Raised in the closed cult of Mana's Hearth and denied access to modern technology, conjoined sisters Taema and Tila dream of a life beyond the walls of the compound. When the heart they share begins to fail, the twins escape to San Francisco, where they are surgically separated and given new artificial hearts. From then on they pursue lives beyond anything they could have previously imagined.
Ten years later, Tila returns one night to the twins' home in the city, terrified and covered in blood, just before the police arrive and arrest her for murderthe first homicide by a civilian in decades. Tila is suspected of involvement with the Ratel, a powerful crime syndicate that deals in the flow of Zeal, a drug that allows violent minds to enact their darkest desires in a terrifying dreamscape. Taema is given a proposition: go undercover as her sister and perhaps save her twin's life. But during her investigation Taema discovers disturbing links between the twins' past and their present. Once unable to keep anything from each other, the sisters now discover the true cost of secrets.
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Ten years later
I'm starting where it all falls apart.
Tila is late for dinner.
We meet twice a week, once at her place and once at mine, though lately it's always been at my apartment in Inner Sunset. She says she's staying late at work, but I never know if that's true. I hate it when she keeps secrets. It used to be that we couldn't.
Outside, fat drops of rain drum against the glass window. The sunset has faded to darkness, a few stars just bright enough to shine through the San Francisco fog. I pace across the living room, peering at the blurred view of the city skyline, the green shimmer of the algae farms in the bay, the lights of the hovercars flying past. I paid a lot extra to have the penthouse for this view, but at the moment it does nothing for me. All I can do is be irritated at my sister.
Back in the kitchen, I push the curls from my face. I use my auditory implants to ping Tila, but there's no response. I turn on the wallscreen, but the moving images and sounds irritate me, and I shut them off. The scar on my chest twinges. It's psychosomatic. There's no way it could actually hurt, not after so many years. I rest my fingertip on the top of the rough line of healed skin. It's been almost a decade to the day since the surgery.
I sigh and set out the food, the time flashing in the corner of my ocular implants until I send it away. Her shift at Zenith supposedly ended over an hour ago. She works at the hostess club at the top of the TransAm Pyramid. Not a bad gig, but not for me. I don't think I'd be as good at pretending.
I've made Tila her favorite curry, adapted from a recipe from the Hearth. I could have ordered it from the replicator in the corner of the kitchen, but I needed the distraction of doing something with my hands. It's time to tell her I quit my job this afternoon, and I accepted a new job offer I couldn't refuse — in China. I don't know if Tila will want to come with me.
Or if she should.
The doorknob turns. I stand and rub my palms along my skirt. Tila flies in, disheveled and wild-eyed. Her short, teal hair is wet and plastered to her skull, contrasting with my brown curls. Her clothes are flashy where mine are plain. Her face is different than mine now too, from trips to the flesh parlors. They're not drastic changes, but we no longer look identical.
It isn't until she rushes to me and clutches the front of my shirt, on either side of my scar, that I realize she's covered in blood. She's wearing a man's coat I don't recognize, and it gapes open, dripping onto the floor. Her light blue dress is splattered red, the rain smearing it into a garish watercolor.
My mind takes a beat to process it. "Are — are you hurt?" I ask, trying to pull back to go for the first aid kit. But if it's that much blood, she might need more than bandages. Fear rushes through me, and I can't seem to catch my breath.
She doesn't answer right away. Her mouth flaps open, and then shuts. She lets go of me, backing away from the door. "Not my blood. You have to help me, T. Oh God, you have to help me."
I tense. Not my blood. "If it's not your blood, whose is it?" My breath comes faster, hitching on the inhale. My sister feeds off my fear, grabbing my shirt so hard the fabric rips. "What the hell is going on, Tila?" I ask.
Expressions of fear and guilt flit across her face like shadows. "Please, Taema. Please. I have to get out of the city right now. Both of us do. Hide out somewhere. The Sierras? If only Mana's Hearth would let us claim sanctuary."
Mana's Hearth is exempt from Pacifica jurisdiction. That she would mention going back, despite everything that happened ten years ago, and that she wants to bring me too, is what tells me just how serious this is. "Tila, slow down. What have you done?"
"I haven't done anything, Taema. It didn't happen the way they'll say." I can see the whites of her eyes, the tension lines around her mouth. Despite her surgery, her face reminds me too much of that last day in Mana's Hearth when we thought we would die in that redwood forest.
The tips of my hands tingle and my vision swims. "OK. OK." I force myself to try and calm down. "What haven't you done?"
Sirens sound outside the high-rise apartment. I startle — you hardly ever hear them in San Francisco anymore. They're growing louder.
Tila presses against me. "Oh God, they've found me. Must have tracked my VeriChip. I knew I should have torn it out. Can I hide? There must be somewhere I can hide!"
Her panic is infectious, but I have to be the pragmatic twin she expects. The twin she needs. "No point. All the police will have infrared sensors. If you didn't do this, then it'll be fine, right? They'll take you in for questioning and then let you go." I don't want to be the calm twin. I want to grab her, shake her, demand she tell me what has happened and whose blood she's wearing.
Tila only sobs, resting her hand just below my collarbone, right on my scar. I rest my hand on hers. I can feel the mechanical beating of her heart. Despite our obvious terror, our hearts beat at their same, steady pace.
"It'll be all right, T," I say. "I promise."
She looks at me, dangerous and untamed. I barely recognize her. "You can't promise that, T. You can't promise that at all."
Red and blue lights flash outside the window. A police hovercar floats outside the balcony, rain falling off its sides. The searchlight illuminates the room, paralyzing us in the bright beams. Three police jump down onto the tiny balcony, their boots splashing in the puddles on the concrete. Tila's shaking, burrowing close to my side. I wrap my arm around her, but I'm shivering just as badly.
They open the sliding glass door, but too hard. The glass shatters. Fragments spill into my living room, as if the rain outside has crystallized.
"Really, now," I say, looking at the glass and rain scattered across the living room. Fear shifts to anger. "Was that necessary?"
The police look between us. They are all wearing bulletproof Kalar vests over their sleek, dark blue uniforms. Cops almost never wear Kalars, not in this city that prides itself on its lack of crime. The whites of their eyes shimmer in the light with their extra implants.
An Indian-American woman with curly hair tamed in a knot at the nape of her neck clutches her gun, shifting her stance. The other man, white and brown-haired with a face so generically good-looking I'll forget what he looks like as soon as he leaves the room, begins to make a perimeter of my apartment. Perhaps he thinks extra backup is hiding behind the couch. The last man, their leader, is black with a gold tattoo I can't make out peeking over the collar of his uniform. He narrows his eyes at us, focusing on Tila and her teal hair: "Tila Collins?"
She doesn't answer, keeping her head bowed.
He steps forward and grabs her upper arms. For a second, I fear she's going to resist and try to run for it, but then she goes limp.
"What's going on here?" I ask. "She says she hasn't done it, whatever you're after her for."
They ignore me. Gold Tattoo says, "Tila Collins, you are under arrest for murder in the first degree. You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you."
When was the last time he had to read anyone their Miranda rights?
Gold Tattoo pulls Tila from my grasp. My hands fall useless at my sides. Tila tilts her head up at him and spits in his face.
Gold Tattoo wipes the spittle away, expressionless.
The wind leaves my lungs as the full implications sink in. Murder. There hasn't been a murder by a civilian in San Francisco in years. Not since Pacifica was formed after the United States fractured forty years ago. Not since VeriChips and implants and cameras on every corner.
"Tila?" I ask as Gold Tattoo marches her back to the hovercar, handing her over to Curly Hair. I sound forlorn, lost.
She throws a pleading glance over her shoulder as they push her inside. "Taema!"
Within moments, they are all gone save Gold Tattoo. He towers over me, but he looks so young. He might not be, with flesh parlors everywhere, but it's hard to find him terrifying when it looks like he only learned how to shave yesterday.
A sob lodges in my throat. It's all I can do not to break into pieces in front of this man. One moment, I was annoyed that dinner was growing cold, and now my apartment is a mess and my sister is accused of murder. I can't wrap my head around the word. Murder. It's Tila. My sister. I know her better than I know myself.
"Miss Collins?" There might be a hint of concern behind the brusque tone. He's close enough that I can make out his tattoo: a California grizzly bear.
I find my voice. "My sister's just been taken for murder. How do you think I feel?"
He has no answer to that. Within moments, the sirens blare again as they take my sister away from me.
"Who's she meant to have murdered?" I ask, my voice tight. That word again. It's ugly.
"A body of a man was found at Zenith under suspicious circumstances. I can't say anything more."
My hands ball into fists. Gold Tattoo notices the movement, his hand resting on his gun. My lungs burn from holding in the sobs.
He pauses. I realize why he's stayed behind.
"I'm to go in for questioning too? Why didn't you take me with Tila?"
He shifts slightly. "Yes, Miss Collins. We're to take you in as a precaution. You'll be going to the station. Your sister is being taken elsewhere."
"I'm not at liberty to say."
I fold over, trying to take in deep breaths but still hyperventilating.
I hold up a hand. I think of the Hearth, how Mana-ma taught us to control our emotions. Let the darkness float away. Let in only the light. I imagine the chapel on the hill at the center of the town, the five-pointed symbol carved on its side, the bird-calls that floated through the open windows on a spring day. Despite my hatred of her, her techniques work.
I stand up, smoothing my features, shaking my head a little from side to side. "Yes. We have the same DNA. You'll want to make sure I didn't do it."
He says nothing.
"Am I under arrest?"
"No. You're being detained for questioning. Please grab your things, Miss Collins."
I look around at my apartment. The wet footprints all over the carpet. The shining bits of glass. The food cold on the table, the plates laid out for a meal we will never eat.
I grab my coat and purse.
As he leads me down the stairs, curiosity seems to get the better of him. "I shouldn't ask, but do you really think she didn't do it?"
I pause. I still think he's been waxworked — he's too highly ranked to be any younger than late thirties — but his eyes aren't quite as jaded as a lot of older people masquerading in younger bodies.
My hand snakes toward my sternum again, pressing against the faint seam where they unzipped me and Tila and took us apart a decade ago. Underneath, my mechanical heart beats, beats, beats.
"I know my twin better than anyone else. If she says she didn't do it, then she didn't."
I'm sure I believe it.
Ninety-nine percent sure.CHAPTER 2
Officer Oloyu, or Gold Tattoo, is all business when we reach the San Francisco Police Headquarters. He has become hard — perhaps on the silent hovercar trip he's changed his mind and decided I must be as guilty as my sister. Or the question in the hallway was an act, and he decided he wouldn't catch the fly with honey. He gazes down at the blank tablet, little more than a white piece of plastic to focus the eyes as he accesses his ocular implant for my file.
He hovers close, almost touching, knowing that it will make me defensive and on edge. Then he strolls to his side of the table, perching on the chair, legs spread wide.
He's offered me a coffee, but it sits in front of me, an oily sheen on top from the artificial creamer, untouched and growing cold. My mouth is dry. All I can think of is Tila. Where have they taken her? What's going through her mind?
Oloyu is the only one in the room. Aren't there usually two, a good cop and a bad one? Granted, all I have to go on is old cop shows they play late at night on the wallscreen.
Oloyu stares at me, unblinking. I can't decide whether or not to be intimidated by him. His splayed body language is aggressive, and it's working — I feel like prey being stalked. Yet his features are still so young, honest and symmetrical. If he really wants to be more frightening in situations like these, perhaps he should make another visit to the flesh parlor.
"When's the last time you saw your sister?" Oloyu asks.
"Almost a week ago," I answer, keeping my voice flat to stop it quavering. I'm also embarrassed to realize it's been that long. I'd invited her over for dinner twice, but she'd claimed she was working both times. I don't have anything to hide, yet I still feel like this is a test I could pass or fail, depending on my answers. Or that I could accidentally incriminate my sister.
How could you incriminate her? I ask myself. She couldn't have done anything. Right?
"And where do you work?"
I swallow. This is all in my file from when he scanned the VeriChip in my wrist. "Silvercloud Solutions."
Officer Oloyu makes a show of perusing my file on his blank, white tablet. "That's a subset of Sudice, right?"
"Yes." I don't know why he's pretending he doesn't know. Sudice is the biggest company in Pacifica, with offices in San Francisco, Los Angeles, Portland and Honolulu. They supply the drug Zeal to all Pacifica states, and have most tech in the city patented.
"It says here you helped design the VivaFog." Those machines have been my life's work for the past five years: the machines that take energy from the ever-present fog around the bay and relay it to the coastal apartments. We're going to try and expand to the maritime district this year.
"I was one of the team that did, yes," I respond. Why isn't he asking the questions he really wants the answer to? Beneath the table, I press my knees hard to stop them knocking together.
Officer Oloyu isn't saying anything out of order, but everything in his body language screams: I suspect you, either of murder or accessory to it. I wish I still had that microexpression overlay downloaded to my ocular implants, but I deleted it months ago. I didn't like what it told me about people.
"That's impressive," Officer Oloyu says. I'm not sure whether or not I sense the underlying subtext I often do from people who know my past: for someone who grew up in the cult of Mana's Hearth.
"Thank you," I tell him, meeting his eyes.
"We contacted your employer, but it seems you quit your job today and have plans to leave the country."
"Yes, that's correct. That's been in the works for months. It's not a sudden decision." I feel a flutter of nerves, deep in my stomach. It's a coincidence, but it doesn't look good.
"We're unclear if this is premeditated or a crime of passion."
"I had nothing to do with this. Whatever this is. And I'm sure my sister didn't, either."
He pauses, considering me. The overhead lighting leaves half his face in shadow. I look down at my stone-cold coffee. I want water, but I don't ask him for it.
"Did your sister seem different at all, the last time you saw her? Distressed in any way?"
"No. She seemed the same as usual. Laughing, joking. We went to an Ethiopian restaurant in the Mission."
His gaze goes distant as he makes a mental note with his implants.
This is my first lie to the police. She seemed thinner, she didn't laugh. She picked at her food, when usually Tila has a voracious appetite. I kept asking her what was wrong, but she said she'd just been working too many late nights at the club. The lie fell from my mouth before I thought about it, and I can't take it back.
They've mapped my brain to see if I'm lying. A model floats above our heads, delicate and transparent, dotted with neuron clusters like stars. Oloyu glances up to check. Between my mechanical heart not growing as excited as a flesh one and my Hearth training, nothing happens. I could lie with impunity. If they map Tila, she can too.
"So nothing unusual over the last few weeks? No signs she was keeping anything from you? You two must be close." Again, I can hear from his tone what he really means: close enough that if one of you did it, the other would know about it.
"Closer than you can ever imagine," I say, my voice sharpening with fear. I don't want him to see he's struck a nerve, but by the flint of his eyes, he knows he has. I decide I'm not going to let him scare me, even if terror still rolls in my stomach. Even though I hate the Hearth and all it stands for, another one of Mana-ma's sayings comes to me: They only have power over you if you let them.
"Does your sister have any enemies?" Oloyu leans forward. I can't stand anyone that close to me unless it's Tila or someone I know extremely well. But I lean forward on my elbows, right in his face, ignoring the mirrored window behind him and whoever watches me through it. I'm still scared, but I haven't let it paralyze me.
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