Before I Knew

Before I Knew

by Jamie Beck


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ISBN-13: 9781477824443
Publisher: Amazon Publishing
Publication date: 08/22/2017
Series: Cabots Series , #1
Pages: 339
Sales rank: 573,483
Product dimensions: 5.40(w) x 8.20(h) x 1.00(d)

About the Author

Jamie Beck is a former attorney with a passion for inventing realistic and heartwarming stories about love and redemption, including her bestselling St. James and Sterling Canyon series. The Romance Writers of America Honor Roll author has seen her work translated into multiple languages. In addition to writing novels, she enjoys dancing around the kitchen while cooking, and hitting the slopes in Vermont and Utah. Above all, she is a grateful wife and mother to a very patient, supportive family. Learn more about her at, where fans may also sign up for updates on new releases and giveaways, and interact with her on Facebook at

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Before I Knew 4.2 out of 5 based on 0 ratings. 14 reviews.
TheBookBag More than 1 year ago
I enjoyed this book immensely and I was immediately swept up in the lives of Colby and Alec. They both have a lot of baggage and secrets that impede both their working relationship and their friendship. I was never sure how everything was going to turn out. This is a story with some great characters and the author writes the story in a way that kept me interested in their lives. This is only book #1 in this wonderful series and I'm really going to have to read more so I can find out how everyone is doing.
DaneWeimMama More than 1 year ago
Before I Knew was a very emotional read. I think the author did a fantastic job of writing about mental illness & how it affects so many- not just the one with the disease. For me personally it was a very depressing read- reading is my escape from life & this was was not an escape. That being said Before I Knew is very well written. I voluntarily reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book.
KrittersRamblings More than 1 year ago
Check out the full review at Kritters Ramblings Colby Cabot-Baxter has had a trying few years and she is making some personal changes to hopefully turn her life in a new direction and change. She is opening a restaurant and with that she needs a chef and in walks someone from her past and is a part of those trying years and the past will return, but hopefully there is a future. What a great book! The reader is easily told the events of the past, but the story doesn't sit there long and quickly and easily moves into the future and I loved that. I loved how the author gave us all the details, but it didn't slow down the pace of the story.
BeckyRendon More than 1 year ago
Talk about a struggle, grief and guilt weigh down more than one of the characters in this book. Trying to rebuild their lives based on half truths and never opening up... I can't imagine the agony and defeat. But what a love story! Silver linings and all that good stuff. Before I Knew is a second chance at everything. Life, living, and love were are defunct until he stepped back into her life.
EileenAW More than 1 year ago
I loved, loved, loved Before I Knew by the amazing Jamie Beck, book one in her new Cabots series. Ms. Beck truly knows how to create a wonderful story between two people with secrets and feelings of guilt. Colby Cabot knew the Morgans, next door, all of her life. So when her brother asked her to give their friend Alex a job as head chef for her new restaurant, she knew she had no choice. As the sparks fly, Colby and Alex need to share their secrets, with each other, before they the love between them can grow. I have to share my favorite quote from this story; “And some wise women have convinced me that it’s never too late for love.” This really sums up this awesome story with all of its twists and turns, before allowing many of its characters to find peace with the life they were dealt. I really loved reading this book and had trouble putting this book down. Ms. Beck is a wonderful story teller, drawing me in and not letting go until I read the last page. I highly recommend this book to other readers and can’t wait to read the next book in this series. I voluntarily reviewed a complimentary copy of this book.
Danii_045 More than 1 year ago
Before I Knew (Cabot #1) Jamie Beck My Book Review: ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ Jamie Beck is one of my favourite authors, and I'm always excited when she brings out a new book. Before I knew is the start of a new series, The Cabots. Books dealing with grief are not my favourite, especially when it is one of the main themes in a story. However, with this said I still enjoyed this book. It has a lot going on, and the story was really interesting. Colby Cabot-Baxter lost her husband 2 years ago and has never recovered. It's not because he was the love of her life, or she can't imagine life without him. She can't get over the circumstances surrounding his death. Growing up she has always been close with the boys next door, Joe and Alec. Her husband and Joe were involved in an incident that leads to both of their deaths. Joe accidentally kills himself taking part in a stupid dare, and Mark, her husband committed suicide as an after effect. Colby's relationship with Alec became non-existent, and they both lost everything. 2 years later they are both ready to try, and fix their life's and families. Colby starts a restaurant, and her brother hires Alec as the head chef. They need to work together to save them both. 4 stars out of 5. *ARC received in exchange for a fair review* I've read all of Jamie Becks books, and I'm a huge fan. Her writing style sucks me in, and I can't wait to see what she comes up with next.
KindleKat64 More than 1 year ago
I really liked this first book in this new series by Jamie Beck. It's sort of a second chance romance, even though Colby and Alec were never actually a couple. They have known each other forever and their lives have been intertwined through family, friendship and tragedy. They have a lot of history and secrets working against them, but will these two be able to grab hold of what they find with each other and effectively let go of the past?? The real life issues infused into this story to make it so compelling are key to our main characters back stories, their reactions to their present lives and even secondary characters reactions. The Issues are some that face so many people every day; mental illness, abuse, and grief. It was such a wonderfully written story and I look forward to more from the Cabot family.
gromine49 More than 1 year ago
This story is simply amazing! The reader gets involved in the story right from the beginning and you do not want to put it down. It is about second chances and being honest with others. I will say it again, simply amazing.
PegGlover More than 1 year ago
Before I Knew, is an amazing story about, starting over, second chances and honesty. I was immediately caught up in the story’s plot and drawn into Alec and Colby’s lives. This is the third novel that I have read by Jamie Beck, and I loved it. It’s compelling, well-written and emotionally raw. I didn’t want to put it down. Alec Morgan has loved Colby Cabot-Baxter since childhood. His brother, Joe, the athletic one, however, was the brother who won Colby’s friendship. The Morgan’s and the Cabot family have been friends for years, but that all changed, when Joe died. Joe had acted on a foolish dare, which ended his life; Mark Baxter’s dare. Alec’s family blamed Colby’s husband, Mark Baxter, but Alec knew it wasn’t entirely Mark’s fault. Not by a long shot. Three months after Joe’s death, Mark committed suicide. Both Colby and Alec were riddled with guilt. They both were hiding secrets and lies of omission. Colby had never told her family and friends about Mark’s secret. If she had, would Mark still be alive? Possibly. Secrets of omission can be just as damaging as outright lies. Alec wanted to come clean with Colby, but he just couldn’t spit the words out. He has loved Colby for forever, and now that he had her in his arms he didn’t want to crush his chance of making her, his. Alec just knew that their relationship would end if Colby discovered what he was hiding. But, secrets and lies of omission have a way of unearthing themselves, and the fall-out is never pretty. Can Colby and Alec’s relationship survive, when the inevitable happens? Before I knew, is a brilliant beginning to The Cabots Series. I’m looking forward to reading more by this talented author. Thank you, Montlake Romance and NetGalley, for my advanced review copy. I loved it!
Chris721 More than 1 year ago
Colby and Alec were family friends years ago until tragedy tore them apart. Alec blames Colby's dead husband for the death of his brother. Colby and Alec both have to move past the sorrows of their lost loved ones and claim a new future. I really enjoyed this book and am looking forward to others in this series. Thank you to NetGalley and Montlake Romance for an ARC in return for an honest review.
Bette313 More than 1 year ago
What a fantastic first book in a brand new series. It's highly emotional and deals with issues that arise a horrible tragedy strikes. Colby Cabot Baxter and Alec Morgan's lives were both changed by the tragedy but now they are both looking for fresh starts. Their journey to happiness is painful and emotional and the past needs to be dealt with. It can't be until all the secrets are revealed. Will they be brave enough to face the past in order to have a future?? Definitely a book I recommend to everyone.
RachaelBrown More than 1 year ago
Colby and Alec face many struggles, both personal and professional, that have them questioning every decision that they are faced with. Family turmoil, self-blame, and secrets threaten to rip apart their relationship before it really begins. I really enjoyed Colby's and Alec's journey as they fought to leave the past behind and claim the future that they both deserve. I think they are perfect for each other. I look forward to reading the next book in The Cabots series. I voluntarily reviewed a complimentary Advance Reader Copy.
ytcruz More than 1 year ago
Once again, Ms Beck excels in her storytelling talent. This is the first book in her new series The Cabots, which promises to be another winner for the author. The story centers around Colby, a widow who witness the suicide of her bipolar husband . Guilt has lived within her for the past 2 years , and the “what ifs” she keeps on internalizing. Alex, her childhood neighbor and brother’s best friend, also is living with guilt and “what ifs “. His brother, Joe, died due to a dare made by Colby’s husband , a few weeks prior to his suicide. Suffice is to say, it’s a story that is heartbreaking, filled with complex characters, and a very well developed plot . It presents a scenario that could happen to any of us in life. The complexities of families, some dysfunctional and the effects that our childhood has on us as adults is something that many experience at some point in their lives. A reminder that trust, truth and love are important in life. But even as your heart feels like it’s being squeezed, and there are moments you want to cry for the characters, it’s also a story filled with hope and a future filled with possibilities. Thank you , Ms Beck, for a heartfelt story. I was gifted this copy by Netgalley and Montlake Romance. The opinions expressed are solely my own.
BananaTricky More than 1 year ago
The Cabot and the Morgans were friends and neighbours for thirty years until a stupid dare left Joe Morgan dead, shortly afterwards Colby Cabot's husband Mark killed himself over his part in the dare, devastated by his role in the death of his best friend and unable to deal with the guilt. Mark was bi-polar and Colby suffers from the knowledge that she kept his diagnosis from her family, she also worries that his illness may have been a contributing factor to the dare that led to Joe's death. Two years later Colby has given up her job as a lawyer to open a restaurant called ACertainTea, she has visions of it being a centre for families to come to celebrate special events. The money for the restaurant has come from the family business The Cabot Tea Company and her father has insisted that Colby reports to her brother Hunter. Alec Morgan has always stood in the shadow of his younger brother Joe, quieter and more studious by nature he was no match for Joe's athleticism and Joe was always his father's favourite. He has also always harboured a secret crush on Colby. Formerly a successful restaurateur, he has had a massive professional disaster, lost his restaurant and has been asked by his old friend Hunter Cabot to assist Colby in her new start-up. Alec too has a secret, Mark wrote him a letter begging for forgiveness and making wild threats which Alec ignored. So, can two people who have suffered devastating losses which intimately involve their families ever put the past aside? This book, for me, was killed by all the angst. Angst over Joe's death, over Mark's suicide, over Colby's mother, over Colby's father, over Alec's mother, over Alec's father, over Colby's brother, over Colby's step-sister, over Colby's sister-in-law. You get the picture, we were drowning in angst and Colby felt she had to fix everything, which was a joke because her brother and father, even Alec were so damned patronising I wanted to punch them in the gonads. But then Colby was so damn drippy and saintly that I wanted to throat-punch her too! Stepping aside from my own personal feelings about the characters, I also felt that Alec's characterisation didn't really 'work'. He was a former geek, the full "jigsaw puzzle making, then take a photo and hang it on your wall" Monty who grew into a demanding chef who shouted at people. He had loved Colby all his life and talked about doing anything she wanted, just to get her to notice him, but then he refused to change HIS menu for HER restaurant to accommodate her very reasonable request that there be some simple food for the unadventurous eaters. Someone (an author whose book I criticised) once told me that if the characters make you feel something (even incandescent rage) then the author has achieved their goal - well done Jamie Beck, back of the net goal! But seriously, I'm not a fan of all the introspective, navel-gazing, talk about our feelings (but of course don't actually tell people what's wrong) angst. If you like that sort of thing then this is for you. I received a free copy of this book from the publisher in return for an honest review.