make up, sex.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is disgusting. It promotes violent relationships and sends a terrible message to people, especially young girls, who will read it. It tells them that being in an abusive relationship is ok, and it's not. Do NOT buy this book. It has a horrible message and it's absolutely disgusting. 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    It’s absolutely ridiculous that After was even published in the first place. After is NOT a love story. The story supports abuse and romanticizes abusive relationships. If anything Anna’s story does not deal with real problems. It is glorifying abuse. Anna states several times that she has written a love story with real problems when it is promoting the following messages: “You should go back to someone that says they love you” "Friends trying to get you out of an abusive relationship are wrong." "Waiting for marriage to have sex is wrong." “Cheating is fine” “Girls with model like bodies aren’t beautiful” "The best way to solve your problems is to drink and have sex." “It’s perfectly fine to beat up your girlfriends friends” “Disrespecting your parents is okay” “It’s okay to push your partner" There are also lines of plagiarism that she has claimed are hers from various books, two of those lines are: “Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.” – Wuthering Heights “I never wish to be parted with you from this day on.” – Pride & Prejudice 'Hessa’ is not a healthy relationship either. Anna’s audience is a range of ages, some readers only being 13 years old. Those readers could be negatively influenced if they do not realize how bad the relationship between Tessa and ‘Hardin’ is. Her television advertisements say that After is for the youth, when it is clearly for ages 18+ because of the sexual content and all the abuse Hardin has done. If you have to ask your parent's for it, you're too young. After contains the most toxic relationship between two people. After started out as a H.S. fan-fiction on WattPad (Where it should remain a fan-fiction). Even though Anna has changed the names, the boys will still be linked to the story giving then all a bad image. The book is portraying them all as men that only care about drinking and sex. H.S.’s family is also being portrayed in a negative way, how would he feel if he read what Anna has written? “After is about forgiveness and unconditional love.” ”It proves a person can really change.” “Anything is possible when it comes to self-recovery.” All of that is wrong. Nobody just changes over night, especially abusers. Not everybody can just recover from something they’ve been doing for months or even years of continuously doing. If there is a petition for a story to be suspended, then it must be a pretty bad book, In which case After is. After should’ve never been published. The book is going to bomb, if not the movie will. If you're going to read this book, read the original FREE version. (This has all just been my opinion, you have the right to disagree.)
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book is just a cheap version of 50 Shades of Grey 
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    If you like this book, read the original! 
    dsneylou More than 1 year ago
    I don't see why people continuously give this book 5 stars when it isn't deserving of such a title, but I suppose it's up to me to give unsuspecting people a real glimpse into this fanfiction-turned-novel. Okay, first of all, Anna Todd is simply not that great of a writer. If you look online at her Wattpad (where you can find After for FREE) and actually read it, you'll see that it's poorly executed. Her grammar is terrible, sentence structure/wording awkward, and it's a bit painful to read. That's not the real issue, though. The main problem people have with this book is that it glorifies abusive relationships and rape. In the book, Hardin controls Tessa and dictates just about every aspect of her life, ranging from calling up a possible landlord to ruin her chances of getting an apartment away from him and forbidding her from seeing friends. Fans of Anna Todd argue that this is not abuse, but it is indeed EMOTIONAL/MENTAL abuse. He doesn't hit her, but that doesn't mean it isn't emotional. And although I haven't read After entirely (couldn't even get past the first chapter; it was THAT bad), I've also heard that there are rape scenes as well? Or at least one where either Hardin or Tessa is drunk and coerced into sex? Yeah, that's rape, people, no matter how you spin it. What kind of message is this sending to young girls who will go on to believe abusive, controlling men make the perfect boyfriends? Or that someone can force them into sex because they were drunk? How is any of this okay? So, you know, I refuse to support this "book" (if you can call it that) or Anna Todd, and 19,000 people (and counting) have signed a petition that shows there are countless others who agree. If you're considering buying the book, please don't. It'll only encourage Anna Todd to continue developing her fics into books or even push her to continue on with the movie, both of which are very, very bad. Since she fails to realize that she has written a toxic series and does not apologize about anything in the least bit, don't support her. Do not support a book that glorifies abusive relationships and rape. Do not let her win. (And if you're really interested in reading it, you can find it for free on her Wattpad or by a simple google search of "After fancition.")
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    Wish I could give it a 0. This book is literally promoting abusive relationships, rape, sexism, and the fact that abuse is okay as long as it's out of love. Awful. Just awful. Would never let any of my children or family members read it. Should be taken off the shelves.
    rianawalenty More than 1 year ago
    trash
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    As a prepubescent fan of One Direction, I started reading this story when I was 12 or so. I read all three of the books, and loved them immensely. I found aspects of the relationship 'hot' and I would continually gush to my friends about how I wanted a relationship like Tessa and Harry's (or Hardin, as he seems to be renamed as). And then I got a reality check. This book romanticizes emotional abuse in every way possible. Tessa gave up her entire life for Hardin, and he threw her in the dust multiple times. He was controlling, overprotective, rude, and did many things that are simply unforgivable. And yet Tessa goes back to him consistently, forgives him for every damn thing he does, and everyone seems to be okay with it. Newsflash, it's not okay. Let me give you some perspective: imagine that you are an innocent college freshman. You meet a rude, cocky, tattooed boy who you can't seem to get out of your head. You eventually develop a romantic relationship. He controls who you are friends with, he walks all over you, he disrespects you in every way possible. He makes you feel incompetent and forces you to move into an apartment with him. You break up with your boyfriend, who you've been dating for years upon years, for this guy you've known for less than 3 months. You completely throw away your relationship with your mother, who has raised you and who is the only relative you know of, all because she doesn't like your new boyfriend. And then you find out that you threw your entire life away for something that started out as a bet to this guy. He claims that he loves you and that it wasn't just the bet, and though you stay away for a few weeks, you eventually go back to him. He continues to control your life, even going so far as to make sure you don't get an apartment in Seattle so you won't leave him. He gets crazily jealous whenever you so much as interact with someone of the opposite gender, and forbids you from seeing them or being friends with them. You fight every other chapter, and then have make up sex and leave your problems to deal with later. Except you never actually deal with them, just get drunk and have more sex. Does that sound like a happy, healthy relationship to you? Because it's not. It is abusive and controlling, and not okay in any way, shape or form. And yet this book normalizes it, romanticizes it, makes girls think that it's completely normal and okay, even cute. You say that this book is about real life topics, about loving someone unconditionally. Yes, this book addresses real life topics, but it doesn't deal with them in the proper way. If Tessa had left Hardin and not gone back to him, if they had both gone to therapy and gotten help and overcome being abused and abusing, it might have been okay. Yeah, I realize that Tessa leaves Hardin for a little bit at the end and sort of builds a separate life, but then she goes back to him, when he hasn't really even changed, and they decide to get married. That's not a happy ever after, that is "hey I'm making progress! Good for me! Let's tear it all down and start at the beginning again and be bound to life to someone who has emotionally abused me and will continue to do so because I can't gather up the courage to leave him!" That is going to embed itself in the minds of young girls, and they're going to think it's okay, when it's not. I had my reality check, I realized that this book is ridiculous and romanticizing topics that should not be romanticized. But some girls won't. They will go on thinking this type of relationship is okay. And that is the issue I have with this book, and that is why this book should not be put into the public eye.
    Anonymous More than 1 year ago
    This book promotes abuse and rape and is absolutely disgusting. The fact that something like this is allowed to be published is beyond me. The writing is horrible as well. I could give my laptop to a monkey and it could write something better than this crap. She may have changed Harry Style's name on the published version of the book, but anyone interested in this book could easily look it up on watt pad and find who its about. It makes Harry look like something he's not and out of all the fan fictions in this fandom that could've been published, this one is the worst.