She’s waiting to die. . . . Corin Thompson is paralyzed by her obsession with mortality. Having lost both of her parents, she is terrified by the idea that she too will die young, and she loses control at any sign of illness. But when Corin connects with someone who has survived a very real brush with death, she begins to see the world in a whole new way.
He’s learning to live. . . . As Corin struggles under the weight of her neuroses, Beckett Kingsley is attempting to rebuild a life that feels all too temporary. With the ever-present threat of heart failure never far from his mind, he just wants to make the most of whatever time he has left. And that means pursuing the girl he never expected to find.
Together, Corin and Beckett finally learn to let go of their fears and take solace in everyday pleasures. Who knows what the future holds? After all, nothing lasts forever—the only promise they have is right now.
Advance praise for Butterfly Dreams
“All the feels: poignant, funny, sad, beautiful, and inspiring! Your own belly butterflies will take flight.”—New York Times bestselling author Katy Evans
“A. Meredith Walters is the author I turn to when I want to get sucked into a beautiful story that packs an emotional punch.”—New York Times bestselling author Sawyer Bennett
“Butterfly Dreams is one of the sweetest, most beautiful novels I’ve read in a long time. My heart ached and warmed at the perfect story of Corin and Beckett.”—Sarah Robinson, bestselling author of Breaking a Legend
“Butterfly Dreams is one of the most poignant books I’ve read all year. It’s heartbreaking, real, and breathtakingly beautiful. A. Meredith Walters weaves a story that draws you in from the very first page and refuses to let you go even once it’s finished.”—Stacey Lynn, author of the Nordic Lords series
“The ending nearly killed me, but I survived. I read this book in one sitting, and what a roller coaster of a story. The author did an amazing job. . . . I found myself unable to put the book down.”—The Book Hookup
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“This is going to be great! This is going to be just what you need,” I murmured to myself, under my breath.
These pep talks had become as routine as everything else in my life.
I watched as people started going inside the church and continued to stand there with my hands shoved deep into my pockets, talking to myself like a lunatic.
“Smile, Corin.” I grinned at no one in particular, practicing being nonthreatening and likable.
I preferred to wait until everyone else was inside before making my entrance. The first group meeting was always difficult for me. I felt like an intruder. An imposter. Like I shouldn’t be there. I didn’t have a place.
It took me a bit to feel comfortable. Accepted.
But for now I would wait. Until just the right moment.
Eliminating the likelihood for small talk before the group actually started. I could slip in and take a seat without really having to talk to anyone.
“Are you here for the Mended Hearts group?”
I hadn’t heard him approach. I had been too busy talking to myself and doing internal fist bumps.
His voice was deep. Soothing. Like perfectly smooth honey.
I knew that voice.
Of all the gin joints, in all the towns, in all the world . . .
“Uh . . .” my voice trailed off into nothing and I stood there—my hands in my pockets, my wool hat pulled down over my ears, frozen in place.
“Come on, I’ll walk in with you,” he urged, a hand on my arm. Pressure I could feel through layers of clothing. Fire on my skin.
“Are you all right?”
Wet knees, shallow breaths. Sweet, tempered words meant to calm me down.
“No. I need a minute,” I snapped. I sounded rude. Cold.
I couldn’t help it. Because I recognized that lovely, deep voice full of genuine sympathy and concern.
It was a voice I’d never forget.
My face flushed hot in the chilly air. Cheeks red with embarrassment.
He snatched his hand away and took a step back. I chanced a look up, finally. Seeing his face for the first time.
And then promptly wished I hadn’t.
He was cute. Boyish even. With light brown hair on the longish side that looked as though he never bothered to brush it and blue eyes that probably sparkled when he smiled.
He wasn’t smiling now. He was looking . . . perturbed.
“Okay then,” he snipped back and I couldn’t help but smile at his attitude.
He frowned, clearly thinking I had lost my mind. I probably had.
Please don’t recognize me . . .
“Do I know you?” he asked, cocking his head to the side.
My cheeks weren’t just hot now. They had become a class-four forest fire.
My one-time Good Samaritan opened his mouth but I ducked my head, breaking eye contact.
Go away . . .
“Okay, well, I guess I’ll see you in there,” he said after a beat and I sagged in relief. He didn’t remember me.
I didn’t want him to. That day on the sidewalk in the snow had been bad. But unfortunately since then the days had gotten so much worse. The panic attacks. The anxiety.
But he didn’t remember me.
That was good. Anonymity was important for me.
So why did I feel disappointment ring hollow in my gut?
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3.5 Stars - Original review @ 125Pages.com Butterfly Dreams is described as being for fans of The Fault in Our Stars and If I Stay. As I am a fan of both, I jumped at the chance to read it. While I can see elements of each book in Butterfly Dreams, I found Corin to be closer to a mix between Caroline Compson and Margo Spiegelman and Beckett to be a cross between Landon Carter and Charlie. Corin is a hypochondriac who, while outwardly shunning all comfort and attention, craves it deeply. She can be very self centered and is so focused on her own needs that she dismisses everyone else. Now this may make it sound like she is a bad character or that I didn’t click with her, but I actually really liked her. Yes, was she needy and dismissive of those already in her life, but it was in her flawed moments that her character was the strongest. Beckett was a good boy who just wanted to be normal and make others happy. He pushed aside his true emotions and put on a happy face for everyone to see. For Beckett, meeting Corin was his destiny and for Corin meeting Beckett was her salvation. The world building was strong and the pacing good. I found a few of the supporting characters to be flat and one-dimensional but the majority were nicely detailed. The one big detraction for me in this book was the ending. It was too perfect. With all the build up and all of the emotion I had from reading, I wanted messy and, frankly, sad. I know I should not be complaining about a solid ending; it was just not what I thought the story was leading up to. With that all said, the seemingly disparate elements all came together to make a solid read. I received this book for free from Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
I ended up loving this! When I first started it, I was having a problem with how neurotic Corin was, but as the book went on, and more of Corin's story was told, I began to understand her more. Corin is unique, quirky, and she's also dealing with a lot. Corin parents died when she was a teenager; she's 25 now, first her mom, and then shortly after her dad; both from illnesses, and Corin is having a really hard time dealing with the grief. Corin is a hypochondriac, and even though the doctors she goes to keep telling her that she is perfectly healthy, she doesn't believe them, and she won't listen when they tell her she should get some grief counseling; that it's all in her head. Corin has major panic/anxiety attacks because she thinks she is dying, and it's affecting her life. Corin goes to support groups for people who have had near death experiences, and when she goes to a group for heart disease survivors she meets Beckett. Beckett is in his late 20's, and he's just had a heart attack because he has some problems with his heart, so Beckett is dealing with having to limit himself, so his heart doesn't stop working. Beck was really athletic, and he didn't necessarily look beyond the surface of people before he started having problems with his heart, and after his heart attack he begins to see life in a new way. Corin and Beck have an instant connection, but Corin is a bit standoffish at first because she believes she is ill, and also that Beck could possibly die from his heart condition. Beckett helps Corin begin to deal with her grief, and together they begin to grow as individuals. Beck is a sweetheart, and I love the way Beck and Corin connect, and their banter together is fun. This story is truly heartbreaking, but also truly heartfelt; it is very emotional. I do wish the ending had more to it because I wanted to know more. I enjoyed that this book was in dual point of views; it really helps make the story more complete. This book was great, and I will definitely look for more books by A. Meredith Walters!
Loved this unique story that is heartwarming and captivating. Great real life unique characters that you will come to love. With a great message that we all should live by and that is to "Enjoy the right now". This story brought me to tears. Such a beautiful, heartbreaking read. Don't miss it. Get your copy now. Highly recommend. Received a ARC through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
This book was sent to me from Netgalley. Having read some of her other books, I knew that her range could go from light and funny to dark and depressing. This book contains both elements and has an ending that I didn't expect. Corin was somebody that took me awhile to warm up to. A severe hypochondriac, she joins different support groups because she is convinced she is dying from whatever current support group she is attending. After having watch first her mother and then her father die at home of cancer, Corin is afraid to live life because of her experiences with death. Her only friend Adam doesn't really ever talk to her, just lets her be. Her older sister completely ignores her. Because of this, Corin attends different support groups so she won't feel so alone while she is "dying." This is how she meets Beckett. I liked Beckett right Beckett from the start. He had suffered a severe heart attack while out on his morning run at the age of 28. Due to the heart attack, Beckett has to completely change his lifestyle. Even though sad that he had to give up lots of things from his former life, he tries to keep a positive outlook on his new life. After meeting Corin, he realizes he has met someone who can really see and understand him as he is now. Corin makes Beckett realize that his current lifestyle does have more to offer while he makes her realize that it is ok to live. When Corin finally realizes she is truly happy with Beckett, her world is turned upside down. This leads to an ending that didn't go the way I thought but ended up better than I expected.
I received this book for an honest review...This book was marvelously written!! It's based on one person afraid of death and another person trying to live. Corin lives with a fear she is going to have something bad happen to her. When she was a teenager, she lost both her parents. She has lived most of her life in fear still dealing with the consequences of losing her family. Then we have Beckett who has heart disease trying desperately to just live a normal life with a positive attitude. When Corin meets Beckett something changes both of them, they both have to deal with love, loss, death and disease. They have such an incredible bond that they even find it in themselves to joke with each other. I just loved that! They're unsure of their future together or what it holds. They know it will be a comfort if they do it together. This story made me laugh, cry and put a twinkle of hope in my heart. I thought this was such a beautiful written story by A. Meredith Walters, it was realistic and full of love, compassion, and understanding. I will definitely read more books written by her. This book with always hold a special place with me.
I had wanted to read a book by this author for a while and just finally got around to it. Butterfly Dreams is the first book I picked up but I'm not sure it was the best choice for me. In hindsight, I should've realized that some things were going to bother me but I think I overlooked them because I really wanted to give this author a try. Even with that being said, I was actually quite pleased with the story. If it weren't for my "issues" it would've easily been a 5 star read, so don't let this deter you from reading Butterfly Dreams. The reason why I couldn't give it 5 stars was primarily because of Corin. I usually like flawed characters but in her case, her issues weren't quirky and endearing but annoying and irritating. I struggled to like her for the first half of the book. She reminded me of my mother who irks me to no end when she plays martyr and claims she's going to drop dead any minute (her way of getting attention and/or guilt tripping me). I didn't mind Corin being blunt and rude, in fact, I can tolerate a bitchy character but her issues hit close to home for me. Such a shame. Luckily, things got better for me when her attitude began to change. I was grateful for the positive effect that Beck had on her. He was more reasonable and rational, making him a more relatable character in my opinion. After that, I was able to focus on the story instead of focusing on Corin's issues. The second half of the book went much better for me and I really liked it toward the end. *I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review*
Emotional read to say the least!!! I love A. Meredith Walters books because they are always unique. Butterfly Dreams dealt with a subject not often used in a storyline. Death, grief and they havoc they can play on the living. Her characters are rich and addicting...you want more and more of them as you read through their story. This book was full of heart-wrenching, tear flowing moments. It was so worth the read!!! A favorite of 2015 for sure!!!!
review How beautifully heartfelt and wonderful this book was! I'm a huge fan of A. Meredith Walters, so with each new book I read by her, I always start with a slither of doubt. What if this book isn't as amazing as her others? But I needn't have feared, as although 'Butterfly Dreams' was unique and different as they all are, it was as gorgeous as I hoped it would be. Corin was a heroine that I think many people will identify with. She is controlled by fear, like many of us are, but on a level that we may not know exists. Corin is brave in her own way, even in her moments of weakness. She is confronted with the expectation of death everyday, and to have lived her life through such a debilitating mental illness shows just how strong she is to have come so far. The psychological elements of this book were written to perfection. I loved the descriptions of Corin's anxiety being like butterflies, only ones that consume her whole being, rather than those that give a warm feeling. Her thought processes were so intriguing and I really loved getting the nitty gritty of her illness and learning alongside her, what caused it and how she could overcome it. Beckett was the best hero for Corin. His development throughout the novel was one that was intrinsicly linked with Corin's. With every move he made to come to terms with his heart condition, he helped Corin come to terms with her fear of dying, and of living life to the full. It was a heartbreaking, yet warming relationship, that bought tears to my eyes on more than one occasion. This is a beautiful work of art, written in a style that is both contemporary and hypnotic. I finished 'Butterfly Dreams' in one sitting, because it didn't even occur to me to put it down. I was engrossed and I had the journey of a lifetime. 5 Stars!
4.5 stars Butterfly Dreams was such an emotional and heartfelt read, I couldn't put it down. I was touched with Corin's daily struggles, my heart went out to her. Loved the relationship between Corin and Beckett, they made me laugh, swoon and cry, they both made this book such a good and memorable read. This was a very well written book that brings out all the feels, I was truly touched with Butterfly Dreams.
Book Review: BUTTERFLY DREAMS -- by A. Meredith Walters – Random House Publishing Group, Loveswept new adult romance, Published November 24, 2015. Pages 240. I received a copy to read through the Netgalley program in exchange for an honest and unbiased review which I am happy to share now. This Book Review is posted by Anna Patterson. Writer, Journalist, Book Reviewer, November 24, 2015 In this book, Corin is described as: “She’s waiting to die.” Beckett is described as: “He’s learning to live”. In the book’s description it tells, “Together Corin and Beckett finally learn to let go of their fears and take solace in everyday pleasures.” I believe the title of this book, “Butterfly Dreams” is perfect in many ways. The book tells so vividly, indeed shares Corin’s delicate hold on life, and how it evolves and reflects the thin layers of the wings of her soul. For Beckett, caught in a dilemma as tough as that which grips and challenges her jest for living, she has found someone as complicated and delightful as she is. The story of the artist, Corin Thompson, part-owner in a pottery shop, and Beckett, only slightly older than she and facing a set back heart attack. Their own struggle and triumph is shared with the reader as is their emotional strength shared with acquaintances of the Mended Heart Group, as well as the people who flit so seriously through their exploration of life on the delicate edge. I would give this book Five Stars for being a captivating read of resilience and love. The author is a New York Times Bestselling author and has written new adult and contemporary novels including Bad Rep, Reclaiming the Sand, the Twisted Love Series, and Find you in the Dark series.
She knows she’s sick, she just hasn’t found the right diagnosis yet for all the symptoms she seems to be experiencing. Its’ all these illnesses, there are so many and just reading about them, Corin seems to be suffering from them all and no one can explain why. Beckett’s life was turned around in his mid twenties when he experienced a heart attack. He was a perfectly healthy man, stricken by something festering inside him; it was just waiting for the perfect conditions to make itself know. Beckett’s life will never be the same, he can no longer live his life on the edge, his relationships have changed and so has his outlook on life. It takes time but Beckett finally grabs life and realizes what he still has to offer. It’s his enthusiasm for life that makes his character enjoyable. His new outlook on life, this positive energy and spice for life might be just what he needs to make the most of his life. As Beckett and Corin stumble upon each other, I start to realize what an unlikely pair they make. I praised Beckett for taking the high road and trying to maintain a positive attitude for his health issues. Corin, the more I read about her and her history, the more I wondered how Beckett would handle the truth about her. Would it anger him that she played this card or would he see that it is also a health issue and have patience with her? The novel had a few interesting moments that I did not see coming as I read. I really enjoyed the novel and the only issue I had was with the butterflies. I didn’t feel that adding this feature to the novel added anything to it. The story was excellent without them. Thank you Random House Publishing and NetGalley for providing me a copy of this novel in exchange for an honest review.
★★★★★ I was instantly intrigued by the synopsis, a girl who's paralysed by her fear of death and a guy who's struggling to live after a brush with death seems like a recipe for disaster right? But OMG it's just so utterly perfect!!!! I was drawn into Corin and Beckett's world so effortlessly it really is incredible, every chapter had me just a little bit more obsessed than the last until I was so hooked I couldn't think of anything other than what happens next. Butterfly Dreams is told from both Beckett and Corin's POVs so you get both sides of the story, his and hers. The secondary characters are great, I loved seeing Beckett interact with his friends it not only gives you an insight into who Beckett was a few months before but it also shows how vastly different he is with Corin, and the same goes for Corin, she acts so differently around him it's almost like finding him is helping her dig deep and find the real her again :) I really did adore seeing how they both grow as the story unfolds. This is a highly emotional read, for me it was a spinning tea cup of feels... Spinning around and around at dizzying speeds until you don't know which way is up and all you want to do is either curl up in a ball and hide from it all or get back on to feel that soaring, invincible feeling again. I'm pretty sure that my family think I'm certifiable after reading Butterfly Dreams because of all of my highly emotional outbursts that ranged from a simple 'NOOOOOOO' to a much more elaborate ranting session and I am NOT sorry for a single one! :D Butterfly Dreams has everything I need to give a book 5* and so much more, great characters, an EPIC storyline, causes emotional outbursts and most importantly captures me for days, weeks, months, years who knows how long? But what I do know for certain is that Butterfly Dreams has easily made my list for Top Reads of 2015! Thank you A. Meredith Walters for a gripping and phenomenal read!
I received a ARC from the publisher for a honest review. This book was filled with so much heartache but was beautiful all at the same time.... How do you find comfort in someone when one is always thinking she dying and he is fighting to stay alive? I loved the storyline and characters that Meredith created. At times I wanted to reach through my reader and shake Corin and then hug her at the same time. I really enjoyed the corkiness and banter between Corin and Beckett. This book was such a emotional rollercoaster but was beautifully written. At times I felt it was a little drawn out but other then that I loved this book.
“Words were useless things. They never expressed exactly what needed saying.” Butterfly Dreams follows the story of Corin and Beckett and is told from dual points of view. Corin has been obsessed with her own mortality following the death of her parents. So many times, Corin reminded me of the little girl from the movie My Girl. Her life was surrounded by so much death that she was afraid to take chances. She was so afraid of dying that she worried over every little ache and pain that she had; convinced that it must be something totally deadly. However, when she meets Beckett, he suddenly puts things into a new perspective for her. See Beckett has had his own brush with death. He’s just trying to deal with it the best way that he can; his emotions ranging anywhere from upset that he can’t return to his previous life and activities, to just being happy to be alive. He wants to make the best of the time that he has left. He may not have been looking for Corin, but she couldn’t have entered his life at a better time. Together, the two of them will challenge one another and learn to let go of their fears…. Butterfly Dreams was well-written and captivating. I fell in love with Corin and Beckett almost instantly. I loved their humor and their wit. I loved how they just got each other. Their love story was fun and unique; definitely one worth checking out. If I could take away anything from this story, it would be: live each day to the fullest, don’t change who you are for anything, love with everything you have and just take one day at a time. Butterfly Dreams is another amazing read from A. Meredith Walters.
I am feeling so much love through my tears. Butterfly Dreams has warmed my soul in a way I honestly haven't felt in a very long time. This absolutely stunning book has left me completely overjoyed. It is a story that gripped me from the start, had me going through a myriad of emotions throughout, and promptly filled my heart with absolute peace once those last words were read. I cannot even fully express how happy I am right now. This love story between Corin and Beckett surprised me as much as it did them. Two lost souls, both fighting with the universe to feel whole again, trying to find the way to make their lives seem worth living. The author wrote this beautiful journey where I not only felt great empathy for our couple, but found myself laughing out loud and often at the wonderfully thoughtful yet snarky banter between these two. Not to mention the somewhat nutty customers and co-workers at Corin's place of business and a cat turned voyeur that kept Beckett on his toes, this book was simply wonderful. The story is told in alternating POV's so we get both sides to this quirky romance. Getting each of their struggles and even experiencing the pain Beckett still feels after his life-altering heart surgery only months before. The author is meticulous in her storytelling, giving us just enough without ever overdoing it with details that aren't important. Beckett and Corin have big hearts and I adored watching them find love with each other. They simply got each other like no one before. The little touches, showing faith in each of their decisions and the way each would ask the right questions without judgement, oh yeah they were truly meant for each other. I am overwhelmed with complete and utter bliss over this book and cannot recommend it highly enough. THIS will be one of my top reads of the year, no question about it. I am a huge fan of this author's work and I am continually impressed at her gift of taking difficult subjects and giving them not only a voice but the wings to fly into my soul. Grab some tissues and enjoy a journey you won't soon forget. A huge 5+++++++ stars!!
This author certainly knows how to write a powerful emotionally-charged book that had me blubbing like a baby. I was captured from the very first word right until the last page. Corin hasn't effectively dealt with the deaths of both of her parents and she's suffering from anxiety, depression, and a morbid fear of her own impending death. She basically camps out at her doctors and every day she has a new health worry or concern. At the time we meet her, she is convinced she has a heart condition, so she joins a support group and there she meets Beckett. They share some history - he was the kind stranger who helped her overcome her anxiety attack on the sidewalk - but Corin is really embarrassed over the whole incident and tries to push him away. Beckett has undergone a massive life transformation after a recent heart attack. Having struggled to adjust to his new reality, he is trying to make the best of it, even though he can no longer do all the things he used to love doing. They meet at an important crossroads in their lives and see something in the other which draws them closer. This is a heartwarming, beautiful love story and I loved every moment of it. I felt that the author handled the anxiety and depression very realistically and the opening scenes were so emotive that I almost felt like I was the one suffering from the panic attack, not Corin. At times, it's painful to be around Corin and there were plenty of moments where I cringed at her awkwardness and social ineptitude. The twist toward the end, though not completely unexpected, left me in tears. I could hardly see the words through my blurry vision. Gosh, I love when an author literally reduces me to a sobbing mess and my heart physically ached for our couple. This is my second A. Meredith Walters book and it's clear that she is a very accomplished, talented writer. Character development was superb and the writing flowed smoothly. I could scarcely put this book down and I read it in two sittings. If you enjoy well-written romances that pack a powerful emotional punch then Butterfly Dreams is a must read. Thanks to the publisher and Netgalley for providing an ARC of this book in exchange for my honest review.